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quote:Originally posted by Dorian

See the above remark is exactly the kind of thing im tired of.  Im looking for information about neg spook types not looking for more nasty remarks.  And what do i get...?  Some of you people need to find a good therapist and work out you personal interaction problems BEFORE you try and hone your psychic abilities.  Guess thats where the neg types come from after all atleast part of them.  Guess no one has any real insight here anyway.

See, that's where you got it wrong. I wasn't being nasty, it's common sense. If you don't want more negativity in your life, then it's best not to get involved in negative issues in any way.

I agree with Rastus, I do believe that negs feed off negative human emotions like anger and fear. Also I believe that if you're projecting negative emotions/thoughts (I guess most people do this), then you can expect some negativity in your life.

To go into full explanation is difficult as there are so many scenarios etc to cover.

Hi

Welcome to the board. Your English isn't bad for a second language.


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Well said!

I'm trying to do the above myself actually. Very slow progress, but I'll get there in the end.

I think if you tried too, you would get there in the end.

quote:Originally posted by TheDarkApprentice
Wow, well I hope your mother is doing well.

The thing is though, that if you can forgive a person if you are related to or around all the time. That I can understand. If you have an abusive father, then you could very well turn out like them if you are angry all the time.

But it is different for people you dont know that well or at all for massive situations. Try telling some mothers and fathers not to be angry at George Bush for sending their kid to an unnessacary war and their kid dying in result. You can be anger for a person forever. That's my view. But what they have to do is horrbile, so horrible you can't forgive them. No matter how much they change.

I'm just trying to say that it is logical to stay mad at a person for ever. So does being angry at terrorist make you a bad person?? Saying you will never forgive what they did wrong?? Of course not. I don't see how you can forgive people like that in some situations. I can understand forgiving someone if you are related to them or somw what close to them, but other than that...no.

Prove me wrong. Do you say you love everyone?? Because I sure don't. what if some mass murder was crazy and psycho and randomly decided to go on a killing spree. Killing your parents, kids, sibilings, anyone close to you. Even if that person had no idea what they did, their action had still tooken place. And if they did know what harm they cause, how the bonk can you love them in the long wrong.

Please somebody tell me!

I'd like to believe, and I do believe that my Mum is happy now, in the spirit world.

I had an abusive Dad, but, I haven't turned out like him, becuase he never dealt with his anger in a constructive manner. He didn't recognise the fact that what he was doing was wrong. I am trying to deal with my anger, and I recognise my anger for what it is. That's why I've not turned out like him. That's the difference between my Dad and me. That said, I have inherited some of his ways, but I chose to learn from his mistakes rather than doing the same things that he did.

Well, as for George Bush etc, some people decide to go in the army for a carreer, so of course, when they're sent to war, that is part of their job. You can't just blame George Bush completely. The guys that signed up to the army decided to do that job, and they must have known of the risk of having to go to war. Of course people are going to be angry, that's natural, but it's what they do with that anger, and how they deal with it that matters.

I'm not saying that being angry and not forgiving makes you a bad person. It doesn't. But it's like a vicious circle. If you get angry at someone because of what they did, and you carry that anger around with you, and let it affect you as a person, and letting it affect other people around you, then that is wrong in my eyes. But if you recognise your anger, and try to deal with it by going to counselling for example, and not allow it to rule you, and your family/friends, then you aren't doing anything wrong. Do you see what I mean? It's not the anger and not forgiving that's wrong. It's how you deal with it, and whether you allow it to affect you and your family/friends by taking it out on them etc that really matters.

In fact, I think you'll be suprised, some people can actually find it in their hearts to forgive the person that murdered their family member or whoever. That ought to make you think a bit more. For example, my Mum's ex isn't in any way related to me, but I'm slowly starting to forgive him for the damage he did to my family and my Mum over the course of 9 years.

I am not saying that you have to love everyone, I sure don't love everyone. But you don't have to waste your life and energy by hating them. Maybe feel pity for them because they're the ones who have to live with the horror of their actions. Maybe they don't realise the full extent of damage that they have done. It's OK to feel pity, anger etc, but don't let it rule you, your life, and your family/friends' lives. Because that would be the biggest tragedy of all.

As for the major world events, I seriously believe they were going to happen all along, and maybe these people were put on this planet to carry out these acts for a reason. We learn a lot from these things. I see it as a massive lesson for us all to learn, maybe in different ways, but it's still a lesson for us to learn. The lesson is different for everyone.

Also, ask yourself, what exactly are you achieving by being angry and unforgiving? I see anger and all the negative emotions that we all feel as a huge burden. I certainly am not achieving anything by carryijhng all my anger etc around with me, which is why I'm trying to deal with it effectively.

I know you are right. I've been depressed sice I was 16-17 and I'm now 22. I'm sick and tired of feeling the way I do, and so I am trying to deal with my issues. I don't blame anyone in particular for my depression/issues. But it's hard for me to deal with. So I am trying to deal with my anger and sadness. I lost 5 people who meant a lot to me in 5 years, and that on top of everything else has just dragged me down. However, I do remind myself that there are other people in the world who have suffered much worse than I have.

I have no intention of APing, as I'm far too afraid to do it right now. Mediating did become a problem for me yesterday, which has scared me off. I am looking into self healing/clearing my negativity etc, and am reading about NEW (it's difficult because NEW requires you to work on both feet as well as the rest of the body - at least that's what it sounds like, and I have a leg missing). I will go into details with you in a PM if you wish. Or it might be easier to contact me via MSN Messenger.

I guess some of what you said made some sense. It will take a long time to resolve personal issues in my case, but I am slowly working on it. Thanks for your input.

quote:Originally posted by cube

G3MM4,
I uploaded version 2.5 debug to http://saltcube.com/timer-debug.html
Make sure IE doesn't give you a message at the top of the screen about it blocking the javascripot code and make sure that you have the security settings set to allow javascript.

When you hit "Test Volume" it will give you 5 alert boxes and then it should start playing the beep. The last box should be "5 detected ie4".

Can you tell me if it gives you all 5 alerts and if not what is the last one?

I also added a button that says "Raw playSound()" can you see if that makes it beep?


Scavenger,
Yes, you did it! I think the heavy sensation is because when your body falls asleep it takes more "neuronal effort" to make your muscles move and so it feels like there's more resistance.

Yes it all worked. Should I use this one then?

OK thanks for your advice.

Well looks like I'll be ordering the PPSD book then...

Thanks for explaining.

I'll certainly will be trying her prayer, as recommended to me after my bizaare experience that I had last night/early this morning. It's a rather long prayer, so I'll have to write it out and read it from the paper as I'll never be able to remember all of it.

OK thank you for your advice, I will try and stop trying to repress them. They do tend to come out of the blue. I had a very similar thought about my grand dad when I was thinking about my gran. I have heard of Derek Accorah, I have a book about him.

BTW I'm not clear on what core images are meant to be exactly... the reason why I mentioned core images was simply because I heard someone say "core image" twice in my dream when I saw a sexually explicit image in the dream.

I'm 22, and believe you me, I'm been through a lifetime worth of sh*t already. I have plenty of reasons to hate others, but you know what? I've got it in my heart to start forgiving. I'll tell you a little bit of what happened to me in the past.

My Mum and I never got on while I was young, she made my life a misery, putting me down, broke my self confidence, never showed any love whatsoever, constantly swore and shouted at me, did the dirty on me so many times that I wondered if she really was evil at heart. She wouldn't even sit next to me on public transport or in the house or anywhere. I never got any hugs that I can remember of. I don't recall her telling me she loved me as a child. She rarely hit me, but the emotional and mental abuse was really bad. She was only ever happy when I wasn't around her. That's how much she disliked me, all because my Dad beat her, strangled her and raped her constantly. I was the result of one of these rapes. She did make sure I was washed, fed etc, did the basic things to take care of me.

Now, I'm only telling you this because I want you to realise what hatred and anger does to a person, and the effect it has on the people around that person. My Mum was eaten up with hatred and anger for more than 20 years. And for most of these years, she took it out on me. It got worse when she turned into a heroin addict during her 30s and 40s. That's another effect her anger and hatred had on her. My sister was fine, my Mum loved my sister to bits. But you know what? I found it in my heart to forgive her, and it was my sister who turned her back on Mum in the end. Ironic isn't it?

And funnily enough, the partner that Mum was with for 9 years swore he would never hit her, but he turned her into a mere shadow of herself, through emotional and mental abuse, eventually she left him, came to live with me. One day he slapped her face 3 times, and threatened to kill her by pouring petrol over her and setting her alight, then setting the house alight with her trapped in it. And I'm starting to forgive him for that, as hard as it is, because I love my Mum to bits, and I miss her terribly. I took her in when she had nowhere to go, made sure she knew I loved her, but I made damn sure she knew that I wasn't going to take any more crap from her as an adult. That's when I gradually saw her change into a better person, she did make a huge effort to change, because I tried to help her. She completely gave up the drugs, started going to Adult Learning to brush up on her maths/english skills. In the end, she acted like a proper Mum to me, she told me she loved me, was proud of me, and treated me with the respect I deserved. Eventually I found her dead while she was sleeping in my bed. She was only 42. But you know what? I was so thankful, that I'd actually had a relationship with her at last, and that she died happy, knowing that she was loved and that she was forgiven. And I'll tell you what, I am proud of my Mum for changing. It's never too late to change. Other members of my family have done the dirty on me too, but I won't go into details as this post is getting long enough as it is.

So don't tell me about forgiveness, anger and hatred. Mum's ex was a truely evil b@$t@rd, and I am starting to forgive him for the damage he did to my family. My Dad was even worse in a lot of ways, after he died, he asked my Mum when she was using an ouija board to kill herself and kill me so that we all can be together on the other side. He made my Mum's life hell, and that had an negative effect on my life, even though he died when I was a baby. I can forgive him for that and for what he did to my Mum too. I forgave Mum completely for the damage she did to me, and that damage is still showing up in me. It takes courage and love and compassion to forgive people, no matter how bad they were.

I hope you take this on board, and rethink your views. I used to think like you. Now I'm glad that I don't. Your anger, hatred and whatnot is going to eat you up inside if you don't do something about it now. It won't just affect you, it'sll affect people around you, even if you don't notice it, others will. Don't get me wrong, I have been there, seen it, done it and worn the f****ing tee shirt when it comes to anger, hatred and forgiveness, but I still have some of my old anger hanging around me, but I'm not going to live with it, I'm going to do all I can to get rid of it. You're sat there talking about it, but are you doing anything about it?

Ummmm here I am.



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It's a bad picture but that's all you're getting from me. LOL.

Look, different methods work for different people OK?

How the hell would you know if the crap is still there undisturbed? It was a different crap I was going through last year. [xx(]

It DOES work for a while, as long as you take your meds and get it all out through counselling. [^] Of course, I'll be getting my meds on Thursday when I see the doctor and I'll ask for counselling. I mean, fair do, anyone would be screwed up if they found their Mum dead in their bed one morning... [xx(]

Ok, I'm going to add my bit here. We are perfect souls, but we also feel the need to learn. We pick our own life experiences etc before we are born. The thing that makes you "sin" and all the rest of it is your EGO! Spirits are free of the ego, ego is given to us when we become mortal, i.e. when we are born.

That's just how I view it anyway.

quote:Oh yes, I forgot, and if you don't have anything positive to say, don't bother responding...I have enough negativism in my life already thanks.

Then why are you asking about negs/demons? If you don't want more negativity in your life then don't ask/talk about negative issues.

Yeah, if you take the Christian view of Satan and all that comes with it, you'll see that whatever Satan and his demons etc (whatever you prefer to call it) are nothing but a bunch of crap and lies... all smoke and mirrors, designed to confuse you etc.

Sorry if I didn't make much sense there... LOL.

Hmmmm I don't know about that, NwN took my mind of the crap I was going through last year for a while...

Well said. LOL.

The verion is 2.4 but it doesn't work for me. []

As far as I'm aware, the only way you can completely shed your ego is by dying...

You talk about forgiveness? They say that in order to forgive others, you need to forgive yourself first. Everyone has done bad things, made mistakes. This includes you. I get the impression that you're angry at others and at yourself. Why? If I'm wrong about that, then feel free to correct me.

FistOfFury, I really do understand what you mean. I'm like that now. Also I have a severe lack of energy, and am often too tired and paranoid to go out. I've no idea how to get through it, so I just live from day to day. I know physical exercise is supposed to be good for fighting depression, but how do you do physical exercise when you've got no energy? It's a horrible rut to be stuck in, and quite often it's a vicious circle. But somehow one has to get oneself out of it sooner or later. [xx(]

quote:found what for all appearances was a portal to hell; black pit, fire, demonic creatures coming and going, and all that fun stuff

Are you sure you haven't been playing too much of Doom 3? []

Seriously, I think we create our own "hell" and our own "heaven" if you get my drift.