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Ok...so I did what you guys told me.  As soon as I sat down in the living room I looked at the wall and saw that greenish vapor start to materialize.  Soon the entire length of the wall was covered in that green monster thing with the faces.  So I tried what you told me to do and I concentrated as hard as I could to imagine different things (a beautiful fairy, a princess, etc.) but nothing happened.  It's not like in the astral.  In the astral I can create and change almost anything I want but not here.  So I spoke to it.  Told it over and over again I'm not afraid of you anymore.  I asked what it wanted from me.  I asked it's name.  No response.  Sure enough the black shadows appeared.  First on the wall then started to move toward me.  The green thing came off the wall also and these things kept moving toward me.  I sat very still and just watched.  They got all the way up to my face then vanished.  I stuck my arm out on one of them and my arm just passed through it.  I didn't feel anything, didn't sense anything.  But for the next hour and fifteen minutes it kept happening.  Appearing on the wall, moving toward me, getting in my face then vanishing.  Then more came...on and on it went.  I held my ground and didn't show any fear.  Today I came home same thing.  I was calm and spoke kindly to them.  I feel the fear dissipating but I won't lie, a part of me is imagining someone sitting there with an evil little grin saying, "wait till she sees what we have next for her".  But for the time being, I'm holdin' on.

Ever since my 3rd eye has opened I have been seeing faces when I close my eyes.  Most are not human and do not look friendly.  Szaxx just told me yesterday to have no fear.  But something just happened...I found the picture of Astral Pulse Island and copied it so I can print it out and hang it in my room.  I stared at it on my compter monitor for a long time then looked over at the wall in my room (which is white).  I first saw the square image but then it changed.  I began to see yellow all over my wall then green then suddenly I was staring at those faces, the ones I only see with my eyes closed.  It just looks like a movie playing on my wall but that thing...some kind of green alien/monster type thing with a whole lot of twisted up faces all over it just staring at me.  This is tripping me out.  I'm on the third floor so I guess there's no hope for me because honestly, this is too much.  If that thing suddenly becomes three dimensional and is in my room, I'm jumping out the window. 

After months of bad experiences (more than likely my own unresolved fears and their manifestations) I finally had a good projection. Mine always occur during sleep but I become conscious of what's going on. I remember the feeling of my body being sucked up like a vacuum and travelling very fast. I ended up with a group of people and immediately I picked up on good vibes from them. One guy took me by the arm and said "I got you". He helped me walk throughout the projection because for some reason I was very disoriented. My vision kept going from crystal clear to blurry and half blind. When I had clear vision there was no mistaking that vividness of the astral as I have experienced it before. It was one long adventure and when I woke up at 4:30am I felt like I had just come off a long vacation. I felt like I had not slept all night but at the same time my body felt like an electric current was running thru me. I have never felt so much energy before and I had to do some grounding meditation to settle all that energy. I remember thruout my little adventure when I would get real disoriented I remember hearing "here give this to her" but couldn't see so I don't know what they gave me or did to me. I remember wanting to speak but then realized I was supposed to communicate telepathically and that process took some getting used to. At one point I asked a guy how long I could stay and he told me not very long but seemed like I was there forever.  One time I heard laughing and a guy said "look shes bouncing" don't know what that was about but I know we were all walking not flying as in previous projections.

Questions...why was I so disoriented and kept losing my vision? Also I don't have a clue where I was or how I ended up there don't know anyones name but I was so excited and it felt so indescribably good being with them how can I get there again? Is it even possible to return? What could it have been they were giving me to make me feel so good? Where did all that energy come from?

BTW...the only thing I did differently before bed was the "Star Excersize" from the book "The Science of Being in Seven Lessons" compliments of Adrian Cooper.

At different times in my life I have had dreams about broken glass, like me stepping in it and sometimes my whole body being cut and sometimes me trying to pull shards of glass from my body. About aweek ago I had a similar projection this time tons of glass sticking out of my feet and arms.  Although I did not look at it I was aware of a huge piece of glass stuck in my left arm that someone removed.  There were a lot of people in the room and I felt blood gushing from my arm and someone leaned over me and said 'wow, that;s nasty'.  Last thing I remember I was being escorted to the hospital afraid to look at my arm.  Strange thing is last night I was breaking up a dog fight and one of the dogs latched onto my arm and bit me up pretty bad. This was on the left arm.

My question is could that dream/projection have been a premonition?  Also is anyone aware of any meanings to the broken glass I often dream about?

Its been a while since I've posted.  Still not able to project while consciously awake but have projections in my sleep every night.  They are not always good in fact most times they aren't but I've come to accept it.  However, I've been practicing everything else.  Meditation, chakra work, listening to binaural beats, etc.  Been feeling the tightness in my forehead and top of my head every day (third eye & crown chakras).  I found an audio/video on youtube for opening third eye.  I did it only once and immediately saw the eye staring back at me.  Now everytime I close my eyes I see the eye then I see visions.  Mostly faces and they rush at me real fast.  This is while fully awake like sitting at work and happen to close my eyes and there they are.  I have no doubt about other beings out there because some of the faces I see are like a dark green color with huge cat eyes.  Some of the faces look normal and some don't.  At first it freaked me out a little but with everything else that has been happening to me I'm not shocked at anything anymore.

Could this be a portal into the astral?  I read somewhere third eye open allows you to glimpse into the astral worlds.  But can I project into it from these visions?  Has anyone else experienced this?

I gave up on trying to consciously project.  I wanted it to stop. Nothing but weird and bad things kept happening.  Problem is now I can't stop.  Soon as I lay down to go to sleep here comes the color swirls and flashes.  So as soon as I fall asleep I'm projecting.  Every single night and sometimes twice a day (if Itake an early nap).  I keep ending up now in these different situations like someone is testing me.  I watched Campbell's video about "fear tests" and felt a little better.  I've been forced to jump to my "death" and pushed off a cliff (I passed those fine).  I've been made to confront an attack dog and some other creatures that don't exist in the physical.  Made it through all those just fine.  I've gotten to the point where Ijust fly right thru them or let them fly through me.  It was only when I was scared and tried to fight them when Ihad a problem.  The problem I'm having now is sexual.  Right after being pushed off that cliff I found myself naked in some sort of metal bathtub.  Someone touched me (I couldn't see them) and I guess I started showing signs of arousal.  Immediately someone pulled me out and I heard the guy's voice say, "nope".  I couldn't see the guys face I was lieing on my stomach on a metal table with wheels and I clearly saw the bottom of his white lab coat and his feet.  I became totally preoccupied with the floor - the floor had holes in it that you could see right through, similar to walking on a metal grate.  Through the floor I could see that brilliant vivid purple light - knew I was in the astral, they don't have colors like that here.  Another time during some kind of test I clearly head a girl's voice say, "help her because I really want her to make it".  One time after failing the test with the attack dog some guy shook his head "no" and told me to go back.  During these different tests people are laughing at me and it doesn't feel very good.  I feel like I am in a semi-conscious state most of the time, but I can't help but feel someone else is controlling things.  Especially the sexual urges.  I am celibate and not even thinking about sex.  But it seems everytime I show some sort of a reaction in the projection somebody immediately pulls me out. 

Now I can understand after hearing Campbell's video about fear and expectations and all that stuff having no place in the astral, but if I'm not consciously showing signs of arousal (it only happens in the projections after someone or something touches me) how do I stop it?  I am believing that I'm being kept out until I learn to do away with all of those behaviors like fear and sexual urges.  But at the same time feel likeI have no control over it.  Soon as I'm booted out and wake up I say to myself, "what's wrong with you, you wouldn't do those things in the physical".  It appears I've hit a roadblock and until I learn to project while consciously awake so Ihave all my wits about me, it's not going to happen.  They keep me in the bad parts.  Guys in lab coats?  Can't help but feel I am some kind of guinea pig in an experiment.  It has made me not want to project anymore.  Honestly I can't think of anything else they could possibly do to me to scare me.  At this point I am getting kind of angry and that is just not the person I am.  And the big question is, who are these people doing this stuff to me? Even when I was trying to project and repeating affirmations and had a firm intent of where Iwanted to go, it didn't happen.  These people won't let me.  They keep putting me through some sort of obstacle course and they don't seem very nice.  Anyone else ever been put through this and have any advice?

Have not been able to project while awake.  Keep falling asleep.  The other night I dreamed that I was flying around it was nighttime and I was around a street light looking up at the moon.  There were people flying everywhere.  I mean EVERYBODY was flying around like it was normal.  Next thing I knew I was hovering in the air in front of a building.  There were a few people standing on the edge of the building and their bodies were transparent, like ghosts.  Next thing I knew one of them jumped and hit the steps below and just got up and walked away.  Someone flying next to me told me those people had jumped off that building and committed suicide in the physical.  I keep having these strange dreams.  They are never good.  I am a good person and have never hurt anyone (nor would I ever) in my life.  I'm kind hearted and generous and I try to help people whenever I can.  So if I'm projecting in my sleep, why do I keep ending up in these bad places?

I still have not been able to project while awake.  But I started practicing my meditation again  working on the concentration exercises.  What keeps happening to me is each night as I start drifting off I will start seeing all of the imagery and colors and things moving around and flashing and I keep hearing the vibrations.  I'm getting the vibrations every night and sometimes during the day when I meditate, and I think I'm about to project and I wait for that "whoosh" that used to happen when I was asleep, but then I become alert and it stops.  I even had a tingling sensation all over my body when I opened my eyes.  Last night I had justed drifted into a dream and then I heard the vibrations getting louder and all of a sudden I heard these voices, men saying something then a women's voice but it made me become alert and I lost it.  The voices were crystal clear and I know I was not asleep.  What is also strange is during the last couple of days I am noticing that high pitched sound in my head louder and louder (while I'm at work) and yesterday and today I felt this overwhelming warmth around my head.  It hit me suddenly while I was at work siting at the desk.  It felt like someone turned on an electric heater and aimed it at my head.  Are these sensations normal and does it mean I'm getting closer?

Also I've been having strange encounters.  Yesterday Iwas on the bus reading Adrian Cooper's book and this old man got on and sat next to me and out of the blue (he could not see the cover of the book) he quoted to me almost word for word something I had just read.  Then he said, "it's difficult to comprehend, but fits you like a lock and key".  Then he got up and exited the bus.  I was blown away.  This happened in regular waking hours, not a dream.  What's going on?