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#1
Hello everyone, umm, I just woke up from a very... vivid and bad dream, and right now there are still lingering feelings of fear and I'm still shaking a bit...

This will be a bit long, because I will explain here in full detail the things I saw in my dream, everything from the very beginning of what I can remember up to the point before I woke up, this dream is very vivid, it is similar to vividness on a dream (or was it Astral Projection already?) I had when I saw myself on a Lake on a Draconic Realm or Planet (fighting a black dragon there in the process) which happened around 7 years ago; that kinda vividness.

There are also some images that I saw and words that I heard that is kind of religious-related... it is ok to tell some logical similarities and meanings regarding this dream and one's own interpretation in the filters of religious beliefs but please refrain from saying things related to urging people to convert their own religious beliefs to yours in this thread, I did not create this thread to encourage religious discussions, I am here to ask for help (in addition to me being very, very afraid right now) in dream interpretation as well as enlightenment about if my dream is a premonition, an Astral Projection, an event where my consciousness slipped into a Parallel Universe version of me, or JUST a mere dream, albeit a little bit TOO vivid.

Anyway, the dream seems almost real, everything I saw looks very, very real, and I hope people who are knowledgeable in dreams would enlighten me about this terrible, terrible dream I just had, I'm very afraid for the safety of millions of people right now, too, and my family...


I'll start:

Ok so first, I was in my cousin's old house, and I saw a lot familiar AND unfamiliar people, they were all watching TV, hanging out and it's like we are having a party, I even saw there our two Shih Tzu dogs who are playing with me and licking my feet like they usually do.

Well that was the part that is kinda blurry for me since it seems like a mediocre dream so it doesn't have as much impact, but anyways, it was nighttime then, and for some reason, our cousin's old house and our grandparent's house seem to be in one location... so then, when me and my parents are preparing to go home, I went to the comfort room a bit and voided myself, while in the comfort room, I saw a sort of... white horse that flashed from the sky that I saw from the window of the comfort room? Then before I go out of the room, a power outage suddenly occurred and then I saw two people who I seem to know but looking but at the dream, I do not actually know them, but they have this feeling (while I was in my dream), that I know them.

These two people are telling us about a very VERY strong typhoon that will hit Philippines, and they showed us reports about it in the internet using their smartphones. A few moments after that we could hear winds howling and very, very strong winds started to blow, there was also lightning around, then I told my parents that I'm glad we didn't went home yet (since they waited for me to finish voiding), the whole experience was very terrifying, I also called my step father in a room to go out, but he seems to just lit a candle and did not go out to my call.

Anyway, a few minutes on that, for some reason, there was a lightning strike that REALLY lit up the whole surrounding (it was nighttime and there was a power outage), this particular lightning lit up the whole place and the nighttime scene suddenly became daytime, the surroundings was still lit so bright even after the lightning disappeared!

And then, for some reason, two other elderly women who were in the party in my cousin's house just now came to us while the sky was still transformed into that of a daytime due to that lightning and there were winds blowing around... well it seems my mind is having trouble imaging these two women so it used a sort of Analytical Overlay and replaced their faces with elderly women actresses we usually see on T.V. here.

Anyway, while they are near the gate of the house of my grandparents (we were in the terrace of the said house when we witnessed these strong winds) I looked up at the sky and... I saw  swirling clouds right above us... this "swirling cloud scene above us" scene... I saw it for like 3 or 4 times now in my dream, during the previous ones all I did (having 7 years of knowledge and practical experience in a few Psychic Abilities as well as Occult Magick, especially Weather Manipulation/Influencing Magick (but I'm not that adept, still)) was to gather energy and dispel these strong winds...

But this time, the swirling wind and clouds started forming into a typhoon-shaped object, it is similar to how one sees a typhoon from a satellite picture, in the center, I saw a sort of violet-like energies and it was kinda static and it flew right above us, carrying with it very strong winds. And the size of this swirling wind is like spanning just a certain portion of the sky, it was large but not as large as a fully developed typhoon yet.

As it flew above us... something terrible happened, there were numbers as well as objects that appeared in the sky, the objects are like what I usually see in some occult artwork, the dominant colors were violet and black, there were geometrical shapes, there was even an INVERTED triangle there with a cross shape on the tip of it on the down-side, and then somewhere in the middle there is a skull-shaped object, then on the other hand, another object has this triangular shape, and inside the triangle, there are various skulls inside as well as candles, it is like I am looking on an artwork from a Magickal Grimoire because it is not colored black and violet, it is like color white and it showed the images as a sort of black pen drawings on a book, there were many images like these that appeared in the sky, I could even hear some sort of laughing echoing in the sky, it was very frightening and, also, these images seems to MOVE, the skulls, the candles...

As for the numbers that appeared they were written in the sky due to cloud formations, which possibly formed upon the passing of the typhoon, me and my family are talking about these numbers, there were 662, 667, 668, and even... 666, and my family, who are Catholics, think this is Satan's doing, as for me, I don't follow any Religious doctrine since I'm a Spiritual person, possibly the only spiritual person in this whole clan, so I thought these numbers are a sort of numerology-related signs.

In any case, our whole sky was littered with these dreadful images and numbers which are created but for some reason, I hear myself saying "heh, this will be EXCITING", while my other family members are cowering in fear... And also I had this feeling that these images will drop some sort of entities that will harm us, so, me, for some reason in that dream, have this kind of feeling I usually have whenever I compete with others in a martial arts sparring or even in online games in a player versus player setting, that kinda fighting-spirit feeling, and I was all feeling like "bring it on" kind of feeling... I don't know why but it seems I am quite a very brave person in this dream...

Anyways as the typhoon image became blocked by the roof, this person who told us about the news of a Typhoon through their smartphone, told me that this Typhoon will go to Mecca, yes, the location of the Black Stone that Muslim people go to pilgrimage to and then sort of rebound, and go back to the Philippines, but this time as a much, much bigger typhoon, and also, during my various researches regarding the Norn Goddesses, the Runes and Web of Wyrd which is related to my own training on Sigil Magick development, I saw a video wherein this person talked about the Black Stone being the place where the Norse Deities are imprisoned (after the Ragnarok I think?) by Loki and that the Norns; Urd, Verdandi and Skuld (I also think of the Norn sisters as one being) are among the two deities who were not imprisoned by Loki and that they are preparing to fight Loki and free the other deities from the Black Stone... does this information, true or not, holds significance in this dream that I had as well? Since this Typhoon, in the dream, is said to become stronger after it went to Mecca and my first thought is that it will actually HIT the Black Stone, rebound and go back to the Philippines as a much stronger Typhoon and I also seemed to have visualized the Black Stone and the Kaabah in this dream being hit by the typhoon and then rebounding.

In any case, this person showed me a report in the internet regarding the weather and astronomical services administration report on the possible size of the typhoon; the eye is in Luzon, near Manila, while its arms actually SPANS the whole Philippines and that this typhoon will go back at "Monday"... it's currently Thursday right now where I live, just a few minutes before Friday... and for some reason I am aware of the time and date in that dream which is the same as the time and date while I was awake... so I all felt like there won't be much time to evacuate and prepare, and that I have to beseech the deities I work with to help me and give me power in order to break this Typhoon, yes, I am planning to conduct a Magickal Ritual for this in the dream.

Seeing the report and the span of the typhoon, I could already tell that it will bring great disaster to the country and that many people will possibly die or at the very least, be injured and left homeless without clean food and water to eat... so I felt that I HAVE to do something; instead of gradually hastening the weakening of a typhoon like I usually do using Weather Magick, I am planning to break it off right off the bat.

In any case, after this person showed me the report and after I planned on what to do, I moved and looked at the sky again, the grotesque images disappeared (or I think there are still some small ones left?), and the triple digit numbers also got reduced to two digit numbers, showing 66, 67, 68, 62, the 62 one, being formed by clouds, is also starting to break apart. Then I kept looking at the sky and I saw the typhoon again, but this time, it is much, much smaller, it is colored... umm, it seems like an energy or something, it is colored violet or white-blue like an electricity with some transparent sides here and there, it is not shaped like a swirling wind or cloud anymore, it looks like... a butterfly-shaped thing, I could also hear a sort of whirring noise as if it was indeed an electric convergence, and to describe its appearance more accurately... it has a circle as its "head", an oblong as its main body, and its wings are shaped like candle flames, it has like four or six wings? Also, above the circle (its head) I could see a sort of crescent-shaped thing as its horns? Kinda like that, it keeps on emitting a whirring noise and flew around just a bit before going away, possibly headed to Mecca.


Anyway as it departs, I still see the numbers in the sky which are formed by clouds, there are only a few now, one of our Shih Tzu dogs went near me again, wanting to play... as of that moment, I am thinking on what should I do, how am I going to solve this problem, how am I going to help these people and protect them, I was really troubled, but for some unexplained reason I feel... excited? I kept having that feeling of "ah, my abilities will be put to the test this time, but I'm not gonna do this alone, I will ask help from other Magick Practitioners and deities too, and we'll form a team" sort of feeling...

After that, I woke up, but I could still remember the feeling I had before I woke up; it felt as if I... "slipped" inside my physical body that is sleeping... I could not see anything but I did feel like my whole being just "slipped" back to my body... then, just a few minutes ago, I saw myself on my room and I was VERY, VERY relieved that it was just a dream... because to be honest, I am still at a lost on what to do... the "Me" in that dream doesn't seem to be afraid at all, in fact, I felt excited albeit being troubled... but what I am thinking of while I saw that dream and after I woke up is fear and confusion, as well as anxiety...


Well, that's how the dream turned out... so yes, I need help right now in interpreting it, there are so many elements present in this dream that if I were to use an online dream dictionary and attempt to connect the dots... I might get even more confused, since I have little to no experience in Dream Magick, much less Dream Interpretation, especially vivid dreams like these.

And I don't usually ask other people to interpret my dreams for me, I just typed them in notepad and tell myself that I am going to look to the meanings of those dreams in the Astral Plane, in the Akashic Records, but right now, I am still studying and practicing the techniques for conscious Astral Projection so decoding this dream might take a while... that is why I thought of posting this here in hopes that people who are knowledgeable in this field would help me interpret what in the world did I just dreamed about, or if it is a sort of event where my consciousness slipped into a Parallel Universe version of me, or a Premonition, or an Astral Projection or just a mere dream.

I would really appreciate your insights on this matter, since I am still very afraid of this dream I just had, I am concerned to the lives of my loved ones and many people in this country too... and, seeing that big of a typhoon, it might even affect nearby countries, which is another thing I am concerned about... I'm very confused, I don't know what to do...
#2
Hello, as the title says, I have been having this pressure on the very top of my head, it's in the dead center, too, it feels like something is pressing down on it, and I have been having this for around 2-3 times now and it started around late September this year, and I just had another one around 3 days ago... (and as far as I remember I already am having it ever since Sunday this week, and continued to be felt until the next day), while 2 days ago I had a headache.

It feels kinda unnatural though, since if I am to have a headache, it will be like how it felt 2 days ago, but this pressure on the very top of my head is very unnatural for me and it is NOT painful, it is more of a discomfort, a VERY noticeable one at that (like some bored classmate or friend wanting to tick me off by pressing on my head consistently, that kinda feeling), though sometimes it is a bit painful too, and I have only experienced it for the first time in my life, this year, around a few weeks after... some family problems came to my life so much that I have been plunged into deep depression and suicidal thoughts, thoughts like why do I even exists, thoughts of own worthlessness and I literally hated myself, blamed myself for everything (after realizing that, indeed, I am to be fully or partially be blamed for everything that happens to me and to anything and anyone around me; in other words, I am "responsible" for what happens, even those very negative events before), a few weeks passed since those problems came to my life, I set a goal to myself that I have to keep living or else I will continue to be a burden to other people when I am gone; they hate me while I still exists, but they will surely still hate me even if I am already dead; I am already a burden to them while I still exist, and I will surely still be a burden once I am dead, so what am I to do? Keep living, and leave it to Death to decide how long I will live; its not like I will accomplish anything by killing myself anyway, and that if I chose to live on, I will surely have more chances to forgive myself and make up for what I've done; being a burden to others and other people hating me for reasons I do not know, and while I still live, I am going to get back on the path towards my life goals, being so "done" with life and all, like, "I do not care anymore, I'm just gonna keep living and do what I want and have to do", I have that kinda feeling now.

As of now, one of my goals is to live my life, not become a burden to anyone else and to my own self, and do... awesome things; further refining of my Psychic and Magickal abilities, doing my best at school, honing the power of my memory to achieve a training-obtained Eidetic Memory/Powerful Memorization skills, then doing some recreational activities from time to time, albeit a bit on the non-spiritual side such as arts, music, games, etc., since I feel that these are one of the steps that will help me make myself worthy of my own, self-love once again, and I do need time to recover from the self-hate I had a few months ago.

So anyway, right now, according to the info I provided above, these are the only factors I can think of regarding this pressure on the top of my head and I am researching this for a few weeks now and google keeps displaying results regarding "Kundalini Symptom"... but right now I want to gather as much info and insight as much as possible from other sources so I thought of posting here...

Is this really what they call the Kundalini Symptom? Like, is my Kundalini really rising up right now and I am beginning to feel physical symptoms of it? Also about the headache that followed 2 days ago (which is also the first time it happened after the day I consistently felt this top-of-head pressure), is it normal? I read somewhere in the internet that it is like what happens due to Kundalini rewiring my brain or something like that?

And how do I know if I am having a Kundalini Symptom and not... some sort of a brain disease now? I wanna know for now how to differentiate the two as well before I go and ask my mother to take me to the hospital to have a CT Scan (which is quite costly and might cause my mother to be unnecessarily worried).

Lastly, what is the best thing to do while I am undergoing in this Kundalini Rising event in my life (if that is really what's happening); and things such as some nice Energy Development-related work to do and etc.?

P.S. I did a little bit of research about the causes of brain tumors and all I found with my limited searching was: "Radiation to the head.
An inherited (genetic) risk. HIV infection. Cigarette smoking. Environmental toxins (for example, chemicals used in oil refineries, embalming chemicals, rubber industry chemicals)", I do not have nor experienced the first three causes said here, as for cigarette smoking I do not and will never smoke (the smell is just actually very disgusting for me, it even beats the smell we were once exposed to during our nursing training in the delivery room of a local hospital), but sometimes, year by year, I kept on encountering unruly public transportation drivers who smoke (despite the local law prohibiting smoking in this city and with a "No Smoking" sticker inside their vehicle) and I inhale the disgusting smoke they spew as a result, but I do my best to minimize the inhalation... but it makes me want to punch them in the face whenever that happens to be honest. Then for environmental toxins, I am also not exposed to those things, except maybe my everyday exposure to vehicle smoke since I have to go to school and stuff, and I often have to commute, but I don't know if those vehicle smoke counts.

Anyway sorry for the long post, I just feel like giving as much detail as I can since brain tumors are a no-no for me and I made it a goal to continue living, I would surely hate myself in the afterlife if I am to die without even attaining my goals now, so I have to keep this life, that has been saved many times, safe and use it well to attain my goals, one of which also involves being able to help a lot of other people in the process.