Hey everyone, it's me.Been a long time since I've been here since I had given up on astral projection and focused on other things that preoccupied my life for a while...I...didn't think this would ever happen again but...let me explain.
I went to sleep around 2 am after typing an essay...Suddenly I awoke. My room lay before me exactly as it is in the real world and everything was tinted a perfect blood red. A bizarre, completely devouring terror clutched me as I stared at my room. I had never felt this scared before ever I think. For some reason, every facet of my being was screaming that I had to leave.Escape.Don't know why, don't know what happened before but it just clutched me, an uncontrollable fear.I quickly whipped out of my bed, my soul going back into my body and the world snapping into normal night colors. In a matter of seconds I rushed toward my ceiling light and switched it on. Yellow filled the room and I felt a bit better yet my hard was beating like a hammer and I couldn't stop shaking. I couldn't go to sleep for 2 hours after that, traumatized of falling asleep again.
I can't say why I had that sudden fear but I'm sure I astral projected because when I last did so when I was 12, things were the exact same cept my vision was blue and misty and I was only confused. Something paralyzed me back then and I was scared but eventually that left and I wasn't too shaken up. This one was absolutely terryfying beyond comprehension.
Now to be fair my mind is pretty twisted from various forms of media combined with a very powerful imagination that I've had all my life. That's actually one of the reasons why I'm so scared to obe ever. I know I'd draw malicious and frightening constructs or spirits to me. I'm not as spiritual as I used to be so I feel very on my own in the astral. Even though it seems I always project to the RTZ straight from my body sitting up. I just feel lost and scared and i wish i had a guide but it seems they're no where to be found. Sometimes I wish i could be rid of my sporadic ability to astral project, other times I wish I were brave enough to master it. I'm just so...confused.
A college student with spirits, gpa's and dreams of rock life on his mind. How weird can ya get?
Anyway, I wanted to come to you all cause I know you all have better experience than I with such matters. Could it have been a spirit? Or just my mind going insane? Or maybe even a higher frequency being that made me feel terror. Please gimme your thoughts and also reccomend how I can fix myself...I just want my exploration free.
Much thanks,
Peter.
PS: I remember a strange figment of what might've been a dream before I projected? I saw the half moon up above outside my window as I stood and stared at it. The moon was slowly eclipsed by sheer, darkness and the only thing I could think was..."something horrible is coming." ...Told you I was messed up in the imagination.
I went to sleep around 2 am after typing an essay...Suddenly I awoke. My room lay before me exactly as it is in the real world and everything was tinted a perfect blood red. A bizarre, completely devouring terror clutched me as I stared at my room. I had never felt this scared before ever I think. For some reason, every facet of my being was screaming that I had to leave.Escape.Don't know why, don't know what happened before but it just clutched me, an uncontrollable fear.I quickly whipped out of my bed, my soul going back into my body and the world snapping into normal night colors. In a matter of seconds I rushed toward my ceiling light and switched it on. Yellow filled the room and I felt a bit better yet my hard was beating like a hammer and I couldn't stop shaking. I couldn't go to sleep for 2 hours after that, traumatized of falling asleep again.
I can't say why I had that sudden fear but I'm sure I astral projected because when I last did so when I was 12, things were the exact same cept my vision was blue and misty and I was only confused. Something paralyzed me back then and I was scared but eventually that left and I wasn't too shaken up. This one was absolutely terryfying beyond comprehension.
Now to be fair my mind is pretty twisted from various forms of media combined with a very powerful imagination that I've had all my life. That's actually one of the reasons why I'm so scared to obe ever. I know I'd draw malicious and frightening constructs or spirits to me. I'm not as spiritual as I used to be so I feel very on my own in the astral. Even though it seems I always project to the RTZ straight from my body sitting up. I just feel lost and scared and i wish i had a guide but it seems they're no where to be found. Sometimes I wish i could be rid of my sporadic ability to astral project, other times I wish I were brave enough to master it. I'm just so...confused.
A college student with spirits, gpa's and dreams of rock life on his mind. How weird can ya get?
Anyway, I wanted to come to you all cause I know you all have better experience than I with such matters. Could it have been a spirit? Or just my mind going insane? Or maybe even a higher frequency being that made me feel terror. Please gimme your thoughts and also reccomend how I can fix myself...I just want my exploration free.
Much thanks,
Peter.
PS: I remember a strange figment of what might've been a dream before I projected? I saw the half moon up above outside my window as I stood and stared at it. The moon was slowly eclipsed by sheer, darkness and the only thing I could think was..."something horrible is coming." ...Told you I was messed up in the imagination.