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i was thinking about the book "locked in" & also blind people. The plot of locked in (true-story) was a man paralzyed that learned how to communicate with subtle mouth movements. He uses this method to communicate to a writer about how he spends his time having "delicious meals" and going on "great adventures" by practicing concentration.

Blind people from birth have the ability to visual forms and shapes, and may well probably there whole lives building some astral environment or BST, with everything they visualize hardening into more permanent environments.

Then i was thinking of people like steven hawking.

I thought that maybe people choose to have this dis-ability in the after-life to assure that they will gain mental control much more rapidly in there next life(bit of a trade off).

I kno to a lot of u here will think the idea of someone who has no memory of death cant accurately speak about it and i understand. But there is a common thread of thought that i prescribe to that a lot of others here have and this may pertain more to them.

i have severe insomnia which i use a variety of methods to overcome. more particularly i have what is called early morning awakening where intially i fall asleep for 2-3 hours then am not able to go back to sleep.

this experience (which just happened) was intiated after taking a 12th of my prescribed medication (its strong) although i cant soley blame it on that

the pervading theme of this dream marathon was uncertianty, attack on my belief system and or loss of "ego".

Thing started to go array when  noticed i was dreaming. I felt uncomfterable in the dream as i didnt have a lot of control over it and desired to be awake again. So i used, some method which i normally use to get back to waking consciuoness. I used itm but when i got to that threshold of beinf able to escape i had to move "physically in order to be awake completely, i was so exhausted that i took the chance of falling "back in". This created a sortof "water-wheel" effect where i kept moving back and forth between this comfterable and scary state due to my exhaustion and lack of consciousness.

Eventually i was thrown into a more stable dream. I still had the notion i was dreaming but had no control. There was a struggle between my exhaustion to just let go and let the dream take me and the fear uncertainty. I think i started crying. I tried telling everyone around me in my dream that i was stuck and needed to leave. They didnt care, i started foul mouthing my mom and keeping close to other family members. I was like a little kid again. I should note this sint thte first time i experienced this although not to this duration the "theme" is not unfamililar. So basically the rest of the time was a struggle to not let myself fall below the "threshold" and maintain some degree of control. It was exhausting, scary and releiving to finally leave when i had enough energy to physically get up.

the rite of passage, the action of me transcending the fear and uncertianty, throwing myself into the aybss and being open to a new experience may have been a lesson i think i was afriad that if i were to experience this i would loose myself.

As the title suggest that is what I experience. Last night i was over-whelmed by one.

almost like a violet flame about to annihilate a lint ball, in the face of these I feel infinitely powerless, infinitely meaningless. In the face of these life has no meaning anymore. It seemed to have the power to take-away "my purpose" because if "this" could exist everything I am is meaningless. From doctors I've worked with, they've told me you are more susceptible to these attacks when you wake in the night because parts of your brain that normally intercept these energy onslaughts are shut-off.
To describe the experience it was just "over-whelming energy".
I am upsetted by these experiences afterwards because of the re-definition they have caused. Its just something i cant ignore.
In your opinion do you think these experiences are:

*something i was meant to experience?
*something that contains a lesson?
*some totally illusory force?
*something incomprehensible by me, so i interpret it as the most "dangerously" possible event imaginable?

Thanks for reading

Contemporary archealogist believe they are around 3,000 years

Alternative researchers like anthony west believe they are 10,000-30,000 years old, for reasons like the erosion of the walls of the sphinx, the difference in dating between sites, and many undiscored sites just to name a few

Also I believe many with spiritual insight believe they are far older.

Personally im guessing >10,000 years

When i have lucid dreams they usually fall under 2 categories

1. I realize I'm in a dream and take over from there, my body feels normal Il have control for like a minute or two.

2. I sort of know or am positive im in a dream and i feel like im passing out and have to sit down, this is followed a pins and needles like sensation and a feeling that my body is really heavy. im also afraid to fully intergrate with my environment and usually snap back.

So, is there a significant difference between them? And is there something I ca do that would increase the chance of me experiencing one over the other?

latley iv been having these morning projections/lucid dreams where i end up in my room. The problem is I am not able to manifest anything or change my enviromment. I am able to warp somethings like an adoobe photoshop program if i focus on them but I do not have much freedom. I noticed that while im in these i sometimes if not all the time have an awareness of my body sleeping. I thought maybe if I lost that awareness I would have more power to manifest.

I have a book on celtic myth & magic with three written path works included. It says it is best to have someone read it to you but i dont have that option. So I am wondering would it be better to read the path work while in a relaxed state? Or record the path work and play it back?

the title is not referring to books about dreams its about books i find in dreams. Things i make habbit of in real life often occur in dreams like looking for an interesting book. The last book i read in a dream was about neuro-physiology, i read about things that were foriegn to me but were relevating and made sense, like how protiens are converted into thought. Another time i found a whole encyclopedia on i subject never heard of, after i woke up i asked myself how much would i learn if i read all of those?
and would that information be special to me?

Dream guides are less common to me, but offer a differnet means of learning from my subconscious. Last night in mydream,this women with mystical powers, who had a yellow glow about her began to teach me how to meditate. I felt her and her students energy and it was exciting, but a little nerve wracking.

         i have been having the occasional lucid dream for as long as i could remember. It wasnt until i learned what lucid dreaming was that i began to experiment with it. The first things i started working with were reality checks (ex. flicking a light switch,pinching myself), until i found that the light started giong on and it hurt when i pinched myself.
       Since then i do not have solid reality checks to rely on and its more just a lucid awareness and feeling i get that informs me that I am in a dream when i occasionally have one. Last week I had what i consider to be my yet. NOrmally my LD's only last for 15-30 secs, My last LD lasted for 2-3 minutes.First thing I did was look at my palms, because i read that on here, as soon as i realized it wasnt working, I increased my general awareness calmed down and started tapping objects which kept me lucid.
     
      I owe this small accomplishment through a system of trial and error  over a few years. So where are you on your journery? and what obstacles have you faced?