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Hello all, I just want to put this out there.

I am currently on probation for a year over a charge of possession of marijuana (less than 2 ounces) and it kills me. It kills me because I can not deal with the fact that they have control over my life. My mind, spirit, and body is my own I have every right to do what I want with it yet they can bend me to their will. I have been like this for a long time but I believe that if I can not have control over my body then no one will. I normally would never consider suicide (and I can be sober mind you, I am not an addict) but it is evil what they can and will do to me (and I know I don't have it worse in the world but that is besides the point anyways here isn't it?). I really don't want to die by my own hands but I have not a choice, please someone take me from this state, from this world, from this dimension, anything to free me. I don't know if I can let myself die because I don't want it to affect my family and friends but if it were just me in this family I would already be dead. God knows what binding hands does to a free mind like mine, let free be free.

This is not a matter of doing what I don't want but a matter of not being able to do what I want. I don't mind going down to the probation office once a month and doing community service for another being's well-being. Dam it, I wanna vaporize what I want, when I want, how I want, and where I want. It is my birthright in the name of God to have free-will over myself, it is God dam wrong for them to have free-will over me or anyone other than themselves. To hell with them and all who follow in their path to lust of power and control.

I am but a man, a man who wants to get high. I don't need to get high, in fact I take tolerance breaks for weeks at a time ON MY OWN. I just need my control over myself and what happens to me.

Deliver me from this man-made hell, whether through death or life. And do not tell me what to do, you may suggest and voice your own opinion, but you do not own me either, mind that and we'll be cool.

Edit: removed cursing, though I do not consider "dam" (sorry I can't spell it or it will change my word) a curse word as it is an action/verb and it applies to my thread so please do not punish me for not breaking the cursing rule.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kundalini_syndrome

Kundalini Awakening is linked to evolution? Can someone go more in-depth?

I would like to know some information regarding crystals and gemstones and their metaphysical properties.

Is it more effective to carry around one stone with you all the time or to carry a variety of stones in a sack or something?

How long should you leave them out in the Sun for to charge/energize them?

And if I posted some pictures of the ones I have could you guys identify them for me?

Edit: Oh, and what is the most effective way to merge or absorb the energies that they give off?

I would like to think I have a natural ability for this because it really doesn't seem that hard and I can get pretty close without following a formal technique, but I always have these problems that I will now list.

- For some reason I generate an excessive amount of saliva in my mouth and it always seems to bother me and I have to swallow only to notice right after I do that it produces more.

- I usually (almost always) feel what I think is sinuses on the back of my throa and I usually try to gulp it down because it is hard to ignore, but just like my above problem it doesn't take long to come back, sometimes it withholds for a little bit though  .

Not that long of a list but these always tend to bother me greatly, can someone please help.

Also, this is not a problem but more of just a question for informational purpose. When ever I try to project and I get to a certain point where I no longer feel my body, maybe some slight buzzing or tingling, it feels like someone is holding my hand. Is someone other than myself trying to guide me through?

http://www.psychedelicmeditation.com/ by Seamus Anthony

It is a free ebook on psychedelic meditation, he claims to get high through mediation. Just wondering if any of you have tried and got results, please don't be skeptical if you haven't because that is not the way to get it to work.

I was going to try it last night but I didn't have enough time and only got past the introduction but it is a good read on Rebel Zen Mastery   hahaha

Last night I had my first true lucid dream.

(I used isochronic tones from www.Iso-tones.com (IT'S FREE))
I tried the Chakra Balancing tone before I went to sleep with GHSleep and then Lucid Spike. I think opening my chakras did it for sure cuz that's something I've never done before.

My dream at the part I went lucid;

I was a CSI agent or something except without the autopsy, was all action; I was probably some kind of FBI agent. We engaged some mercenaries or something and I killed the team leader and he had the most badass suit I've ever seen... so I looted him and took it for myself I also found a gold knight helmet somehow and put it on and got on my horse (LOL). Me and this fellow female agent were flirting (I was feeling her up n excrement haha) so we went into some women's changing rooms or something to do our deed hehehe but I jumped into the wrong stall LOL and I decided to just walk out and I then realized, "Hey, this is a dream." So I tried jumping to see if I would fly or float but I didn't really, I guess I jumped really high and kinda floated down sorta. I decided to turn my dream world world into GTA IV and it was cooln all but it looked like the game and I was like, "This doesn't look real enough." so I changed it to GTA V (based on the trailer except if it were in NYC) and I was like, "F*** yeah!". I was zooming my vision off into the distance and I saw a blue car loaded with gang bangers in it being shot at by three mexican bikers with numbers on their jackets or something (maybe asian haha) going down the side exit of a highway. And then I said,"Badass."

I went lucid near the end of my dream so I didn't get to play around with it enough but I think tonight is going to be AWESOME!!

Seriously man, who cares? If it happens it happens, but really, why do we care about what we really know nothing of? Do you really think the mayans had their shite together THAT GOOD? No way they knew anything about the world ending, if it happens we're not going to be able to predict it, honestly, it's just gonna happen INSTANTLY so stop relying on predictions, you'll just get caught up in paranoia and fear. This is foolish.

Anyone here enjoy the raw intensity of metal? I do!

http://laughingsquid.com/wp-content/uploads/huge-metal-fan.gif

haha now check out this badass song

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_WedlyVWB94

and no it's not metallica, it's actually by HeadCrusher but someone doesn't know the difference between heavy metal and thrash metal on youtube

I have become a very tempered, hot, angry soul once again in my life. I am experiencing a grueling hate for a lot of people I don't know personally. There could be multiple reasons, jealousy for those who have many friends even though they are physically, mentally, and socially inferior. But ultimately I realize that I choose to be an outsider because I realize they would be horrible friends to begin with but it still causes to dvelope a growing and quite dominant hate for people I don't know personally. Perhaps my anger is because I have observed their stupidity for far too long (I'm still in high school, not only that but I go to the "bad school" as you may call it, where they send all the druggies and addicts).

Possible reasons continue but none the less I feel as though maybe this growing hate/anger is what is preventing me from projecting, maybe not. Who knows, it's not the first time hate and anger has dominated my life. I stopped taking my prescription but who cares, it's for ADD and takes away my impulses and ability to socialize so it only hinders me. I can focus fine on my own, modern medical science is not effective for they believe they can treat everything with medicine, WRONG. It can temporarily treat with damaging side-effects; not worth my time.

But could this be a reason why I haven't been able to project? I'd like to believe I have a natural talent for this sort of stuff but maybe the medicine has destroyed my imagination but hopefully I will make a full recovery from that soon. I quit drugging and smoking weed too.

Hello everyone, I am new to the forum (self-explanatory). I kinda skipped the introduction and started posting instead so now I'm making my introduction, I hope yall don't mind, not that it really matters; I doubt yall are gonna remember me lol.

I've tried projection about 4 times, each time I have gonna right up to the exit, 2 of the times I attempted without Isochronic tone assistance and 2 with. I get the falling sensation or I get astral vision for about a second and it seems like my mind automatically distracts me without effort on my part which is kinda frustrating because I already seem to be pretty good at clearing my mind. I don't understand what is taking my focus away from "whatever". Soon I will experiment with hemi-sync and see if that works.

Thanks for your time, SWADE/Darklon