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Why do I tremble so much when I do a chakra meditation?

I do not know. but I hurt too much. I try to be vegan, but it is hard in the deep south, so when neccesary I cheat veganism, but it hurts,  I know the universe has what you would call" the law of the jungle" but I wonder should I stop participating. My best friend Is a dog. we communicate telepathically. I love her so much. During our relationship at one point she saved me life. But every time I look at her I also want to cry for what my species(human: aka catastrophic virus) has done to.her. Most of the night I remain concious but why is the poor dog kickin. I hate cutting the grass, cause and trimmin but it is expected of me. I want to live in cabin where anything goes. Why do we have to hurt? We only do so because were dumbasses and we have not yet realized. I dont think we ever will and I cry for that suffering as I do .I will serve the sheep but i will kill an ignorant shepard. Therfore i will kill all, and rescue all. but after this, for you are in trouble.; Humans only KILL their fellow and other species to satisify a desire. By the end of this letter I will be dead. I am so tired. My fellow species is blindand deaf. Last couple months I try talk w? others, They say suicide is wrong and evil. but as i leave now I know there is heart

 I have been having a problem w/ an abcessed tooth. I went to the dentist and he recommended root canal in order to save the tooth. I have read alot of nightmarish stuff on root canals and am conflicted to whether I should have it done, or extracted. I have been leaning towards exrtaction, but like I said I am conflicted and feel I need to do something. Anyone have any experience with this matter and or suggestion?

I had recently read Xanth's ebook (which I found very helpful) and am trying to implement. The noticing technique is working pretty well for me. I lay down and relax the body and focus on the darkness. Then as I am noticing I begin having visuals, (scenes and or people) and I try to remain curious and or nuetral. This happens fairly easy for me. Sometimes the visuals are changing rapidly, other times a little more slowly. It almost seems that what I am witnessing is flipping channels on a tv. What I struggle with is engaging into any of the scenarios to where as I have some sort of control. I hate to use the word control but I couldnt think of what it is I am trying to express. I guess maybe to have the freedom to explore and experiment. I also have kind of practiced on the mental rundown but do need to practice some more. Any suggestions?