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Once again, I'm uncertain  

I was in a regular dream, nothing special going on. At one point I was sleeping in a bed that did not belong to me, standing in a room that I did not recognize. What happened then was that I did a reality-test: I squeezed the tip of my nose, blocking my airway. I could breathe through it, and I thought: "Then I'm...in a dream? Sweet!" But I was never ONCE super enthusiastic about it, just a little bit curious. I thought I would try to rub my hands because I was starting to feel like I was being pulled out of it, so I did, and I remained where I was. I tried to "conjure up" stuff, but I was completely unable to modify my dreamworld. I then just got an urge to jump out of the window and down on the grass, so I did. At that point I lost any kind of lucidity.

What was it all about? Maybe I was just lucid, but not able to control anything, just aware but too inexperienced to play around? Or was it just a dream about being lucid?

EDIT
Oh, I forgot to mention: It's my first lucid dream

So I'm trying to achieve a lucid dream...I've never had one in my entire life (as far as I can remember) and my dreams are always very, very blurry and vague. However that is besides the point.

I've been trying to do the WBTB technique, but no matter how tired I am when I go to bed, I ALWAYS wake up at least 1-2 hours before my alarm goes off. I'm so frustrated.
How can I stop myself from waking up when I shouldn't? I try my best not to think about the alarm, and in fact I never do think about it...I don't know why I always wake up too early.
Help? 

Hey there! Since I'm new here I might also just do a super quick introduction.

Name: Mia.
Age: 22.
Nationality: Danish.
Experience with OBEs and APs: Close to none.

-Now on to the fun part!

About a month ago or so, I read a random article on wikipedia. It was part of a forum game. It so happened to be on sleep paralysis-and I was stunned for a second while reading it. So that was it! What I'd experienced once as a teenager, and a lot more now as an adult (I'm a horrible sleeper, I can stay awake for days, and then collapse and sleep for days too). I googled it, and when I read about astral projecting I was even more shocked. What an amazing thing!

And then it struck me. I could meet him again. The guy I fell in love with, who commited suicide May this year. I'm still not over the grief, and this is the one, big reason why I so desperately wanted to learn this. I relaxed myself. I would have to go into sleep paralysis again first, and that doesn't happen to me all that often -maybe once or twice a month, at best.

The most amazing thing happened that same night. I went into sleep paralysis. I was about to fall asleep, but then I remembered what I'd read about online. All of the different methods, how to stay calm and not get excited; to go with the flow. And I did. I tried to get out of my body by simply standing up, and here's what happened:

A sound roared in my ears, and the best way to describe it, was that it was similar to when experienced a slight pain in my ears from even the slightest noises, when I accidentically overdosed slightly on morphine once. Like, when a baby screams really loud, and your ears reacts by going *crack*. It was very dark, and my entire body felt peculiar. Tingly and almost ticklish. I also heard very highpitched noises. I suddenly saw what I was SURE was someone's face with my eyes closed, and it was in bright yellow/green, like neon. I don't know who it was, it was blurry but clear at the same time. It was at that point that I just stopped what I was doing, because it was all very new to me, and honestly I was freaked out. Right before I saw the face, my heart was going crazy in my chest, and I'm not sure that it was just from being terrified. I was as calm as I could be.

So, was I any close? Or miles away from projecting? Please tell me!