Quote from: shineling on March 16, 2022, 00:18:55
I've been toning it down lately... kind of want to stay out of the astral for awhile. The reason mostly is because I've been experiencing some negative APs. I think I'll let the storm pass a bit and try again in a few weeks. This doesn't stop it from totally happening though. I still get spontaneous exits or dreams.
A few nights ago I exited spontaneously for example. So I get out of my body and go outside. Outside are like 5 dudes waiting for me. When I tried to avoid them and move past them they get in my way and start pushing me around. To them it's all a big mean joke but underneath that I can tell these guys are really mad at me and really hate me. They force me into a big car and I'm like their hostage! In the car I try to talk to them and ask them what exactly I did. "You know what you did!" says one of the punks. They drive me out into the dark and the car stops and we all get out. They form a circle around me and that's when I decide to bolt. I start running and suddenly there is this river in front of me. I dive in and start swimming across. The waters are dark and murky. I see the punks yelling at me to come back. I make it to the other side of the river and climb out. I start walking, more like running, since I feel like they may be coming after me. Eventually I wake up and I'm so glad to be safe at home.
Then I have this dream last night of this person in my house. I can tell he's negative and at one point he takes out his phone and shows me pictures of myself while I'm sleeping or supposed to be alone like he's been spying on me. That freaked me out. Then he shows me pictures of me with all my limbs twisted and broken. He laughs this evil little laugh and I jolt awake.
So I really think I should "stay in" for awhile. Until this negative cloud lifts. I really try to keep things positive but lately it's been hard.
It's not all bad news though. A few nights ago I had a spectacular dream where I was in one of my fantasy stories I wrote when I was in college. It was so spectacular and real and colorful and vivid. It was so good that I wonder if it came from my imagination or if it was Heaven sent. What it really felt like was like as if a group of angels where using my story to cheer me up. Whoever these characters where they where in my corner and all of us participated in pushing the negative energy away. It reminded me why I do this... dreams like that are the epitomes of dreaming.
Too bad they don't happen more often.
The End
I can Understand what you are Experiencing Shineling, as I'm currently Experiencing everything you are describing in your last Post. When I read it I felt like reading what I'm Experiencing, the Good and Nice and Positive things as well as the Not Nice and Negative and sometimes very Disgusting things.
It's curious how the Not Nice things don't Scare me at all even the most hard energy attacks that end up leaving a sensation of physical anxiety when waking up after them, but I feel Disgust regarding those beings doing what they do in there, and the Predatory way and strategies that they use to Ambush and Attack me and also the Not Nice things that in some occasions they show me in various ways.
These beings remember me a lot the Inorganic Beings in Castaneda's book "The Art Of Dreaming" and what Don Juan says "Avoid at any cost sending a feeling of fear or morbidity They are pretty morbid by themselves; to add your morbidity to them is unnecessary, to say the least"; in Spanish the phrase is even harder regarding the implications of being Morbid with those beings over there in the Non Physical Realms as many of those beings don't have Feelings don't have empathy (the haven't been Humans so they are Insensitive and Indelicate and killing for them is very easy as they don't experience Remorse).
I wanted to share these lines with you. Back in past years when I was more Enthusiastic about this topic and had more hopes and expectations about it, I was more optimistic about interacting with those realms but after many disenchanting experiences I calibrated very low my expectations and I had to learn to Fight and Resist the Attacks of these Morbid and Very Negative beings (when resisting over and over you get resistance over those attacks and you can even end up winning the battle resisting them with them having to leave you as they can't get more from you and one moving to another realm to end the experience with a tired non physical body but with the satisfaction of winning over those Bad Intended Beings), winning in some cases and losing in others, (when you get to know more about those beings and what they really like to do over there you get Disgusted and Disenchanted about them, that's when you understand why Don Juan don't like them at all in Castaneda's book "The Art Of Dreaming" and I imagine that he mentions that in others of his books); I admire and like a lot the Creative abilities that these beings have and their realms in Artistic ways are amazing (Architecture, Urbanism, Engineering, Landscapes, Technologies, and other Arts), and the abilities they have to create them (is amazing to witness the process of worlds being created before your non physical eyes), but what these beings like to do in their Heavy Morbid Negative and Perverted ways is Disgusting and I don't identify myself with them at all, (they are literally like Psychopaths and that's maybe the consequence of a Consciousness being Lucid/Conscious for Thousands and maybe Millions of years and also not acquiring Feelings and Empathy among other Sensibilities that allow someone with power not to hurt others, and it could also have to do with the "Loosh" energy predation described by Robert Monroe in one of his books for whatever use those being have for that emotional based energy obtained from Conscious beings and from Organic Beings like those present/placed in this world called Earth), and I would like choose very well the kind of world to participate next when I finish my experiences in this world called Earth (I won't come back to this world as I'm not "Human" anymore as I don't feel anymore as a "Human" and I'm not interested anymore in the Animal things that Humans are interested in, except for the Technologic things related with Electronics and Informatics as well as the Artistic Positive things that are present in this world which are very small and limited compared with what there is in the Non Physical Realms).
I send you my best regards and wishes, Shineling, please continue sharing with us your experiences as I learn a lot from them, and if you can find solutions to these Negative Experiences please also share them to learn from your solutions.
With Respect and Appreciation.
PhaPriSpa
