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This is an projection i had a while ago but have not posted about it. So i was going to bed with the intention to project. I was doing relaxation techniques and breathing techniques for a long time but with no success until i fell asleep from exhaustion. I was also saying to myself over and over that i will project even if i were to fall asleep. I fell asleep but did not dream. I then tried waking up as soon as i realized that i was asleep; but i was seeing nothing but black. As soon as i got up i wanted to go outside and to the front of the house(Because my room is at the back and seperate from the house). When i stepped outside the door the scenery was different from that of our real yard. I was projecting and not realizing it. I got shocked and think i was pulled back because once again i was staring at blackness in front of me.Then i decided to stand up and had a false awakening as i was waking and standing up into the astral. I then decided to go into the bathroom and splash my face. The water was all sparkling and it was as if diamonds was floating within the water. I then again realized that i was projecting and had a false awakening. I then immediately got pulled back. I knew that i was being pulled back because i was gliding along the floor backward through the corridors and everything was passing by fast. Again i was staring at the darkness in front of my eyes. This time i felt something climbing onto the bed and i got scared because this thing was climbing onto the bed the bed very gently and softly like a cat does. I could not see it but i could feel the movement at my feet. Then the movement stopped and i heard the sound of animal claws walking along the floor. A screetching sound like that a dogs nails make when walking on tiles. I got the image of a tiger. When i was young there used to be black cats within my dreams and everytime they jump upon me then the heavy sensation came upon me and i believed that it was black magic and a demon was pressing me down against the floor. This is what my parents used to tell me and that is why projection was so difficult for me because the heavy feeling had a fierce affect upon me. A negative affect of a dark force.When i was living in Johannesburg my parents got a witch doctor to clean the house and yard and he has blocked out all external forces and energies which also now makes it more difficult for me to project. This guy said that this cats was growing just as i was growing and they were meant to harm me and the tiger i saw was one of the cats that has grown thus far by feeding on my energy as i had the most energy than everyone within out household and that is why i was the only one being targeted. Well not to go of to far. I saw the tiger and it started smelling me from my legs all the way up to my face. It stopped at my nose and kept smelling my nose as if it wanted to make sure that i am alive. I kept my breath for the time. It left and i tried waking up but i was trapped within my own body. I could see through my closed eyelids but i was unable to move or get up. It took much effort to get up. I then successfully did and made sure that i actually was awake lol

For a while after this i was quite afraid of projecting for the fear of getting stuck within my own body again. The protection around the house now dramatically influences my projection. Well this is my worst experience thus far.

Okay last night i went to bed with the intension to project myself but i had no success at doing so because i was laying on my bed(Which keeps me to awake). I was focusing on my third eye the whole time and drifting into trance and out of trance the whole time staying on the border between being awake and being asleep(This is what happen when i lay on my back). I then later got to mentally exhausted because i kept it at that for almost two hours without results(As i haven't been trying to project for a year now). A drifted of into a sleep and it was extremely lucid and this morning i can remember it unlike the other dreams i had where i could not remember them at all(The attempts at projecting seems to increase the remembering ability of my dreams as they are not that clustered) . I had a real lucid dream of being with friends of mine at a campus surrounded by girls and other people i do not know. They were playing with cards and got the idea to play a game. My one friend was tested before me. We were standing on a stoop but it was very high like that of a roof from a house. They tested him daring that he would jump from the top without hurting himself. He then did so; he jumped and landed softly.

It was now my turn and i did not even know the people(My gf was present between the crowd and held my hand telling me to acknowledge the fact that i can do anything). They had a deck of cards with them. I do not remember the name the had for it and also did not know how the card looked that they wanted me to create and so i asked them to show it to me. It was the card with the king on it(Do now know the English name for it but they did name it in English). What they dared me to do is to re-create the same type of card by carving it out on the ground using nothing but energy and i was not allowed to touch the ground at all. I then told them that i can do it(I am very self confident within my dreams because there is nothing i can not do within it and i got that confidence from my flying dreams i have since i can remember up to now). I was also on the stoop which was high and i had to re-create the card on the ground by using energy.

I did not have to think about what to do it was just a matter of knowing. The person who had the card; i just turned toward the guy and took hard and deep breathes like Chris Angel does when attempting to levitate. I stretched out my arms in front of me and toward him and the pocket where he kept the king card. Then i fastly closed my hands like i was avoiding someone grabbing something from me and did a backward pulling action like i am attempting to grab the soul of the cards from the deck(I just did this because it was as if i have been doing it for long and knew that it would work) With the backward pull i felt a brush of energy surging through my arms and jumped of the stoop in a backward motion going down with my head first and hands stretched out in front of me. I then allowed the energy to push down ward to avoid me from landing hard and started releasing the energy from the palms of my hands and i could see the form of a card being crafted on the ground like someone were drawing it with a stick while i was doing it(I had a problem). It was the form of the card but it still just looked like ground being drawn on. They wanted it to look real. I do not where i got this energy from which i used next it was just a reaction and i was screaming ahahah while pushing my hands down ward and a red fire like energy was released from the palms of my hands. The heat was so hot and real that within the dream as well as on the bed here i this reality my hands was burning especially my fingertips. It was like the energy was released from my palms but the fingertips was focusing it to create the form i wanted. I had to blast this energy into the form i created and it got red and was starting to burn out the exact form of the card and i was overheating but had success though. I was wondering what type of energy was that and sorry for my bad English

So when i first started to consciously project my first attempt was successful(or at least i viewed through my closed eyelids). Forgive the English because i am Afrikaans. I was imagining myself going down a stare way and counting down trying a technique that just came to mind. Within 5 minutes my head started feeling as if it is being pulled backward and then jerks out again. Being in this state for a while i heard a voice calling out to me "Stop what your doing Newton" I was wondering if my brother returned and maybe know what i am attempting to do because i was laying on my back. I then decided to ignore this voice because i have read of them but the sound of the voice intensified and it was accompanied by loud church music. Piano's and drums. I then kept on focusing until the sounds started fading out.

I then appeared to lose consciousness for a while. For how long i am not certain but before i knew it i was looking through my closed eyelids. I was uncertain about whether i was awake or laying in bed because i could see everything in the room in the same way i would when i am awake(meaning the same angle i saw it as i did when i laid down). The strange thing was that i was then seeing a wall in front of me that had this green stuff on the wall as if water had been running down the wall for a few years. The type of green slime you would find in a pond with frogs in. I do not know how to exactly explain this in English. But when starring at this wall i got scared and the emotions intensified until i was woken by it and fully aware.

This happened a few times after that time as well. I think that wall was a reflection of my fears and obstacles i set for myself in life. At this point i have not come into contact with that wall again. I think i got over those fears whatever they were(Maybe for the unknown). Now to get the feeling i experience when trying to project or when i am in a dream.

This would happen mostly like when i am in a dream. I would be dreaming and all of a sudden when i realize that i am dreaming i would get a feeling of pressure around my naval area. The feeling of pressure is more inward than outward. In the beginning it was very uncomfortable for me but now it is quite nice(must be because i am getting used to it). What i realized is that i even have control over this feeling around my naval area. It is like a energy sensation. The feeling would start and immediately i would think that i can use it to project; and by focusing on my naval area i could make the sensation increase or decrease. I mostly make it increase because i want to use it to exit. Then i would get no success in doing so and would stop. This sensation also makes me drowsy in my head. I now have been flying in my dreams ever since i can remember so my dream is vivid every single night and i have great control over them and my flying techniques is masterful. For this reason it is difficult to realize that i am flying and remember that it must be a dream an turn it into a real time projection(as the flying dreams now are so second nature to me). This feeling of pressure does anyone else experience it as well? or am i the only one? Just would love to know what it is and what the reason for it because no author ever wrote about this. It's quite unique in a sense. Wish that i could explain it in detail but English is quite difficult lol