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so if we make verbal affirmations for a very long time, we can create miracles

i know this is true,
now how do you know what affirmation to do ?
my goals are to have $5000 by thursday afternoon (and only post here if you can create miracles, have created them, or are not the entity of doubt speaking thru someone HA-AH-HA! )

and then with the $5000 i am doing something which also must be succesful, do i include the 2nd and equal goal 
WITH

IN

the affirmation, and if so do i say it like "I WENT TO ___ AND IT WAS PERFECT "
something like "I HAVE $5000 RIGHT NOW AND I WENT TO ___ AND IT WAS WONDERFUL AND PERFECT?"

or "IT IS GOING TO BE PERFECT ? "
i can just affirm that i am there "by divine miracles too" but i really do want money to fix my car and do things other than that, and the main focus for me is on the money for these reasons,

now ,

what shall i affirm? and why ? what tense shall I use it in, and why ? do i put a date on the money 'THIS THURSDAY BY DIVINE MIRACLES I NOW HAVE $5000 "
"BY MY DIVINE WILL $5000 IS MINE TODAY?"'

or just simplye " I HAVE FIVE THOUSAND DOLLARS, RIGHT NOW!"
i wonder if it would materialize ? can i demand it materialize on my desk ? i will settle for lottery winnings or some other miracles , i don't care how but it *** must be good ***

do i have to say "in a good way ?"

help me affirm !

I don't know if I've had such strong synchronicity in my life before.....

I'm trying to find a rational way to explain it, but I'd also like some "Mystic" interpretations.

Okay where to begin? It's all so long .... so I think I will just cut to the most important and solid happenings.

Devin.

I'm a member of facebook, a college social network basically... I see her profile, it catches my eye because I've been frustrated with people and their stupid profiles that contain next to no info about them.... she on the other hand linked to a description of her life story.

So I message her saying I'm glad she did that, I had wanted to do so, etc....
right... next day.... I see her in the cafeteria... alright coincidence enough, but what strikes me as odd is that she mentions that SHE IS MOVING INTO MY APARTMENTS .... okay!

So the NEXT DAY (or maybe 2 days later) I'm sitting around fantasizing about going to six flags, with her.... yeah that might be kind of sad, whatever.

when I get home that day, I read her xanga and lo and behold, SHE'S GOING TO SIX FLAGS.

I message her about that (no reply since then )

right so.. she ends up not going though.. whatever.

Today... today today.... I open some chakras, go eat.... following the content of a NIGHTMARE I had last night (i.e. I'm repeating my behavior in it... )
well ..... okay I go to eat..... not only is Devin there again.... MY EX-GF IS THERE...

now let me explain this... I've been dealing with bouts of lonliness, and she was the only "g/f" i've ever had, but the relationship was bad... right well....

SHE DOESN'T GO TO THIS SCHOOL

my ex is here, but she doesn't go here, this is 45 minutes away from where she goes.

This means one of only three logical things:
1) she is enrolling here
2) she is visiting some friends... however she was alone.
3) .... visiting family that goes here ? again she was alone.

Now I'm not 100% positive these two were the people I think they were, but... I tell you, my ex was wearing that trippy shirt she always wears, I mean.... I've never seen anyone else with that kind of shirt... I'm fairly certain it was her... and I'm fairly certain Devin was Devin.

so what what what what what does this mean ? I mean I'm starting to piece interpretations together, it's a big picture to look at, and these kind of coincidences surround other people recently as well...

however....

THE DREAM... okay  it just..... it seems like that's what the dream was telling me of... only thing is... the dream clearly stated "2 horrific images might be about to appear"

there is nothing horrific about encountering these 2 girls... BUT THEN AGAIN it was a LD, so I jumbled up and confused things, and right before the nightmare scared me and woke up, a little girl was rising up out of my bed.

2 girls ? I don't know!!!!

I know that if I hadn't done what I did in the dream just now, I wouldn't have eaten dinner at the right time to see these girls, as I normally go closer to 5:30.

so... I mean...

if you all need any elaboration let me know, I'm hoping this is enough info to sort of explain things without being too in depth and confusing...

what do you think? I'm on the right path perhaps, but what am I supposed to do? I like Devin..... but... she is blatantly ignoring my messages and it would be 100% stalkerlike to approach her in person when she doesn't know me......

so I don't know.

what to do....

Last night while I was lying in bed..... i started working on my root chakra, and out of nowhere this intense surge of energy exploded inside me, starting from the root chakra and effecting my entire body.

it cause me to convulse, seize up, cringe....

it was quite uncomfortable, and was followed by feelings of electricity (too much to bear) going up and down my spine.

today i managed to actually SEE my root chakra when a similar thing happened, and for one brief moment I saw red.

i had similar results with the third eye.

so why is this so painful? Am I using far too much energy, is my body not ready? Or are these explosions blockages being healed ?

What's going on ?

I'm not really sure where this thread belongs but it's supposed to be useful with meditation and therefore I assume entering trances... so

Has anyone seen/heard about this, or used it?

http://www.toolsforwellness.com/48326.html

It looks quite amazing... but I remain somewhat skeptical as to whether it works, I would assume it's quite possible and if nothing else would be entertaining to use, but....

It's so expensive...

also

quote:AudioStrobe compatible: AudioStrobe* (licensed from Tamas Laboratories) is a registered Trademark of Tamas Laboratories in Germany, who holds the German patent on the technology.

How it works: Signals are recorded on a music CD at a high, inaudible frequency, to control the lights in a light/sound system. An AudioStrobe decoder detects these signals and uses them to drive the lights of a light/sound system, absolutely in sync with the music. AudioStrobe CDs are available from TOOLS. . Just connect your CD player to the external input of the Nova Pro 100, and play the CD, with your headphones and glasses connected to the Nova Pro 100 normally, for an amazing AudioStrobe experience. For best results, do this while no session is running on the Nova Pro 100. Also integrates with the Oasis CES device.

If I'm reading this right, you don't need to buy an "audiostrobe" you can just plug your CD player playing a NORMAL cd into this thing and it will synch the flashes to the music?

[DO NOT WAKE UP!!!]

This is gonna be long, but it's pretty freaking weird....

This all happened last night.. it includes such things as astral pulse island, possible spirits or higher beings contacing me, and me creating a spirit guardian.
edit: you know what, i'll cut the astral pulse island part out and post it in that specific forum.

So about the spirit guardian, is it possible to create on while lucid or in the astral, and then telling it to be your guardian, will it be there every night or will it cease to exist eventually? Or does just the act of creating it and remembering what it looks like and thinking about it in real life keep it alive so all you have to do is say it's name and it'll be there?

Anyway the order this takes is Spirits Contacting me, then the guardian, then astral pulse island, which I have marked like below... this is very long but I'd appreciate a few comments or two, especially on the issue of creating a spirit guardian and this weird stuff about spirits contacting me.

Spirits Contacting me:
First off, I had an incredibly strange dream. I'm in my brothers room sleeping in it for some reaosn, which I dream about a lot, and there is this girl there, I think she's in black, but for a large portion of the dream I couldn't really see her at all.

Apparently I knew her from some message boards (not these) and she was my g/f.... she was really odd and kind of crazy, which is not the kind of girl I'd really be looking to have as a girlfriend..... this dream was so long, like an hour or so, but i remember so little of it. I think we went to the movies, yet, I'm not sure if that may have just been another dream I had of her a long time ago, or just a fictional memory... but most of it takes place in my room...

She shows me this old thread I made, it just kind of comes into existance in my room floating in space... I click on it... it has this video of us messing around with barbie dolls, or... we ARE the barbie dolls, I'm not sure... but the instant I saw it triggered these "memories" and I felt really embarrassed and I quickly shut it off... it was like, I remembered the whole scene that was about to play out from somewhere before... yet I'm not sure I ever dreamed about it.. it was like a fabricated dream memory or something... and I don't really remember it right now at all.

At any rate I closed it and was embarrassed and stuff... more things happened that I can't really recall.. she wanted to show me something.... all of a sudden I went back in time, things were different, but I was still in the same room and grossly disoriented and freaking out... it was like 1955, or 2055, becuase on my watch it said something like 11-can't remember-55... and I'm freaking out.... then my dad comes into my room and he's asking me what I'm doing, and she's like "DO NOT WAKE UP!!!" and I really thought, that, my dad was really in there and he was waking me up... and I was trying to figure out how to explain why I was sitting on my bed cross legged talking to myself.... but I couldn't wake up, she didn't want me to.. somehow I transitioned my dad into nothingness and then she was back... and I wanted to know what in the world was going on...

And what she looked like... she showed me this pic... and it looks familiar like I've seen it before in real life.. and she was pretty good looking, not fantastic, but not bad.... and it was so weird because she's right there in my room, and I somehow "see" her, yet I don't, and I had to ask to see a picture to understand what she looks like... but after that she started taking on a more visible human form so to speak and was in black.

We started spinning around cross legged and transitioned back to the normal time... and I looked at my watch and realized that I was dreaming, so I was kind of flipping out and she told me to calm down and listen to her, or something like that.....

She was explaining something to me, something important I think... and she said "5 weeks and 5 days from now" and she repeated it like three times... then I had a false awakening into my real room and dreamed that I wrote that down, then I woke up into paralysis and forced myself awake and was going to write it down for real but figured I could remember it in the morning.. which I could....
(that would be 1-13-04, 5 weeks and 5 days from now)

However I can't be 100% positive it was 5 weeks and 5 days... i'm pretty sure they were both 5s, and that the first was weeks, though.

Later... I was lucid in my room and I tried to raise my energy levels and activate my chakras, and I ended up kind of false OBEing.. and I thought my room was 100% accurate (WAYYY FAR FROM THE TRUTH) and I thought I saw my body on my bed, only it didn't look quite right, but the more I looked at it the more it matched my body and what I was wearing at the time.....

I went downstairs to try to pull one of my dogs out of their sleeping bodies like I had read about people doing but couldn't succeede becuase I couldn't see their astral bodies, just physical... only... I noticed two of my somewhat recently departed dogs were there... and I was like WTF.... I'm in the past? I went back up to my room and my body was now a little black boy.. he woke up and started speaking to me about something that I couldn't for the life of me understand...

It had to do with my childhood... and he said something like "you were kicking and screaming and begging them not to do it, but I knew it would be good for you" and I think he was talking about having an OBE or something, maybe spirits inducing it, I'm not sure... but I totally didn't understand and I wanted him to SHOW ME, I locked eyes with him and asked him to show me what he's talking about, and he said he could, but that he shouldn't.

Then that kind of ended.




Spirit guardian:

First off, I got hassled and raped again, and I managed to start laying the smack down on the people doing it to me... at first I was paralyzed and couldn't see the person doing it to me, like always, so I started trying to say no in my mind, and eventually my voice got louder and more confident.. I reached out of my body and grabbed the guy doing this to me and started hitting and kicking and slicing at him and eventually I had normal vision and he was like this goblin.. and he was pretty hard to battle off.. I tried to make myself a mirror and reflect all his bad energy, which resulting in us staring each other down, which was pretty scary and I was thinking "i'm glad this is a goblin and not something scarier" and eventually I won, and I threw him into the corner of my bed and told him to never visit me again unless I specifically asked him to, and forced him to promise to... then I just left him there.... then he told me the killer whale was coming.. and it did... I started getting raped again, and again was back in paralysis and couldn't see and such.... it felt exactly the same as it did one night before, which felt like a new presence... I did the same to it, and yeah, it was a killer whale, or something... really screwed up.

I threw it in the corner and said the same to it.... and I did this with a nice handful of creatures... and they now looked like stuffed animals... which later on when being lucid were sitting on some shelf in my room, lifeless.

Well anyway I became lucid shortly thereafter, and I had been intending to try to create a spirit guardian to help me beat these things down when I sleep... so I made "Steve the bear" which is kind of an inside joke between my friends and I... I couldn't make him very big or too realistic, but it was good enough.. I started trying to pour energy into him and he started turning yellow and green and orange and stuff and then he started moving and I told him he was intelligent and capable of speech and that he would obey me and he was to be my guardian and not to kill things unless they are harming me or I ask him to.

He said okay... I petted him and said I loved him, and he said he did not feel emotions.. I told him he should.. but I didn't know how to give him the capacity to...

At any rate, I gave him a chain gun in the middle of his chest so that he could kill things from long range.. and had him test it out.. he fired on my door and it was pretty fricking sweet, didn't do as much damage as I wanted it to though, but it was good enough, I figured if this was for real that he'd grow in power with time.

So... we set out adventuring... half lucid, half not... now and then I'd encounter bad people, most likely fictional, and I'd have the bear lay waste upon them, which he was pretty good at, though you'd think one claw to a guys face and he'd be gone, which wasn't the case, Steve had a lot of work to do and wasn't as lethal as a bear with a chain gun should have been.

At one point I decided I was going to ride Steve, i asked him if that'd be okay and he said yes, so I mounted him and tried to teach him to fly, which worked, but not too well... so here I am flying around atop a bear... and like... I go visit my teacher.. I want to visit her sleeping physical body and pull her out of it, well.. I see her sitting in a chair motionless, it's all very vivid, I touch her and it feels real... so then.. I'm trying to figure out how I would go about pulling her out... I dont' see her astral body... I start trying to stimulate her chakras and she turns into some sort of Tool video like monster and as I work on her crown chakra her head splits open.. I'm kind of weirded out and I stop doing it and then she's her again... so... I'm like "okay, let's forget about this" I instruct steve to tear the door down, and we exit....

Later on I go to this old western like place, seemingly back in time, yet absent of people.. I find a gun... which pleases me since I was looking for one fairly desperately... a few semi fun gun battles with I'm not sure who ensued.. I think I was back at my teachers place doing some battle here and there... then I was battling one of my friends.. he was hiding in my room.. I had steve cut the door down with his chain gun then we both shot and killed each other, and argued about who died first....

Then I was out in some real pretty yet empty wilderness setting flying around and it was very beautiful....

Lucidity left... I was with my parents.. they were talking about how I liked my teacher and should take her to disneyland with us, I was upset that they knew that about me... memory blur... i'm not sure what else happened...


edit: astral pulse island stuff being moved to new thread in that forum http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/topic.asp?TOPIC_ID=9230

I was quite busy last night.

President Bush and willy Cheney are having lunch at a restaurant.  Cheney orders the heart-healthy salad.  Bush leans over to the waitress and says, "Honey, could I have a quickie?"
  The waitress is horrified. "Mr. President," she says, "I thought your Administaration was bringing a new era of moral rectitude to the White House.  Now I see what a false promise that was."  And she marches off in a huff.
  Chaney leans over and says,
"George, it's pronounced quiche."  []

Poor George he is soooooo misunderstood..[^]

So are you for or against the draft, Holy?  

Nay

I get Democracy Now! on a local (and truly independant) radio station.

Amy Goodman is an inspiration.

Conspiracy theories abound on everything around 9/11, and I'm not surprised to see this pop up.  I'm not saying there is no basis to wonder or that Bush and his gang aren't a bunch of immoral thugs - but at the same time far more intelligence and cunning has been accredited to the administration than could even come close to being credible.

People can find inconsistencies and rationalize motives and connections from now till doomsday - that's what the human brain does best - but you have to step back and look critically at the whole idea.  Perhaps Bush or his administration are smart enough to pull off 9/11, but their handling of it and subsequent actions will ultimately result in the fall of the administration, and the loss of the credibility of America as a nation in the international community.  

Such is the same here.  Did 'the administration' pull this off as an elaborate hoax to try to draw sympathies to the American cause?  Putting it into a world perspective, I find this laughable, because a dozen such beheadings would not give America one inch of sympathy.  Instead it is seen by the world at large as the atrocious result of a wronged and outraged country, carried out by a desperate and disenfanchised fringe group.

It is seen by the world at large as regrettable, but something America brought onto itself.

Perhaps the Bush administration is smart enough and capable enough of pulling off all the 'conspiracies' that have been flooding the net (though I heartily doubt it), but the funny thing is that the entire chain of events has only portrayed them as a bunch of bumbling thugs.

I ask you, if they really were the masters of manipulation that the conspiracy theorists try to portray them as, would this be the case?

Mark my words, there will indeed be a regime change in the upcoming election.  I only hope we can recover from their half-witted ineptitude sometime in my lifetime.

NICE One!!! it been yonks since I experieced anything closish.

Take care,

S []

Hey holy reality. []

I've heard of tones being associated with the OBE. Perhaps you can focus on it until it increases move away from your physical body. I don't suggest holding it to the point that it causes you pain or lasting pressure. Focus lightly. Love yourself. []

I'm sure nothing is wrong with you. I have experienced this erratic nature of the energy as you intend to move it. I think this is just the need to get our mind and energy under better control. I have learned that when I practice energy work consistently my energy and mind is more and more under my control. I suggest that you just continue and make everything as stable as possible each time, and go from there.

I've had one success with the rope technique proper. I mixed it with point-shift, alternating the two. I didn't focus on the rope; I mainly focused on the feel of the pulling and moving motions of my arms and hands. Robert in Astral Dynamics suggests the use of one hand if you have a problem with two, until you get better with it.

I don't think the tone is related to that exercise.

Ive never thought of that before, good job. I can see how the breathing is related since when i have a really intense dream i usually wake up breathing hard.

Hi,  I'm surprised no one else has responded to your plea for help.  The problem you present has been a big focus of my attention for many years. I've learned lots of techniques. Some work, some don't. Some work sometimes. If you are sincere in wanting help with this, I will be glad to invest the time and friendship, but I will have to ask you some personal questions. So if you want to Private Mail me, go ahead, and we can continue from there.

EVERYTHING in your dreams are of your own control.  It's your mind, you create the world you live in and the actions that the people in that world take.  Consider everything that happens in a dream and everything that people say or do to or with you, and you will easily discover that it's yourself.  You're fears, your daydreams, are all manifest in your mind.  So when you ask if you can control what people say to you in your dreams, the reality is that they don't have a mind of their own mind to begin with.

I don't realy have any comment to your story, will only add mine about trying to contact a member of the opposite sex while OBE. After thinking about her the next thing I saw was a gate. Best thing I could figure was she(or her higher spirit or mine) had her guard up.

hey, first off I want to say that your quote rocks!
getting to the alpha waves though I beleive from my own experience it is as you say with the alarm clock. In my meditation experience I reach that warm relaxed state that can vary from being loosly aware but indifferent to all my suroundings or completely oblivious and kind of floating/driffting. One time in the latter type I was begining to come out of it but I guess my body was comming out of it faster than my mind because when my body began to move I was so disasociated with it that I didn't know what it was that was moving and it scared the flying bonk out of me! My own body moving scared me. it was kind of amusing.
  Anyways I think one of the biggest problems with getting to this state is that people try too hard. It's a relaxed state and your not going to get there by straining your brain. It's like going to sleep. whenever you try to force yourself to go to sleep it doesn't work. you kind of have to let it happen. same with the alpha state

later
Renaisance

I just try to understand Your
Experience. So You very easily
can alter Your body to the state
shortly before falling asleep.

But You can not make the falling
long enougth to controll it, but
instead it hits you within 1/100 second,
right?

Hi holy reality,
I think this experience is worth exploring. I had a time travel experience once with this similiar thing you experienced. Maybe your regressing someway, or maybe getting prepared for time travel. You may be hopping around in different dimensions. Just a few of my thoughts while I was reading your post.

Okay, I feel like I made a lot of progress today.

I wavered in and out of the hypnagogic state many times within the past hour and 20 minutes, I'd say 3-4 staple points in which I was only able to remain "conscious" for like 3 seconds inbetween each gap session (like when i go into hallucinations and start falling asleep)

so What I found during the last one is that when I feel myself coming out, I look at my eyelids... I let myself waver in and out a few more times until I feel very disconnected and mentally unstable and unable to concentrate at all.

When this happens, right as I catch myself losing it, or coming out of it, i forcibly exhale and focus on my inner eyes and do breath awareness with very forceful exhalatoins whenever I feel like I'm losing it... I stare at the blackness and just try to toy with the falling asleep sensations, trying to keep them there while keeping my focus on the breathing and the blackness, and on my heavy body.

What happened was I would feel my fingers twitch and constrict, perhaps paralyzing, while I was doing this, and I do think they really were paralyzed at times, though it may have just been psychological.

I definitely felt a twitch while doing this though and felt totally incapable of moving my fingers.

The only problem is by staying focused this long I ended up snapping out of the in/out process and then I thought "well I must be in a trance" so I tried to move my fingers and they moved no problem, no paralysis.

But I think I'm on the verge of figuring it out, it's a very fine tuned give and take between focus and chaos and I think I need to just once in a while bring the focus up then let it decay a bit then bring it up as to not ever completely lose control of my mind, but to in times be very out of it, as to gradually and gently and constantly coax myself deeper and deeper into a trance.

I must have been pretty deep in the few fleeting moments that I lost control of my mind though because I am absolutely freezing cold right now, shaking and chattering like crazy and my muscles feel very lethargic.

WOW, interesting experience!

I have no idea where you were, but if I had to take a guess i'd say you were APing at a low level with wandering souls\ghost entities.


Interested on hearing what others have to say!



-=DiViNE=- [8D]

"Spy on your net activities without warrant."

The government has been doing this for a long time. A perfect example is the Federal Bur   eau of Investigation's Carnivore program. It reads everyone's emails and searches for words like "Terrorist, guns, weapons, bombs, 9/11, 9-11, biological, chemical, mass death". The list goes on and on.

I think that is a great program. It probably saved many lives around the world but it takes our privacy away. I think that's ok for our protection. Freedom isn't free.

The rest of your post brings up interesting points but I will address them later, I have to go outside in the -5 temperature and do stuff!

Oh and I like Bush. []

How do you interface with your subconcious?
-Aries

That is indeed some crazy stuff! [|)]

Supposedly, real things generate energy.  So, if you were able to see energy directly (without interpreting it into shape), you could separate real from fiction...  If there is no energy, it's your mind.  (Taken from Castaneda's book).

to bump this ....

i've been "there" twice now, both bad experiences (well not bad, but not good)

a few days ago, I ended up there and some guy took me in the pyramid... it was cool at first but we started encountering monsters, which wasn't a big deal, until i let my mind get the best of me and i started worrying about giant spiders... so... the next room we enter sure enough, there's one there... i set it on fire but nothing is happening to it, so i freak out and wake myself up, only to feel giant spider legs on top of me, so i wake myself up again, for real that time.

umm... then one night i was imagining the island while in trance and thought about the dock, all of a sudden the dock was floating before me and I stepped onto it, then I felt a floating sensation and started exiting my body involuntarily, I was being rapidly pulled out the window and it felt really cool... there was a gray auraed something in my room near my lamp..... I though to myself "whoah" and woke up :/

Last night, similar thing, envisioned the island, started involuntarily exiting my body, was drawn out the other window, flew for a very long time through these strange and cool looking places... and eventually ended up at an island, though it wasn't the right island, but it looked it had a grey rock type pyramid...

there were monsters in the water, and at this point i gained control of my body and flew over to the island, only to fall into the water and get attacked

this didn't bother me and i continued trying to get into the island but i woke up...

?

Why are bad things happening when I try to go here?

Hey Holy_Reality,
The only thing I can recommend is making sure you continually concentrate on one technique.  For example, the Triangle Method, or climbing the ROPE.  Only focus on one of these things.. whatever you favorite happens to be.  Never stop doing this.  Some people can think of nothing and maintain consciousness, but a lot of people fall asleep eventually.

Focus on one thing.  And keep doing it.

Another possibility is your exhausted.  Mentally, physically, or both.  Some people do better when they are physically exhausted.. while others can't concentrate.  However, sometimes others are just mentally tired.. don't have the energy to concentrate on anything but falling asleep.  Make sure you are mentally prepared to stay awake.. you need energy.

I hope this helps.. maybe give it a shot and see if it works.  I know what you are going through is very frustrating.  But I think you will figure out what's going on.

Good luck!

I've had many experiences that could be called RTZ projection, but most of them are vague. At least 6 months ago, I did 3 experiments successfully (similar to the card test), which prove that I was really in RTZ. Since then, I have not been concerned with proving it is real. I forgot, without trying to prove anything, me and Tayesin did meet in RTZ in my apartment, and we verified our experiences were the same the next day.

how do I differentiate if that is the case, between the RTZ and just an astral recreation of my room or lucid dream?

Physical reality, RTZ, and astral recreations are all dreams. The closer you get to physical reality, the more energy you need to affect things. Most people dont have enough energy to do anything paranormal here big enough to notice. The point is, there is no need to differentiate.

About "Steve the bear", Anything you create in astral or your mind is real, but most people wont agree its real because they have not seen it. Most people agree physical reality is real because they are all in it and because of the extremely high energy density which causes our interpretations of it to be mostly consistent. In a dream, when you change something, if somebody else doesnt agree that is real, they will simply go to a dream they like better and pretend it isnt real.

It's hard to explain but maybe you are leaving the body too soon, perhaps before your astral body is fully formed.

Sometimes when I spend little time in paralysis and qickly apply an exit procedure I may have bad sight, dumbness, deafness, and missing parts of my body. Once I've left in a hurry I found I can't fix it, the experience tends to be messed up and short. I notice the same doesn't happen when I spend enough time just to deepen the trance.

The question is... do you really have a body...
Personaly, I had quite a few experiences where I seemed not to have one.  Also, some where I could remove a part of my body and just go on fine...

For some people, we have an astral body because we think we "must" have one...

i just typed a huge page, but i wasn't logged in,so can we just talk on AIM? that would be easier for the both of us, imo.


my aim sc is cparsonsss

holy crap. If someone tries to rape you agian, just make them stop. i think your afraid and your subcon. is manifesting that fear. there are no negative entities there, you just THINK there are. I dont understand what your asking about dreaming inside a dream, but i've dreamed that i was dreaming before, and it doesn't cancel anything out because your not really dreaming inside a dream, because its just a dream.

I dont see how you seperate reality from "not reality" and physical from      
astral/rtz. alot of what you have talked about seems like you were just in the rtz.

i would go to a doctor and try to get on valumme or something else that will give you a deep dreamless sleep. maybe see a therapist or something. I only WISH i could do what you can do.