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I'm not quite sure if this was a LD, a Dream, or something else.

I wast walking along a wooded road excited about exploring. I was with two or three people, one who followed along quietly, a girl who was quiet playful and mischievous and guy who talked from time to time.

I woke up briefly and rolled over hazily thinking about getting back to where I was.

Back at the original location of the wooded road I started running. I wanted to quickly get an idea of where I wanted to go before I was pulled out of the scene again. Along the way I would get distracted with bags of junk on the ground and repeatedly wake up and restart running down the road.

I checked the phone this time when I woke up it was 11:43 pm

When I fell back to sleep I decided upon running into the woods at full blast because I got tired of seeing the same road over and over again. At the back of my mind the people were still with me, but I guess they were sort of just waiting for me to get over what ever rush I was in.

Again I woke up.

I was back on the road and finally had calmed down. They were walking beside me again and i pointed over towards a beautiful lake I hadn't seen before. It was surrounded by trees with reds, oranges and yellows. They took of with out me leaving me in a sort of "hey I can't get there that fast." state. I ran after them

When i got there I saw this weird  ATM machine. I went to the back of it and began to read it. Then I started laughing. "I can't believe I can actually read this guys! It makes no sense but the individual words are readable." I continued  looking at the weird machine out of place in this natural environment "what is this doing here"

One of the people asked me to come over to them, so I did. staring out at the lake. There was still those bags full of junk laying around, but they no longer served as a distraction. I wasn't too worried about not being able to return to explore. I felt sleepy and laid down this time to rest.

I woke up again. DX

The last time I was in the dream I got to mess with the machine. It had a selection of fruits the it despised. I woke up for the last time and I almost went back to sleep, but it was almost 1 pm and about that time to wake up.

: ) I've been really slacking up on recording my dreams and stuff, my sleeping has been pretty hectic and I've been focusing a lot of my art... so much to my surprise when I have a lucid dream last night and the first thing I think to ask is to see my guides. My question is about the guides. When they appeared to me I saw only a toy car rolling around on its on and some sort of small animal. I couldn't make out what the animal was, but I was once told I had a ferret for an animal guide, but I didn't believe that, so I was thinking maybe I couldn't tell because of my refusal to believe its possible or something. I was wondering did I actually meet my guides, were they screwing around with me? XD because I asked them to take me where I'm needed and they just took me to a store full of candy. I went along with it, but you know I felt like it was a joke.

My recent dreams have been becoming pretty disturbing. I haven't posted the latest that I had, just because of how much it disturbed me, made me feel sick to my stomach kind of dream. Other than that one dream I had the other ones generally put me in situations where I become afraid. I don't understand why I am having these dreams. I don't have any negative feelings awake, except for anxiety about everything, but that's pretty normal. I want cool interesting story dreams! Not these creepy weird disturbing ones.

I was researching my old account that I used to use, back when I first started discovering AP. There was a particular dream forum that I would go on for dream interpretations, but I was never satisfied with the answers I got from there and was eventually directed to a forum with all sorts of stuff in it. Anyway, apparently I used to post in this forum 5 years ago! It's funny because I don't remember coming here at all... (I did loose a lot of memories when I tried to push this stuff out of my life) I actually have quiet a lot of posts on here too... I just don't know how I forgot. It'll be interesting to see what things I posted and help me remember what kind of experiences I used to have... and I'm still trying to find the first forum that led me here lol!

I wrote a Poem a while ago. It was partly inspired by a game and partly inspired by a story that I either heard or made up when I was a kid. It's about the moon and the sea falling in love, but never being able to reach each other.

Moon and Sea
Cosmic blankets descend upon Mother Earth.
Veiling her in indigo and deep blues.
Tiny souls speckle the velvet drapes
Giving rise to a luminous and glorious luster.

At the peak of the soil bellows out a howl.
An eerie chill of breath sweeps past.
Excitement stirs and ripples the still mirror
Swaying to the beck and call of devotion.

Falcate light draws and then pushes away.
Grainy shelves are pulled into the depths
Pleasure lines the two in a gravitational pull
Antagonizing each rhythm with lust.

Thus does inclination sway to draw near
Cursed the flames doomed to stay apart
Ever so bright and far into omission.
Contained by the limits of ones atmosphere.

5/20/2014
Surfer Pilot

The sky is a deep midnight blue filled with clusters of stars, while the moon sits nestled among them large and luminous, but not full. I grabbed a surfboard  and started to swim out to catch  the waves with the others who were surfing. While sitting on the surfboard, someone floated up beside me and asked me if I would be a co-pilot to the plane they owned. Since I knew absolutely nothing about planes, I told them that I didn't know the first thing to flying one. They simply responded "I have a feeling you'll catch on quickly."


This was a pretty calm and relaxing dream with the feeling of friends having fun together.

I just remembered something from my childhood. A question I had asked my mom when I was a kid. I was very curious, always asking why something worked or what if such and such happened. Which I generally got the response "OH My GOD, stop asking sooo many questions!" or my family would whine in agony. Well one time I was feeling particularly confused and having a hard time grasping something so I asked "Momma, why do I see through the eyes and not someone else's?" it was the best way I could ask what I was feeling. You see at the time, for a brief moment, I felt like the body I was in wasn't my real body and that I was actually somewhere else....

: P Strange how this memory chose to resurface now.

This happened about a week ago, I was over at my boyfriends' house and I had fallen asleep next to him watching a movie. He ended up passing out too and after a couple hours I jolted awake. I wasn't dreaming and everything was quiet in the house and normally if I do wake up through the night for whatever reason, I practically ignore everything and will instantly go back to sleep. This time I couldn't because I was extremely terrified. I laid there for a while trying to calm down, but after I couldn't I got up and went for a restroom break, still pretty afraid. I sat on the couch almost in tears, not understanding why I felt so scared. Eventually I tried to wake up my boyfriend to see if he would take me home, but he was passed out, so despite my fear I laid back down and tried to fall asleep. The next morning when we woke up, my boyfriend was like "You were shivering in your sleep, Did you have a bad dream" and I was like ">: ( I tired to wake you up, I was scared out of my mind"

Any ideas what this could have been?

I would like to begin sharing my attempts and experiences trying to AP here.. Kind of a a journal, I guess. Any advice would be appreciated as I progress on this journey. If you have any questions about me or would just like to talk, I would be more than willing to have conversations with you guys! : ) Thanks for any help and all help in the future. <3

First off a little about me. I generally sleep 10-12 hours, any less than that and I have a hard time lasting through out the day. If I take a nap.. well that usually turns out to be 5-8 hours. It takes me 5-30 mins to fall asleep depending on how tired I am. So, continuing to last night, I wanted to try and AP. I know exactly how to keep my mind from falling asleep, at least fully. I laid on my back and with the intent to "switch my consciousness" to my astral self. It was pretty difficult to fight off the thoughts that tend to override my conscious thoughts as my body begins to fall asleep and at one point my thoughts just stop completely. So, it felt like nothingness, I wasn't aware of my body or that I had a body nor was I aware that I could think.... very strange feeling. So, I woke up from this state and was like "oh yeah...I was suppose to be doing something" and as my brain began to shift back into gear. I again repeated through the steps until I ended back in that feeling of nothingness. The only thing I feel like im aware of in that state is blackness, its like not emotion, no physical feeling and no thought.. just blackness. I did all of that once more before I just gave up, rolled off and went to my normal habits of falling asleep.

Hello everyone, I'm Ellury (not my real name) and I'll be turning 20 in July. I first heard of AP in 2009-2010 and became really interested in it. I became super obsessed with spiritual stuff and would try to AP a couple hours every night, unfortunately with no success. The only thing that I benefited from was increased remembrance of dreams and trying to AP actually got rid of my SP.

When I was a kid I would get really bad SP and the only thing I could do was open my eyes, I couldn't shift them, so I would generally be staring up at the ceiling fan panicking. I would try to scream for help and try to get the signals through so my body would move. I was terrified of the thought of never being able to move again and when I finally woke my body up I would be nervous to go back to sleep, since it had a tendency to happen more than once.

Well time went on and I doubted if any of the stuff existed or that if that it did, maybe that it wasn't something that I could do. I stopped messing with AP and all my dreams went away with it. I stopped hearing words that I never heard before while sleeping, I stopped dreaming of people passing away and I stopped seeing unexplained things. Now that I've been drawn back to everything, it's even more difficult to do anything and I have like almost no results, and no guidance. I hear people say to just ask your guides, but either im deaf, they aren't there, or they don't want to help me.

Whatever ever the case is, I'm going to keep trying. I'm so jealous of people who progressed already.. Not with envy but an excited jealous-ness that makes me smile.