For almost a week now I have been able to remain conscious from waking through to a point where my mind begins projecting scenes, faces, people talking to me etc. It is almost as if it is running on its own without my intervention. I can still feel my body if I try, but it feels hollow - like a dead weight that belongs to someone else. Is this the hypnagogic phase?
However, each time a "scene" is projected, my effort tells my mind "hey don't slip away" and then I'm back to a more conscious state where there is no more imagery and my body also wakes up a little. Then I have to start over again. This could go on for hours and has kept me up the past few nights. It is cyclic - relaxed > imagery> "you're slipping away"> relaxed> imagery... eventually I do slip away into sleep and then when I awake in the morning and can't even recall when I lost consciousness.
So I guess I'm a little frustrated because I'm not sure if it's even possible to stay focused, with my mind awake. When the imagery starts it's as if my concentration is going too. And then I trigger it to wake up which also wakes up my body a little. Is it just a matter of practice? Perhaps I am trying to control too much?
However, each time a "scene" is projected, my effort tells my mind "hey don't slip away" and then I'm back to a more conscious state where there is no more imagery and my body also wakes up a little. Then I have to start over again. This could go on for hours and has kept me up the past few nights. It is cyclic - relaxed > imagery> "you're slipping away"> relaxed> imagery... eventually I do slip away into sleep and then when I awake in the morning and can't even recall when I lost consciousness.
So I guess I'm a little frustrated because I'm not sure if it's even possible to stay focused, with my mind awake. When the imagery starts it's as if my concentration is going too. And then I trigger it to wake up which also wakes up my body a little. Is it just a matter of practice? Perhaps I am trying to control too much?