I'm looking for some advice. First I want to explain an experience that I had about two years ago which I think might have been some kind of accidental astral projection. If anyone can help me understand what happened and if at all possible maybe some ideas about why it happened that would be great. If that is what it was, I'd like some advice on how to make it happen again. I've recently lost a loved one to suicide and desperately want/need to contact them. If this is a way that I can do that please let me know.
As for the experience: I was laying on the couch with my then 8 month old daughter in the middle of the day. I was laying on my back as she slept on my chest. My son was sitting on the other end of the couch watching tv. At some point I dozed off. I woke up, opened my eyes and looked around the room. My daughter was still sleeping and I saw that my son had fallen asleep on the other end of the couch. The movie he was watching was over and the house was completely silent. I was thinking about how lucky I was that both of my kids were sleeping at the same time and that I could go back to sleep for a while. As I laid there thinking, I began to hear a sound that I can only describe as the same sound a helicopter makes. It started out low and slowly became louder and louder. Quickly it became so loud it was as if a helicopter was in my living room. But the sound seemed to be coming from me. The sound confused me, but it happened so quickly I didn't have time to react, I just laid there confused. As the sound grew louder I noticed that the parts of my body that I could see: my arms, parts of my sides and legs, around the area where my daughter was laying on my chest, looked as if they were glowing. After a few seconds I realized that my body was vibrating and that the vibrations coincided with the helicopter sound. Then, I could see a translucent version of myself beginning to roll, to the left, out of my body. I panicked, I didn't know if I was dying, or what was happening, and was afraid to leave my kids. I struggled to keep it inside, and it was like a tug of war, it kept halfway rolling out of me while I fought to keep it in. Eventually I won, and the vibrations and helicopter sound drifted away. During the time that I could see my spirit separating from my body I felt different, like the real me was being released from the confinement of my body and I had a strong sense of peace and understanding, like my spirit knew that everything has a purpose and everything is okay. It was a really profound experience for me.
It has not happened since. Although I had 3 experiences prior to this with sleep paralysis that were absolutely terrifying. I don't know if they are somehow related. But nothing about this particular experience was terrifying, aside from the confusion and the fear of leaving my children. The feeling I had when partially separated from my body was very pleasant.
Was this astral projection? If so, is there some reason why this happened without any effort on my part?
My son's father committed suicide about a month ago. I'm having an extremely hard time with his death and the circumstances involved. I am feeling very guilty. I know that I can't hold myself responsible but, about 6 months ago I had a nagging feeling that I needed to contact him and tell him that I forgave him for the things he had done to me, and that our son and I cared about him and his life mattered to us. Something, I don't know what, kept telling me to tell him that. We hadn't maintained regular contact in a long time. I wrote him several letters to give him the message but I stubbornly never sent them. I desperately want to contact him, to tell him the things in the letter, that I wish I would have told him when my intuition relentlessly told me to.
If that previous experience was astral projection, does that mean I am capable of doing it again? If so, then how? And if I can make it happen again... will I be able to contact him??
Any/all advice is appreciated. Thank you.
As for the experience: I was laying on the couch with my then 8 month old daughter in the middle of the day. I was laying on my back as she slept on my chest. My son was sitting on the other end of the couch watching tv. At some point I dozed off. I woke up, opened my eyes and looked around the room. My daughter was still sleeping and I saw that my son had fallen asleep on the other end of the couch. The movie he was watching was over and the house was completely silent. I was thinking about how lucky I was that both of my kids were sleeping at the same time and that I could go back to sleep for a while. As I laid there thinking, I began to hear a sound that I can only describe as the same sound a helicopter makes. It started out low and slowly became louder and louder. Quickly it became so loud it was as if a helicopter was in my living room. But the sound seemed to be coming from me. The sound confused me, but it happened so quickly I didn't have time to react, I just laid there confused. As the sound grew louder I noticed that the parts of my body that I could see: my arms, parts of my sides and legs, around the area where my daughter was laying on my chest, looked as if they were glowing. After a few seconds I realized that my body was vibrating and that the vibrations coincided with the helicopter sound. Then, I could see a translucent version of myself beginning to roll, to the left, out of my body. I panicked, I didn't know if I was dying, or what was happening, and was afraid to leave my kids. I struggled to keep it inside, and it was like a tug of war, it kept halfway rolling out of me while I fought to keep it in. Eventually I won, and the vibrations and helicopter sound drifted away. During the time that I could see my spirit separating from my body I felt different, like the real me was being released from the confinement of my body and I had a strong sense of peace and understanding, like my spirit knew that everything has a purpose and everything is okay. It was a really profound experience for me.
It has not happened since. Although I had 3 experiences prior to this with sleep paralysis that were absolutely terrifying. I don't know if they are somehow related. But nothing about this particular experience was terrifying, aside from the confusion and the fear of leaving my children. The feeling I had when partially separated from my body was very pleasant.
Was this astral projection? If so, is there some reason why this happened without any effort on my part?
My son's father committed suicide about a month ago. I'm having an extremely hard time with his death and the circumstances involved. I am feeling very guilty. I know that I can't hold myself responsible but, about 6 months ago I had a nagging feeling that I needed to contact him and tell him that I forgave him for the things he had done to me, and that our son and I cared about him and his life mattered to us. Something, I don't know what, kept telling me to tell him that. We hadn't maintained regular contact in a long time. I wrote him several letters to give him the message but I stubbornly never sent them. I desperately want to contact him, to tell him the things in the letter, that I wish I would have told him when my intuition relentlessly told me to.
If that previous experience was astral projection, does that mean I am capable of doing it again? If so, then how? And if I can make it happen again... will I be able to contact him??
Any/all advice is appreciated. Thank you.