I have had a lot of health problems since birth. And a lot of times I was in immense amounts of pain or discomfort (most recent was from a pulminary embolism), I have extreme OBE and lucid dreams while I am completely awake and they always seem to be about keeping me focused on positive things that help me get through intense situations like those. BUT I am having a hard time reaching that point in my mind without the extreme moments of pain. I have a lot of abdominal pain all day everyday from over 20 surgeries. And the days I am in a lot of pain and need to lay down are the days my dreams are most vivid and almost real.
I have been practicing meditation for a month or so now just trying to see if it helps my body relax in these situations and it has led me to alot of learning with my eyes shut. Recently, after just seconds of concentration with my eyes shut I get a flash of white light in the center of my focus and my eyes and forehead begin to burn or feel like the pressure is more than I can take in my frontal lobe area. IF and when I fall asleep like this, minutes later I am always smashed into the bed in state of falling. But the times I can keep my mind more awake and relaxed, I start to feel like my body is still connected to my bed, but theres a light almost free feeling above me that is resting on top of my chest. I will start to daydream for a little bit and then my brain will quickly get taken over by a stomach pain or a hard cough from my asthma.
I have read over these threads on this forum for 3 days now before I bothered to say anything or ask anything. I gave my mind a couple more nights of rest after doing more reading.. Now I am just stuck wondering if I can hit those periods of OBE without almost being dead from a health condition or being in the worst pain immaginable.
Thank you for anyone who takes the time to read this or reply. Its a lot of rambling but I feel like I have a lot to learn from these visions because they always come at my most dire time of help.
I have been practicing meditation for a month or so now just trying to see if it helps my body relax in these situations and it has led me to alot of learning with my eyes shut. Recently, after just seconds of concentration with my eyes shut I get a flash of white light in the center of my focus and my eyes and forehead begin to burn or feel like the pressure is more than I can take in my frontal lobe area. IF and when I fall asleep like this, minutes later I am always smashed into the bed in state of falling. But the times I can keep my mind more awake and relaxed, I start to feel like my body is still connected to my bed, but theres a light almost free feeling above me that is resting on top of my chest. I will start to daydream for a little bit and then my brain will quickly get taken over by a stomach pain or a hard cough from my asthma.
I have read over these threads on this forum for 3 days now before I bothered to say anything or ask anything. I gave my mind a couple more nights of rest after doing more reading.. Now I am just stuck wondering if I can hit those periods of OBE without almost being dead from a health condition or being in the worst pain immaginable.
Thank you for anyone who takes the time to read this or reply. Its a lot of rambling but I feel like I have a lot to learn from these visions because they always come at my most dire time of help.