Tell me your thoughts on this.... (if you have the time to read it). I'm a very complicated person, trying to figure things out with me aren't usually easy. lol.
So, I'm just gonna warn you before you read this that I'm kind of just going to pour issues out during this to explain some things that I feel are key to my questions and what got me started with astral in the first place.
I'm sorry this is so long, I really just want some sort of opinion or thoughts about it from someone who knows what they're talking about ☺ I don't have anyone in my family or current friend circle whom I can talk to about this.
I learned what astral projection was after my husband died and I was learning about communicating with him. We always had this crazy connection since day one, when we met, where we could pretty much read each other's minds. We would talk all the time without speaking and after he passed I realized I could still talk to him through that, and I had also seen him a few times within the first few months after his passing. Once I just caught a glimpse of him and felt his hand on me, another time I saw him in the mirror, once I heard him singing clear as day, and my sister actually saw and spoke to a guy right after he passed who looked identical, had the same name, and was wearing this yellow bracelet he always wore. She even got a picture of him as he walked away. Our entire family swears it was somehow him. After realizing how accessible he still was I wanted to find ways to spend time with him and started looking into it.
I also learned about astral projection because I have some weird sleep disorders and I thought I was having night terrors some nights until it bothered me how real it all seemed so, I looked it up and realized I was actually astral and seeing things in different dimensions. I was born with idiopathic insomnia so I barely need any sleep and there's no rhyme, reason, or cure. When I do sleep, it's extremely light sleep and I've been a very very lucid dreamer for as long as I can remember, like as in preschool or before.
So, with my sleeping disorder I've realized that I've gone astral plenty of times in my sleep, but always passed it off as a dream. I have a lot of extreme dejavu to the point of narrating an entire day minutes before each thing occurs throughout the day. Last November about a year after my husband died I went astral and got to see him. I realized I have some actual friends in the astral world (that they weren't just a dream all these years), and I've more recently walked through a few dreams of people I know. Not exactly on purpose I think I was just wandering and wound up there (I tend to go in and out of consciousness, it's hard to explain). And, again not to pour things out on anyone, I'm not looking for pity, but I grew up in an abusive household and have been through hell so many times. I have a stress disorder and with it I have a problem with full relaxation where when I consciously relax fully I can't breathe because I'm just not used to it. So, when I try to meditate to consciously go astral I always get so close, but never get there because then I can't breath, but then today something pretty awesome happened.
I work 45+ hours a week, and go to college full time. My mom owns a restaurant and I run it. So, last night I was in school all day, and then didn't fall asleep until maybe 2 or 3 am, but some people were coming to close our pool so I had to get up at 6:30 to let them in. I was completely exhausted for once and fell back to sleep around 7:30, but I had to be up for work by 9 and I was trying to also stay awake to hear what was going on with the people closing my pool. But, I fell asleep and I was thinking about everything as I did, and people were talking outside, and I was thinking about work, so my body fell asleep and my mind did not! I'm laying there in bed somewhat conscious of what's going on and I feel kind of fuzzy, and I hear static, and almost feel like I'm floating and then I hear women's voices. I hear a conversation near by which is when my mind completely wakes up and I realize what's going on. I think to myself "Oh my gosh, I'm on the verge of astral projecting. I can actually do it right now!" So, I tried... I tried opening my astral eyes without opening my physical eyes and I felt these crazy vibrations and heard this awesome sound from the vibrations and I opened my eyes without opening my actual eyes and it was amazing, even though I was just looking at my room. I felt this overwhelming sense of joy and excitement. I still felt heavy and attached to my body, but I started trying to move while looking at the blanket in front of my face. I wiggled for just a few seconds before I had view of my open bedroom door and I saw someone with her back turned to me leaning on the doorframe talking. It looked like she was talking to someone else who noticed me and glanced over. This caused the woman leaning on the door to notice me. She turned, saw me, gasped, and started to run toward me, then disappeared and was all of a sudden lying between the wall and me. She looked angry, she was very pretty, looked like she was 24, and she was also blonde. I told her to get away, to leave me alone, I asked who she was... she didn't answer, but she put her one hand on my collarbone and was just pressing on it while looking very serious, like she was on a mission. I was freaked out. I tried moving, but barely could, but I put my hand on her hand trying to get her to let go and leave me alone and I felt her fingers as I tried to pry them off of me. Then I looked up and was trying to think of my husband hoping that maybe he'd come or I'd instantly go to him, but nothing happened. So, then I started calling for God, I didn't know what else to do other than pray and ask him to help me out. (I'm Catholic). Next thing I knew I was fading out and then I was in a dream instead.
Then in the weird "dream world," I was having a nightmare, I guess because I was freaked out, but I was still lucid. I felt her presence, I saw her a few times through out the dreams and the entire time I was trying to get away from her and all these horrible scary things happened and I thought she was trying to scare me, or something. At least once during it I went out of the dream and was back in my room and saw her still there and felt her pressing on my neck again.
An alarm went off and I woke up completely freaked out with clear memory of the entire thing as if I just walked out of it. Thinking about it afterward and being a little more rational I think the dream being a nightmare was just me being freaked out, and I think she did not want me to be in the astral plane for some reason, but I have no idea who she is and I'm just trying to figure out what happened.
Every so often around 8-10 am I will hear a woman calling my name. I have actually woken up from it before thinking my mom or sister or someone was calling me. And there would be no one there. I have actually answered before honestly thinking someone was there, but whoever it is only says my name and says "Wake up." It would always come from outside my bedroom door and sometimes it would be right next to me as long as I was upstairs and not in my room. I will hear it awake or asleep as if there's someone physically there. Then when astral she was standing outside my door, but my door was open which it usually isn't when I'm sleeping and when she saw me she ran in. I think she might be the one who's been calling me, but I just don't have any idea who she is, whose side she's on, what she was doing, etc. I just don't know how to react. I'm so happy because this morning was my first intentional and fully conscious astral projection, but I'm so confused and very freaked out. She's probably still when I'm not astral and I still don't know who she is. I want to astral again at some point, I just don't know what to do.
Is there any way to figure out who she is, what she wants, and why she did that, or what she was even doing? It is possible that she was trying to hit a pressure point to put my mind asleep and knock me out of the astral plane? Does that make sense in the astral world? I realize that I could have gotten away from her, I could have protected myself better, maybe my vibration levels weren't good, but I'm not experienced in completely conscious astral projection and it could take me a while to learn. Normally when I'm astral I feel as though I'm connected to my higher self or something and my soul guides me not my brain. Lol. If that made sense, but I also don't remember it as well when that happens and I'm almost on a ride rather than making decisions. But now, I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry this was so long. I just need some advice, or at least for someone to hear my story. Thank you ☺ I hope I don't sound nuts. Lol. Feel free to be honest, but please be nice about it. lol. Thanks
-Serena
So, I'm just gonna warn you before you read this that I'm kind of just going to pour issues out during this to explain some things that I feel are key to my questions and what got me started with astral in the first place.
I'm sorry this is so long, I really just want some sort of opinion or thoughts about it from someone who knows what they're talking about ☺ I don't have anyone in my family or current friend circle whom I can talk to about this.I learned what astral projection was after my husband died and I was learning about communicating with him. We always had this crazy connection since day one, when we met, where we could pretty much read each other's minds. We would talk all the time without speaking and after he passed I realized I could still talk to him through that, and I had also seen him a few times within the first few months after his passing. Once I just caught a glimpse of him and felt his hand on me, another time I saw him in the mirror, once I heard him singing clear as day, and my sister actually saw and spoke to a guy right after he passed who looked identical, had the same name, and was wearing this yellow bracelet he always wore. She even got a picture of him as he walked away. Our entire family swears it was somehow him. After realizing how accessible he still was I wanted to find ways to spend time with him and started looking into it.
I also learned about astral projection because I have some weird sleep disorders and I thought I was having night terrors some nights until it bothered me how real it all seemed so, I looked it up and realized I was actually astral and seeing things in different dimensions. I was born with idiopathic insomnia so I barely need any sleep and there's no rhyme, reason, or cure. When I do sleep, it's extremely light sleep and I've been a very very lucid dreamer for as long as I can remember, like as in preschool or before.
So, with my sleeping disorder I've realized that I've gone astral plenty of times in my sleep, but always passed it off as a dream. I have a lot of extreme dejavu to the point of narrating an entire day minutes before each thing occurs throughout the day. Last November about a year after my husband died I went astral and got to see him. I realized I have some actual friends in the astral world (that they weren't just a dream all these years), and I've more recently walked through a few dreams of people I know. Not exactly on purpose I think I was just wandering and wound up there (I tend to go in and out of consciousness, it's hard to explain). And, again not to pour things out on anyone, I'm not looking for pity, but I grew up in an abusive household and have been through hell so many times. I have a stress disorder and with it I have a problem with full relaxation where when I consciously relax fully I can't breathe because I'm just not used to it. So, when I try to meditate to consciously go astral I always get so close, but never get there because then I can't breath, but then today something pretty awesome happened.
I work 45+ hours a week, and go to college full time. My mom owns a restaurant and I run it. So, last night I was in school all day, and then didn't fall asleep until maybe 2 or 3 am, but some people were coming to close our pool so I had to get up at 6:30 to let them in. I was completely exhausted for once and fell back to sleep around 7:30, but I had to be up for work by 9 and I was trying to also stay awake to hear what was going on with the people closing my pool. But, I fell asleep and I was thinking about everything as I did, and people were talking outside, and I was thinking about work, so my body fell asleep and my mind did not! I'm laying there in bed somewhat conscious of what's going on and I feel kind of fuzzy, and I hear static, and almost feel like I'm floating and then I hear women's voices. I hear a conversation near by which is when my mind completely wakes up and I realize what's going on. I think to myself "Oh my gosh, I'm on the verge of astral projecting. I can actually do it right now!" So, I tried... I tried opening my astral eyes without opening my physical eyes and I felt these crazy vibrations and heard this awesome sound from the vibrations and I opened my eyes without opening my actual eyes and it was amazing, even though I was just looking at my room. I felt this overwhelming sense of joy and excitement. I still felt heavy and attached to my body, but I started trying to move while looking at the blanket in front of my face. I wiggled for just a few seconds before I had view of my open bedroom door and I saw someone with her back turned to me leaning on the doorframe talking. It looked like she was talking to someone else who noticed me and glanced over. This caused the woman leaning on the door to notice me. She turned, saw me, gasped, and started to run toward me, then disappeared and was all of a sudden lying between the wall and me. She looked angry, she was very pretty, looked like she was 24, and she was also blonde. I told her to get away, to leave me alone, I asked who she was... she didn't answer, but she put her one hand on my collarbone and was just pressing on it while looking very serious, like she was on a mission. I was freaked out. I tried moving, but barely could, but I put my hand on her hand trying to get her to let go and leave me alone and I felt her fingers as I tried to pry them off of me. Then I looked up and was trying to think of my husband hoping that maybe he'd come or I'd instantly go to him, but nothing happened. So, then I started calling for God, I didn't know what else to do other than pray and ask him to help me out. (I'm Catholic). Next thing I knew I was fading out and then I was in a dream instead.
Then in the weird "dream world," I was having a nightmare, I guess because I was freaked out, but I was still lucid. I felt her presence, I saw her a few times through out the dreams and the entire time I was trying to get away from her and all these horrible scary things happened and I thought she was trying to scare me, or something. At least once during it I went out of the dream and was back in my room and saw her still there and felt her pressing on my neck again.
An alarm went off and I woke up completely freaked out with clear memory of the entire thing as if I just walked out of it. Thinking about it afterward and being a little more rational I think the dream being a nightmare was just me being freaked out, and I think she did not want me to be in the astral plane for some reason, but I have no idea who she is and I'm just trying to figure out what happened.
Every so often around 8-10 am I will hear a woman calling my name. I have actually woken up from it before thinking my mom or sister or someone was calling me. And there would be no one there. I have actually answered before honestly thinking someone was there, but whoever it is only says my name and says "Wake up." It would always come from outside my bedroom door and sometimes it would be right next to me as long as I was upstairs and not in my room. I will hear it awake or asleep as if there's someone physically there. Then when astral she was standing outside my door, but my door was open which it usually isn't when I'm sleeping and when she saw me she ran in. I think she might be the one who's been calling me, but I just don't have any idea who she is, whose side she's on, what she was doing, etc. I just don't know how to react. I'm so happy because this morning was my first intentional and fully conscious astral projection, but I'm so confused and very freaked out. She's probably still when I'm not astral and I still don't know who she is. I want to astral again at some point, I just don't know what to do.
Is there any way to figure out who she is, what she wants, and why she did that, or what she was even doing? It is possible that she was trying to hit a pressure point to put my mind asleep and knock me out of the astral plane? Does that make sense in the astral world? I realize that I could have gotten away from her, I could have protected myself better, maybe my vibration levels weren't good, but I'm not experienced in completely conscious astral projection and it could take me a while to learn. Normally when I'm astral I feel as though I'm connected to my higher self or something and my soul guides me not my brain. Lol. If that made sense, but I also don't remember it as well when that happens and I'm almost on a ride rather than making decisions. But now, I just don't know what to do. I'm sorry this was so long. I just need some advice, or at least for someone to hear my story. Thank you ☺ I hope I don't sound nuts. Lol. Feel free to be honest, but please be nice about it. lol. Thanks
-Serena