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Hello everyone,

I hope you're all well.

I need your help on "hunting down" a book. 

I'll try to explain as much as possible. Years ago I landed on an app that contained texts from an unknown book. It was focusing on daily/weekly meditations (I think for about 6 months in total). Unfortunately I lost the name of that app and I have no idea what the book is called. It had something to do with Initiation and it revolved around hermeticism. (It's NOT "Initiation into Hermetics" by Franz Bardon).
I remember there was an exercise that would require you to meditate on not assigning any meaning to your surroundings. Like looking at a chair and telling yourself "this holds no meaning to me". It was with the intention to separate oneself from emotional interactions with the surroundings and take upon a more clarified perspective. I believe the first exercises were standard meditation techniques like focusing on the breath and each exercise would have to be done once or twice a day for 1 week.

That's as much as I remember and I really want to get a hold of this book again. If any of you have a clue what I'm talking about please share it.

Thank you!

So, this is a bit weird but I'm having trouble figuring out how to "fix" it. I thought I might get some advice from you guys.

When I was a child I wasn't very aware and I was quite primal in nature. I 'woke up' at the age of 13 and I'm now 21. Since then my energy went through a lot of transitions and so did my body. My posture, my movements and my energy became more.. gentle. This plays a backfire on me because I appear to be gay and while I support all gay people, I myself am straight. I'm attracted to women and while this high vibration really helps in gaining their trust, it often puts me in the friendzone because I appear to be more feminine. I'm pretty sure that being skinny adds up to this homosexual appearance but I'm also having trouble gaining weight, plus I don't require much food to keep my body strong.

I'm really wondering how could I change this appearance. It's even noticable in the Astral which makes it even weirder. I've been wondering for some time if I'm actually gay or bisexual and I came to the conclusion that I'm not.

So, anyone got any ideas how could I appear more masculine?  I know all of this sounds funny and bonked up but it's not really funny to me...

Hello everyone,

I'm new to the forum and I think this is a good way to begin my activity here.

So, last night I had my most amazing dream. A complete inception. A dream inside a dream, inside a dream, inside a dream.
I dream that I'm sitting in a park and it's a full moon. I'm there with a couple of friends and one of them is trying to do some spells (she's a witch) but the clouds are often covering the moon and she needs it. So she asks me and I wave my hand and move away the clouds. This happens a couple of times before we all grab our heads and suddenly the environment changes. We are at a house, sitting in the living room and we have these head gears that actually allow us to enter a virtual world. Not a VR set but a complete mask that takes you into a new matrix.
So as I grab my head I'm now into that room and I'm taking off the mask. So do my friends and I'm completely blown by this and I start freaking out. They tell me to chill out and put back on the mask. They put theirs but I don't.
The mask looked like a robot. It had the head and a bit of the shoulders. So they put on their masks and I'm sitting there thinking "What if this is also a matrix".
I grab my head and guess what - it is another matrix. I'm taking off another mask and I'm at a completely different place. I see both my friends there, wearing different masks, and a few other people who were there to watch over us. As I'm about to ask what is this whole thing and why are we doing this, another group of people arrive and attack us with supernatural abilities. I see a fireball flying towards me so I grab it (I felt like I'm using my willpower and focus to do so), turn around and throw it back. At first I was like "This is freaking awesome" but then I thought it is probably another matrix so I grab my head and I actually wake up.
Then I went back to sleep and what is very interesting was that the supernatural fight continued and we were fighting some evil witches, I had a staff and so on. It was epic!
I'm currently not even sure if this is not just another matrix and I'm sleeping somewhere wearing a headset 

I haven't watched "Inception" or "The Matrix" recently, last time was like 2 years ago, so this isn't some interpretation of my daily life. I've been thinking for a while that this friend of mine, the witch, is entering my dreams somehow.
I wonder if anyone of you know of such a skill and how it can be done?

Thank you and sorry for the long post.