My first experiences regarding astral travel were some sleep paralysis episodes when I was younger. I distinctly remember waking up one time and beeing unable to move allthough beeing aware of my surroundings,my mother beeing in the room trying to talk to me but me beeing unable to react in any way. In all those cases though I never had the kind of nightmarish experience I later often read about. Relaxing and going back to sleep lead to waking up completely.
At this time I didnt know anything about the astral,sleep paralysis and the like and the internet not beeing what it is today there was not much usefull information to find.
I remember having some kind of lucid dreams or obe while still younger. In my mind I still have a very clear picture of my parents house the scenery in this experience was absolutely real and repeatedly I was jumping down the stairs and gliding down to the other end.
While growing up I always had the feeling that something is missing from our lives that there is more to what we perceive as everyday reality. As a consequence I started beeing interested in buddhism and meditation allthough at this time I practiced something more like daydreaming then meditation.
I never really felt like getting anywhere with this practice and eventually stopped.
Some years later while sitting in school I had an experience that in retrospect I think was the beginning of an involuntary consciousness obe(I only concluded that after starting meditation again a few years later). Suddenly my heart felt like it was racing and my whole body started to vibrate violently and I lost the feeling of my hands and legs. I had no idea what was going on and kind of paniced which seemed to intensify the situation - I guess I was afraid of having a heart attack at least at that time thats what I concluded it was. I communicated to my teacher I wasnt feeling well and ended up in the hospital for one night. There was no diagnosis other then me beeing healthy and later heart tests revealed nothing wrong either.
When I started meditating again some 3-4 years ago after some weeks I started to get somewhere. I was practicing a seated meditation in a lotus/lotus-like position concentrating on my breathing.
At some point into the meditation when my mind calmed down and sensory input was at a minimum I started feeling vibrations inside my head probably the third eye/pineal gland area. Continued focus on my breath lead the vibrations to spread through my whole body and intensify. This was a marvelous,amazing feeling filling me whith joy and peace.
At that time I was aware of astral travel but had no clue the vibrations could be related to it or even that it would be possible for me to even attain such goals that seemed to be reserved for sages living in deep seclusion.
(As a side note this was also the time I became a vegan)
I continued practicing my meditation and soon became proficient in reaching this vibratory state. Though even after that I had problems getting the vibrations back because I was to focused on attaining them. I realised that just focusing on my breath,beeing completely still in my mind and not expecting or wanting anything was the key.
Of course I tried researching my experience but did not find much online but a few people having these sensations while meditating and no information at all what it means or where to go from there - at this time unfortunately I was still unable to connect my experience to an obe or the like.
A year later or so I bought an EEG and when I received it put it on right away to measure my brainwaves in this vibratory state. I reached the state quicly in this meditation and soon thought I would have enough data for a first evaluation so I opened my eyes and got up. In doing so I realised I was unable to release my hands from their meditation position,standing up and walking felt like my legs where stuck further up in my pants. I tried talking and to my astonishment my voice did not sound like usually but further away like it was moved back to the end of my head.
Needless to say I wasnt feeling to good about this thinking something like great you meditated yourself into a stroke
I managed to call a friend on the computer and after a while of talking to him about the experience the symptoms wayned I was able to move my hands and legs normally again and my voice sounded just as it does everyday.
I was baffled but still unable to realise what was happening to me.
This was the first time the vibratins coincided with some kind of paralysis maybe related to sleep paralysis.
My meditation practice went on and I kept experiencing the vibrations allthough since then no paralysis in this state had occured.
After reading about the 3D blackness F21 on astralpulse I realised that I am also experiencing this. At some point during the vibrations it feels like you are opening your eyelids under your physical eyelids not seeing the back of them anymore but still blackness.
Also 1-2 years now a lot of nights sometimes even during the day when I lay down in silence I hear a high pitched sound in my left ear (from my point of view) allthough I never have concentrated on this sound in order to evoke an obe or the like.
A few weeks ago I came across some interesting material on astral projection and from that point on started to read a lot of articles,posts and books regarding the matter and to my surprise discovered a lot of my experiences in this material.
It seems to me now that these sensations are related to what I came to know as the focus states between F10-F21 but have not yet tried any separation techniques in these condition.
I am writing all this because as I read through astralpulse I got the feeling that there are a lot of people experienced in this kind of sensations around here and became very interested in getting your feedback on my story.
What is your take on this and where would you go from here?