Sorry this is long. But I was pretty excited by this.
I had been trying pretty diligently (once or twice a day) for about 3 months with no results really and nothing to make me think I was progressing in any way other than developing the talent to stay conscious on the edge of sleep. I got pretty discouraged and decided to take a break. Weeks went by. Then about a month later I almost had an OBE, but got scared and broke concentration and it ended. In that one an interesting thing happened right before I was about to separate - I saw this flock of birds and I followed it with my eyes and it started to "pull" me out - but that is when I got scared and stopped it.
So anyway - jump ahead to today (2 months later from that last almost OBE). Woke up this morning around 6:30, went back to sleep. Sort of tossing and turning, not really thinking about having an OBE at all.
Then probably about 6:55 I was starting to dream but things were extremely clear and visually real, like I could touch them. I recognized this from the previous unsuccessful attempt 2 months earlier. Things (the flock of birds and other things) were very very clear right beforehand. So I think I thought about how it was similar to that experience for maybe two seconds and that flock of birds (it looked a little different but I immediately recognized it for what it was) showed up and I thought "I am going to do it this time!!" and I just thought of forcing myself through the fear and then like a rocket I just sort of flew out. It was SO fast. From the moment I started thinking how things "seemed really clear", to the moment I shot out, was maybe 3-4 seconds. I don't even remember technically leaving my body it was so fast.
So - I sort of shot out of my body and then all of the sudden I half realized I was in the corner of my room and I realized I had actually done it! And I thought to myself I have to get outside and see what it looks like! I had read how the environment can look different astrally then it's physical counterpart so I was thinking how much I needed to get outside quickly because this could end at any second and I didn't want to lose my chance. And then things just sped up. I tried not to even look over to where my body was (because I thought I would get sucked back in, but also I couldnt actually see much at this point) and I just zoooomed out of the bedroom, and out into the hallway, and past the kitchen, and out the front door, and down the stairs to the front outer door of my apartment building so damn fast. I guess my focus to get outside so quickly was what made that happen? But I was floating the whole way which was awesome. I floated through the doors, but I was going so fast I don't remember what they felt like.
I do remember while I was zooming out of my apartment everything looked REALLY murky - like dark, and super hazy. I couldn't see well at all, but I remembered to yell "clarity now!" over and over again from reading books about OBE's. So I was sort of yelling that as I zoomed out of my apartment and things finally started to clear up about the 5th time I yelled it. Then I was outside and my vision was totally clear (and it was very bright out) and I ran (probably floated really fast) to see what was out there. There was a building where an apartment building normally stood, but this one looked totally different, almost bravarian in style which was odd. Also, there is a little lake in front of the building normally, and astrally there also was one, but it was different somehow. Smaller and different - I can't remember. But anyway..
So I kept thinking how this could end at any moment and I thought I better try and fly real quick. So I tried and nothing happened and then I focused on flying and I yelled "I am flying!" over and over and then I did! So that was great, but brief. Haha - so at this point I remember flying and thinking how grateful I was that I had actually finally had an OBE and I was just yelling thank you to everyone or anything that was there, lol..and I looked around and there was someone looking at me like I was an idiot which was funny.
But at this point I sort of feel like I wasn't sure if it changed from being an OBE to a dream? Things looked different - like I thought I saw an angel - but it looked like an angel from an old renissance painting, like literally taken out of the painting, just painted there, which seemed odd to me. And then I landed from flying and I had this sense (or someone told me?) that I was going to have my first fear to face. There was a guy/person/something that was basically human looking standing about 30 feet in front of me and I suddenly realized he was going to attack me and I braced myself and started thinking what I could do to get out of this. But I got scared, and suddenly he had 5 other friends coming at me. I tried to fly away but they kept pulling me back down to them somehow. And then I remember having a split second thought that I hope they aren't zombies (I just watched the last episode of The Walking Dead) and as soon as I thought that he started trying to bite my arm. So that made me remember my thoughts were in control so I tried to calm down and force myself to think differently - so I started thinking that they were really my friends and I sent them loving thoughts and then all the sudden they stopped coming at me and just acted normal. As soon as that happened I started to back away slowly so I could get away from them even though they were just standing there not being threatening anymore and I turned around and boom, my eyes shot open and I had woken up.
So, I guess the first part felt like it could def. have been an OBE, but once I was in flight and I saw what looked like an angel painted right there into the environment I wonder if it had changed. Things still felt real to me then, but not as real as when I first got out of my body and got outside my apartment building.
Also - if it wasn't a dream and it really was an OBE (the first part at least) wouldn't my apartment look brighter, like the outside did? My vision was very hazy at first, but I could tell things were dark in the apartment, and even in the hallway leading outside - just like it was nighttime. I guess I figured it would have at least have matched the time of day it was (7am) even it it was hazy.
I had been trying pretty diligently (once or twice a day) for about 3 months with no results really and nothing to make me think I was progressing in any way other than developing the talent to stay conscious on the edge of sleep. I got pretty discouraged and decided to take a break. Weeks went by. Then about a month later I almost had an OBE, but got scared and broke concentration and it ended. In that one an interesting thing happened right before I was about to separate - I saw this flock of birds and I followed it with my eyes and it started to "pull" me out - but that is when I got scared and stopped it.
So anyway - jump ahead to today (2 months later from that last almost OBE). Woke up this morning around 6:30, went back to sleep. Sort of tossing and turning, not really thinking about having an OBE at all.
Then probably about 6:55 I was starting to dream but things were extremely clear and visually real, like I could touch them. I recognized this from the previous unsuccessful attempt 2 months earlier. Things (the flock of birds and other things) were very very clear right beforehand. So I think I thought about how it was similar to that experience for maybe two seconds and that flock of birds (it looked a little different but I immediately recognized it for what it was) showed up and I thought "I am going to do it this time!!" and I just thought of forcing myself through the fear and then like a rocket I just sort of flew out. It was SO fast. From the moment I started thinking how things "seemed really clear", to the moment I shot out, was maybe 3-4 seconds. I don't even remember technically leaving my body it was so fast.
So - I sort of shot out of my body and then all of the sudden I half realized I was in the corner of my room and I realized I had actually done it! And I thought to myself I have to get outside and see what it looks like! I had read how the environment can look different astrally then it's physical counterpart so I was thinking how much I needed to get outside quickly because this could end at any second and I didn't want to lose my chance. And then things just sped up. I tried not to even look over to where my body was (because I thought I would get sucked back in, but also I couldnt actually see much at this point) and I just zoooomed out of the bedroom, and out into the hallway, and past the kitchen, and out the front door, and down the stairs to the front outer door of my apartment building so damn fast. I guess my focus to get outside so quickly was what made that happen? But I was floating the whole way which was awesome. I floated through the doors, but I was going so fast I don't remember what they felt like.
I do remember while I was zooming out of my apartment everything looked REALLY murky - like dark, and super hazy. I couldn't see well at all, but I remembered to yell "clarity now!" over and over again from reading books about OBE's. So I was sort of yelling that as I zoomed out of my apartment and things finally started to clear up about the 5th time I yelled it. Then I was outside and my vision was totally clear (and it was very bright out) and I ran (probably floated really fast) to see what was out there. There was a building where an apartment building normally stood, but this one looked totally different, almost bravarian in style which was odd. Also, there is a little lake in front of the building normally, and astrally there also was one, but it was different somehow. Smaller and different - I can't remember. But anyway..
So I kept thinking how this could end at any moment and I thought I better try and fly real quick. So I tried and nothing happened and then I focused on flying and I yelled "I am flying!" over and over and then I did! So that was great, but brief. Haha - so at this point I remember flying and thinking how grateful I was that I had actually finally had an OBE and I was just yelling thank you to everyone or anything that was there, lol..and I looked around and there was someone looking at me like I was an idiot which was funny.
But at this point I sort of feel like I wasn't sure if it changed from being an OBE to a dream? Things looked different - like I thought I saw an angel - but it looked like an angel from an old renissance painting, like literally taken out of the painting, just painted there, which seemed odd to me. And then I landed from flying and I had this sense (or someone told me?) that I was going to have my first fear to face. There was a guy/person/something that was basically human looking standing about 30 feet in front of me and I suddenly realized he was going to attack me and I braced myself and started thinking what I could do to get out of this. But I got scared, and suddenly he had 5 other friends coming at me. I tried to fly away but they kept pulling me back down to them somehow. And then I remember having a split second thought that I hope they aren't zombies (I just watched the last episode of The Walking Dead) and as soon as I thought that he started trying to bite my arm. So that made me remember my thoughts were in control so I tried to calm down and force myself to think differently - so I started thinking that they were really my friends and I sent them loving thoughts and then all the sudden they stopped coming at me and just acted normal. As soon as that happened I started to back away slowly so I could get away from them even though they were just standing there not being threatening anymore and I turned around and boom, my eyes shot open and I had woken up.
So, I guess the first part felt like it could def. have been an OBE, but once I was in flight and I saw what looked like an angel painted right there into the environment I wonder if it had changed. Things still felt real to me then, but not as real as when I first got out of my body and got outside my apartment building.
Also - if it wasn't a dream and it really was an OBE (the first part at least) wouldn't my apartment look brighter, like the outside did? My vision was very hazy at first, but I could tell things were dark in the apartment, and even in the hallway leading outside - just like it was nighttime. I guess I figured it would have at least have matched the time of day it was (7am) even it it was hazy.