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This happens during half a year already. During the day when I look at the clock or watch I constantly see the same numbers, like 1:11 or 3:33, 5:55. I live in the country where the time is 24 hours.  So I see numbers like 22:22, 23:23. Often I see 0:00, that is in the midnight. (I go to bed late) This happens every single day from 2 or three times to about 7 times... I see numbers like 16:16 or I may see 12:21, 13:31 and stuff like that. Few times I had nights when I for some reason was waking up every next hour and looked at the clock and saw the next even numbers and felt asleep again:1:11, 2:22, 3:33, 4:44 and so on.  It is normal to sometimes see this, when it is said that you may make a wish and it will come true. But what the heck does this mean if I see this so often??? And what makes it kinda cool is that when I make a wish it comes true always! I know you might not believe but it is true. So I try not to make any wishes because I am afraid that I will make a wrong wish. AND when I told it to my husband he first laughed and then he started to see this TOO!! At first he made fun of it but when it started to get too often he started to wonder what could it mean too. I think it is some  paranormal activity around me. But what could this mean? And why does it involve my husband, not only me? I also had poltergeist thing but it seemed to end but still sometimes strange things happen that just drive me crazy because it always happen in a way that makes me doubt my sanity. I just can't figure out if it only seemed to me or I saw it real. Does anyone know what could these even numbers mean? What could be behind it and what should I do about it?

i am pursued by signs and they're like the astral progection of my mind. somehow i made something with my mind and "opened" it without intention. i mean the signs are not telling me what i don't know usually but what i think of in the minute. my mom also sees signs when she thinks of me and when she tells me i see that it was what i already know. they are real. what's that?? it happens to ten times a day. and  that minutes i feel something like sort of transe state. i am in transe most time of the day.
there's another thing that i am stuck on. don't take me as playing here but it is what happens. few years ago i was in crimea near the  "devil's fallos" stone ( believed to have devilish power in it ) and i made a wish that devil come and make love to me. idiot. in half a year i have a psychosis attack and hallucinating where my wish is  fulfilled. since then i have signs. i see hearts made of different dirt and nasty things. they persistantly follow me. it sort of fades a bit when i try not to care for them but lately i noticed that it does not work. church does not help, i see those hearts in there made of holy water drops and candle wax. once i saw a heart in the church that was few metres size covering the whole floor! more than those signs it is not going, i think because i don't give the permission.  once i asked him to show his face and then together with hearts i see now evil faces, sort of like in scary movies. once it was so big and vivid that i was so lied up i even pictured it. those faces smile and i feel no any particular danger unless he does not want me to yet, exept that he won't leave me alone...
i also had another astral lover i created listening to ville valo (Him), i was drawing him in a very erotic extasy. i could not draw anything else exept him. do you think ville valo is possessed?? i think he is and he does not know it. if he does it is even worse. there is something he does to his music that cause deilusional state of mind to a listener. i prayed with passion and totally refused him and with time he has left me, though sometimes he tries to bring me back. but no passionate prayer works with this one. he definetely shows me that he is not scared of my prayers... who the hell is he? i asked for his name but he does not want to respond on this request. in the dream i had at night he told "i want love i want love i want love". looks like i made the  stupidest thing: i promised my love to devil. that's why prayer does not help. god is love and i turned love upside down.
does anyone know how to find out who he is? i am not scared. though i want him to go or i would better do want him to go, i know. i try to fall into religious extasy, i thought it will help, but i already don't know if god thing is devil's work also while i think of myself as destined to become saint. i attended a religious sect of adventists of 7th day. two times but it was enough for me to get hypnotised or what they do with people. do you know how to GET RID of religious HYPNOSIS they make in SECTS? this does not let me think freely, i cant make myself whole.
looking for any comments or advise.

I will tell you things that sound like I am just shizophonic and this is the product of my ill brain. Noone who knows that I am sick with shiz believes me and I only hope that you here within this forum will know what I am talking about.
I am ill since five years old. Now I am 27. I take medical treatment for six years and already feel like my mind is getting more normal but there are things that don't let me live at all. Half a year ago I did exorcism, they took away that creature but something is still with me though I feel  the main thing is going away.
For 10 years I did not fight anything, I was wery down. I know that this is my fault. And now I feel it wants my death. I feel helpless, I just feel helpless and miserable.
I can name two of them. One is that one certain person sent on me. He was jealous on my talent and he had abilities to black magic though he was young then but now I am sure he practises it. This creature makes me feel like a excrement, miserable and weak. Whatever I do he whispers: you are ridiculous, you will never make it, don't make me laugh with your miserable tryings. It tells me that I lost anything and that fighting wont help anything and the strongest thing I can make is kill myself. It is in my mind each second I am awake. I know that I see him but I just cant fight, I don't know why, maybe I am really a excrement, I don't know why I cant fight it, please help, I am so scared, I don't want to die. I feel like I am immured. I cant do anything, I do nothing, and I cant explain what I have been doing during the day, I don't remember.
The other one is in my father. He( the creature in my father) is very evil, I think he is a devil. It is in my eyes. He takes my sexuality and corrupts it. He feels with my feelings. He forses me to feel sex to every person that causes me in reality unsexual  attitude, people that I don't feel anything like that , that is my relatives, same sex people, old men and women, little children, everyone! And he makes it so that it is in my eyes, voice, so that they all feel that I feel sexual feelings to them, I look like it. The more I try to repress it the worse it gets. Everyone thinks I am a whore. And I am absolutely not, I am a good person. I even never watch  any porn, I hate it. My father is the person who believes that I really feel this. This devil makes him  be so suspicious that he thinks that I masturbate 50 times a day with his things. He talks to me with second meanings insulting me. And it always is like about me really, it touches me deeply.
This comes inside every person that  this sex thing appears and they start to talk to me with second meanings insulting me in most severe ways, hurting me, I think my soul bleeds... and when I ask them they don't understand what I am talking about. My father hates me like the  biggest enemy and makes it clear he wants my death. But in reality he is very kind with me and when I ask him he gets very angry and says its not true, its bovine excrement. It is with my mother also.... He does it every time he sees me. Everyone does it.  I cant stand the pain.
When I go to bed I doubt if I wake up and  in the morning I doubt if I live up till the evening. And lately I think it is poltergeist. I hear sounds like metal scrubbing, they are loud and go from inside of the room near the roof. Few times the TV turned on itself and once the light turned off and there was no problem with the switch...