Hey Marilyn,
First of all, I'm not an experienced astral traveler. However I want to reply, because your story quite touched me.
If you want to talk to your astral lover, and you are able to sense him when he's nearby? You can try yourself to astrally project and make contact. There is plenty of information on this website and forum how to achieve it.
Also there are ways to become lucid during dreaming. You may want to give it a try, see if you can work things out that way. With lucid dreaming you can be in control of the dream experience.
Hope this is something,
Sincerely,
Ebele
First of all, I'm not an experienced astral traveler. However I want to reply, because your story quite touched me.
If you want to talk to your astral lover, and you are able to sense him when he's nearby? You can try yourself to astrally project and make contact. There is plenty of information on this website and forum how to achieve it.
Also there are ways to become lucid during dreaming. You may want to give it a try, see if you can work things out that way. With lucid dreaming you can be in control of the dream experience.
Hope this is something,
Sincerely,
Ebele