Dear Shalalem
my experience in the astral is that you must first be quite centered and stable emotionaly before you go and do energy 'things' with others. Merging with your lady love is fine, but I suspect that you have not been on a regular meditation program using basic earthing exercises. May I suggest that you do two things:
1. begin to meditate on your feet, pushing energy, chi, out through your feet, twice for 20 minutes each day. This stimulates the flow of life-force through you body giving it the strength and stability to ward off this sort of thing. Maybe start learning tai chi which incorportates these exercises.
2. go to a psychologist or psychotherapist with an open mind, I suspect that there are sexuality issues behind this, exploring this may close the hole in your aura.
I am a psychologist with 20 years experience in astral travelling, I began when I started tai chi, I treat people with similar problems, so please, do these first, then you migh begin to have some sanity return to your life.
P.S. I don't think garlic or smoke smudge will remove your incubus, it is too happy doing its thing, so you better just look at learning how to defend yourself instead of frightening it away, because it might just come back.
www.shoal.net.au/~astralc
my experience in the astral is that you must first be quite centered and stable emotionaly before you go and do energy 'things' with others. Merging with your lady love is fine, but I suspect that you have not been on a regular meditation program using basic earthing exercises. May I suggest that you do two things:
1. begin to meditate on your feet, pushing energy, chi, out through your feet, twice for 20 minutes each day. This stimulates the flow of life-force through you body giving it the strength and stability to ward off this sort of thing. Maybe start learning tai chi which incorportates these exercises.
2. go to a psychologist or psychotherapist with an open mind, I suspect that there are sexuality issues behind this, exploring this may close the hole in your aura.
I am a psychologist with 20 years experience in astral travelling, I began when I started tai chi, I treat people with similar problems, so please, do these first, then you migh begin to have some sanity return to your life.
P.S. I don't think garlic or smoke smudge will remove your incubus, it is too happy doing its thing, so you better just look at learning how to defend yourself instead of frightening it away, because it might just come back.
www.shoal.net.au/~astralc