Hi! 
I'm a new member, and I've recently decided to start meditating for a variety of reasons. One of these is my desire to astral project. The thing is, I'm pretty sure I have before, but I'm not really sure. Here is the story:
This was quite a few years ago, and I was only 12 years old. I had never heard of AP or OOBE. I was lying on my back in bed very still. My mind was completely clear. I don't remember falling asleep. There was no vibration or anything like that. I was in bed awake, and everything just kind of faded to black. Then things faded back in, but I was floating in the air parallel to my sleeping body. Here is the strange part. I was wearing a completely different outfit, and my hair was a different length. It was definitely me (looked like me and all that), but it was like an older version of me or something.
This version of me was not at all alarmed by the fact that I was outside my body, and she stared down at the sleeping me for sometime with a sort of annoyed expression on her face. She then proceeded to move herself lower to the ground next to my bed. She was very close to the floor, but she levitated and did not walk. I could clearly see all the attributes of my room as well as my sister sleeping in the bed next to me. Her face was completely expressionless, as she floated out of my room through my living room and outside onto my balcony. It was raining and very windy that night, and although I did not actually feel any of that, I could see the trees blowing in the wind. She stood on the railing, and slowly leaned over until she fell (she seemed to have a specific purpose in doing this, not a suicide type thing). She was falling into some sort of void.
Things then faded to black again. I did not wake up immediately afterwards. I was aware of sometime passing, and then I faded back in to my body which was awake (I did not feel as if I woke up, it was as if my body was already awake when my mind turned back on). I did not experience any sleep paralysis. It is almost as if there are parts of the AP that I don't remember for some reason. I haven't had an AP since.
One more thing. I refer to my astral body (if that's what it was) in the third person, because it was as if the 12 year old me was a silent observer even though we shared the same body, as if I was the subconscious of my astral self. I saw things through her eyes, I knew her thoughts etc. it's just that at the time, she did not feel like she was me. It was almost as if she was my alter ego. It was very strange, but I KNOW it was not a dream. I rarely remember my dreams, and when I do they are to the point and symbolic.
I was hoping for some insight as to what this might be, I'm trying to recreate the experience but to no avail so far. If it helps, my mother sometimes has prophetic dreams, and I sometimes (very rarely) have vivid symbolic dreams that are prophetic as well.
I do apologize for the length of this post (especially as a new member), but I feel I won't be able to successfully AP unless I can understand this experience that has been bothering me for years.
I'm a new member, and I've recently decided to start meditating for a variety of reasons. One of these is my desire to astral project. The thing is, I'm pretty sure I have before, but I'm not really sure. Here is the story:This was quite a few years ago, and I was only 12 years old. I had never heard of AP or OOBE. I was lying on my back in bed very still. My mind was completely clear. I don't remember falling asleep. There was no vibration or anything like that. I was in bed awake, and everything just kind of faded to black. Then things faded back in, but I was floating in the air parallel to my sleeping body. Here is the strange part. I was wearing a completely different outfit, and my hair was a different length. It was definitely me (looked like me and all that), but it was like an older version of me or something.
This version of me was not at all alarmed by the fact that I was outside my body, and she stared down at the sleeping me for sometime with a sort of annoyed expression on her face. She then proceeded to move herself lower to the ground next to my bed. She was very close to the floor, but she levitated and did not walk. I could clearly see all the attributes of my room as well as my sister sleeping in the bed next to me. Her face was completely expressionless, as she floated out of my room through my living room and outside onto my balcony. It was raining and very windy that night, and although I did not actually feel any of that, I could see the trees blowing in the wind. She stood on the railing, and slowly leaned over until she fell (she seemed to have a specific purpose in doing this, not a suicide type thing). She was falling into some sort of void.
Things then faded to black again. I did not wake up immediately afterwards. I was aware of sometime passing, and then I faded back in to my body which was awake (I did not feel as if I woke up, it was as if my body was already awake when my mind turned back on). I did not experience any sleep paralysis. It is almost as if there are parts of the AP that I don't remember for some reason. I haven't had an AP since.
One more thing. I refer to my astral body (if that's what it was) in the third person, because it was as if the 12 year old me was a silent observer even though we shared the same body, as if I was the subconscious of my astral self. I saw things through her eyes, I knew her thoughts etc. it's just that at the time, she did not feel like she was me. It was almost as if she was my alter ego. It was very strange, but I KNOW it was not a dream. I rarely remember my dreams, and when I do they are to the point and symbolic.
I was hoping for some insight as to what this might be, I'm trying to recreate the experience but to no avail so far. If it helps, my mother sometimes has prophetic dreams, and I sometimes (very rarely) have vivid symbolic dreams that are prophetic as well.
I do apologize for the length of this post (especially as a new member), but I feel I won't be able to successfully AP unless I can understand this experience that has been bothering me for years.