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Whenever I go into sleep paralysis (and it is very often), I know that I only have a certain amount of time to concentrate before I can even attempt to project. I feel like I have very little time because if  I wait too long then the black cloaked figure comes and stands in my room. He has never been threatening, I believe I even communicated with him once before. However his appearance is very unnerving and usually makes me bail out of my sp. Eventually he always shows up. When I realize that im in sp mode I can feel a negative presence closing in on my location. Like some how he senses that my mind has become conscious outside of my physical self and he drops whatever he is doing to come and watch me.

one time I was on my couch and I said "why are you doing this"
And he said "I'm not a guy". It was telepathic.

Sometimes there is another dark figure however he is a lot thinner and always waves his arms and gets in my face, once they were both present and the cloaked one just stared on.

So how should I address this entity? Could he be my guide? He looks like a guy, but he says he's not?

I've been looking for a place to share my experiences and learn from the experience of others as to how to advance my unconscious. I really feel that I have only astra-projected once, but I have had sleep paralysis for most of my life. Often times I get confused because i will go through periods of lucid dreaming, to regular dreaming, to sleep paralysis, all in different sequence sometimes. WHen I was younger I used to "wake up" paralyzed while people I knew like my parents or sister were going about their regular things if it was during the day. However two years ago I started to have sleep paralysis more and more, usually a few times a week, I begun seeing the "dark figures" and one especially that stands near wherever I am sleeping. I then began doing research by googling things such as "sleep can't move". It was then that I began seeing an uncanny resemblance to my experiences with those of other peoples (i still find it hard to believe it can be explained by science and that im hallucinating my biggest fears).

One night I woke up (the tv was on) and there was this furry little thing sitting on my stomach). I threw him off. Then I heard a voice say "stand up". I still remember the show that was playing although in my current state I couldn't hear the sound (it was the Jersey Shore lol). It was at that point that I stood up, however I did not look to see if my body was there because I was afraid to look. I then walked into the living room of my apartment and that little furry thing was in there, he told me not to open the front door (i dont know if he told me but thats the vibe i got). I picked him up and threw him, I then opened the door. In the doorway which led outside of my apartment and into the hall stood the black figure waiting and as I backed up the room filled with black and i awoke.

This is one episode I had where I feel like I had astra-projected, I was still fully aware, like sleep paralysis, but I still cannot be sure because i didn't turn back to look at myself.

Another time I "woke up" and heard someone banging on my front apartment door. I immediately couldn't move but I knew I had to get up and keep whatever was pounding on the outside. I wouldn't let myself become unparalysed and then I heard the door blow open. I felt the presence of a child run past my bed and go through the kitchen. I didn't see him but I heard him say "dad, Ben". No idea why anyone would say that in my life, as i know one ben from very far away.  

Basically I have trouble trying to Astra-project because I find it hard to lift outside of myself. I just feel very heavy, like im trying to lift 3 times my weight. Another factor is my fear, I always feel that there is a dark presence and that something is coming for me. So right away I usually try to bail out by shaking my head as hard as I can.