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I wasn't quite sure which forum to post this in, but this seemed to be the most sensible since I did have a spiritual evolution of sorts.  The story begins when I was younger and feeling extremely depressed at that particular time. I had been going through a seriously "blue" period (yes, I did have recurring suicidal thoughts) and something happened that to this day I still cannot explain.  One day while feeling intensely depressed, I decided to take a walk. While I was walking along, I noticed a "dirty," yellowish figure about six feet behind me.  It did not have a distinct form to speak of, but I could feel its shape so to speak.  It did not have a distinguishable head, but the region of form that could have been it's head was bent down as if hanging it's head in sorrow.
    As I stated, I could feel its presence more than see it.  It was like as if I had one foot in this universe, and the other foot was somewhere else (?).  After a few moments, the figure was gone.  I have to say that I am the type of person that 'blue" periods are just part of my life.  I know that for some in explainable reason (as I'm sure many of you out there have felt yourselves) that I must go through these episodes in order to spiritually grow, at least that's been true in my whacked out life.
    To continue.  Several months later, after the "blue" period had ended so to speak, I saw the figure again.  When I saw it again, it was a brighter yellow, almost a grey-white, and it was moving shoulder to shoulder along side me as I was out walking again.  The figure's posture seemed upright and stronger, the color brighter.  I only saw the figure for a few moments, but like I stated, it wasn't behind me this time, it was "hovering" side by side with me.  
    Has anyone out there experienced anything similar to my experience?
Was it some sort of guide (?) or was it my fractured consciousness catching up to itself (?).  To this day, almost 10 years later, the experience is still very vivid in my head.  Thanks for hearing me out.

Are astral guides "real" in the sense of their own astral realities or are they are own thought-projected forms manifested astrally? Or both (if possible)? I am a newbie who has just recently begun to seriously undertake astral projection.  I am working from the so-called basics up; energy work, etc....  One thing has always intrigued me about astral projection and that is contact with a spirit guide.  In hopes that I am successful one day in projecting, I am wondering whether it is better for a person to try to contact a "real" astral guide or create one to manifest itself (?). If the astral plane, according to the research I've done, is both real and illusion, which is better?  I am guessing that the "realer the better" is the proper way to go (?).  I know I am jumping the gun, but this area of OBE is extremely fascinating to me.

Thanks for your precious time.

I know that I'm a little late in finding your website, but better late than never.  What joy I felt in seeing a place where people of inquiring "like" minds and spirits can converse in an intelligent and open, friendly manner!  I'm just a blue-collar working stiff who is searching for answers... I look forward to hearing (better to say reading I guess!) about your insights into the great mysteries that this crazy world offers.  I don't mean to be long-winded, but its such a great feeling to know that others are seriously looking too.  Thanks for lending me your time in "hearing" me out as I ramble.