I would like to share with you a story, about how I literally EXPERIENCED the EGO/CHRIST CONSCIENSESS mind and what it felt like. I am a student of A Course in Miracles,and this is what it talks about, and I actually felt it. So I KNOW it is truth. At the tiime I had no clue.
I went to a Catholic priest of all people, who did what he called "Slain in the Spirit" healings, but I didn't know that at the time. All I knew was what I saw him do at a mass..he touched people on the forehead lightly with holy oil and they fell over like bowling pins, Priests altar boys, nuns and lay people.However at that Mass I did not fall, so I figured it was a buncha crap. But years later, my 92 yr old mother made a private appointment with him for me.
He is a very tiny man can't weigh over 140. I am very tall and heavy I weighed at that time about 190.
We met in an office at the college he worked out of. I faced him, he touched my forhead and I fell like a ton of bricks. Now this very tiny man, put ONE skinny arm behind me and gently laid me on the floor. My mother was a witness, she said she couldn't believe it.
I layed there, and my mother said I never moved an eyelash.
Here's what it was like.
Of course my eyes were closed.
On one hand I was TOTALLY aware of what was going on around me. I "SAW" my mother sitting on the couch at my head, bending down looking at my face very intently. Also, I "saw" Rev MacPhearson kneeling on one knee over me, saying very fast, "Holy Spirit come down come down" over and over again.
And someone came in, it was a student that needed to get something out of a file closet that I was laying in front of. He had to step over me and I thought, this is ridiculous I have to GET UP!!
BUT! I couldn't. Because while my EGO mind was analyzing etc, the other half of me was experiencing this TOTAL COMPLETE SILENCE. It was what was holding me there on the floor, this NOTHING. If Someone had set a bomb off I couldn't have moved. SILENCE and NOTHING was what was in control, not me/ my ego. It was amazing. Now, there wasn't any bliss, or ANY emotion at all. Just SILENCE..a VOID. but a FULL void.
And later when I started A Course in Miracles, I realized THAT was the split mind. That is the goal..to reach in my awareness, this silence, where everything and nothing is.
I only wish I had known enough to focus my ego self on the silence, instead of on what was going on around me. And it was also weird that I could see..even the student..talll blonde and handsome, my mother confirmed this..but my eyes were closed.
So I thought I would share this with you spiritual seekers..the split mind is a fact Jack!
Blessing to all..Ametrine
I went to a Catholic priest of all people, who did what he called "Slain in the Spirit" healings, but I didn't know that at the time. All I knew was what I saw him do at a mass..he touched people on the forehead lightly with holy oil and they fell over like bowling pins, Priests altar boys, nuns and lay people.However at that Mass I did not fall, so I figured it was a buncha crap. But years later, my 92 yr old mother made a private appointment with him for me.
He is a very tiny man can't weigh over 140. I am very tall and heavy I weighed at that time about 190.
We met in an office at the college he worked out of. I faced him, he touched my forhead and I fell like a ton of bricks. Now this very tiny man, put ONE skinny arm behind me and gently laid me on the floor. My mother was a witness, she said she couldn't believe it.
I layed there, and my mother said I never moved an eyelash.
Here's what it was like.
Of course my eyes were closed.
On one hand I was TOTALLY aware of what was going on around me. I "SAW" my mother sitting on the couch at my head, bending down looking at my face very intently. Also, I "saw" Rev MacPhearson kneeling on one knee over me, saying very fast, "Holy Spirit come down come down" over and over again.
And someone came in, it was a student that needed to get something out of a file closet that I was laying in front of. He had to step over me and I thought, this is ridiculous I have to GET UP!!
BUT! I couldn't. Because while my EGO mind was analyzing etc, the other half of me was experiencing this TOTAL COMPLETE SILENCE. It was what was holding me there on the floor, this NOTHING. If Someone had set a bomb off I couldn't have moved. SILENCE and NOTHING was what was in control, not me/ my ego. It was amazing. Now, there wasn't any bliss, or ANY emotion at all. Just SILENCE..a VOID. but a FULL void.
And later when I started A Course in Miracles, I realized THAT was the split mind. That is the goal..to reach in my awareness, this silence, where everything and nothing is.
I only wish I had known enough to focus my ego self on the silence, instead of on what was going on around me. And it was also weird that I could see..even the student..talll blonde and handsome, my mother confirmed this..but my eyes were closed.
So I thought I would share this with you spiritual seekers..the split mind is a fact Jack!
Blessing to all..Ametrine