Hi AP'ers, this is my first post. I've browsed these forums several times and feel that this is a healthy and thriving online community for those interested in the development of conciousness. So, hello and continue the good work!
Intro aside, I want to describe something that I have felt/experienced as a child, perhaps about 9 years old, maybe younger. It was during a dream, but it was such a dream that is has imbedded itself in my memory and feels so much more important than "all the rest".
The dream, then:
1. In the dream, it felt around 4 am; the sky was turning from black to a rich deep blue. This was very vivid. There was something scenic about it that is still, over a decade later, crystal clear in my minds eye.
2. I felt an urge to make my way to the front door; it felt like someone was waiting for me. I just had the urge to open it. And when I did, that's when the feeling happened. Although I could see nothing in front of my house other than the norm, there was this overwhelming prescence that rushed through me. It was huge, like, massive although I could only feel it. I was in sheer awe but not necessarily happy, fearful but not physically able to react to it. It's kinda like time froze around me and I was left standing jaw-wide-open.
3. In some ways, looking back, it could be described as what it might feel like when, in "The Matrix", Neo is plugged-in for the first time and his face writhes and contorts. I can almost imagine his brain going into some sort of shock for a brief moment and this is sort of what this felt like.
4. It wasn't nostalgia, it COULD be likened to deja vu but it was a bit too "big", basically it was a bizarre feeling that seems so profound for someone as young as I at the time to be able to actually remember. It was very final, like, "omg, this is it", kind of thing.
I wanted to make this post in an attempt to better understand it and in hope that someone knows what I'm talking about.
Thanks!
Intro aside, I want to describe something that I have felt/experienced as a child, perhaps about 9 years old, maybe younger. It was during a dream, but it was such a dream that is has imbedded itself in my memory and feels so much more important than "all the rest".
The dream, then:
1. In the dream, it felt around 4 am; the sky was turning from black to a rich deep blue. This was very vivid. There was something scenic about it that is still, over a decade later, crystal clear in my minds eye.
2. I felt an urge to make my way to the front door; it felt like someone was waiting for me. I just had the urge to open it. And when I did, that's when the feeling happened. Although I could see nothing in front of my house other than the norm, there was this overwhelming prescence that rushed through me. It was huge, like, massive although I could only feel it. I was in sheer awe but not necessarily happy, fearful but not physically able to react to it. It's kinda like time froze around me and I was left standing jaw-wide-open.
3. In some ways, looking back, it could be described as what it might feel like when, in "The Matrix", Neo is plugged-in for the first time and his face writhes and contorts. I can almost imagine his brain going into some sort of shock for a brief moment and this is sort of what this felt like.
4. It wasn't nostalgia, it COULD be likened to deja vu but it was a bit too "big", basically it was a bizarre feeling that seems so profound for someone as young as I at the time to be able to actually remember. It was very final, like, "omg, this is it", kind of thing.
I wanted to make this post in an attempt to better understand it and in hope that someone knows what I'm talking about.
Thanks!