Hi Strwrs_guru.
You do understand it. Maybe the problem lies in the perception of an object being seperate from you, as you said. Since the energy is everywhere around and through us, and the science tells us the conscious mind effects it, harnessing energy with your awareness could work. Focused intent may provide enough energy to begin the process, and regular practice would strengthen it.
Maybe old style training may work to some extent. Using a lighted candle, focusing all your mind on the candle, you try to get the flame to grow taller, or smaller and play a little with it. Focus your intent on the flame and see in your minds eye(imagine)the flame doing what you want it to. Practice makes perfect, smaller goals to start with help to build the confidence.
Love always.[
