Topics

It as a fantasy novel. But in it it describes the effects of velocity running, lentation, energy as electromagnetic fields,and the idea of cosmic conciousness.
I can only assume its coincidence but you ever seen "The Last Starfighter" where that kid gets the highscore on a game and is recruited by aliens to help fly stuff. Would it not be hilarious if this dude were to have gained ultra power and then written a book to leave behind his secrets in the form of hints in a story.

That's actually a wicked good question!  Yes, there, in a sense are two different paths to enlightenment.  One, ridding yourself of ego, and the second, living in the ego.  You must consider though, that enlightenment is just another life lesson you chose yourself to experience.  One life you may have chosen the ego'less path, and another, you may have had a huge ego.  Either way, both are towards enlightenment, and both teach you lessons.

One cannot actually rid onesself of his ego.  I see the ego as something always with you, your identity, without it, you don't exist.  However hard you try to pry it off, it's like glue, always there with you.  

Hopefully this gives you some ideas.
~ivan

Seeing how you are 14yr...testostorone could very well be the problem, aka...growing pains.  One second you can be on top of the world..next minute, wanting to kill it..

I know it might feel like something has taken over your body and thoughts, and in a way I guess it as..but it is all what a normal teen should feel during these years of the body doing some serious growing.

Punch a pillow, that is what I use to do...(even girls have their harmones to deal with!)

Hope I helped, and hope you have more better days than bad ones.

Nay []