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A long time ago i have learned that if i intensively visualize something on a blank wall for a few minutes, and after i enter the alpha state, that i start getting a after-image in the precise shape of the shape or thing i was visualizing, sometimes even with color (non-inversed color), which is, literally hallucinating what i visualize, which is something i always wanted to have so much (in a controlled way OF COURSE! I definetly DON'T want to hallucinate images caused by intrusive/random thoughts). I even noticed i am able to do this as well with "animations" not just stationary mental images.

The problem here is, that lately i have started to practise this again, and sometimes i am actually able to have good results, the big problem here is the HUGE amount of time it takes (sometimes 15-20m other times it's needed several sessions along the day without results to start have results), and i wonder if there is a way to induce such things a lot faster anytime, and ONLY on specific visualizations we intend and not all of them (i say this because i DEFINITELY don't want to hallucinate those images caused by intrusive thoughts), so i wonder, if THIS is related to clairvoyance at all, that would mean that exercices related to the third eye chakra WOULD help on this (but so far i haven't noticed any difference not even with meditation or energy work).

Unless this is a matter of sheer practise and just that it's enought?

Also someone advised me to actually start to practise on REAL after images on our eyes when looking at bright things, with things like trying to have the after image stay longer, then starting to try manipulating it and to make it stay a lot longer (which wouldn't be the real after image anymore but a generated one from memory of the real one), etc Anyway ever practised something like this ?

The only thing i am afraid of this is later on this starting to come out of control and literally start to hallucinate everything i visualize, which i presume it WON'T happen if we practise and learn this skill in a gradual way ?

I also thought about hypnsosis but forget it, i never had results with it, it almost seems i am unable to be hypnotized, so i guess i will have to develop this skill from sheer practise but i would still apreciate feedback from people who have some experience on this.

I know this is a long post (as always...) but this is a amazing discovery, this may even help some other people that like me are suffering from anxiety of emotional abuse from other people and absolutly can't get away from those persons... (even tough probably it's better have some advice of the persons here that understand about energy work in depth).

After months and months of daily emotion abuse and picking on by my boss because of the mistakes i do at work in a daily basis (which is my own oncle, this is a long story not necessary to give full explanations here, all that matters is that i am completly stuck with this job and i have no other alternative because of my autism/asperger personality, by the way he is bipolar and schysofrenic) and of several panic attacks and anxiety, along with very strong feelings of dread, fear and shame, since i have to contain myself to not respond to provocations, for the last months i got real desperate and start to search everywhere in learning how to IGNORE/ACCEPT provocations, "belittling" and scoldings without arguing back of feel very strong negative emotions.

Because ever since i got to this job i started to develop a huge phobia from angry people and yelling, and in top of this i have some phobias since a child because of being bullied at school (n fact i AM being bullying/picked on by absolutly everyone in my whole life, mostly because of the asperger personality i have so i am treated like a child even tough i am 32 years old because i interpret everything literally or in the opposite way of what the others are thinking) which causes me to always feel very strong feelings of shame and humiliation when being picked on or pointed for doing mistakes, and since my boss is almost like what it's called a "impossible person" (when he is on his angry mood, since he is bipolar and schyzofrenic) it's useless even trying to argue back it only makes him more mad, anyone that wants to keep this job has to learn to shup up and not fight back (one of his employies was already fired because of this before) no matter how unfair or provocative are the things he says. Also of course it's absolutly useless talking to him explaining that i might be asperger, he ONLY believes what he wants to believe and it's very very stubborn, he just thinks i don't do enought effort and that's all.

Since i don't even have chance to go to shrinks or doctors, ever since november i started making a very detailed study and dairy about my daily life, for example, i take note everytime i get angry, which situations make me angry or feel specific negative emotions, and also what i watch on tv has a negative effect on my mind or not (check this post : http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_spiritual_evolution/cause_of_the_so_called_quotbad_luckquotquot13th_fridayquotlike_days-t34252.0.html oh by the way!! I have discovered that after all this is NOT the cause of the "bad luck" or negative emotions i have, it was indeed coincidences), and also the degree of negative emotions i feel when i am picked on or provoqued by my boss or my family, because i HAVE to discover what exactly makes my ego so reactive, or if this is all influence of the tv shows i watch/videogames or even the kind of unsual sexual desires i have (which isn't necessary to talk about here).

Then a few weeks ago, during the daily bus rides i have to take to get to my job (they are 40m long) i had a great idea, why not start doing a "faster" and short new energy ways exercice to see if this has any effect on dealing with emotions? After all i already tried almost everything and almost nothing so far worked, except presence methods by eckhart tolle on "the power of now", that worked for a while but i have to constantly read his book over and over to keep my mind primed for this, to be able to remember to be present and accept the "now" all the time and this has to be done consciously and of course during a HUGE pressure job that this is, it's very difficult remembering this during the job because the provocations happen always by surprise when my boss sees i do a mistake or have any single hesitation.
So i start doing this to help me stop feeling such intense reactions from my ego from being scolded and belittled/provoqued. Since i am limited to 40m on the bus i now do this in a daily basis, NOTE that most of these brushing/wrapping mental actions using body awareness are done almost in a "hurry" and it's not very throught or intense, besides i have trouble fully concentrating on this, so i think that this training isn't THAT intensive on chakras as you might think :

- mentally brushing my foot chakra, then the whole foot top and the sole and toes
- wrapping the ankle
- brushing the front and back of my lower leg
- wrapping the knee joint
- brushing front and back of upper leg
- brushing hip joint
- repeat the above steps in the right leg

- mentally brushing my hand top and palm
- wrapping the wrist
- brushing the forearm, on the outside and inside part
- wrapping the elbow joint
- brushing the upper arm on the outside and inside part
- wrapping the shoulder joint
- repeat all the above on the right arm

- stirring action on the root chakra directly
- brushing action very slowly starting from coccyx and then up to the neck, each minute on a chakra level area (for example, i spend 1m brushing up and down a specific part of the spine near each of the major chakras)
- doing a brushing action very slowly from the body front, starting at the solar plexus area, then heart chakra area and then throat area
- a wide wrapping horizontal action around my neck, covering also throat chakra on the front, and the shoulders surface
- stirring action on the chin (ADMEITUS chakra) or sometimes brushing action instead, then nose point, then the 3rd eye chakra directly, then the back of the head (ERECHTHEUS chakra area), and finally the crown chakra
- brushing wide action starting from throat chakra, passing through chin, lips, nose, 3rd eye, then to crown chakra going in a straight line inside my head starting from 3rd eye, then back down to my back of the back and ending at the neck, and then repeating this action a few times quickly, again starting from the throat chakra
- then to finish i do a mental brushing action in a straight line between my 3rd eye and ERECHTHEUS chakra area, almost like there was being a imaginary physical wire being pulled back and forth, i have read some advice like this somewhere
- sometimes to conclude i do some kind of grounding exercice, altough i never noticed any negative side effects when not doing it (by the way i always have to do a 15m walk on foot to reach my job after i arrive by bus, maybe this has some grounding effect i believe)

Well, in the first 1-2 days i don't notice anything different, BUT after 2-3 days i start noticing "miraculous" changes, instinctively i start feeling less fear and dread when confrented with the phobia triggers (boss yelling or getting angry), i notice that in the first days this gradually improves each day, for example usually it takes a week of n.e.w. to me feel almost no fear or panic/dread during those provocations or at least decrease a lot the frequency at which they happen (since they never dissapear completly), BUT strangely i noticed there is still a lot of intensity of the shame/humiliation feelings even tough sometimes i don't have them, so even the frequency of those get reduced as well.

And that's not all i even feel some internal peace of spirit during the "calm times" (i mean, when my boss isn't angry) that i don't usually feel, and i start working better and faster, BUT of course those mistakes i do because of being asperger and having literal thinking that can't be helped of course, so it's almost impossible to completly avoid getting misunderstoodings from my boss orders, but at least i feel a lot more confortable when being confronted by mistakes even tough the humiliation and shame emotions are still frequently present frequently but even those seems to happen less frequently now. By the way the panic/dread feelings DO come back sometimes, but happen a LOT less frequently.

What is amazing in this is that this happens NATURALLY and automatically, i DON'T have to conciously try to be calm, or to remember to accept the present and the emotions, this is exactly what i needed, because with all the huge pressure i have to do everything fast and without mistakes and of course when the mistakes happen, my boss imediatly started yelling and belittling and of course it always caught me by surprise it's impossible to remember to not react, but when doing new i don't have to worry about this anymore, even tough sometimes i still react.

Also i noticed i frequently get small aches/needle like pain in my throat and heart chakras always at the front part of the body (not in my back) and even on the crown chakra, this of course didn't happen when i didn't do new), but it's always small aches so i guess i am not working too hard on them, somedays it's on the heart chakra, other's on the throat chakra and others on the crown, but fortunately those are the only negative side effects i had so far. Oh i remember now sometimes i also have a ache on the spine level of the solar plexus chakra or heart chakra, but this is rare.

And now it's the amazing thing, after 2-3 weeks, i started to get tired of doing this on a daily basis (the big problem is that i have a lot of trouble doing new in non-responsible areas because i tend to stay on them for almost 5 minutes because i am afraid i am "not doing it right"), so i tried stopping doing n.e.w. interely to see what happens, and you can believe what happened?? After 2-3 days of stopping doing it gradually it all came back to "normal" !!! I mean, the fear and dread emotions just came back everytime the phobias are triggered, and of course the internal peace was completly gone! This was by the way, a huge shock to me, because i was still thinking this was just coincidence, i never tought n.e.w. would REALLY be the responsable for the improvement of the negative emotions handling, and to be so strong to the point of being able to afffect that, because never before i had any indication that n.e.w. ever did any benefict to me when i did it a few years ago, since i never noticed absolutly no difference in psychic habilites or perceptions after doing it, not even in ESP tests, but this was the first time i starting doing n.e.w. after i got to that job, so this time i was able to finally notice any major improvements by using n.e.w. the problem is that they are ONLY temporary... I guess it's necessary to get SERIOUS on n.e.w. (for example do the full energy work exercices) for this to do permanent changes in long term? The problem is that it's still very tedious to do n.e.w. specially on the parts that are unresponsive, it's almost like a torture...

The goal of this post is mostly to know if anyone else had this kind of n.e.w. beneficts or if this is a isolated case? And also what you more experienced guys in energy work think of that n.e.w. routine, could it be done more effeciently? Is it too "heavy", since i am working at main chakras as well ?

And of course, most importantly, can anyone try a similar routine to see if it also improved their emotions handling ?

OH i almost forgot to say, after a week of stopping doing n.e.w., i tried AGAIN starting doing n.e.w., and amazingly the peace of spirit  gradually came back and starting getting much less intense negative emotions in 2-3 days just like the last time, almost everything improved the same way, i start having the same results again, it's amazing, it's no doubt now this is NOT coincidence it's really n.e.w. that it's doing this since i AM able to reproduce these results!

I hope this is the right place to post this, since probably it is more something to do with my physical eyes, but just wondering if anyone has this problem. Anyway moderators feel free to move the post if necessary.

Everytime i tried that famous exercice to do hemi-sync (crossing the eyes to try to see a white cross in two circles, a blue one and a red one) i noticed something particular : when i look at the circles with focused vision, of course i see them normally, each at the height, but when i cross my eyes to my surprise the right circle is ALWAYS a few centimetres below (vertically), i had to edit the picture to be able to match the circles when having crossed eyes. This of course doesn't only happen with the circles, i think (i am not too sure) this happens with anything i try to see with eyes crossed, also i noticed that the vertical distance sometimes changes a bit more or less 1-2 centimetres.

Is this normal? Sure i do actually use glasses and i have myopia, i don't know if this is the cause, is there anyone here with myopia or that uses glasses that already had this problem as well? Also i wonder if like this the exercice will still be efficient, i don't know what kind of side effect could happen if i am trying to do hemisync with unalligned circles... (probably nothing bad)

I have to ask if anyone ever discovered any connection of the so called bad luck days that all people have in relation to the actions or hobbies they have, because i think i have discovered it in my case, this is something so incredible, i need to know if this happens to other people or not : everytime i play violent pc games (for example FPS shooters or envolving destruction) or watch tv shows or animes about fighting (dbz more specifically but also other animes) or with some kind of violence, something very strange happens the next day : i start getting some kind of misterious "bad luck" that lasts sometimes for one day or a few days, depending of the amount of minutes i played or watched the tv show. For example, i do more mistakes and have slower mental thinking in those days, and people start yelling or "bullying" a lot more often and picking on me for things they don't usually pick, and i am talking more specifically at my job with my boss, but it's also with other persons, like my family. Also i noticed my clumsyness increases a LOT in those times, i also have a lot more cases in which i lose my temper and uncontrolled ego situations like arguing with someone, and usually i have a normal control on this when not during these times (since i am actively trying to avoid arguments all the time).

Yes i know everyone will immediatly say this is pure coincidence, but i actually refrained myself of playing those games and tvshows for several days, and those situations were a lot more rare to happen and my life considerably improved along with my "luck" (i quote this since i believe in LOA and i don't believe in luck exactly). As soon as i tried to watch just one of those violent tv shows, or play a video game, just once, in the following day the "bad luck" INSTANTLY came back! Believe me i tried these tests many times (not just 2-3 times, 10 or more times), and very rarely i have "bad luck" days like this when not watching those tvshows or playing games. I even notice the amount of "bad luck" i get is directly proporcional to the amount of violence present in the less violent tv shows i watch and the duration in minutes i watched it.

Since it's VERY hard to me to get rid of these hobbies, and i end up suffering a lot if i refrain myself permanently of doing them, i would like to know if this is normal or not and if anyone at all has any idea of what the heck is this, and if anyone ever had a situation like this and a possible fix, because this definetly isn't normal, it's so bizarre that in fact no one believes me, it's almost like this is black magic, psychic attacks or some kind of possession. It's almost like the law of attraction manifests SO FAST that it attracts similar situations to me to the ones i saw in the tvshows or video games, another strange thing is that it's always stronger when it's about violent things, when it's about positive things, it's not that strong...

Also i considered the chance that this could be somekind of side effect of negative thinking, or because of me actually BELIEVING this would happen this way, but this started to happen LONG before i even noticed or discovered that this was the cause of the bad luck days.

I don't know if this forum is the right place to post this but... if it's not then PLEASE someone advice some place where i could get better help.

To avoid a very long story let's just say that one of my very big traumas/phobias is getting yelled/scolded at, since i feel strong shame (i get all red), anxiety, anger sometimes, and depeding on the person i even get panic attacks and start shaking. Just forget about trying to get professional help, unfortunately it's useless not only because i have a full time job now (and unfortunately it's my own once that is my boss and it's completly impossible trying to find another job in my specific situation) but also all doctors i tried to get treated on (shrinks and psychiatrits) would mostly prescrive drugs with some undesired side effects, so unfortunately the kind of help i need isn't available in the place i live. By the way according to what i read online, i have almost all the symptons of asperger and even dyslexia...

The problem is that this trauma, ever since i started having this job, gets triggered tons of times each day by my boss/oncle and also my father, and it's DEFINETLY slowly increasing, lately i even have full blown panic attacks and start shaking and things like that and no matter what i say to him or to any other members of my family it's no use they don't understand me, infact they don't even believe i have a trauma of such a thing like this (about getting reprimended/scolded/humiliated/yelled at), therefore i keep doing douzens of mistakes at my job because i am all the time so afraid of my boss getting angry, and this is never ending, i almost feel like going crazy many times or even considering suicide (but of course i try as soon as possible to get that idea of my head immediatly) so you see i am really getting desperate and absolutly no one is able to help me or even FULLY understand me!

Also after doing some googling i read somewhere that one of the ways to fix a trauma is by doing intentional "exposure" and actually not trying to avoid the thing i fear the most, also i frequently hear people saying "to face your fears"... So for obvious reasons i can't confront my boss/oncle directly BUT i noticed i feel exactly the same feelings (altough not as strongly as with my oncle) by watching people arguing on tv, even if it's fully fictional, i can't stop feeling just like if i was the person being yelled at, so i guess that maybe it would be a good idea to do intencional exposure like this, BUT of course now applying presence exercices so that i avoid getting so affected emotionally. Anyway this is the only way i see to fix this without any professional help, because there is no other way...

Is there anyone here that got rid of a VERY STRONG trauma like this, or is this a bad idea? 

Also i suspect all this suffering and negative emotions are typical reactions of the ego because of the almost permanent bullying and yelling i get, so a way to get control of the ego would probably be a solution for this, but i don't know, this is the strongest trauma/phobia i have and it keeps being triggered douzens of times now in a daily basis, it doesn't seem that presence exercices or positive thinking is enought for such strong emotional and physical reactions, even tough i AM already able to at least not get affected so much anymore after i am outside of my job environment and i am at home, but the constant panic and fear of doing something wrong is always there no matter how present i am.

I am talking about this healing in this site :
http://www.thehoodedsage.com/healing/remote-healing/

It's not a question of doubting if he is legit or not, it seems a real legit healer as far as i know, the problem is that there is no way of knowing what kind of requirements they talk about when we have to prepare for the healing, because my current situation and schedule is quite complicated (because of my boss in the job i have) and also there is some kind of things that they might ask to do before the healing that i am unable to do.

I would like some feedback of what are the kind of preparations that they talk about when preparing for healings like this, i really hope i am able to find someone here that already took healings like this, or a way to contact someone close to khris krepcik or a collegue of his.

I know that this might belong in the healings discussion but there hasn't been any posts in several months, it seems dead to me, i doubt anyone besides the moderators will read this if i would post this there... Anyway if it's absolutly necessary then move the topic to there.

Well i discovered recently that i have this problem in my heart since birth : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wpw or more exactly THIS is causing the problem : http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bundle_of_Kent

I suppose this is COMPLETLY impossible to heal even by experience healers, right ? Well it might me common sense that the physical treatment they use in the hospital is the best way to fix this but i am not really sure about this... i dont' know why but if i was born with this, it have to mean something in terms of karma i presume i don't know if doing this is really the best idea but unfortunately i will be forcing to do it, since i already got my heart beating at 180 twice (arrhythmias) and i could have died.

Does anyone here has this syndrome or already got it fixed in the hospital by ablatation, know if there is any kind of energy work or psychic training exercice that would be dangerous to practise for people having this like me ? I ask this because specially when trying to astral project, the heart chakra is quite envolved in this, and since this stuff is about electrical circuits in the heart, i am not sure what kind of side effects could this have, either before or after the physical ablatation of the extra pathway in the heart, or even if doing energy work would probably RESTORE the ablated extra pathway (highly unlikely i think but maybe it could happend) which of course would be a bad thing.

I mean, after i read this :

http://www.stuartwildeblog.com/sws-jottings/2009/12/20/protection-from-entities.html

and

this :

http://www.stuartwildeblog.com/richard-tyler/2009/4/9/television-and-the-deadly-black-dust.html

I would ask to the experienced persons here that understand about these things, in which is the first step to start to get rid of all that "negativity" that we get by those means its said in there.

I am asking this because for many years my main hobbies are almost ALL related to violence somehow (video games, anime, tvshows and EVEN fetishes) but in "real" life i am a good person and care about others, altough i always had the problem with anger managment and getting offended real easy and get angry real easy even tough i have been working on that lately by being "aware" and i am starting slowly to control my anger but it seems something is hindering the process, it can only be all this violent stuff i enjoy. But what caused me to try to do this was specialy because i can't stand anymore the suffering i have from getting yelled constantly by other people and being really clumsly, short attention span and slow doing most things, etc because in the specific case of my boss it's completly useless to yell back at him, and ignoring him, well that's a LOT easier said than done, because i instantly get a "heat rise" inside of me, my face gets all red and i instantly feel a huge knot in my stomach and i get pulsating all over me, and this happens naturally even if i try to ignore.

Now that i want to start getting rid of those attachments and entities... what would be the first thing to do ? Maybe just meditation ? Anyways, i already tried a few times to completly stop watching all violent stuff on tv and stopping feeding the sexual desire but as it's obvious it didn't last long, as you can imagine for a person that did enjoyed these things for years, no matter how much "awareness" exercices i do to try to avoid the ego desires i still experience suffering (a lot more than when feeding the desires), and of course help from a professional healer to remove attachments and entities is out of the question since i can't afford one and specially in the place i live.

I really hope someone here has experience on these things because i am kinda lost here, because without all these hobbies, you know what i would be doing? Staring at walls all day... lool Yes because about tv, well it's almost IMPOSSIBLE to find a single tv show without any violence at all, it's just impossible unless i watch babytv or teletubbies (loool) and about video games... almost the same thing i would have to do drastic changes in my lifestyle and tastes to completly avoid violence stuff at all, is this really REALLy that bad as it says in those articles?? Because if is i think i will need serious help...

I mean, i noticed that i actually like doing n.e.w. or any energy work at all, if i am able to actually feel something on the places i am working. And i notice this happens mostly in my left side of the body, in all parts of the right side of my body is very very hard to actually get any feeling at all when doing any energy work at all and this makes the practise of energy work VERY frustating because it's always like i am doing nothing at all, since i feel absolutly nothing... i mean how can i know if it really actually doing something or not to help to develop the energy pathways if i feel absolutly nothing? Because like this, energy work here is almost like "torture" and i can't stand doing it longer than 5 minutes at all...

What you guys recommend, let's suppose i do a general brushing action along the entire right leg and right arm, instead of doing all the labourous energy work that is said on n.e.w. which is INCREDIBLY boring and almost like torture if done when feeling nothing at all because it always gives me the impression that like this i am doing nothing at all.

If i do that general brushing action like that, for only a few minutes, several times a day, would it have the same effect than doing the complete work in every joints (which usually lasts about 1 hour and half in my case in the VERY few times i had enought patience to reach the end) daily ? I really hope there is such shortcut... anyone had experience with this already?

First of all, by hypnagogic imagery i also mean image streaming, those images and feelings we use to get before sleeping but still awake.

I have been reading forums like these for years and i read so much... for what i see here, most of the persons that descrive psychic experiences, such experiences are always SO  similar to the things i have in the hypnagogic imagery stage and also when i am falling asleep. The problem is that just the idea of me having all this work in wanting to develop psychic abilities and the only "results" is... falling asleep is very very un-motivating to me, hence why i had quit SO many times before because to me falling asleep means absolutly not any progress at all and that i am just wasting my time, so you get the idea, just because of this lack of motivation, such exercices most of the times become almost like torture, because usually absolutly nothing works on me ever (not even brainwave entrainment). By the way i use to have hypnagogic imagery almost everytime i do any meditation at all (that is, only when i actually suceed in clearing my mind)

Is there a way to know if such experiences are REALLY some results from psychic development exercices/energy work/meditation or JUST a natural side effect of falling asleep?? Unless maybe these two indications are what i am looking for can someone tell me if these things could be indicators of progress or not :

- many times, when i have hypnagogic imagery and i don't fall asleep afterwards, i feel my whole upper body pulsating. This is quite strange, because i never had any other side effects from this, besides just hypnagogic imagery, maybe this is normal when trying to go to sleep ?

- during hypnagogic imagery state about half of the times i have it, i think i DON'T lose conciousness at all before having it and i am actually aware that i am having it and that i am not actually sleeping. The other times tought, it seems more like a dream and when i awake i notice that i had losed conciousness, and also during it i wasn't aware that i was having those visions. Could this difference mean, that it's actually good progress being aware during hypnagogic imagery state and not losing conciousness ?

Usually the most techniques i see to induce lucid dreams is mainly doing a dream journal (absolutly not practical to me), doing several reality checks a day or doing affirmations at the night before sleeping.

I most say that unfortunately my dreams usually are always very very similar to my real life usually the only thing different is mostly the places i am and the people i see, but using the tecnique to see if it's everything normal around me on the dream doesn't work well because of my dreams always being quite similar to my reallife...

Is there any other means, for someone that hasn't any psychic abilities active? For me the most "confortable" way would be the suggestions but i don't know if that alone is powerfull enough, since i have been doing them everyday and maybe it's normal it takes several days to do effect?

By the way last night i had a psychic dream for the first time since several weeks (i know this because i usually always remember my dreams at morning, SPECIALLY if they are psychic) mostly because i did some energy work awareness in my spine in the heart chakra area, but that's odd every time i did that in the past, it ONLY induced a psychic or lucid dream in the first day, but then if i continue doing in the next days it never works anymore... that's real odd...

I always seem to feel strong "waves" of tingling in my body (kinda like chills i think this is the correct name) when i listen to certain classical music that i found out to be very beautiful. This happens mostly in my back (as a whole, not just the spine) and also in some of my limbs too, but strangely i never noticed any side effects (good or bad ones) about this, even when i tried doing n.e.w again. One of the "problems" if this can be called a problem at all, is that this only happens in the first few times i hear those musics, the most "wear" the music gets, the less stronger are the energy sensations, to the point i feel absolutly no energy sensations anymore even tough i still found the music beautiful, altough at this point the music is already quite all memorized and maybe that's why i don't feel that anymore.

Anyone has idea of why this happens and if there is any kind of benefict with these "energy waves" in terms of energy body development? I mean, i already tried doing n.e.w. and i absolutly never had any such strong energy sensations like these at all.

http://www.ocztechnology.com/products/ocz_peripherals/nia-neural_impulse_actuator

i was quite surprised when i found that such a device even exists ! I mean i always had the huge dream of being able to move objects with my mind, but also being able to move the mouse and other things in my computer and finally this will become true in a certain way I would like anyone that tried this to see if it really works post their experieces here, and also what happens if we try to use N.e.W. techniques to use this... By the way i will buy this in the future so i will later add feedback here too.

After reading douzens of reviews about this thing it REALLY works, of course in a limited way and it's need a lot of practise but in some reviews they say that this thing also responds well when we only have the intention to move a limb, which is more or less similar to what is done in n.e.w. if this could be triggered by n.e.w. exercices it would be great...

By the way since this has alpha and beta waves "brain fingers monitors" i think this would be a helping tool to develop psychic abilities, or to measure how much we would be in alpha and beta stage... I mean it has real time monitor software that reacts to our toughts...

Also as long term side-effects this, this would PROBABLY help those that want to learn psychokinesis, i don't know, since this would have a very similar effect, or be effective as a visualization. Also it would be great if we could see if we are getting hemy-sinc with this or not.

I am using the psywheel to develop psychokinesis (using aluminium foil), but i have found that i have a lot less motivation and more negative thinking when i do it under a container, since it never moves under a container, and like this it's quite difficult for me to pratice for more than 5 minutes, because seing it never moving i can't stop thinking that this isn't going to work.

BUT i do get a lot more motivated if i try to move the psywheel without any container, since it moves sometimes even without any air current in the same room i am (and it's not my breath and not the movement of my body). Even tough it might not me who is moving it, i find more easier and motivating to train psychokinesis for longer times if i train like this, since i am pretending it is really me who is moving it and like this i hope to try to trick my subconcious that he is in fact moving it since i am never sure if it is any air in the room or me, since there is nothing in the room that makes air move.

Like this, i am hoping in medium-long term that the subconcious will REALLY start making it move, since i am already trying to believe it's already him that is moving it, even if it might not be.

Could this work, as long as i keep trying to convince myself that it's me who is moving it, and supress the thoughts i have about doubting that it is me or not moving it even if it's not the case at the time? I found the practise a lot more motivating like this and i am able to even pratice for a half-hour like this since i am always hoping it's finally me who is moving it...

I just made this post since i don't want to be trying this for months if anyone knows that this kind of tricking won't work with the subconcious in people in general, even tough i know it's different for everyone...

note : i am practising it without using hands near, and my head is about 10-20 centimeters away, and my breath does not affect it's movement.

I am currently needing such type of service, but unfortunatley it seems that EVERYONE only thinks in getting money with this, since i absolutly never found anywhere anyone which would give psychic readings for free (with the exception of one member here, but either that person doesn't have time for me or doesn't reply anymore so i need more people), but i would be willing to give something as trade if someone is able to do such thing like for example me giving a healing or attunement since i have been attuned to a few types of reiki before.

Because if not even this message has sucess for this, i am starting to believe that it's indeed impossible to find such thing for free, which is ABSOLUTLY unfair since there is people which heal and give reiki attunements for free, why the heck it doesn't exist anywhere places where people give psychic readings for free too ? Specially because i too like to give healings and reiki attunements for free (i am therefore open to any requests).

Anyone able to do psychic reading/scan or with active psychic abilities interested in helping me will be very welcome of course, and i would prefer contact by private message or even MSN (which is in my profile), since i am also looking for psychic penpals which are extremelly hard to find.

Sorry for the harsh words i used, but it's just i am sometimes starting to get desperated for usually not having replys or people willing to help on this, or the few ones replying usually don't help me at all in the way i needed...

I was sit in a chair, and i was trying to astral project. Ok, after some minutes, i was able to almost not feel my body in contact with the chair, and then i tried to picture in my mind my body (and chair) rotating horizontally clock-wise. For my big surprise (this was the first time) i suceeded and i really felt myself rotating (non physically of course), and the strange is that i was unable to stop rotating even after stopping the pretending. Then i noticed that my head started to be like it was about to "explode" and feeling a strong dizzy feeling on it (was becoming painfull), so i got afraid that i would cause some kind of brain damage or pass out, so i opened my eyes. Another huge surprise, i could notice that my whole vision was shaking left-right (i was really awake, not dreaming), just like if my astral body was still trying to continue rotating clock-wise, but being with the eyes opened seemed to act as a temporary brake (also the dizzyness and dizzy feeling got a lot better and almost dissapeared).

Then i close my eyes so see what would happen, and the rotating feeling resumed almost immediatly (always close wise) even without me wanting, and of course the dizzyness and the feeling of head seemly about to explode came back, and i tried to stand the most time i could, but the dizzyness would just become really unbearable and i was afraid to have some kind of serious problem or some kind of permanent damage.

Of course i tryed to do this sometimes later but it never happened again, even tough sometimes i was able to have that rotation again, but always under control, which is a lot harder, because for some strange reason, my councious mind seems to be resisting to this idea and trying to make me always remember the real position of my body, which hinders a lot what i am trying to do, so i am only able to "rotate" a few seconds.

Just in case that dizzyness or head exploding feeling cames back, is it safe to let it continue, or it's just a matter of practising this until it doesn't happen anymore ?

Like, i am putting my hands near the psywheel (mostly only one hand), and i noticed that the psywheel immediatly starts to spin clockwise with left hand and counter-clockwise when using my right hand. Now, after douzens of testings i came to the conclusion that it's not air or my breath, or even my hand's heat because sometimes this works when my hand is about 10-15 centimeters away from it! (and as soon as i remove it completly, the psywheel stops immediatly and doesn't move anymore). Also my hands aren't hot at the time i do this either, this works exactly the same as when they are very cold.

Another thing is that the psywheel sometimes spins nonstop in the same direction, in a CONSTANT speed (without any jerks) for 2 minutes sometimes, if i don't move my hand farther away.

Also when i do this, i feel minor twitching/minor spasms in small spots in my arm of the hand i am using, and also if i do this for more then 10-15 minutes, i seem to get tired (mostly needing of hyperventilating). Also usually i get a pain in the exact top of my head.

Altough the main reasons i think this isn't psychokinesis is never i never get any control of it (mental), and that when covering the psywheel with a container it absolutly NEVER moves.

I think that all these conditions clearly indicates this IS psychokinesis, right ? And that it's just a matter of practise to being able to control this with the mind, even when using hands near ?

It's because i don't know if it's possible to have full control of the psywheel while using the energy from hands, specially because of the "predefined" directions that each hand makes the psywheel rotate...

Also, is anyone here able to invert at will the direction of the movement of the psywheel, using the SAME hand ?

I would like to know if anyone that has active psychic abilities, and that if such persons tried to use them for fun (without being for personal gain, i mean just for fun, without being selfish), and considering that they woudl be used also to help people when there was a opportunity, i would like to be sure if it still generates problems (i mean, negative energy or karma) from using them for fun, even if they are also use to help others.

It's becuase i have a penpal which does have them and keeps telling me that using them for personal use will give negative energy in long term, and have problems, is this really true, and does this also applys when using them for fun ?

If yes, then this means that psychic abilities are EXCLUSIVELY for helping others, and that it's absolutly forbiden (i mean, unsafe) to use them for personal use AND for fun ? Is it necessary to be absolutly SELFLESS to not have such problems of negative energy in the future about using psychic abilities ?

Also i wonder how the heck some psychic abilities (like psychokinesis and others) are supposed to be used to help others, because if it's not allowed to use them for personal use what are they for ?! To serve as temptation for those liking them ?!

I would like someone which is remote viewer or clairvoyant to help me with developing ESP and abilityes like remote viewing and clairvoyance, altough i need help from someone which started without any natural ability, and that developed the abilityes EXCLUSIVELY from training without natural ability, only people like this will be able to help me, since they started just like me.

Anyone interested in helping me on this or teaching, please send me a private message, i really need help on this, since i starting getting a bit frustated.

Note that i am posting this as a last resourt since i am having lot of trouble about training (nothing works even after several months of training) and i would like how it went for non psionic people like me that developed/learned ESP and to remote view or to have clairvoyance only by training, since maybe i am training incorrectly or doing constant mistakes.

Both arms and legs daily ? Or one day only arms and in other only legs ? I am just asking this since i don't know how much days without doing this daily is necessary to be less effective, and in n.e.w. itself i don't find a general guideline schedule for this...

I dont' know if this is the right forum for this, but i would like to know how to do that, and if it's required active psychic abilities for this, if yes, then is there anyone able to do this on me? I absolutly need to destroy the several attachments i have, most of them are sexual (as fetishes).

I had a strange experience in trance meditation : i was doing a normal trance meditation, in my chair. About 17 minutes later i could finally feel that semi-floating sensation in which i can't feel my whole body, well, mostly the parts in contact with the chair, but i never get better than this, i never stop completly feeling my body.

Then i started sugesting mentally that i would be able to astral project, and i tried to "confuse" the direction in which my body was facing, like i was slowly rotating horizontally and clockwise like if my chair was rotating clockwise. At first nothing happened, but then i actually start to feel a bit dizzy, i don't know if it was the feeling of my body as whole that was rotating, or just the awareness of my head.

I was "visualing" (with touch sense) my bodly awareness as a whole rotating slowly clockwise, but then as i started doing that, it actually started to rotate faster than i wanted to (of course my body was in trance, and not moving a inch) and when i start to get dizzy i was starting to get afraid because it really looked like i was starting to pass out, it was NOT a pleasant feeling at all, when it got even stronger i wad to stop because i was afraid this would do any kind of "permanent damage", because it didn't felt right and of course i didn't wanted to pass out.

To stop that, i simply opened my eyes, as soon as i did that the dizzyness stoped almost completly (but i could steel feel a light rotating sensation, like i could steel feel in which direction it "wanted" to rotate, anyways this seems to indicate i was able to "fool" my subconcious into which direction my body was facing to) but what was really ood is that my view was shaking a bit left-right, it was like a earthquake ! But my eyes were still, it was just like my feeling of the body was still trying to rotate and was just waiting to me close my eyes to continue, because as soon as i closed my eyes again, instantly i got exactly the strong rotating body sensation, i could feel the fast rotation and dizzyness immediatly appeared again and starting to increase. It was not exactly painfull, but was more like a feeling of "this is not right".

So, i moved my body, and then that's it, everything got to normal again, even tought it took some few seconds to completly dissapear that feeling of body rotation, after that i didn't had any kind of unusual side-effects, unless having a higher ringing in the ears than usual.

Well i have some important questions about this :
1. That kind of dizzyness is dangerous when it appears in this kind of situation if i continued to keep eyes closed in that specific situation ? What kind of dangers exactly could this have caused if i continued?

2. I actually did wrong in stoping the trance meditation session by moving the body, or it there was anything else that could be done to help having a astral projection ?

3. When trying to astral project, it's just like this i should do, but instead of using horizontal body rotation as i did, i should use a translation action without going back and forth ? Would that way avoid the dizzyness sensation ? I choosed this one as it feels much easier for me than using the Rope method...

Please someone reply...

It's like this, i was attuned by Stefan from Xehupatl, but i am unable to find persons to give kundalini reiki and gold reiki attunements, specially from the thread of "healing tests", where can i find people to attune ? I mean, i am bit "afraid" of posting this kind of requests directly here, i don't know if Stefan doesn't mind... (i hope he replys me here) But it's just that i am still new on this, and that's why i have these kind of doubts.

Another one, in the course notes it says that some person's problems should not be "messed with" to heal with reiki if the person which heals doesn't "feel right" about doing it, but that's the problem, i don't have that kind of "intuintion" i never feel right or wrong when i am about to heal a person, so is it ok to me heal any kind of desiase/problem of any person that requests healings on these forums ? Or is there a specific kind of problem/desease that i shouldn't try to heal ?

It's just because these doubts that i haven't yet sent healing to the persons here and i would like to start...

Yes, i have to request this as unlike i tought kundalini reiki and gold reiki did absolutly NOTHING in even awakening or helping in developing psychic abilities, just healing works and NOTHING more, no matter how many weeks of daily meditation or n.e.w. i do, even 3 months after being attuned.

What i ask is OOBE reiki or any kind of reiki attunement specially maded to help the developing of psychic abilities (what i mean exactly, is to make the subconcious/mind be much more responsive to exercices to develop psychic abilities).

I know that oobe reiki exists as i have seen in a website, but unfortunately that one in particular i would have to pay and unfortunately i can't afford it (well in fact it is free but only when we "buy" and take a worshop which isn't free).

Ok, maybe moderators or people here won't like these requests, but i hope that someone agrees to do this, as these requests are very important for me :

1. Is anyone here which wants/needs healing, and that accepts being healed EXCLUSIVELY by me ?
2. Is anyone here which wants to be a healer, to be attunned by me ? (yes according to my course notes i should be able to attune people)

For this test i give big preference/priority to those which have psychic sensibility and that are to feel when other people are sending energy to them (which is definetly not my case when i was attuned, i never feeled anything). Or then to those which have some sucess with psychic abilities to see if the attunments i give are sucessfull or not on those people.

But OF COURSE i won't refure to heal people without any psychic sensibility !!

This is because i need to know if i am really able to heal someone and to attune people to be healers, after all the attunments i have done. But i would prefer someone with some kind of psychic sensibility so that the person would feel if my reiki energy would reach the person or not, or to see if the person i attunned would be able to sucessfully heal others.

If anyone agrees on this and gets better with my healings, this would be a HUGE motivation for me, because of the huge lack of results i am having in every kind of things, and better of all it would be a BIG proof that my visualizations to subconcious and requests that i do to my higher self would indeed work, and therefore removing all my doubts that psychic abilities exist afterall (how do you guys expect me to not doubt if in 2 years of training i never had results?).

Also, i would prefer that the persons interested on this would send me a private message instead of replying here, to me give more details of the healing.

first, i am only posting this after i tried to myself heal my mother. But, as nothing psychic seems to ever work on me, all my healings were totally inefficiant, even tought i was attuned to kundalini reiki 1,2,3 and kundalini reiki booster 4,5,6 for nothing!

My mother has her left leg with a big wound, associated with varicose ulcera (and her right leg is also hurt, but don't have a big wound), i don't know if any kind of long distance healing by here can help this ? Also, for someone heal her is it necessary any more data ? This is the first time i request healing in a forum, that's why i don't know very well how to do healing requests.

Also, she is receiving medical treatment (altough i think it's not taking medicamentation drugs it's more like putting something on the wound to heal it, but it's almost inneficiant) but the reason that this doesn't heal is because of the daily need of having to walk a lot and standing up most of the day, mostly to do house work and shopping, so she is unable to cure the wound.

Can someone heal both her legs? And if possible in a way to not trigger any "paranormal" effects as the way i know her she would not like it.(even tough i don't believe anymore that of triggering paranormal effects is possible with just long distance healing, mostly because the attunements i received didn't done absolutly nothing on me).

update : her name is maria cacilda and location is Loulé-Portugal. Is it necessary her full name or more data ?

ok, maybe finally i am starting to understand why i am having so much trouble with techniques to communicate with subconcious, and why i am even having trouble with meditation ! It's as i read in some articles (mostly that one by Peebrain at psipog and the other in oobe book by robert peterson) that we have to communicate with subconcious with emotions or thought concepts, but i am UNABLE to do it ! For example, how the heck am i going to "associate" emotions with every single english word ? I hardly feel any emotions ever, just the more basic ones (basically it's just being happy, sad, with anger, or nostalgia, nothing more), as i am a lot of a word-tought person, and i never think using emotion.

Any tips in how feel emotions when trying to communicate with subconcious ?
it's because i already tried 1000 times (with verbal toughts) and no matter how clear my mind is i never get any kind of feeling. The only thing i ever get in meditation is image streaming and sometimes some verbal toughts that i feel weird as they don't seem created by my concious as all the others are. But this is rare and never happens when i am trying to do it, and sometimes i almost think that this is never going to improve, am i doing something wrong?

first, is if there is any kind of psychic exercice training that we can do in a lucid dream that can help our psychic development MORE and more efficiantly than if practised while awake?

Like for example, doing n.e.w. in a lucid dream if it would have any effect on the energy body itself and develop it better than doing it while awake, or it won't just have any effect at all ?

Second, is it really required to do a dream log and good dream recall to have lucid dreams ? Also from what i remember my dreams (i usually have medium recall of them) they are so real life like that there AREN'T any dream signs or recurring symbols on them like i read in articles about lucid dream. Besides doing reality checks everyday while awake (which i started doing) is there any other way to trigger lucid dreams ? Doing energy raising like it says in n.e.w. is completly inefficiant in my case, as it NEVER affected my dreams quality even if done during a half hour before i go to sleep...

And third and final question if there is any kind of action done in lucid reams to improve subconcious cooperation/communication later when i am awake. I tried just doing post-hypnotic sugestions inside the lucid dream, this doesn't ever work. Also i always had big difficulties when i try to change things in my dream, they only work more or less 50% of the times. But what i would like to know, if the more we try to change things in the dreams like this, if this would have any improvement when trying to communicate with subconcious while awake, and the subconcious reacting better.

That's all.

ok, from now on i will try to avoid long posts, and make them the shortest possible.

I actually have been having some results with moving the psywheel, but i am almost fully convinced that this isn't a result of pk, that's why i made this post because this is creating a big concious mental block to me :

I noticed that i can make the psywheel move in front of me, ONLY when i am very near to it (in this case my head). After many tests during several days, i came to the conclusion that it is the magnetic field effect of my body aura that is making the psywheel move, because as i get furhter way from it, it never moves anymore, and when i am very near it, even not breathing and being completly still, the psywheel keep changing direction all the time but it's not like when there is draughts, so it's not wind or breath, besides with breath it immediatly falls of the pin.

So, what i would like to know if it's possible to ever control the psywheel even it is "inside" the magnetic field of the aura, or is this a hindrance and can never be controlled ? It's because i am much more motivated to pratice this by seeing it move, than sitting more distant and never see it move...

Last question, sometimes ever after just practising once a day for about 10-15 minutes, my exact top of head, in the middle, becomes sore and hurts. Should i ignore this or i have to practise only each two days to prevent this? Anyways psychokinesis is really a ability of the crown chakra or not ?

i know, most people would just recommend me to do meditation, but it's what i have been doing for a long time, but it doesn't seem to have changing anything. For example, i read everywhere that the subconcious reacts with visualization and that is a way to "communicate" with it.

Altough with me that doesn't work, no matter which sense i use, and i wonder how the heck do i "enable" this feature or how do i start developing a communication/cooperation with my subconcious ?

It's because meditation doesn't seem to have done any improvement on this, unless this take several years to happen ? Or perhaps meditation is not effective if not done daily for about 20 minutes mininum ? Is there minimum meditation practise times to it be effective ?

I have also tried the exercice of the red and blue circles to see with eyes crossed to see a cross, but i also don't notice any improvement with that, unless it also takes years to do effect ?

And for last, is there any tuturial in how to communicate with subconcious ? Something similiar to that one in psipog, but written by other person, because that one i don't understand well.

(to boyster only : if you are reading this, please email me as some of the things i say here doesn't apply to you, you are a exception. Also i am still waiting for the reply of my last email, did you received it? Because this is serious, i continue to suffer a lot.)

to all :

Well, i know that this might not be a good idea because of psychic attacks, but i think i have to take the risk. Is there anyone here that can do long distance psychic scans, more specifically, on me ? (for free, of course)

It's that i absolutly need this, because after almost two years of training of trying ALL kinds of psychic training, almost nothing changed on me, and this is NOT normal, nothing is working on me (i am even ultra resistant to hypnosis and to brainwave generators, nothing do any effect on me), not even visualization do any effect. I most admit that the ONLY thing that works it's the energy manipulation of n.e.w, but the only thing i ever feel is physical sensations, i was NEVER affected psychologically by this or any improvement of psychic perceptions (which i don't even have, i am also unable to feel a person presence in a room).

And not only i have a strong health, but according to a T.A.C. (i don't know what is the correct english name for this medical exam, but it's something like this : computurized axial tomography) my brain is PERFECTLY normal, and according to shrinks psychologically i don't have any disorders (unless the obssessive sexual desire, but this maybe is not the cause).

I know that psychic abilities take a long time to develop but TWO YEARS of almost nothing is ridiculous and too much frustating, specially considering i have a strong health and almost never got sick (altough i am overweight, but not much) and that i am even unable to do a simple psiball, something must be wrong with me, so that's why i would like VERY MUCH to have a psychic scan to see what is wrong with me, or if this is because a neg influence or even a "jhynx", which i doubt. Also i would like to know if i have any ultra strong natural shield which keeps me from even having e.s.p., because i don't have any e.s.p, not even after meditation, yes, not even meditation do anything on me, it's been several weeks i do it (not daily, tough). I am even able to not think in nothing for almost a minute, but the only special thing that happens in meditation is image streaming, but i never have improvement in trying to control it, by the way is that the key to remote view, by trying to control those images?

Also it's been several weeks i do almost daily third eye chakra (and other chakras) direct stimulation (like in the aura view manual by robert bruce) and i don't ever feel any bad side effects, simply nothing happens. Just lots of tingling and being sore there but nothing more, it NEVER affects me psychologically, even when i do the arm and leg work of n.e.w and any major stimulation of primary centers.

According to the chakra test (which some people here probably remember, in which we reply a few questions and it gives the percentage of opening of charkas ?) the results is that ALL my chakras are underactive, except the root chakra which is 0% (open), but i don't trust those values much, but they sure reflect my lack of results.

There's gotta be something wrong with me, it's also possible that i have a massive mental block about being skeptical about psychic abilities in my subconcious, but as i am ultra resistant to hypnosis how do i remove this if during almost two years i truly believed on psychic abilities CONCIOUSLY and nothing changed ? Don't tell me it will take ANOTHER 25 years to remove it... (yes, until my 23 years i was skeptical all my life for the simple reason i have NEVER witnessed any paranormal event and never knew any real psychic) Could this explain all my failures?

Also i would like if someone could remote view me, JUST FOR A TEST and a description of my physical characteristics in the face just to confirm that this ability is real (it's not exactly that i don't believe it but it's just for motivation) but also to see my aura because i NEED to know if my energy body is reacting well or not to the psychic exercices i do, because so long time without results makes me desperated and always thinking this is not working, and i would like if my energy body is developing or not, or if the exercices i am doing are all USELESS or if i am going too fast in the exercices.

So, can anyone do a psychic scan on me, send me a ULTRA STRONG psiball to see if i can feel it, try to communicate telepathically to me, because i NEVER witnessed anything "paranormal" and my biggest dream (besides having the psychic abilities themselfs) is to experience something like that. I someone could astral project near it would be very good also, to see if i can see or feel anything.

Oh, i am already guessing what will happen : or no one will reply this post, or everyone which CAN do such psychic scans or some of those tests i asked will say that is not able to do so or will say that those tests are useless or even recommend me to quit trying to be a psion. such kind of comments only makes me think that it doesn't exist such thing as real psychics or psychic abilities, because EVERYONE that i ask this, they always refuse even to admit they have psychic abilities, and this only makes me, each day a little bit, that are just excuses and that it DOESN'T exist real psychics. I am sorry if i am being rude, but i can't believe that such tests are SO HARD to do, considering all i have readed about psychic abilities.

Also, i garantee, i am NOT skeptic, if i was and i didn't believed in psychic abilities i would not spend 2 years wasting time in psychic training and doing n.e.w., but common, after almost two years of almost no results it's everyday becoming a very little more difficult to not be skeptical again as my frustation is growing each day a little more, but now i have a kind of renowed hope as i am finally for the first time doing n.e.w. a lot :

i do 2-3 hours of n.e.w. everyday, if this does not work (for, let's say, 2-3 months), and if no one does to me some tests like i asked, i will have to search for a forced kundalini arousal, i know it's very dangerous (i am very aware of the risks), but i am really DESPERATED of seeing almost EVERYONE here being so successful (with very few exceptions) in developing psychic abilities or having minor results in just a few days and with me NOTHING working in almost two years, if this continues like this it will be really hard to continue fully believing in psychic abilities, because in the last year i truly believed on them even tough i never witnessed any, and each day i believe a very little less.

I know it's much easier to just stop trying to be psion and forget about this, but having psychic abilities was a dream that i haved a long time (mostly becuase of those movies with persons which could levitate objects with the mind, that impressed me a LOT even before knowing that psychic abilities were real) and since i discovered they aren't fantasy it became my biggest dream, and now i would NEVER accept to quit this, i would never be happy in trying to continue to be normal and missing all that wonderfull world of psionics, even me knowing very well the disavantages and dangers that exist, even like that it's MUCH better than continue to be so LIMITED. And yes, i do know that it's not possible to levitate huge things.

Please someone help me and do those tests, i am not demanding this it's just a request, i am sure that is not a sacrifice for any of you that have psychic abilities, don't worry because i am not like those skeptics that don't belive in nothing and that will question everything, i don't demand 100% accurancy in esp like they do, it's just for my motivation and to stop my future attemps in taking drastic measures like the kundalini, which is very probable to happens if no one replys this or do the psychic tests.

Another strange thing is that some people say to me i am not having results because i am training too little and that is necessary a lot of work. Others say i am going too fast and that i risk having a premature opening of the crown chakra (when i was practising psychokinesis), this is very confusing.

If no one replys, if this post is deleted or that people just recommend me to forget about being a psion, i think it's useless to me continue going in these forums, and in that case these forums are just for helping gifted persons, and that these forums are USELESS to help ultra-beginners like me.

Sorry for being rude and talking like this, but this is desperation and because i am really sure that no one will be doing such kind of psychic tests to me and that this will be ignored.

One thing is certain, i will be VERY gratefull to the person that provides me a "paranormal" or psychic experience, by doing those tests.

The only reasons that i don't go to a professional healer is:
1. It doesn't exist any psychic healers in the place i live (algarve, portugal).
2. Even if they exist, how can i know if they are not charlatans, specially those that ask for money ?
3. I can't afford to pay one even if it was genuine.

I have readed somewhere that it exists real psychic healers that do healings for free, but it's almost IMPOSSIBLE to find them, and most of the times it's not in long distance.

so in case no one here can help me at least indicate me a website of someone that does a psychic scan or psychic healing by long distance and for free (which i sincerly don't believe it will be easy to find).

just for being sure, besides doing daily meditation, is it true that :

just by trying to guess things which normally requires e.s.p., and even if we constantly fail to guess, that the more we times we try to guess things like this, the more the intuintion develops and also e.s.p. at the same time ? In long term of course. About meditation i already know it's kinda of required, but i need to know this for motivation reasons, and if this helps the process of awakening e.s.p.

Oh, and the same about visualization, is it normal that in the first months of ever trying to use visualizations to move energy or doing psiballs, that the subconcious doesn't react to it ? Just because it was never used to during all my life ? So it's also a question of insisting in using visualization, and the more it is used, the sooner the subconcious will start to "react" to it?

i use Mirc (irc) chat sometimes but i could NEVER find any channel related to psionics. Ok, i only found one (PSC-online), i don't like it and besides i forgot in which server it is. Is there any other channel about psionics in irc ? If yes, OF COURSE tell the name of the server in which the channel is, and the name of the channel.

And in top of that, the chat software of psipog doesn't work on the computer i can go to the internet (a public computer).

If not, then indicate me websites on the internet with chat about psionics and which doesn't require a external program to chat on it. Also forget about msn messager, remember this is a public computer so i can't install programs on it (but the psipog progr. i could, but doesn't work), and it DOESN'T have msn messager.

Also sorry moderators if this is not the rigth forum to post this but i couldn't find a related forum to post this.

i have readed on a website that it's when the brain is on alpha stage that psychokinesis happen. Is this true ?

Then i must know, when we have hypnagogic imagery at night, is that always in the alpha stage, it can never be in the beta stage ? And about clairvoyance and remote view it also happens in this stage ?

It's because at night, i have been noticing that i can't see hypnagogic imagery while aware of it, as when i am seeing the hypnagogic imagery i never noticed or am aware that i am actually having hypnagogic imagery, and only when i get out of that state i could be aware that i have had hypnagogic imagery. Also, while in hypnagogic imagery i can't do any analisis and think of anything, and i "lose" awareness of whole body (i mean, kind of not feeling the body in contact with the bed and forgeting the positions of my limbs) and just seeing the images in hypnagogic imagery, is this the alpha stage ?

Robert bruce says it's also called trance but how can that be if this happens even if my body isn't relaxed when trying to sleep at night ? Also i could NEVER reach the alpha stage and i had my eyes opened, is it possible and is that what is required to do psychokinesis ?

But this sucks, if psychokinesis can only be done in this stage it means we can't think, do analizys, control pk or even be aware that we are doing it without getting out of that stage ?

OR this improves with practise, and that, with practise we can think, analyze, be aware and control psychic abilities while in the alpha stage ? If not, how to control psychokinesis, remote view and clairvoyance if we can't even be aware that we are doing them ?!

This post is mainly because what the person "thelou" said in the post "newbie calling for help" (on obbe discussions subforum) : "When that happens your conscious mind is starting to interact more with your subconscious mind. Many people, my self included have come to believe that there is literally a new neural network of nerves that literally is grown/built between the left and right hemispheres. Along with your cerebral cortex. (A nerve bundle that links left and right hemispheres together)."

I also have seen similar talk about that in Robert Peterson's online book named "Out of Body Experiences How to have them and what to expect", chapter 7 "The Party" right at the end of chapter he says "These exercises have another benefit. By doing this, you are learning to unite the conscious with the subconscious. You are learning to keep yourself conscious during the times when your subconscious is usually in control. And when that happens, your conscious can talk directly to your subconscious without interference. Then magical things will start to happen. Your subconscious will cooperate with your conscious. Your left brain will cooperate with your right brain. Your creative mind will cooperate with your analytical mind. All areas of your life will improve."

And for last, in a site about learning to see auras, which some person may already know: http://ourworld.compuserve.com/homepages/health_/seeau.htm and i will also repeat what it says there "This exercise aims to stimulate the communication between both hemispheres of the brain, thereby increasing the "processing power" needed to see Auras.","This exercise turns out to be extremely beneficial: 5 minutes of it doubles your bioenergy and promotes self healing."

Now, i have some questions about this :

1. That exercice in the link i indicated, about the two circles, of trying to see a cross in those two circles, is a big help to syncronize both brain sides ? I hope so, as the circule exercice is much easier to do than to practise AP as i am overweight.

2. When i practise that exercice, there is a litte problem : when i cross my eyes to "fuse" the circles (also it's easy to do that now without using the finger) i usually do see the red circle (the right one) always above the blue one (i mean ABOVE not ON TOP) and this way i can't overllap both circles and i have to lean my head to the left a little to see the circles at the same horizontal level. Is this normal ? It's supposed to have to lean the head to "level up" the circles or does this change with practise ? Again, i am not talking about seeing a circle on top the other, look at this link : wwwwwwwwwwww i have changed the circles picture to the way i see them when i cross my eyes and that's why i have to lean my head to the left.

3. so all that means that one side of the brain is the conscious mind and the other is the subconcious mind ? Which one is each ?

4. does brain syncronization help a lot in psychic abilities ? I think so, as in my case visualizations DOESN'T communicate with my subconcious, and that's why i am even unable to do psiballs, as in my case visualizations DOESN'T make "communication" with the subconcious, and also using any other sense. Does this mean that if my brain sides became syncronized AND when concious mind and subconcious mind are working together it will finally make me able to start developing psychic abilities? It's because every other methods, even after weeks of practise doesn't seem to have any significant results.

5. does that syncronization affects/develops any of the chakras, mainly, the third eye chakra and crown chakra ?

There, i think it's all the questions i have about this subject, please sorry if they are too many.

i have been wondering why the pending doesn't work well with me. Everytime i try pendling, almost always it "lyes" to me. Yes maybe many of you will tell that it takes practise, but this is a bit weird, is it normal that the subconcious "lyes" to me even with questions that i known conciously?! I tryed questions related to ESP but of course i failed just as with very simple questions i already know the answer, even with those it "lyes" to me but i am pretty sure about the directions of "yes" and "no" so the problem isn't that. I admit it's very rare to do pendling, but i already did several tries (in different days) and this never improves. Now the main 2 questions :

Just the simple act of doing this several times, and practising a lot, makes the subconcious "lyes" each time less and less, and even start using ESP ? Or there is any kind of psychic development REQUIRED and this practise doesn't never improve the response of pendlum ? I must know this so that i gain motivation to practise this, as at least it will not be for nothing, i am just afraid that practise would never improve this, that's because i maded this post.

heh, the key is in your beliefs, when you first work on them the rest will be easier
motivation is private matter
as for repetitions, i try several methods and use the working one, or until i succeed, or develop until i'm ready to do something

NEW worked for my from the beggining, but it depends on energy blockades you developed over the years, at first energy flow is very weak for some, being sceptical could have blocked you considerably

if it's boring and tedious then stop doing it [8]

yuo generate energy to move your muscles, override, and have energy to your disposition, use it for whatever you like, you can use it in trance but there are odds that you start coming out of the trance due to tension

Hi cesm23,

We ALL have the ability to hear, see, feel the spirits around us. For most of us it's a trait that was "trained" out of us as kids. Do you remember ever having imaginary friends? Often they're not really imaginary, but our "knows whats best for us to fit in to society" parents will have convinced us of the fact. NOw that we're older, we've had all that experience of ignoring the spirit world to undo.

Some people are better at it than others. Just like art. I'm no where near as good at drawing things as my brother, but given enough time and practice, I would be as good. Some of us just have to work at it a little harder.

So, keeping in mind that anyone is capable of communicating with the spirit world, the big question is how?

Simple. One word - MEDITATION.
Meditation is the key to everything with regards to psychic development.

What you're doing while meditation is tuning out to the physical world around you, and opening up to your inner self. The first spirit being that you will ever encounter is your own higher spirit self. It all begins here.

Through meditation, seeking that quiet place within you, you learn to silently listen to your inner voice - your intuition. This is your spirit self speaking to you, guiding and directing. From there, with the assistence of your intuition and the communication you can develop with your higher self, you start learning to feel more of your energy body, and from there the psychic abilities develop.

It's by no means a quick fix, but with regards to this kind of thing, there never is.

The one thing that will come quickly once you start to meditate though, is the ability to detach yourself from the world around you and all its problems. From here you can more easily look at problems objectively, and calmly find the solution.

Does that help?

Regards,
James.