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OK either I'm going crazy or I'm going crazy? Last night I had a very terrifying experience, I still shake a little everytime I think about it.

I was dreaming a really creepy/scary dream, and then at the end I became aware that I was dreaming about flying around in what looked like the house I used to live in, but it was different at same time (different hallway/rooms,etc). Anyway, I was flying in the hallway (which was full of spirits?) and having all these creepy feelings, and going towards my "room" while hunting for evil ghosts along the way. When I get to my room, there was three beds isntead of just mine, with some stranger sleeping in one of them, and my sister sleeping in the other one.

OK, this is the part where it turns terrifying. Everyone in my "room" suddenly wakes up, and my brother who was inside the other room comes out and him and sister ask me what I'm doing, and I tell them I'm "ghostbusting and hunting Slimer" (from the movie Ghostbusters I guess?) Then immediately after that, my sister's face changes into a wierd evil look and she goes after my hand and bites it. While I'm struggling to break free I decide to end this nightmare, and I wake and find out I'm under sleep parylyisis (spelling?).

OK, this is the part where I just start freaking out. I try to move around but I can't. I try and try,, then I notice I can move my feet, but nothing else. At this point I can see the image all around me of my "evil" sister biting at my hand (was I still dreaming?) My brother asks me who this Slimer is and I hear a voice say "your next door neighbor" I start getting nervous and scared and I try to move to break free, and then all of a sudden.........

I start thrashing my head around, but I think to myself, "um I wasn't trying to move my head around, what's going on?" At this point I notice my head is still thrashing around "by itself", and that I'm still trying to break free from this sleep parylysis. Then I start hissing like a vampire while my head is thrashing around "by itself". I don't know what is going around and I start freaking out, thinking to myself that I can't move, but my body is "moving by itself". I don't know how to say it, I get this vibe that I KNOW it wasn't me doing all these things, (moving my head around and hissing with my mouth open like some kind of vampire,) it's like my body had a mind of it's own.

I finally break free from the parylysis and I just lay there for the next 10 minutes all freaked out and shaking. This is one of the scariest dreams, if not the scariest I've ever had. I would like to know what anyone thinks about anything that happened, did I catch a neg "possessing" my body giving me this nightmare, or am I just going crazy?

http://rense.com/general46/video.htm

http://www.mytelus.com/news/article.do?pageID=cp_oddities_home&articleID=1487559

http://rense.com/general46/hemption.htm

Please look at all the links, before deciding. What does everyone think? Strangely enough, I can't find the video they mention, only a picture.....

Hi, I just had a weird experience, and I want to call it an AP, but I really am not sure what just happened here, it could have just been a lucid dream, I am still am really confused about all this stuff. It was very real and vivid, but I don't know. This is what happened. I woke up during a dream, I was walking around in a long dark room. The room had a feeling around it like it was inside a church or school, windows on the right and a door in the far north. There was something in the back of the room that looked like a casket or something.....don't know what that was. I was walking around and suddenly Jason from Friday the 13th, of all people, appears in the middle of the room, and an elderly creepy guy with white skin and a black robe appeared standing near the casket. Jason was just standing there, staring at me, but not moving or anything, and the old creepy guy was standing too, but it looked like he was arguing with Jason. I think Jason appearing in my dream was due to the fact that I watch alot of horror movies, I don't know, that was really wierd.

I think what happened next was it was either a lucid dream, dreaming of an AP, or I actually did AP, but I'm not sure. I was just standing there, and I was in "control" I could think clearly, was aware of everything and everyone, myself, I looked at my limbs as you do in real life and I could see them, etc. I looked around at everyone, and decided I should try to AP from within the dream. I then felt a floating down sensation, and as I floated down I was aware of the fact that my arms were wrapped around my stomach area and that I was looking downwards, and then I ended up sprawled out on the ground with my arms underneath me, within the room that I was dreaming in. I saw a golden yellow tint all around everywhere I looked, and right in the middle of my vision there was something wierd that I can only describe as a golden colored "gem" or prism, but I could see through it. I decided to quit laying on the floor and get myself up and walk around. As I did this, I could FEEL myself actually getting up as you do in real life. I was aware of where my limbs were at all times, and I could FEEL each of them moving around, just like in real life. I could think to myself clearly, I was thinking of what I should do next, is this a dream or am I AP'ing, it feels so real, what is going on, why is the room so dark, what's this golden aura all around in my field of vision <--- all of these things were going on inside my head at the same time. I couldn't see very well either, it was blurry. I thought of asking for more clarity in my vision, and it happened, but it wasn't enough, so I asked for more and more, and it got clearer and clearer, I did this about 3 times and I could finally see clearly, but there was still this wierd golden aura all around me.

I decided to walk around. I turned around in opposite direction that I was standing in, and as I did this, I FELT myself walking around, but I was walking REALLY SLOW. I turned around to look at where the two figures previously were, but they weren't there. I thought good, I don't want to deal with them right now. I tried to look at my limbs, and then moved them away from my field of vision, but they were golden/yellow colored. I thought they were supposed to be blue?
Maybe that wierd golden aura was just making them gold/yellow colored, I don't know, anyway.

I started thinking of what I should do next, and why am I in this room. I started walking towards the middle of the room, and by accident I remembered to myself, this is where Jason was standing. I say by accident, because I didn't want to deal with those two right now, and thought that If I think of them, they will appear again. So I thought to myself really quick, "no I don't want Jason to appear". I started walking to the door to go out of the room, but the figures appeared again, Jason and the old guy. Maybe they appeared cuz I was thinking of them? I felt as if they were trying to stop me from going to the door, but they weren't actually doing anything, just standing there, like some zombies. Really wierd. I decided I should end this, and it was at this point that my vision started getting really blurred and then I went blind alltogether, and then I woke up.

I would really appreciate any answers to my questions, thanks. Questions/comments?

Ok, this was a really weird dream that I had yesterday morning. I was dreaming that I was in high school gym class practicing wrestling. The teacher made us each partner with someone and take turns having a "best 5 out of 9" wrestling match infront of everyone. I was last in line, and my turn came up. I was losing at first, then winning some.

Then, this is the part where I THINK it turned lucid? I don't know, this dream is so confusing, as you'll see in a sec. Anyway, what happened next is, I started thinking to myself, that this isn't going right, I was ticked of because I was losing, and I want to do my match again. So, what happened next is the dream "rewinded" back to the start of my turn and it was the same as before, but instead of high school wrestling, it turned into a WWE wrestling match on TV! I was using all sorts of WWE wrestling moves, haha, like bodyslams, clotheslines, and such, haha really funny. But! I was still losing! I noticed I lost the first three matches! I was mad.

Then it got wierder! It turned into a Kung-Fu match! I went all Bruce Lee on my opponent. I decided to slowly and methodicly pace around, avoiding my opponents blows and holds, in the classic pose style seen in Bruce Lee's movies (I'm a big big Bruce Lee fan, maybe I'm living out a dream of sorts in this dream, trying to be like Bruce Lee?) My opponent couldn't touch me. I was teasing him, then I decided to close in and open up a can of whoop-butt on him. I did five comboed punches to his face and chest area, then I took a short hop backwards and nailed him with a low kick to the shin, comboed into a mid kick to his middle area, then another two punches to the chest area, and then a final devastating spinning kick to his head! Lights out!

And it get's even wierder! I started repeating this match sequence over and over and over in my head, as if I was a director and was trying to perfect the "scene" each time to get it "just right" for the final movie. Then I was confused and disoriented, it seemed like I did it once more, but at the same time it seemed like I did it a million times in several seconds, really wierd. Over and over and over and over. [xx(]

After all this, I stopped, and was thinking to myself, what the hell just happened, and then I thought to myself if my teacher would approve of what just happened. I mean, this was supposed to be a wrestling lesson and I turned it into a Kung-Fu movie?! Ah, but it was fun! So I thought to myself he won't mind, and magically he didn't. No one thought it was wierd or out of the ordinary, it was like it was supposed to be a wrestling/Kung-Fu match all along.

What happened next was that the bell rang and it was time to go home, so I went outside and into what I guess was supposed to be my friends car, and his friends were in there, and one of the girls inside commented "hey, is that a Kung-Fu outfit? It's cool." And I thought that was wierd, because I wasn't wearing a "Kung-Fu" outfit, just some grey colored clothing. I shrugged it off and nodded, went into the car, and then the dream stopped, I woke up.

(I'm not sure where to post this, feel free to move to OBE experiences if this is wrong place, sorry I'm new)

I've been trying to learn to become self aware when I'm sleeping/dreaming, I've been getting better, to point that I can say to myself that I am dreaming, and after I wake up I can recall the most recent events of what happened in the dream, but I can never take control.....until early Halloween morning, and just now......

Couple nights ago in middle of night on Halloween morning (forgot the time, maybe like 3am?) I woke up in middle of night, but it was all pitch dark and I couldn't move. Then I remembered about the all this OBE/AP stuff, and I tried to focus and get out of my body. I imagined myself moving upwards, and right at that very instant I felt something like a slight sensation of moving upwards, and then a rushing of vibrations. Slight at first, then more and more vibrations, and at the point where it started becoming heavy I heard  several vague indistinct voices, and one that really caught my attention, a loud moaning/ghostly sighing voice to my right side, what sounded like a female.........I got scared and I thought the voices had something to do with Halloween, is it true that during Halloween (All Hallows Eve?) that people believed there were more spirits walking around and they used to dress up as spirits or whatever to fool them so they wouldn't get haunted or something? I can't remember the myth exactly. Anyway, I said to myself, maybe this isn't such a good idea, it being Halloween and all, there would be some not so friendly things walking around (remembering the All Hallow's Eve myth) so I decided to stop and then I remembered waking up......Comments on what exactly happened here? Do you think I was close to OBE'ing/AP'ing?

My second experience happened just now, a couple minutes ago and this one was really wierd! I was dreaming that I was in some wierd museum like environment. I was about to leave, and I met someone that was something like the owner of the place, she was showing people around, and she saw me leaving and we started talking, then she wished me off. Turns out the place was some kind of um.....sex place......that's all I know, the vibe I was getting, don't know. Anyway lol I was leaving and started seeing naked people walking around. Made my way out and into the elevator, then a lady with black hair I remember seeing inside came in the elevator and started staring at me. Turns out I was naked too, and was holding my clothes in my hand. lol. Then other people came into the elevator, it got full so I decided to press the button to start the elevator and we went up the floors, but someone said we're going down not up, so I pressed the button again and we went down the floors. I got out and walked around calmy looking for a bathroom in somewhere, I was in some kind of mall area and  everyone was staring at me cuz I was naked lol. I walked to this place where people were fixing some new store, and I tried to get into the bathroom. The next thing that happened is I don't remember, it went all black, then the scene shifted to me talking to two women that were dressed in wierd red outfits. I can't remember what happened next, sorry, it's going all black again, but this is when the dream got wierd and I think it turned into a nightmare, and then I think an OBE or AP....or still a dream?

Some argument broke out between me and the women, and one of them fell dead or something with her head laid out on the table, the other one that was close to me, her face started morphing into some kind of monster and she started coming after me.........it was at this point that I knew I was dreaming. I tried to think of running away from this women, and it happened. I started running. It was like watching a horrow show on TV, no control, just watching. So, I was running away, I ran out of the building and noticed it was night outside, and the women monster thing was right behind me, then another women monster thing was outside with some wierd kind of magical bow, and it was aimed right at me! Instead of arrows, it was shooting some kind of wierd blue energy stringy material, and it was coming towards me! So I ran like the wind, as fast as I could, and at the same time noticed that there was stores to my left. I was making progress and I lost the two women monsters and got to the corner of the street and stopped. I noticed a big black shadowy thing with white beady eyes was floating close to the ground in the street in the left car lane near the sidewalk. It's head turned to look at me, but then it turned away and went somewhere off on it's own. I decided to scram and turned left where there were apartments and trees all over.

So, I was walking and I got the urge to look behind me, and saw that black shadowy thing had returned. And guess what, it was coming right after me! So I ran to get away from it, but it was faster then me and was getting closer, and closer, and closer. So, not knowing how best to combat this thing, I decided I should try and fly away into the sky way above. And it happened.

I started getting that wierd floating sensation again that I experienced on Halloween. I saw myself starting to fly upwards, and then everything turned black or like a very dark brown tint, but I was still getting the upward flying sensation. I then was rolling/flying towards the right, and there was something like vibrations this time, but not as heavy as what I experienced on Halloween, but I did feel some sort of tingling or slight vibrating sensation as I rolled to the right. I felt happy, I said to myself "Yes, I did it, I got away from that creepy thing. I outsmarted it, am I actually flying? I think it worked". or something to that effect, can't remember exactly. Then I thought to myself, am I flying like I said I wanted to? I couldn't see anything, it was still all brown/black, and I was still feeling a flying/floating sensation. I heard wind all around me, like what it would sound like if you were flying fast and pushing the air out of your way, a "whooshing" wind sound. Then I thought to myself, wait how am I flying, I don't really feel like I'm controlling this. I tried to move, but I couldn't. I got scared at this point, because It felt like I was really really high up above the earth and then I saw myself looking down on the land but everything was so vague and unclear, it was all blurry looking, and brownish tint to everything. I tried to move more, and I looked up and saw what I guess where my hands in the "superman flying pose" above and infront of my head. Then I tried to move more and everything went black again. I wasn't flying anymore, I was falling, and falling rapidly, I heard that wooshing noise again and started getting really loud.  I could barely make out the land below me, but I could tell that I was getting close to landing...errr impacting......and the wooshing noise was still going on all around me. Then everything went really dark this time and I thought I hit the ground, but I couldn't feel any impact, I instead felt that I was slowing down rapidly, and what felt like I landed on my feet, but I couldn't tell because everything was really dark/brown. I started trying to move, but couldn't. It felt so real, I knew what was going on around me, and that I could actively think to myself of what was going on, but I couldn't see anything, it was so dark and blurry. I struggled and struggled to move, but then I woke up.....

Don't know what happened here, but it felt so real...............questions/comments/suggestions?

Just a quick question and idea I had today in my mind as I was reading the forums. Isn't praying kind of like meditation? My brother in law is muslim, and I've seen him pray sometimes, not sure how to word this, but it's like a "deep prayer." It looks like he's so focused on it, and that you couldn't break his concentration if you tried to (like meditation). How is "prayer" like in other faiths? (I'm supposed to be "Catholic", but I've never gone to church or prayer or anything like that,but anyway that's another discussion for another day) When I've seen my bro in law do his prayers and now that I think about, it seems like it's like meditation. What's really the difference between the two??

Also, my sister told me that he had a "vision" of one of the prophets, and he came to him during one of his prayers. I wish I could remember the name, uhh prophet Mohammed? Ironically that's my brother in law's name too. What do you think about all of this?

I ate, but I don't remember if it was before or after. And it happened again when I tried it a little later, and also tonight. It's a weird sick in the stomach feeling and it's really hard to sense the awareness on my right side.

My last words will be:

"Free Will, it's a grump."

I honestly think they don't care. Maybe hate would be a better word.

quote:Originally posted by Rastus

 'You' can fix about anything.

I can? Even this pain I have in my chest? I honestly feel like sometimes I will roll over and just die from a heart attack. It's been getting worse.

What do vampires have to do with energy body developement? *scratches head* Shouldn't this be in psychic self defence or somethin?

How do you repair damage to the gland from flouride? Stimulation of/getting energy into the third eye chakra?

I'm sorry if it looks like I got carried away in my above post, I have been feeling really terrible lately [] [V], and I just get over-emotional sometimes, sorry.......[:I]

Paying for forums is NOT "unavoidable". What a bunch of nonsense, that's so not true.

People don't want to pay because of the price, it could be $1 a year and it still wouldn't make a difference. It's the PRINCIPLE of the matter.

Some people just DON'T WANT TO PAY, period.

Some don't believe in segregating the community. It defeats the purpose of what this forum, and other forums in fact, were originallly set up for, for a COMMUNITY.

Some don't believe that $$$ will fix anything. It's not the solution. It's like trying to fix the problem of filling a circular hole with a square piece, the two aren't related, and don't go together.

And quite frankly, who wants to pay for something where every thread de-evolves into a gelatinous puddle of personal attacks, neg paranoia, and hidden agenda accusations, like cult creation?  You honestly think $$$ will magically fix that and then everything will be okay again? No, it won't. If anything it will make it worse, cuz then people will start creating more stupid accusations like so and so is being stuck up because he's a paying member, and so on and so forth, a neverending cycle.

The only real solution, is to get to the core of the problem, not the outer skin. Get more mods that will do their job, reform the rules, and add an advanced debate forum (THAT'S OPEN TO ALL, BUT IS HEAVILY MODERATED, with non-serious and/or negative posts deleted or warned).

What excellent mods there on this site man, nice example you set, always starting pointless crap YET AGAIN. Maybe YOU are the one(s) that want attention? HMMM? HMMMM? SD has the right to be here and to continue posting his MEDIATIONS, because people enjoy reading the thread. It's not about cults or neg paranoia, people just like to read. So cut it out with the BS arguments and go in Psychic Self Defense if you want to be paranoid about negs and cults, NO ONE HERE GIVES A FLYING F**** butt!!!!!!

I hope you will continue MEDIATING, if you do, I have the following questions waiting in the queue that I never got to ask.

1.) Are scientists getting closer (or will they ever), to finding a Grand Unified Theory? Or have they already  found it and just don't know it (Super-String Theory or maybe M-Theory, or other, which one is it)?

2.) When you're trying to OBE, you're raising your vibrational frequency level so that you can exit?

3.) Keeping #2 in mind and assuming #1 is true (and that the GUT is String Theory or M-Theory), do the vibrating strands of energy that makes up everything have anything to do with the vibes that people experience when they're exiting the body? Are you actually feeling the frequency of the strands that make up your astral or RTZ body as you're trying to raise them to the appropriate exiting level?

So, why don't they whine when plants get killed, thrown, stepped on, and eaten? They're living things too you know, and I've heard that they have souls too, complete with feelings and everything. I wish someone would make a PETA parody site where it talks about plant cruelty, and then at the end of every article theres a link that says to help save the plants by starting your carnivore diet today, and to download the carnivorous guide.

Anyway, about the chickens and other animal cruelty, it pisses me off to see how some people act, it just makes me want to go up to them and punch their lights out, to give 'em a taste of their own medicine for being such inconsiderate jerks.

You, the owners and admin/mods have the power to change the forums to the way you want it to flow, yet you're considering taking the easy way out and want to segregate the community, on which there will be no guarantee it will work. Like it has already been mentioned, it probably will end up stagnating and the people will go back to the original parts of the forum, or the newbies will be stuck reading everyone elses newbie posts and then they won't learn much. Why don't you just get more mods, from trusted veterans even, if there isn't enough people you know to help out, and make new posting rules, and crack down harder on unwanted posts? You gotta make everything so complicated and start charging for this and segregating that, unless you're just doing this for the money...

EDITED x2- Sorry I'm dumb lol I forgot more stuff! Read again please.

MAN, c'mon? You gotta be kidding me, so now I'm gonna have to pay to have access to and read all the really good discussions? All of my favorite places are starting to charge to get into "premium" sections. First Rense.com, then another forum I go to, then a bunch of other websites that used to be free, and now Astral Pulse? $45 dollars for ISP and email access there, $20 here, $10 dollars there for membership, $100+ over there for Rense.com and Coast to Coast over there, it all adds up, and the internet is starting to get more expensive then magazine subscribtions. The Internet is not the cool free or cheap information resource enitity that it used to be. How much MORE do I have to pay to use or read my favorite things now?  Who's to say that some morons will pay the money and WONT make stupid or overly unnecessary argumentive and overly attacking posts in the paid section? There's morons and non-serious immature people that have money too you know. The only way to truely restrict access to a more serious or "mature" section is to make an invitation-only and/or request section, with membership access based on the posters posting history, but that sucks too because sometimes it gets abused and ends up turning into an elitist environment. I would still opt for the latter option. If this site starts to charge to see all the good stuff ("additions"), I'm leaving, or at least going back into lurker mode and not trying to get better at posting (I've been trying to post more lately, but don't have that much time right now, so it's mostly been a few posts here and there, and some links to news articles), or not taking the site seriously, because I know all the good stuff is happening where I can't see it, so why bother?

http://www.astralpulse.com/membersfiles/binauralabyss.zip

I'm downloading this now, but I have a question. What was made with? From that BWGen program? Because I have BWGen, and haven't really fully tried it out yet, but the times I tested it for couple minute, I did noticed some weird things.

lol ok, I think I understand now. Thanks for the replies, and any more is icing on the cake.

quote:Originally posted by EOL007
Earthed, balanced, centred ... and so on... Just simply being mindful of every day waking life...

Now I'm confused even more lol, because I don't know what you mean by Earthed, balanced, and centred.

Internet? I'm on it so much, I forgot that is what it's called []

quote:Originally posted by Qui-Gon Jinn

I spend alot of time online, no doubt about that... I don´t see it as something negative though, since I don´t just 'fool around'... learning all the time thrue reading a whole lot of informative articles and news (real news, not FOX 'news'), and listening to radio programmes via the net such as the Jeff Rense Program (been a daily listener since the mid/late 90´ties I reckon) and Mysteries of the Mind... (if anyone have another radio program to recommend I´m listening)  

Coast to Coast AM is another radio show, you can hear it on AM radio, or streamed on the net, but you have to be a paying member to listen to the streams or the archive. I like the Jeff Rense show better though, even though Coast to Coast AM is more popular.

atlanta, D&D is a tabletop roleplaying game, or RPG. It's a game where people pretend to be, or roleplay, a party of adventuring characters, who are on a quest of some sort, or other different sorts of stories. They roll dice to decide specific actions or outcomes, and then they act it out, their actions, and what they're saying, etc. The Dungeon Master, (DM) sets the setting and story, and helps move it along, and also acts like a moderator, making sure people don't break rules and stuff. This specific RPG, D&D, is setup in a medieval fantasy theme. It's one of the most popular I believe, and one of the first that ever came out. I've never actually played it myself, but I've always wanted to. I have played video game versions though, I once found an online website that had some sort of online tool for playing D&D online with people, it was sort of like a chatroom, but it had map and dice tools, I wish I could remember the website! I've also played the traditional PC and console RPG's, but they arent really like tabletop RPGs, though they do share some similiar qualities, but they're too0 linear when compared to the real thing. The closest video game version I ever came to, was an online Text MMORPG MUD, called ShadowGate AD&D I think. Another one was an online video game MMORPG, called Ultima Online, but it's still very different. There's no actual DM's in UO, except for a few that are available on request, or sometimes they make a suprise visit. That was several years ago, don't know if it's different now though.

Thanks for the kind replies everyone, really.

There's one thing that I don't understand though, and that's that I OBE-ed almost instantaneously. I didn't know that was possible. From what I've read, and experienced in other past OBEs, it takes time to get your body to not move and stay relaxed, and then to try the exit technique. I was anything but relaxed, and was moving around in my bed, changing positions, right before it happened. It's always taken me some time to exit too. But this time, it was different, it was like nothing I've ever felt before, it was almost strange. It was like I willed myself to do it almost instaneously, through emotion, and I wasn't really trying though, because I was so caught up in the all the different emotions that I was experiencing all at the same, and I was also confused. Is the energy from emotions really that powerfull? Or maybe, I had a helping hand.....? Or both?

lol fixing the light in the closet, good one I need to remember that.

Anyway, how come no one else is replying? I didn't freak everyone out with the video did I? LoL

So no one knows of any entity like the supposed one caught in the video?

I get the same error message for a long time now, everytime I use it, and for any kind of search......