Hi, all. I'm hoping someone can help me, I'm at my wit's end.
I always thought it had something to do with my personality, or my attitude, or my subconscious, but I'm not so sure, anymore...
Seems that friends, particularly female friends, lasted about 2 years. Then suddenly, inexplicably, they lost all patience with me, became rude & condescending & finally they, or usually, I, broke it off.
Well, now it's happening in my office, and I can see more about these people, and what's ticking them off, and it's really weird. The pivotal thing is that they all become furiously enraged, and either deny that they're enraged or perceive that I'd done something unforgivable--that they couldn't quite remember. In almost all cases the people were--are--emotionally important to me, or just people i really trust. In any case I'm vulnerable only through them.
In the last few instances, one was a woman who suddenly perceived that I'd revealed her personal info (I don't know any), one was a superior at the job, who I got along very well with, who suddenly tried to get me fired, but couldn't provide any reasons when his supervisor took him to task on it. One is a very close office-friend. She took ill a week ago, but after recovering, refused to talk to me, or even make eye contact, for days, just sat glaring into her computer & mumbling. After a few days, she became very talkative with others in the office, but radiated a hostility towards me so palpable I could feel it when standing behind her.
There seem to be odd hallmarks--whereas anger produced as a result of a specific action or argument fades after a few hours, this rage stays white-hot & self-justifying for days or even months. This anger is almost palpable, like an oily cloud. The individual expressing it, no matter how close to me they are become distant & condescending, and it's impossible to establish rapport to discuss anything civilly. The one's who've acted on the rage & taken steps to hurt me in some way often seem to experience a streak of luck immediately after.
'Bout me: I'm generally a very up-beat guy, energetic & cheerful. I practice energy development, kundalini meditation & chi gung. I believe in Etheric energies but not really in supernatural spirits (well...). For the last couple of months, I've also felt a heavy cloud setting on me, starting a few minutes after I wake up. Lately, I've had some emotionally difficult events that I seem to be reacting to out of proportion (possibly because of my energy work).
Can anybody make heads or tales of my situation? Gimme some fast & permanent help?
Thanks!
I always thought it had something to do with my personality, or my attitude, or my subconscious, but I'm not so sure, anymore...
Seems that friends, particularly female friends, lasted about 2 years. Then suddenly, inexplicably, they lost all patience with me, became rude & condescending & finally they, or usually, I, broke it off.
Well, now it's happening in my office, and I can see more about these people, and what's ticking them off, and it's really weird. The pivotal thing is that they all become furiously enraged, and either deny that they're enraged or perceive that I'd done something unforgivable--that they couldn't quite remember. In almost all cases the people were--are--emotionally important to me, or just people i really trust. In any case I'm vulnerable only through them.
In the last few instances, one was a woman who suddenly perceived that I'd revealed her personal info (I don't know any), one was a superior at the job, who I got along very well with, who suddenly tried to get me fired, but couldn't provide any reasons when his supervisor took him to task on it. One is a very close office-friend. She took ill a week ago, but after recovering, refused to talk to me, or even make eye contact, for days, just sat glaring into her computer & mumbling. After a few days, she became very talkative with others in the office, but radiated a hostility towards me so palpable I could feel it when standing behind her.
There seem to be odd hallmarks--whereas anger produced as a result of a specific action or argument fades after a few hours, this rage stays white-hot & self-justifying for days or even months. This anger is almost palpable, like an oily cloud. The individual expressing it, no matter how close to me they are become distant & condescending, and it's impossible to establish rapport to discuss anything civilly. The one's who've acted on the rage & taken steps to hurt me in some way often seem to experience a streak of luck immediately after.
'Bout me: I'm generally a very up-beat guy, energetic & cheerful. I practice energy development, kundalini meditation & chi gung. I believe in Etheric energies but not really in supernatural spirits (well...). For the last couple of months, I've also felt a heavy cloud setting on me, starting a few minutes after I wake up. Lately, I've had some emotionally difficult events that I seem to be reacting to out of proportion (possibly because of my energy work).
Can anybody make heads or tales of my situation? Gimme some fast & permanent help?
Thanks!