Ok, first things first: I have basically not the slightest idea of the subjects discussed in these forums, except perhaps on the most basic of levels. So, I'd appreciate it if you could bear with me and my clumsy stumblings in trying to describe my "problems"... (and sorry for the overly elaborate and extensive post).
Lets start with the empathy, as I reckon it's a lot easier to explain. Since for as long as I can remember, I've had what I assume is some kind of empathy. I am not able to tell what one specific person is feeling, unless that is the only person around (obviously). I haven't actually tested it in any way either. Anyhow, in my case what seems to happen is that I pick up other people's feelings and make them my own. To the point where, if someone is sad, angry, happy, thoughtful, insecure or anything else I very quickly tend to sink into the same emotional state as them.
Now, if those emotions aren't very strong, my own emotional state tends to remain on top. However, if the others emotional state is very strong, or I find myself among a crowd or such, my own emotions tend to get washed away in the "flood". Not only that, but I've also noticed that to some extent I tend to project my emotions onto others (or at least so it seems to me).
One of the main repercussions this has wrought on me is that I tend to, when alone, be quite (although not completely) unemotional. I don't know if it's the way my body/mind tries to compensate for all the emotional overload at other times or what it is. Additionally, when I'm around other people (or know I'm going to be among them) my emotions tend to come up strongly. Perhaps as some kind of auto-defense mechanism once again? As I said, I really don't know.
To make a long story short, this has brought up all kinds of problems and doubts over the years. Things such as emotional "feedback loops" (or so I have come to call them), a tendency to withdraw from people for LONG periods of time (one of my most peaceful and happy moments in life was 2 months in the middle of he Australian desert totally alone), emotional dependency, etc, etc, etc. Also, I've come to doubt if certain emotions I feel are actually mine or not at times (or if other people's emotions are theirs). For example, say I "fall" in love with someone, and this person tells me at some point they felt the same thing since that same time. Now this, combined with my more-or-less "unemotional" state when I'm alone has brought up serious doubts more than once on whether those feelings are truly mine or theirs. Anyhow... so much for making a long story short...
On to the second point: Painful aural viewing. This is (at least for me) at lot harder to explain. Perhaps I should start by saying that my "normal" eyesight is extremely sensitive. I'm not albino or anything like that and I don't even have a perfect eyesight, but walking in the sunlight without dark sunglasses on gives me serious headaches, eye-pains and such. I hadn't thought that this might in some way be related until just a few hours ago when I read the article on aural viewing on astral dynamics, where something is mentioned about how normal eyesight is strongly related to aura viewing.
Back to the point. Just like with the empathy, I've had the "problem" for as long as I can remember. I have this extreme ease to concentrate on something (or nothing)... to the point where basically everything else around me is totally blocked out (yes, I can enter into a meditative state without even realizing it). And that tends to happen without me even trying in the least.
Sometimes, when I focus (as in what one does to try and see auras) on an object (although it is a lot stronger and obvious on anything electrical (cables, appliances, etc.) and to a somewhat different degree, living things) aside from seeing what I've heard of as being called auras (or what they should more or less look like), my vision is often overwhelmed by flashes, streaks, swirls and waves (for lack of a better description) of colour, mostly only partially related (or so it seems) to whatever it is I'm focusing on.
So, lets say for example that I focus on a particular part of my monitor, to try and see the aura of a certain objects' colour. Within something like 2 to 60 seconds (if it does actually occur), without (hardly) any kind of telltale signs or warnings I'll have my entire field of vision flooded with colours, which mostly seem more or less attached to any objects or living things, but as if flowing through (and around) all these there's what I could only describe as some kind of much larger aura perhaps. Now, when this happens I have to very quickly close my eyes and "break out" of whatever it might be as I get quite severe headaches and my eyes hurt if I even as much as try to keep looking at this for more than perhaps a second or two.
Well, I hope I managed to explain my little "problems" more or less clearly. Whatever the case might be, I would greatly appreciate any kind of (useful/constructive) feedback on what I've mentioned, either in terms of explaining, clarifying or just talking about them or to in some way "help" with them in some way or another.
Thank you.
J.
Lets start with the empathy, as I reckon it's a lot easier to explain. Since for as long as I can remember, I've had what I assume is some kind of empathy. I am not able to tell what one specific person is feeling, unless that is the only person around (obviously). I haven't actually tested it in any way either. Anyhow, in my case what seems to happen is that I pick up other people's feelings and make them my own. To the point where, if someone is sad, angry, happy, thoughtful, insecure or anything else I very quickly tend to sink into the same emotional state as them.
Now, if those emotions aren't very strong, my own emotional state tends to remain on top. However, if the others emotional state is very strong, or I find myself among a crowd or such, my own emotions tend to get washed away in the "flood". Not only that, but I've also noticed that to some extent I tend to project my emotions onto others (or at least so it seems to me).
One of the main repercussions this has wrought on me is that I tend to, when alone, be quite (although not completely) unemotional. I don't know if it's the way my body/mind tries to compensate for all the emotional overload at other times or what it is. Additionally, when I'm around other people (or know I'm going to be among them) my emotions tend to come up strongly. Perhaps as some kind of auto-defense mechanism once again? As I said, I really don't know.
To make a long story short, this has brought up all kinds of problems and doubts over the years. Things such as emotional "feedback loops" (or so I have come to call them), a tendency to withdraw from people for LONG periods of time (one of my most peaceful and happy moments in life was 2 months in the middle of he Australian desert totally alone), emotional dependency, etc, etc, etc. Also, I've come to doubt if certain emotions I feel are actually mine or not at times (or if other people's emotions are theirs). For example, say I "fall" in love with someone, and this person tells me at some point they felt the same thing since that same time. Now this, combined with my more-or-less "unemotional" state when I'm alone has brought up serious doubts more than once on whether those feelings are truly mine or theirs. Anyhow... so much for making a long story short...
On to the second point: Painful aural viewing. This is (at least for me) at lot harder to explain. Perhaps I should start by saying that my "normal" eyesight is extremely sensitive. I'm not albino or anything like that and I don't even have a perfect eyesight, but walking in the sunlight without dark sunglasses on gives me serious headaches, eye-pains and such. I hadn't thought that this might in some way be related until just a few hours ago when I read the article on aural viewing on astral dynamics, where something is mentioned about how normal eyesight is strongly related to aura viewing.
Back to the point. Just like with the empathy, I've had the "problem" for as long as I can remember. I have this extreme ease to concentrate on something (or nothing)... to the point where basically everything else around me is totally blocked out (yes, I can enter into a meditative state without even realizing it). And that tends to happen without me even trying in the least.
Sometimes, when I focus (as in what one does to try and see auras) on an object (although it is a lot stronger and obvious on anything electrical (cables, appliances, etc.) and to a somewhat different degree, living things) aside from seeing what I've heard of as being called auras (or what they should more or less look like), my vision is often overwhelmed by flashes, streaks, swirls and waves (for lack of a better description) of colour, mostly only partially related (or so it seems) to whatever it is I'm focusing on.
So, lets say for example that I focus on a particular part of my monitor, to try and see the aura of a certain objects' colour. Within something like 2 to 60 seconds (if it does actually occur), without (hardly) any kind of telltale signs or warnings I'll have my entire field of vision flooded with colours, which mostly seem more or less attached to any objects or living things, but as if flowing through (and around) all these there's what I could only describe as some kind of much larger aura perhaps. Now, when this happens I have to very quickly close my eyes and "break out" of whatever it might be as I get quite severe headaches and my eyes hurt if I even as much as try to keep looking at this for more than perhaps a second or two.
Well, I hope I managed to explain my little "problems" more or less clearly. Whatever the case might be, I would greatly appreciate any kind of (useful/constructive) feedback on what I've mentioned, either in terms of explaining, clarifying or just talking about them or to in some way "help" with them in some way or another.
Thank you.
J.