Hello all,
I'm new in meditation and spiritual thing. It all started when my ex made another woman pregnant, we had to have a divorce so he could go on with his "new life", and their baby was born last month. (We were married from '96 to '09, after dating since '88).
I was born and raised in a culture where people still practicing black and white magics, do religious rituals (meditating, fasting, give offering to various spirits, etc), or at least consulting psychics or clairvoyants as often as we are reading horoscope columns here in the west.
Lately I've been trying to start meditating, since I felt more and more depressed after knowing that their baby has been born (FYI : my ex never really said bye, let alone apologize. He just disappeared into thin air to be with that woman. I had to track him down through his family and friends to ask for a divorce. After that, he left the divorce process to a lawyer and his brother-in-law. Guy just cut all his communications with me completely).
My question is : what is this I've been experiencing right after I finished my meditation: I felt bitter taste in my mouth, nauseous, lightheaded, and from looking into the mirror I could tell there are dark circles around my eyes when they weren't there before ? Does anybody know what's it all about ?
PS : My ex inherited this psychic ability from his dad's side. It's very easy for him to have OBE, even in broad day light whenever he wants to. (But as far as I'm concerned, during 20 yrs I knew him he wasn't really into developing this skill). In addition to that, his mom's also a very spiritual person who follows this "Gandhi lifestyle" sort of thing. She would meditate for hours every single night, and it's been going on long since my ex was still a kid).
I really want to know what's going on with me ? Can someone please help ?
I'm new in meditation and spiritual thing. It all started when my ex made another woman pregnant, we had to have a divorce so he could go on with his "new life", and their baby was born last month. (We were married from '96 to '09, after dating since '88).
I was born and raised in a culture where people still practicing black and white magics, do religious rituals (meditating, fasting, give offering to various spirits, etc), or at least consulting psychics or clairvoyants as often as we are reading horoscope columns here in the west.
Lately I've been trying to start meditating, since I felt more and more depressed after knowing that their baby has been born (FYI : my ex never really said bye, let alone apologize. He just disappeared into thin air to be with that woman. I had to track him down through his family and friends to ask for a divorce. After that, he left the divorce process to a lawyer and his brother-in-law. Guy just cut all his communications with me completely).
My question is : what is this I've been experiencing right after I finished my meditation: I felt bitter taste in my mouth, nauseous, lightheaded, and from looking into the mirror I could tell there are dark circles around my eyes when they weren't there before ? Does anybody know what's it all about ?
PS : My ex inherited this psychic ability from his dad's side. It's very easy for him to have OBE, even in broad day light whenever he wants to. (But as far as I'm concerned, during 20 yrs I knew him he wasn't really into developing this skill). In addition to that, his mom's also a very spiritual person who follows this "Gandhi lifestyle" sort of thing. She would meditate for hours every single night, and it's been going on long since my ex was still a kid).
I really want to know what's going on with me ? Can someone please help ?