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Hats off to you, sir.  

That post was wise and yet so humorous and with the right amount of pizazz. When I'm impaired, I find myself speaking like Buddha himself, as well. This post sounds a lot like something my own mind would conjure up when intoxicated.

I've wondered many a time if our souls live in some silent, dark vacuum, constantly meditating on silence, love, and harmony while we are in our waking moments. Silence, peace, love, etc. are probably the driving energy forces behind this virtual reality construct known as the material plane. Even if our lives are in chaos and many karmic lessons need to be learned, I still believe that the spirit is the driving force behind the illusion. Our souls are probably hard at work in their natural states, supplementing the illusion, by being in pure silence and pure existence (meaning, in a meditative state). In reality, we think that when we wake up in the mornings, we are waking up out of our dreams, but it works the other way around. We are taking a break from reality (the astral) to dream... (live in this life away from the source)

Without silence, there would be no concentration. I believe this may extend to our spiritual selves, as well. If silence is peace and stability and if noise is disruption and chaos, then that makes sense as an analogy of how things work here, as well. If you are trying to focus everything you have on trying to AP or go OBE, for example, it's much easier to do if you are in silence rather than if you had a noisy marching band stampede around your house.

I'm not sober at the moment, either, so hope this made sense. Cheers.

Right. I've had dream recall before where I'd get little snippets and useless bits of information flood back to me at a later time, but it's rarely ever like watching a movie start playing on a screen in my head. It was so cool.

One of my friends recently told me about a demonic entity in the 3D. She said she was laying around, lights on, watching tv, when someone grabbed her and started speaking in tongues in her ear. She naturally assumed it was a demon because she's very Christian. She demanded that it go away in the name of Jesus, but really, the name for Jesus is just her pushing pure love on the negative entity because she believes that Jesus is pure love. In reality, if there is something "bad" or "negative" out there, the worst it can do is take some of your energy. And you only let something have your energy by surrendering to it or letting it feed off of you. This is why, like an above poster said, you need to use love as the driving force to banishing anything that you feel is metaphysically attacking you.

I've felt "stuck" in my energetic body before. I think it just means we're not tuning in to a high enough frequency to project fully. I am a believer in that we have more than two energetic body, for sure. Sometimes, I'll be dreaming and will become lucid and will try to 'meditate' my way out of the dream body and into full astral body. Sometimes, I will literally feel "stuck" in my energetic body, pulling phantom limbs out of that energy body which belong to a different energy body... I've even had sleep paralysis of the dream body (I thought it was material). Lately, I've been having a combo of sleep paralysis/false awakenings where I'll wake up, wanna get up in my dream, but will find myself paralyzed. I used to never have this and would only have sleep paralysis in the 3D. I know these are dreams because I've been waking up with sleep paralysis in places that aren't my bed, and I'll usually project back to my own room and physical body right away. Mental blocks put up which didn't allow me to go from dream to astral. Sometimes, a guide will come to my aide. Sometimes, it works. When I project from dreams, I usually sit very very still (this is important for me) and focus on raising my vibrations. I'll also stare at a certain point in my dream landscape until it comes into focus, at which point I'll imagine myself flying towards it.

I'm going to give a fluffy response here, but a response nonetheless.

Everyone in real life astral projects - consciously, in dreams, via thought.

I think we all tend to not run into each other because in the astral, because, the frequencies being higher than in 3D, along with everything being based on an individuals own thought/spiritual evolution status, will tend to leave us scattered like dust in the wind all over the astral.

My mother and I have often gotten together in dreams and would talk about literally being in the same dream scenario together, later. It depends on your bond with someone.

Good luck. Why not try to call for a guide? Someone may be around to help you. Anyways, my photo is in my icon. I'm not on Moscow time, am in the U.S., so my schedule may conflict with any efforts I may try. I'm Russian, too, though.  Always get excited seeing a fellow Russian even when it's just online.

I always thought the darkness was a result of too many delta waves.  Alpha and Theta are the more creative waves (associated with dreaming) but delta is the wave that completely plunges you into a black, dreamless sleep, I hear.

Perhaps I am doing things in excess and don't need all this stuff but it IS working. The supplements I started to take definitely did seem to lift my blockage. And hey, that's totally good enough for me.  I definitely do want to get to a point where I'll lift the veil on my own. I keep reading about people opening their third eye and stuff, and the thing is, my third eye feels like it's just barely open. It's more open than the average person's for sure (I only say this because the average person doesn't have telepathic dreams, AP, SP, FAs, and LDs that often), but it still feels like there is a huge energy blockage in that chakra. 

On the upside, though, my skin has started to look like it's glowing and my hair shines like a lion's mane. Before I started these, my skin was very dull and pasty and my hair was dull as straw.

Like I said, I am only going off of what I read, and even then, it's not like I know how much research has even gone into what I'm talking about. 

@Xanth

This reminds me of the time I THOUGHT I had sleep paralysis but I was in the astral and mistook being on the astral for a false awakening followed by becoming 'stuck'

I woke up from sleep (or so I thought). My entire room looked different. It had all of my stuff but it was mixed with stuff I didn't buy yet and it was decorated slightly different. It had the essence of my room with a 30% difference.

I told myself I had to get up but found myself in complete paralysis... in a room that wasn't entirely mine.

I struggled to become un-stuck and found myself getting up! I got up, went over to my chest, and thought "My room looks so different...." and alas, since my mind kept thinking I was actually awake in 3D and was bewildered over the changes in scenery, I didn't realize I was actually awake in the astral and I literally felt myself project back into my actual room and back into my body. Usually, I bypass this "whooshing" and being pulled away feeling and just get back to my body by thought. Felt like a vacuum gobbled me up.

But yes, this supports what Xanth said. Sometimes, you may feel like your astral body is stuck within a denser energy body and you won't even realize it because you'll keep confusing the energy body for your physical body (sometimes, it seems virtually impossible to tell them apart)

Well, I definitely have had a lot of trial and error with these vitamins and stuff for a year and a half. The more I've been reading about fluoride and calcium and other harsh elements, the more I keep becoming convinced that there is a link between our physical bodies and our spiritual bodies, and I feel that compromising our physical bodies may also compromise our spiritual selves. When I hit 20, my imagination really slowed down and I started to have 5-10 dreams (that I could remember) every six months or so. I literally started just going to sleep and going into darkness. This also made it very hard to AP or meditate because when I'd start the process, I would get nothing but blackness.

I did a ton of research and talked to some people, and bought books, and I came to the personal conclusion that my third eye was being compromised and there was a massive energy blockage, there. I kept reading that Iodine, MSM, Boron, and rat fish oil were very good for your third eye chakra/pineal gland, so I started out on those. I started dreaming again after a month on this vitamin complex. I then added magnesium and melatonin and from then on out, I started having 1-3 dreams a night, whereas I used to have 1-3 dreams a every few weeks if I was lucky.

I definitely don't think this is placebo because the improvement in my dream quality, ability to AP, and the overall wellness that I feel, are just astounding. If anyone is having issues with their third eye, or feel that it's 'closed' or stunted by fluoride or calcium, then I recommend at least taking some Iodine seeing as how I keep reading that's the most powerful way to get those nasty things out of the pineal.

Maybe we should all try to come up with some place new and much more hip than an island with a pyramid on it. 

Lionheart - Ahh, I'm with you there. Ever since I were a small child, I started collecting Egyptian trinkets. Papyrus drawings, Egyptian paintings, little pyramid and sphynx statuettes, and all things pertaining to Ancient Egypt were awesome in my book.

The dreams where I'm surrounded by white sand and gawking up at the glory of the pyramids are some of my favorites, ever! I definitely sense that they hold many, many, many mysteries.

Speaking of which - has anyone ever actually tried to AP into the pyramids? This is so going to be my next project!

Okay, I have something spooky to add to add to this. I, like the original poster, know nothing of crystal phenomenon. Nada. Nothing.

I'm telling you, though, that I bought these two crystals at a nature store some time ago. I remember buying them thinking "My, they look so clear and purple inside!" and that was one of the reasons why I bought them.

I took the crystals home, stuffed them in a shoe box for a while, and recently whipped them out. They were somewhere completely dark and I had no contact with them.

About three months ago, I whipped them out and kept them on my bedside table in a little velvet baggie where I had three crystals - the two I photographed and a clear quartz crystal.

After I read your posts, I thought "Pfft, nothing can mess up crystals that badly." I was wrong.

One crystal has a smooth inner texture (they are raw crystals, not cut), but the top part of the crystals are breaking out in tiny inner black... dots.

The other crystal is completely blotch free and has no black dots anywhere but it looks like someone took the inner part of it and smashed it with a hammer, repeatedly.

http://i264.photobucket.com/albums/ii182/LafemmeLana/crystals_zps2f1f84d6.jpg

Picture one - Crystal has inner black blotches now, like a leopard. Tried cleaning. They weren't there before. Inner textures are smooth and not cracked (besides maybe a small amount)

Picture two - No black blotches, or blemishes inside of any sort. However, the inner textures look like someone shattered them with a hammer, like cracked ice cubes, as has been mentioned before.

*scratches head* What gives?!  

Thanks guys. I'm watching the youtube video as we speak.

I guess I do need to just understand that I'm flawed, moody, sometimes get angry, and flat out dramatic and overly emotional, but hey, that's the ugly side of me that I must learn to combat.

Thing is, I'm just tired of letting it ruin every relationship I've ever had.

You could say that I don't respond well to trauma or people insulting my character because I've had too much verbal abuse in my life. Sometimes, people will see how upset I get or how much I'll let some "fluffy" little emotional dramas bother me, and they'll just tell me to "get over it" or "stop being a baby" when in reality, I'll be feeling so tortured inside that they have no idea.

I'm just very sensitive. Very, very sensitive, and quite frankly, it's been getting on my nerves lately. I feel chained and like I'm bound to my stress and my dramas and my overly sensitive personality. I want to be able to get to the point where the whole world could call me crazy and stupid and I'd just be able to be "Meh. Your point is?" instead of crawling into a corner and crying about it.

Note: I just want to thank everyone for not telling me to just get over it like the rest of the world has. Everytime I try to talk about feeling psychologically tortured by my past mistakes/just blaming myself in general, people around me always just laugh and tell me to be glad I'm not starving in some third world country or something of that sort. It seems that a LOT of people I know brush off emotional pain or just tell me to go see a shrink. My life hasn't been the worst life out there but it hasn't been the most blessed one, either. I'm so glad that the people on here don't judge and are much more open to helping someone out in need.

I definitely have some health issues but it's nothing that needs healing seeing as I'm stuck with it indefinitely. I have a nervous system problem where my fight/flight reflexes are off. My body constantly produces more adrenaline than the average person, so I'm often stuck feeling very worked up and on edge. I produce several hormones in copious amounts and have some problems regulating my hormones/body chemistry/brain chemistry, etc. For example, I am a female but produce too much testosterone. This can result in you being on edge. I also produce too much adrenaline. Also can result in someone feeling on edge. I produce other things in large amounts, too, it's part of my autonomic nervous system disorder. A side effect is depression and high anxiety. I swear I have all the key characteristics of borderline personality disorder, as well. Basically, I'm aware that a lot of this is just my body's own funk. A lot of times, mentally, I won't even be as torn apart over an issue as I will be physically boiling over it, where my heart will start hitting 160 beats per minute and I'll go into a physical panic attack, which will lead me into a mental panic attack.

Thanks for your response!

So, are you basically saying that I need to heal by just learning to shut off those shadow memories, which hold on to negativity or fear?

Who the heck knows what happened to me before my physical existence. As a child, I was scared of everything from T-Rexes to aliens to being completely terrified of the dark. 

As I've grown up, some, I've come to realize that all of the bad does stay with me, but I need to just learn how to make it shut up.

Part of me will always be slightly wary of the dark. Why? Perhaps the darkness scared me in another life or at another time.

My fear of monsters and the boogeyman (childish fears) have mostly been replaced with fears of bad karma and of failing... something. What am I so scared of failing? Of course, this too, is probably deep rooted in most humans because when we fail or do "bad things", these too are stored with us and stay with us forever. I sometimes can feel the negative fears of failure and of bad karma and of bad times spent elsewhere, pushing down on me in this incarnation. Do I know it's all an illusion and that I am the only one holding on to such stigmas? Yes. Yes I do. 

I am smart in the sense that part of me is rational enough to overcome such things and let it not hinder my spirit. On the other hand, sometimes, I do start feeling like that little girl who was afraid of the dark, again. Except, like I said, most of my fears now just pertain to negativity itself. I guess that does make me "human" as another post above mine stated, but sometimes, like I said, I just feel so alien and not human.

It's much like feeling like you're in the wrong body and need a sex change operation.  I know I'm smarter, am more enlightened, and am so much better than imaginable, but the "human" side of me with its darned emotions and the fears it has harbored really depress me sometimes and kill my spirit. I really need to just heal myself through positive thinking.

I would love to just be able to snap out of my body while in the midst of doing something very physical and awake. I need to be in a sleep paralysis for it to work. I fell out of my body while in SP, once, though. I woke up with sleep paralysis and my entire room looked 70% the same but there were things in there that I never bought and it was decorated slightly different. I tried to move my physical body and I actually got it moving. I was moving my physical body around (but I was very weak and groggy) and I tried to get up. When I lifted myself out of bed, I found myself completely out of body. To this day, I keep wondering if I woke up in another dimension where I decorated my room slightly different and spontaneously APed out of there. 

I keep feeling like we're missing huge chunks of the puzzle that we will never solve. This is why, in the other thread, I said something along the lines of "To question one's reality or unreality will start to lead one to insanity". Not to get philosophical on anyone but it's kind of true.

Sure, it's very easy to simply say "We always were and always will be -- no beginning and no end -- alpha and omega, etc"

But it is a concept that goes way over everyone's head. For example, one could compare the sheer perfection of the patterns and illusions that make up our reality to a painting. Let me use the Mona Lisa as an example.

Trying to tell people that "We always were and always will be, and we just ARE" is like taking someone into the museum, placing them in front of the beauty of the Mona Lisa, and saying "See that painting? She painted herself. That sprang out of oblivion. She always was and always will be."

It just doesn't cut it, right? Well, I look at reality and at the known universe as sort of like a painting. Anything that is complex, especially if it has consciousness, is just so hard to justify in any way.

We all know of the loop thing that you mentioned Wi11iam. Still using the Mona Lisa metaphor, we can get into an endless cycle of

Leonardo Da Vinci painted the Mona Lisa > His parents gave birth to him > Their parents gave birth to his parents > Repeat for many generations until the butterfly effect finally resulted in the lovely Mona Lisa.

Consciousness is perfection. It's very hard to imagine perfection coming out of nowhere. I cannot make a Mona Lisa-like painting just materialize with the wave of my hand and then, I wouldn't be able to take it further by saying "Oh, that thing? It just is and always will be." because like we all have said, it's just hard to wrap your mind around.

If something has no beginning or no end, then it loops, does it not? Beginning > end > beginning > end > beginning. It's like a circle.

The one contradictory flaw with this theory is that, like I said, consciousness is perfection. It's very hard to imagine perfection always being there without some sort of 'beginning' or push that sprang it into motion. But even then, if something did spring forth the events for consciousness to be, then what affected those events? And the events before those? IT IS MADDENING.

If we came from a big bang, or a void, then what is the big bang or the void? Let me explain it in physical terms:

If you take all life away and just observe an empty space for an infinite amount of time, will something happen in that space? Something drastic enough to spring forth all life as we know it, that is. Well, okay. So, lets say that after eons of time, of observing space, and nothingness.... BAM... universes just collided and a massive blast occurred which became known as the universe. Hmmf.

This, to me, doesn't make much sense. I think that before this universe, there were others. We are probably part of a multiverse. When this universe was "born" in the 'beginning", it was probably the byproduct of a massive energy surge/explosion/transfer of energy happening in another universe which transcended the fabric of time and space itself.

Okay so, that's my theory. That, just like the Mona Lisa did not paint itself, the universe did not just spring forth randomly from some vacuum after eons of time. If anything, I truly believe that something happened somewhere else to cause this universe to spring to life. Of course, the looping thing comes into play here, too. If the universe is a product of other universes colliding, or giving forth their own energy, then what gave those universes energy, and the ones before them energy, and bla bla bla. Yada yada. My gosh, it is just so tedious. 

Also, many of us here who have astral projected firmly believe that the astral came first. I personally believe that the astral came first. Actually, it would make sense for the astral to come first before 3D. And those of us who have vivid dreams/go to the astral know that it's literally like having a holographic body and being in a simulated environment completely dictated by thought, will, and imagination. It's like logging on to the 3D game Second Life and flying around to any simulated location that you feel like going to, except it's much more real and "in the flesh" feeling.

Keeping the astral and the 3D in mind, one can say with confidence that they exist on other frequencies or wavelengths. If the astral existed first, and if 3D followed, then it's safe to say that our true nature is higher in frequency and lesser in density. But then, what exists beyond the astral? On the higher frequencies? If you take a song and if you speed it up, it will start sounding like a choir of chipmunks are singing it. Speed it up some more, and you can compress a whole 5 minute song within a 20 second period, and the wavelengths will all completely change because they are being accelerated at a higher pace. Take that same song and slow it down massively, and you can completely distort what it sounds like and you can turn a 5 minute song into a one hour long song.

I'm beginning to think of things in similar terms to this. Lets say that, as a completely theorized notion, the big bang happened and is still happening right now.

Lets say the big bang is happening on a frequency that is so powerful it has the energy of infinite suns.

Now, lets say that that frequency, when slowed down in time (which, time may not even exist) goes from happening over a seemingly compact and short period of time, to being stretched out over eons and eons and eons.

The energy from the big bang could be what we all borrow.

So, our reality may be a frequency that is borrowed from something else. Big bang or not, I don't know. However, we are just so slowed down and so far from the higher frequency. Like I said, imagine taking a song. Imagine that a 2 minute song is the big bang. Now, go into a music editing program and turn that 2 minute song into a 2 hour song. Everything completely changes. Lets call the song functioning on a certain wavelength to be our reality.

Now, change the frequency of the song by 1%. Now, by another 1%. Now, it's completely new, and something else. This can be a metaphor for an alternate dimensions or planes. Same song but with a slight 1% difference. Am I making any sense? Maybe everything always is and always will be because we are part of the same song. Maybe the song has already played.  Oooh, that's a mind trip, aint it?

I must sound nutty because I've used things like paintings and songs to be the metaphors of life and existence, but it really helps me paint a picture or get my point across when I can take something as mind bending as this topic and relate them to concrete things. All in all, I really need to go grab some coffee now because I can literally feel my brain hurting. 

Yes. Though, it's quite hard to prove objective from subjective.

For example: A year ago, before I ever heard of API, I had a lucid dream that I was on a little island at night. I was hanging around the beach area and in the distance, I did see what looked a lot like the great pyramid of Giza.

However, am I 100% sure that I was on API in terms of the 'objective' island created by the mass consciousness of people working to create its image?

Well, this is hard to say. For one, I have an obsession with ancient Egypt, and see pyramids quite frequently in my dreams.

Second, I had just gotten back from a vacation on the beach at the time.

Also, I had never heard of the island or seen it before while APing or in my dreams. I, however, had just come back from a tropical location and have always thought pyramids were neat. It's as simple as that, really.

Could more than one island exist that has a pyramid stationed on it? Sure, why not. After all, everything and anything is possible, if you can imagine it. Or think it. I think what you're trying to get at is to see if you can meet other actual beings on the island who made an effort to get there in order to share and receive data about the astral and their experiences.

I believe it's completely possible to visit the island and meet others. However, it's probably not that easy. Even if you find an island that looks just like it, you may not encounter many people there, if any at all. And, on the other hand, it may also be the product of your own imagination. Before I ever even knew what API was, like I said, I did have a lucid dream that I was on a tropical island at night that had a pyramid on its premises. But the thing is, I'm pretty sure I was completely alone, and I didn't see any other people there.

Was I on API or was I merely just taking two things that I loved seeing - islands, and pyramids - and merging them all into one giant fantasy island? Who knows.  I'm guessing though that, had I known about API at the time I had this lucid dream, I maybe could have tried to raise my vibrations some more and tried to tap in to the actual API island as it is on a collective scale. But like I said, at the time, it was merely an island to me. I was already there, somewhere that could have been it, but I didn't utilize it to try to gain anything from the experience because I had no idea of its significance.

I made API my desktop background and keep looking at it periodically in hopes of going back there on my next spiritual journey. I reckon that's the only thing you can do - focus and meditate on it. Visualize yourself there and see where it takes you. If you get there yourself, for real, I'd suggest asking the first person you meet this very question, if you see any people at all, because I'm sure they'd answer your questions far better than anyone who hasn't actually astrally been to the actual island.

All in all, I think for the best answer to your question (or to see how much the experiment has been a success), I'd try to make it to the actual island. Good luck.

Oh, yes, I know that one. I started having this dream a few months ago where certain people that I've had negative relations with would show up in my dreams as a group just to ridicule me. I started dreaming that I was in a room full of basically everyone who disliked me in life. Dozens of people. Exes, people I've broken up with, old friendships that ended on sour notes, etc. They all basically laughed and pointed at me and told me everything they disliked about me. I had this dream 4-5 times til finally making it go away by basically saying "I don't care anymore"

I realized that the dream was all about forgiving myself. I was the one that had to let go and forgive. I remembered that no one really hated me, deep down, and that any 'hatred' they harbored for me in life will all be resolved and will all be forgiven in due time.

It's supposedly much easier to resolve karmic issues in dream form rather than in physical form. Once you get down to the root issues of why you believe your dreams are repeating on a loop or keep thrusting you into the same scenario, they may very well stop and not plague you any longer.  

Or, if they're positive dreams, then they may repeat all the time with pleasure! The trick is to visualize the place you want to go. For me, this will work both ways; the scenarios I most long for and the ones I most want to avoid tend to keep showing up in my dreams in both positive and negative ways.

I, for example, keep dreaming about the Titanic repeatedly. I just find the ship so lovely. I've probably had a hundred dreams about that ship over my lifetime. Oddly enough, when I'd wake up during one of my "Titanic" dreams as I'd call them, I'd get up for a bit, and would go back to sleep, just to be back on the boat. Oddly enough, she almost always hits an iceberg in my dream, no matter what, but I definitely keep returning to her.   I keep a two foot model of the ship in my room and she's often the last thing I see before I doze off.

I have a point in saying all of this. If there's a place on the astral that you really want to keep re-visiting, I find that becoming obsessed with the location will bring you back there. If you have a mental image, then try to draw it or sketch it. Spend some time also mentally creating this world in your mind. Imagine yourself being there. Want to be there. Strive to be there. Keep creating and building on to the location in your mind. Unless it's a collective place that has a lot of people focusing on it, and stabilizing it, you may start to disconnect from it and move farther away from it in the same sense that water will not stay cupped in your hands for long; it will trickle away unless you constantly keep refilling.

Thanks Wi11iam. Everything you said made sense in the sense that it made no sense at all... if that makes sense?  

Because nothing about consciousness makes sense and that's just the way it is.

I feel like I need to go do more research on this void/big bang thing. Even though everyone claims it's much needed to branch away from the concepts of things having a beginning/end, it's so hard not to wonder what everything was like in the 'beginning' if there ever were such a thing.

Whatever sprang the events into motion that led up to us being... 'us' -- well, I wish I just could have been around to see all that. Oh wait, maybe I was there. Maybe we all were.  

The maybes really get to me, though. Like I said, consciousness is such a topic that can lead one to question their sanity. The ifs, and hows, and whats of this 'beginning' everyone speaks of, are not fully capable of being grasped by the human brain.

What I can say is that I do believe that the astral is our true home. The astral is not dense or full of materialized matter because I believe the substance (isn't it called astral substance or ether substance?) resonates on a higher frequency. I believe that in order for something to materialize and become set in stone on the material planes, it has to have been revised and carefully planned out on the astral. All of us ending up in the same reality probably means that we all concentrated on crystallizing this reality back when it was still a rough draft project. 

My personal theory is that in the beginning, the astral existed first, or the substance that created the astral existed first. Once it was utilized, it sprang into an infinite number of planes. Somewhere in the midst of everything, consciousness came to be/or already was.

However, I cannot see what came before the astral. I don't have the power to. My human mind isn't capable of grasping it at this point. 

I am consciousness. I am consciousness trapped in the animated corpse known as my human body.  I feel completely dissociated with it, too. When looking in the mirror, even, I'll sit there going "Is that me?"

I always have just felt so alien to myself. The fact that I'm here, or that anything is here, really, confuses me and sometimes sets me off into paranoid oblivion. I'll start feeling like I'm in The Matrix (the movie) or Plato's Allegory of the Cave. I hate being depressed or scared of the paradox of all that is. I feel like I know so much and yet so little.

Sometimes, I'll start feeling like I'm just a simulation or will just get so confused over consciousness in itself. You'd think that my OBEs, astral projections, 20+ sleep paralysis incidents, lucid dreams, telepathic dreams, and supernatural encounters with various entities would bring me closer than ever to the source or my higher self. Yet, it seems that its at times when I'm most closest to the source, that my ego starts to fight back, hard.

For example: I spent a long time meditating, doing chakra exercises, and trying to work out my karmic issues, and I felt so happy at the end of it all! I felt like I was in complete and utter bliss. I felt closer to my true self and closer to the universe and god. Then, I got into a silly argument with someone, and the way I reacted and the rage I expressed was so shallow and the antithesis of anything good or godly, and it just made me feel completely depleted. I kept telling myself that I had been making such a conscious effort to become spiritual, and yet, I behaved in such a way that was far from it. I tend to beat myself up over accumulating more bad karma than good, and, I have a bit of an issue forgiving myself for it.

I just feel like if I could shut up my ego, I'd stop questioning things so much and would just go with what I already know. I know that I will never know what is truly out there until I die and cross over to the other side. Why I let it gnaw my brain out is beyond me. I believe in the astral, and in the supernatural, and yet instead of accepting things 100% for what they are, I will sit here, letting myself get depressed over everything in life that falls into the "I don't know" category. I literally am phobic of existence because I cannot fathom it. Does that make me sound nutty?   

Oh, I've been in the astral, have had multiple OBEs, have had psychic phenomenon come to me via dreams and I've encountered multi dimensional entities (ghosts) at a local hot spot for hauntings, etc. Am I positive that we will continue to live on after death? Yes. But do I have fears of going out in some deep impact/Armageddon-style sort of way? Also yes...   I guess I'd just much prefer to think about being an old lady, peacefully meeting her destiny in bed rather than having some other planet slam into us. Mind you, the fact that I am more in tune spiritually does keep me sane and calm when fear mongering goes on in the world. Some, people, though, are more weak minded and let the demon known as fear latch on to their sanity and completely cloud everything. I, myself, at a certain point, let what I heard on the news/media sites majorly get to my head. I started to feel crazy and like I was losing it so I had to learn to shut it away. Fear as being a form of entertainment really irks me because there are people out there who will listen to what's being said, will take it literally, and will go either commit suicide or do something drastic over it. Of course, this has actually been going on for hundreds of years now, so there's nothing I can do about it.  I just care a whole lot about humanity and I hate the fact that fear is being spread all willy nilly without proper consideration of what it will do to the psychology of the mass consciousness as a whole. I'm a firm believer that if humanity sinks into negativity, it will manifest and crystalize over a period of time. I much prefer Coast to Coast's lovely topics pertaining to OBEs, ghosts, and NDEs. One lady spent a whole hour describing the beauty of her NDE/OBE when she got in a rafting accident or something of that sort and found herself in an OBE. Things like that are just much more uplifting than listening to some guy talk about how we're all going to die from a mass collision with some theorized planet that is based on ancient texts, and how we're all going to have tidal waves the size of skyscrapers.  

For the past couple of weeks, I've been having a lot of dreams. I wake up a lot during the night but I end up having 2-3 dreams a night that I can remember bits and pieces of. Who knows how much one actually dreams. What I've been noticing lately is that I'll get amnesia for a few days, sometimes, even, and doing something or saying something will trigger a memory of a dream to flood in, much like a download. Just now, I was going about my business as usual, when I remembered that a day ago, I dreamed about seeing that cloud phenomena in the sky where the clouds look like they have UFOs behind them. You know, the clouds with the shiny rings around them, and stuff. I was outside looking at them in my dream; there were dozens of them. People were in flocks, looking up, and pointing up, going "UFOs!". It all seemed so vivid and I remember dreaming about it now, but I swear, I just couldn't remember for over 24 hours.

Yep, I've had this many times! More recently, I was dreaming that my ex and I were arguing.  We dated for four years and had a nasty breakup. One night, I was dreaming that we were just arguing and nonsense.. I woke up abruptly out of my sleep, stayed up for an hour, and went back to sleep. The argument pursued from the point it left off.  I've felt a whole lot better about the negativity surrounding my ex since then, too. I think re-entering a dream has a purpose. Your karma may want to take some extra time to heal a deep rooted issue.

What worries me is that, not to be a conspiracy theorist, but the doomsday antics have really risen, lately. I think it's because people are allowed to fear monger in ways that allow them to be interviewed as if they are speaking in FACTUAL terms. For example, on the Planet X discussion from the other night (which is roughly the second or third time it's already been mentioned on Coast To Coast radio), the guy was saying things like "Obama IS going to announce it soon" and "90% of the population WILL die" and "The Annunaki were Gods who harbored us for their own purposes until they were driven away and moved to Mars". Oh, and one of my favorites, he said: " They have known about it for several years and no one is allowed to speak of it."

I mean, he was making some really bizarre statements. I really don't want to believe any of that stuff, especially if it's some mythology based on Sumerian texts that someone "translated" or took and turned into a fear tactic.

Truth be told, I'd much prefer if Coast to Coast returned to the more positive topics. The internet is bad enough as it is. If I have to see one more post about Nibiru, or doomsday, and government conspiracies, or prophecies (one that's trending now is the Fatima prophecies) I WILL lose my cool.   My brain is very subjective to what I hear/see in my daily life, so all of these things will start translating into dream scenarios, for me. Just the other day, my friend, who is a Christian, described an encounter with a negative entity that she said grabbed her and started speaking to her in tongues. Terrified, I tried to push the scenario of myself in that situation far from my mind, but a few days later, I ended up dreaming that a demon was groping me, pulling me and making me levitate and defy gravity, and was pretty much speaking in tongues. So... I really want to just block out fear but it gets rather hard when it's so widely accepted as a form of entertainment. I can personally testify that fear mongering has its psychological and negative effects on the human psyche.

So, when I hit 21, I fell into some funk where I lost touch with my imagination, and with my dreams, and with my visualization skills in general. My brain was in some funk. I went from having vivid, holographic-like dreams, and having false awakenings and sleep paralysis all the time, to going into some 3D black sleep where I saw nothing but darkness.

I literally felt like I wanted to sob because my dreams and daydreams used to be so life-like that I actually enjoyed the dream world more than the living world, sometimes, and wanted to go back there! I'm telling you, my brain just went into some funk where my pineal gland went haywire. I couldn't imagine anymore or visualize or dream. Everything was bland.

I did a lot of research on how to cleanse the pineal gland, and the success I've had in the year and a half of detox, has been astounding. If not life changing.

For one, I found out from many sources, that calcium and fluoride build up in our pineal gland, and hinder its use. While calcium is important to the body, it has been shown to have same aging properties.

The more I read about fluoride, as well, actually, the more they claim it completely stunts your spiritual growth. So, here's what I did to try to stop it.

I stopped using fluoride based toothpaste. I started using a tea tree oil based one, instead. I also started taking 1 mg of Iodine every day in the form of kelp capsules. I also take 1 mg Of Boron and 5,000 mg of MSM every day (which is really good for your skin and joints, too), and I even went as far as to buy these capsules known as fermented skate liver oil. It's supposedly really high in vitamin K2 and other essential vitamins. Oh, I also chew several vitamin C tablets every day. Magnesium is good, too, so I take some of that as well. Another thing is, I've found that taking Melatonin will also put me in a much more lucid state. I don't quite know what it is about this particular complex of vitamins and minerals, but it works 100% for me. All I know is that I kept doing searches online and in books for a list of vitamins and supplements that would be beneficial to the third eye and these are the ones that people kept saying would help decalcify the pineal gland or help boost its productivity, so I decided to just try them all at once. Each one in healthy moderation, of course.

Placebo or not, I gotta say, that doing this every day has made me dream more vividly and have a much more vivid imagination than ever before! I was skeptical at first. I keep thinking of the commercial about the girl who believes everything she reads on the internet.   But I'm not just one to roll with anything. If it didn't work, I told myself I'd stop buying them, but the thing is, they all worked like a charm. I cannot explain just how well they worked. My dreams are now so lucid that I get false awakenings all the time. I had one last night and the week before. I'm also able to easily AP from my dreams, now, because the clarity that I get from this complex of vitamins does wonders for me. I have found that if I don't take them for two-three days, there is a very noticeable difference in my dream quality. It's like going from HD 3D back to 1980s tv quality.

Anyways, I'm not suggesting anyone just jump into vitamins. Might I add that since taking these, though, I have also started to look much more vibrant than before. I used to have really bad skin that was always chalky and pale and just lackluster. Since starting these, I glow like a pregnant woman, now, and don't even need makeup because I wake up already looking like I have on an airbrushed finish. Before these vitamins, I never had pretty skin. Ever. They say the pineal gland is the fountain of youth, and that the calcium and fluoride build ups in it can age you drastically. It would make sense that cleansing it could reverse the hands of time. Of course, this is all stuff that I've only read on the internet, or in people's books.   Yes, there are even books out there on how to cleanse and open up your third eye through mineral and supplementation use.

Oh, and if you don't want to take vitamins, I hear that a lot of citric acid or apple cider vinegar will do wonders for your pineal gland. My combination of vitamins + a bit of citric acid and vinegar every day may be why my results are the way they are. I have also found that my ability to concentrate and see in my mind's eye more has increased drastically.

I also keep two amethysts and two quartz crystals on my bedside tables. If I add chanting mantras and listening to binaural beats and isochronic tones into the mix of EVERYTHING I already do to try to open up my third eye, then I'll get really potent results during my dreams/day dreams/meditations.

However, one of the easiest ways to open up the third eye, for me, are through meditation. When I quiet down my mind, and completely relax and go with the flow, things will start playing on my mind's large projection screen. Once, I meditated to the point where my body was completely asleep and my mind started seeing a high school prom scene where everyone had 80s hair. I merely stepped into the image, after a while, and was there, and was lucid. It was neat. You just have to let the images come and that's how you'll know your third eye is currently very active.

Sometimes, it's also very easy and effective to just visualize a light or energy surge occurring around your third eye area.

Last night, they were speaking about Planet X a-k-a Nibiru and the "upcoming" poleshift. The guy behind the interview even stated that 90% of us would die and those who would remain would probably be slaves to the Annunaki. I cannot wrap my mind around such speculation because ever since I was a child, I've had the worst nightmares about dying in some Armageddon-like way, and it frightens me.   They were speaking about it and saying that Obama will announce it soon.

Does anyone even know if this is merely a fear tactic or what? It seems more and more people are talking about it.