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Hi,

I have a strong reason to suggest that I suffer from depression. Not the normal kind, I've always been like this. Gloomy, pessimist, ect. I worry alot about my life, if I will succeed in life, relations ect. So lets just asume I have it, I am always spectical when making diagnoses on myself, can it hinder my progress? And if so what can I do to get past this on a spiritual level?

Nobody knows it, or have noticed it I think. But that's because I've learned to live with it and perhaps hide it a little to well. I am known as the funny guy with the funny one-liners. Perhaps my friends will be very shocked to learn how I really think about myself and how I am doing in general life. I hope you understand.

Thanks you advance,

Jean (Sorry for the lame nickname btw. )

Edit: Owh, I just realised I could have looked this up myself, I'm sorry. Will use the search so I understand if nobody wants to reply.

Oke, first I need to say something about myself. First of, I don't like religion. Bhuddism is the only one I could except. The rest, to much chaos and non-logic. That begin said I still am very interested in religion, and also spiritualism. Alot of years ago I began reading about this stuff, and I trained a little. I was young and I thought it was 'cool' to do all kinds of things, while being aware, in dreams. I don't believe in god, or at least I don't ever noticed a god from within as from without. Evolution ect. I never éver got something spiritual. Still haven't.

But this OBE... It is real. I can't explain it. The last year a friend of mine, who also is a very non-religion kinda guy, told me he almost always knows what he is doing in dreams. So I said it was funny because I read about that. Lucid dreams. Het couldn't really make the dreams in what he wanted. But he is aware of it, and he can remember dreams quite well.

Right. So enough background. So I know you can at least be aware in dreams. (I am still very skeptic about the Astral, but open to it.) Last night I had an amazing experience, and it was not a dream because I almost always know what is a dream when I wake up. This was no dream. I was semi-awake and suddenly I felt I could move out of my body, I thought of OBE at once, and I tryed it. I got a little up and "woesh!" my vision was like in a jerking move and 'slammed' back on my back. I believe this was OBE, since I have had some back problems recently and that would have hurt alot if it was real. I thought in this state: "Wow, was this finally a real attempt at least?!" So I did it again, and the same happend. After that I fell asleep.

It was in my mind the whole day, I could not forget it. I am sure it was not a dream, for I would forget it. I almost always forget my dreams, even if I remember them when waking I forget them in a few days. I know, I should write them down. Believe I will now.

There is another thing that kinda... Well I can't shake it from me. What if I succeed in an OBE? There are other 'beings' out there right. Now I am ofcourse speaking in theory (for myself, some of you believe I know no disrespect) but that creeps me out. I don't want to see strange looking things. How can I protect myself? Or should I just, as soon as I can be able to, call a spirit guide? How to call upon such guides? I read that you could call upon god or jesus. But I don't believe in them. Not in the way modern religion does. God could excist, but anyway this is personal. I do curse once in a while... Perhaps I shouldn't but being a non-believer I just kinda do. What effect will this have? IF I pull of a OBE one day, will evil spirits get me?

I sound a little paranoïd. But I just don't like the idea of messing with evil spirits. (Do believe spirits could excist, just never had expierence with that.) Besides, even if I'm not a christian, in the bible does it not say to stay away from spirits alltogether?

Thanks for the info, I had no idea where to go, hope you people can help or something. Co's it freaked me out a little.