The one thing I find most difficult about AP and OBEs is that very few people in my everyday life understand why I even care or think about these things. I don't really have any friends who also experience these things, and I have only one friend who has an interest in AP and OBEs, but she lives far away.
A couple of months ago, I had an OBE/AP experience that truly changed my life. I've shared the experience with a few people, but most pf the people in my life don't know what to make of it. Since having this experience, I've been "starved" for information and just aching to find a community of friends with whom I could discuss these things without having them look at me like I just grew another head.
So, here I am... I've posted before, but I want to share this particular experience and see if anyone else can relate.
It began the way most of my experiences now begin - with me raising up out of my body. I used to get stuck in a dream paralysis stage but, thankfully, that practically never happens anymore. Now, I almost always drift up out of my body.
I was not alone; I had some sort of guide with me, though I could not see any being. I moved out of a window and began drifting up over the earth. During this time, I was not aware of my earthly life at all. I couldn't have told you my name; I couldn't have told you anything about my earthly life. I was completely filled with something I can only describe as absolute love. I just felt so amazingly full of love and peace.
As I was drifting up, I felt this intense love for every being (person, animal, tree...just everything) on the planet. I was seeing the tops of roofs, and I was aware of the families in each one. I knew and could understand how every single being was both connected and separate, and I just ...loved them. Loved everyone with a beautiful, powerful love that was more than a feeling.
So, a pause here... see, I've been struggling a lot in the past couple of years with an intense fear of death and dying. Just an overwhelming terror about the whole dying process.
Well, during this experience, my "guide" "said" (not verbally) to me something akin to "if you are able to feel all of this right now, can you imagine how much more powerful it will be when you are truly dying?" and I knew this was in reference to my fear of death and dying...and that I was basically being told "look... your body and soul are prepared and equipped to handle the experience of dying. It will all be taken care of when it's time. Don't worry."
I was suddenly aware that if I looked above me (or behind what would've been my shoulder if I'd had a body), I would see "God" (or the Divine Creator...or just whatever being it is that some of us refer to as God). And I did look. And I saw the brightest most intense light I have ever seen...it was both far too bright to look at but did not hurt me. It was the very definition of light.
And I was immediately propelled back into my body.
When I woke up, my entire body was tingling (similarly to how it feels if a limb just begins to fall asleep)...only it wasn't just a limb...it was my whole body. It was intense. I've never ever experienced that when coming out of an OBE/AP experience; I've never had a physical reaction to an experience like that.
This particular OBE/AP experience has really and truly altered my life. My terror over death has diminished a fair amount, though I admit to still being afraid. I'm curious as to whether or not anyone else has had a similar experience or might be able to help me understand mine more.
See, I do not ever consciously project myself into OBEs/APs. They happen to me at random, and I can't induce them. I've very very slowly over time learned to experience them more fully (they began as night terrors...then sleep paralysis...then drifting but panicking...and now full experiences). I'm eager to learn more, though admittedly not eager to learn to consciously make these experiences happen at will.
A couple of months ago, I had an OBE/AP experience that truly changed my life. I've shared the experience with a few people, but most pf the people in my life don't know what to make of it. Since having this experience, I've been "starved" for information and just aching to find a community of friends with whom I could discuss these things without having them look at me like I just grew another head.
So, here I am... I've posted before, but I want to share this particular experience and see if anyone else can relate.
It began the way most of my experiences now begin - with me raising up out of my body. I used to get stuck in a dream paralysis stage but, thankfully, that practically never happens anymore. Now, I almost always drift up out of my body.
I was not alone; I had some sort of guide with me, though I could not see any being. I moved out of a window and began drifting up over the earth. During this time, I was not aware of my earthly life at all. I couldn't have told you my name; I couldn't have told you anything about my earthly life. I was completely filled with something I can only describe as absolute love. I just felt so amazingly full of love and peace.
As I was drifting up, I felt this intense love for every being (person, animal, tree...just everything) on the planet. I was seeing the tops of roofs, and I was aware of the families in each one. I knew and could understand how every single being was both connected and separate, and I just ...loved them. Loved everyone with a beautiful, powerful love that was more than a feeling.
So, a pause here... see, I've been struggling a lot in the past couple of years with an intense fear of death and dying. Just an overwhelming terror about the whole dying process.
Well, during this experience, my "guide" "said" (not verbally) to me something akin to "if you are able to feel all of this right now, can you imagine how much more powerful it will be when you are truly dying?" and I knew this was in reference to my fear of death and dying...and that I was basically being told "look... your body and soul are prepared and equipped to handle the experience of dying. It will all be taken care of when it's time. Don't worry."
I was suddenly aware that if I looked above me (or behind what would've been my shoulder if I'd had a body), I would see "God" (or the Divine Creator...or just whatever being it is that some of us refer to as God). And I did look. And I saw the brightest most intense light I have ever seen...it was both far too bright to look at but did not hurt me. It was the very definition of light.
And I was immediately propelled back into my body.
When I woke up, my entire body was tingling (similarly to how it feels if a limb just begins to fall asleep)...only it wasn't just a limb...it was my whole body. It was intense. I've never ever experienced that when coming out of an OBE/AP experience; I've never had a physical reaction to an experience like that.
This particular OBE/AP experience has really and truly altered my life. My terror over death has diminished a fair amount, though I admit to still being afraid. I'm curious as to whether or not anyone else has had a similar experience or might be able to help me understand mine more.
See, I do not ever consciously project myself into OBEs/APs. They happen to me at random, and I can't induce them. I've very very slowly over time learned to experience them more fully (they began as night terrors...then sleep paralysis...then drifting but panicking...and now full experiences). I'm eager to learn more, though admittedly not eager to learn to consciously make these experiences happen at will.
