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I think I got it!!



So I did a simple past-present-future spread, since I'm just starting to familiarize myself with this deck.

We start in the past with the 6 of Crystals - suggesting that you started this vocational transition maybe with some outside help, or financial support, to help make it possible, or seem more like a viable possibility. Resources came in from the outside right when you needed them.

The present is the 9 of Crystals - which, to me, suggests a time of making your home environment even more of a sanctuary space; a sacred space (garden) in the middle of all the noise outside. Like, have you made any improvements to your living space lately? Have you made it more cozy? This could be small things, like investing in super nice, soft fabrics, getting more candles, plants, etc. Little things can be luxurious, too.

An interesting note is that I've started doing my daily card for myself again with this deck, and I pulled the 9 of Crystals for myself today. The immediate impressions I got for myself when I looked at it were: sweetness, germination, power source, outgrowth, basking in the glow. Maybe some of those concepts make sense for you, too, in this present moment.

Crystals are all concerned with money, stability, health, energy made manifest - all the gifts that come from the earth. This seems to align with the issue you were asking about.

Yet the future card is the 4 of Moons - this suggests to me an emotional change that might take you in a somewhat different direction that you're not yet seeing/anticipating. The energy of this card is the water that gets stuck and isn't flowing freely, it's more stagnant, sluggish, and heavy. This is the 'too much of a good thing' card. There's a real need to both practice gratitude as well as cut ties, cut losses, clear, detox, and get moving. Something is going to have to be let go of. It makes me wonder if you shouldn't put all your eggs in one basket - not just for financial reasons but for emotional/energetic ones.

Does any of this resonate with you?

testing, testing, 1 2 3....

http://imgur.com/a/ARhCZyY

I'm not remotely technologically inclined, I don't even know what a filesharing site is. Like, can you send me the link to a good one?

Casey, I just did yours but the forum isn't letting me include the photo of the spread - getting an error message. I posted in the Bugs/Problems thread so hopefully we'll get it sorted soon and I'll be able to give you your response!

Tides and Perspective - thank you! I'm looking forward to pulling some cards for you soon - and hopefully will actually get to share photos of them, because they really are quite enchanting.

Hi! I'm trying to attach a photo to my post - at first it told me the photo I took with my phone was too large, so I sized it down even more, and now it says "the attachments upload directory is not writable. Your attachment or avatar cannot be saved"

I'm trying to include a photo of the tarot spread I did (in the Metaphysics section).

Any way I can get that up there to accompany my post?

Thanks, Casey! =)

You can let me know what your question/issue is, then I'll post back with a photo of the cards and what I got from them. Then you can let me know if any of it resonates with you.

Hey all,

I just got a new gorgeous tarot deck and I'm itching to dig in and practice reading with it. Anyone want to help me practice by being my guinea pigs?? 

I was really into it and did a lot of practice readings for strangers a couple years ago, then I just....stopped, fell out of the habit of doing my daily card, etc. Now that I've got this new deck I really would love some chances to try to flex those intuitive muscles again! I'd love to do readings for anyone here (or anyone you know who might want one). The more the better.

Any interest??

Wow, that's a lotta car crashes, EV, did you have major injuries?

I love these stories! When I was in high school, my mom and I hopped in the car to get a snack (like, a McFlurry or something). We were at a stop light and waiting for it to turn green. Right as it did, I felt a drop of water land on my arm. Which is weird considering we were inside the car. I said something about just feeling a drop of water. My mom turned to me to look, we both felt the roof of the car above me, but it was completely dry. We couldn't figure out where the water had come from - and there was no water on my arm. But I FELT a drop of water. Well, as she was about to pull into the intersection, a car sped through their red light (which had obviously been red for a few seconds at that point). She slammed on the breaks and immediately said that god or a guardian angel just saved our lives. "If you hadn't said you felt a drop of water on your arm, I would have gone into the intersection and that a$$hole probably would have hit us!" Back then, I was like "yeah right, mom" but now I'm like, well....maybe so =)

That's a cool one, Tides! I'm always totally sapped of energy, too, after an experience. It's almost like having been drugged and feeling the aftereffects. I just had a dream last night that I was mostly passed out from drinking too much, and a couple other people thought i was sleeping (i.e., fully passed out), and I was curled up on my side in the fetal position (probably like how I was actually in bed) and they were carrying me around. No lucidity, but that weird dream of yourself sleeping, or nearly sleeping. I can't remember who wrote it, which book, but someone wrote about projecting and seeing other people projecting but they weren't lucid, they were sleeping/dreaming, and just sorta...going by? floating by? Not sure I don't remember. Maybe experiences like these are related to that!

Two weeks sounds very reasonable. I am glad you are able to do the recovery at home, infinitely better that hospital or rehab. Do you feel good about having this done? Is it a one-time thing and you're done? ( I do hope ). Plenty of rest, lots of sleep, gentle exercise, lots of water. Loooong, deep breaths. We all know the drill, lol. Let us know if you get any good Trips out during all this.

Well I'd rather have not, but it needed to happen and I'm glad it's done. Should be all good now =)

Thanks for stopping by, Nameless!

Oh goodness.., yes I aim to never have to experience that, or any of that, thank you for catching us to speed on where you are in the recovery process. Are you home? still in hospital? rehab? I hope it wasn't anything too serious. And so pleased it went fairly the way you wanted it.

Medicine these days is pretty impressive sometimes. Outpatient surgery! Thank crap for laproscopic! I was in recovery for 4 hours, then went home. Have been taking it easy and probably will so for the next week or so. They said it would take about 2 weeks to recover.

Just letting everyone know my surgery was a few days ago and it went well. Like shineling said, one minute I was on the operating table and they put a mask over my face and asked me to take a few deep breaths, and the next minute my eyes were closed and I heard a woman's voice telling me it was all over and I was in recovery. Kinda how I wanted it to go. Still have another week or so of healing to do, but certainly doing better than I was a few days ago (general anesthesia is no joke! never want to repeat that!!)

Thanks for the well wishes, everyone!!

I know that some people, often people who have never had an OBE report, report such experiences during a surgery. Like, they float up in the operating room, observe what the doctors are saying, etc. Welp, I'm going to have surgery for the first time next week, and I'm wondering if anyone here ever had surgery and had some kind of experience during it.

I'm terrified of the surgery itself -- I sure don't want to wake up on the table (what they call being "light"), because that sure as hell happens sometimes -- but I wouldn't mind projecting from there if possible. I just don't want to be aware of physical sensations of pain in my body, I think that would be unbearable!

Curious if anyone has any personal experience with this!

20 Sept 2021

Still in a dry spell!

Brief experience this morning. Possible projection from sleep. I realized I could "go", and was hemming and hawing about where to ask to be taken. I was thinking over trying to decide what to pick this time, taking an uncharacteristically long time to deliberate with myself, when suddenly I felt a helper's arms around me from behind. I was told (to the best of my recollection), more or less, "We're taking you to the throne room to improve your communication with us. You've been there before. The process will take about 30 minutes."

I mean, I was real excited to hear this! I was very grateful, etc, and there was a lot of traveling, traveling....still traveling (wow this place must be FAR). Then suddenly, before we got to anyplace that seemed like "the place" and then suddenly...I was out in that other 3D "otherwhere" and my awareness was back to me lying in bed and I was like, damn, again something cool is about to happen and I click out before we get to the good part!!!

Thanks Shineling, that's interesting. Where/who/what tradition says that galaxies develop in the elbows?

25 July 2021

Lucid dream - astral projection

I seemed to have some degree of dream or 2-D imagery. I thought to myself if only I could make it 3-dimensional, so I could step into it and go somewhere. I reached out my left arm straight ahead of me and "pushed" it into the two dimensional "movie screen" of the image in front of me (tho, filling my vision), and it seemed to go "into" the two dimensional scene so that that part of me *became* three dimensional, and I kept pushing and stretching the rest of my body into the scene as well, until all of me was in, and I felt like I "peeled" out of myself.  I asked to see my spirit guides. Expressed gratitude. My helper was a blonde woman, and I had the feeling she'd been my helper numerous times before. There seemed to be some kind of tissue or something that I was carrying, and I put it into some kind of slot. My helper rubbed some kind of lotion or ointment on the underside of my right elbow (in the crook of my elbow), and I asked what it was for. She said something to the effect of it was to see if there's any {something something} there, or to see if there's any {something something} left flowing - or something like that. It stung a bit after a few seconds.

I asked pointedly why she and no one else would tell me why I'm here, answering my requests for help knowing my mission and purpose. I really went off on them. There seemed to be other helper type people around. I started talking to all of them, like, I have asked all of you for help, and all of you I've worked with, and none of you have helped me, every time in my life I thought I knew what my purpose was, I was wrong! Intuition can be wrong! So don't act like I don't need this help, I'm asking for this help because I need it! I ask you for help and guidance and you don't give it to me.

I felt like they were listening and looked chagrined, and I don't quite remember what happened next, but the scene started to fade and lose it's 3-dimensionality, and then I was back.

Man, I've been in such a dry spell the past few months  I hope things start clicking a bit more soon.

Man, I WISH! 

26 June 2021

Out of body experience - astral projection

This morning, felt myself in what seemed like The State, stretched/reached starting with my hands, up and out. Turned left, went out through the wall/window. Asked to be taken to my spirit guides; I added lots of things like please, I ask this with humility, etc. I felt myself moving slightly downward, and then two female helpers showed up, one on either side, each took one of my hands. I think as they approached I heard something like "Take our hands" or whatever. They guided me back to the ground. They sounded British, and I could see they were communicating telepathically (I could hear them talking also to each other but their mouths didn't move). I was taken to what looked like a racetrack for car racing, although the ground was dirt. It seemed like I'd have to compete in this for some reason. I was kinda thinking like...WTF, I can't race a car! I don't know how to do that! I stood in line to participate. The only other people were men, they were all taller than me, kinda buff, and they were only wearing what seemed like underwear. I didn't understand how all this was supposed to work so I asked the ones in front and behind me in line - I couldn't understand what they were saying in response.

As it turns out, this wasn't car racing and we weren't the ones "in the race". There were others who were racing horses, and we (the ones who were in line) had to advance as much as possible hiding somewhat under the dirt, hoping to not get trampled by the horses whenever they came around. Like, you could choose to hide under the dirt anywhere along the track when the time came, but it was sorta russian roulette if you'd be in any of the horses' paths. After one round, I came up from under the dirt to see I seemed to be in second place.

I can't remember what happened next, but the next thing I know I'm with one of the two helpers who brought me here. I was kinda like, what was all that about? She responded that I was being taken to see Master So, and that he wanted me to see that I have the ability to best people even when I don't think I've got it in me (or something like that).

I responded with glee that I'd never been told I was going to be taken to a specific guide/master by name before! As a side note, it sure sounded like "Master So" and that's what I conceived it to be at the time in terms of spelling. The helper added, at some point, some information to the effect that Master So was very busy and important or whatever.

We were in a hallway going down some stairs. It wasn't particularly nice, seemed like an old building, not fancy. I saw an elder man, dressed in robes with longer hair and beard - kinda like a Confucius type character. That's how he looked. Except - he was wearing reddish/mauve colored heels! Not sure what that was supposed to signify. He said some things to me which of course I can't remember. Then, he handed me my own pair of shoes, just like his. I accepted them from him with two hands, very solemn and humble, and bowed a little to show my appreciation. He said, "I'll be seeing you," and walked off.

Right after he did, the helper took me into a room that was right there in the hallway where I met Master So. There wasn't a door, you had to part some fabric/curtain like material to enter the room, as if going into a tent. There was another curtain/fabric partition at the back of the room, and that's where we were headed. It looked like some kinda religious type meditation area or whatever. The helper sat at one end and I was supposed to sit at the other. I got the sense that she was giving me some practice on how I was to interact with Master So, or how it would go when I meet him more - like a rehearsal, to help me practice. She sat at one end and I sat opposite her, and then I woke up.

Why do I always gotta wake up right before the good stuff actually happens! LOL I'm like feeling all excited because I thought I was actually gonna get to ask a real "master" type guide all my questions and the movie cut off shortly before any of that happened.

woah that's weird. Can you get your phone records from your provider and see where the incoming call came from at that time?

27 May 2021

Parallel life/dimension? Simulation?


This morning, I was still so tired when I woke up, I stayed laying in bed and closed my eyes, hoping to fall back asleep. I felt like I was getting into a certain state. Thought of a song - not a real song, but it seemed real to me at the time - and thinking of it helped me generate the spinning/vertigo feeling. I capitalized on it to stretch up and out of my body multiple times.

First, I asked to be taken to see A., one of my oldest friends, who I haven't seen in years and thought would be an interesting test case for veridical OBE, because I could talk to him about it. There was a male voice, or male-presenting entity, who said he would need to do something to my mind/brain - nothing to do with my request to visit A., but it had some other purpose related to me alone. I said OK, as long as it's in my highest and best interest. Then, I was like, wait, is it going to hurt? Then I don't remember anything from that experience, I snapped back.

Not satisfied, I did the same weird "song" trick to go back down, spinning/movement, and up and out. I found myself in my house where I grew up. Suddenly, my cousin was in the kitchen. I wasn't sure what she had to tell me or why she was there - she wasn't sure, either, what the point of all this was. We were both confused. There seemed to be three "bodies" that looked like my dad in the den area. She told me they weren't really him. Weird.

That experience ended, I was back, and went out again using the same method as above. I asked again, insisting, that I wanted to see my friend. The male entity, which I took to be the same from before, said yes OK, ok. I heard his voice make a request, like as if announced over an intercom system, for someone to facilitate transporting me - as if you hear something like "CLEAN UP ON AISLE 3" but a different request for the kind of helper needed to shuttle me LOL. Immediately, a female-presenting helper arrived and stood behind me and held me. I felt her hands around the front of my arms, thrilled to feel the helping hands again. We seemed to hover in front of a large door, like the bay door of a spaceship or space station. It started to open and I got scared for a minute about going out into space, but my helper told me not to be scared, just close my eyes. Then I was like, Oh yeah, there's nothing to worry about, I can breathe out there! So we floated out the bay door and right there on the right hand side of the opening, was a wormhole. There was some snafu getting up into it, like somehow the door itself had opened such that it was in the way, and someone else had to come out to get the door back so we could position ourselves directly under it to be sucked up. While hovering around waiting, I could see others going up into the wormhole. I could see, far up in the distance, what appeared to be the faint glimmer of others transiting in another wormhole route. It seemed like a complex transportation system.

I was excited but also confused. I had started off on earth, in my bedroom. I leave my body and ask to see my friend - also on earth - but somehow I wind up in space, and have to take a wormhole back to earth? Not exactly direct.

So we finally get up in the wormhole and start moving. This entire time this morning, I was on and off having trouble seeing. I don't really remember noticing much of anything during the trip, and then suddenly....I'm landing over the back of a couch onto someone's lap and throwing up.

I was throwing up!!! It felt so real. The acrid taste, the wetness, the gagging. I was like...am I actually throwing up? Is my BODY throwing up? How is throwing up happening? WTF?

[sidenote: I feel like maybe a month ago I remember someone else on the Pulse saying they threw up in the Astral, and I can't remember who it was. If you're reading this, fellow vomiter, remind me of your experience because this was SO weird and had never happened to me before!!]

I was in a living room, seemed like a house party. The couch on which I fell, well, my friend A. was sitting on the couch, I fell party over the back of the couch and onto his lap. He was like, awww she's throwing up! Like he wasn't even mad at me. Like as if I had been there the whole time, and maybe I had too much to drink and threw up and this was normal. I was sitting on his lap with what felt like vomit around my mouth and trying to explain to him that...didn't I just get there? Like I hadn't been there a second ago, right? I'm out of my body? I just got here because I wanted to see him. I tried asking him questions to learn where we were, what year this was, etc - no luck.

I don't think I was actually brought to see the real A. on earth. I was either given a vision/simulation of 'what might have been' or this was some weird parallel life in a parallel dimension - did I "enter" the "body" of a parallel ME in another dimension, living out a different life? It felt very 'sliding doors" - there were what presented as NP helper entities that were explaining to me that what I was currently experiencing represented the "quiet possibility" (those are two exact words I do remember) that they wanted to show me - the "quiet possibility" of what would have been our life if he and I had really gone for a romantic relationship. The entity seemed to try to tell me that it was a good thing that we didn't go down that path, because "you'd have to teach him how to live life" and apparently that would have been not the best option for me in my own life.

Yet, to whatever the "A." was that was there, I felt nothing but love, and got nothing but love from him. He and I kissed. The NP lesson seemed to be that a life with him in the romantic sense was not the life for me, but what they SHOWED me wasn't a "bad" life at all. How bad is it to be enduringly loved by someone who isn't mad at you for throwing up on them? LOL!!

Just goes to show you gotta be specific with what you ask. I asked to see my friend by name, and instead of taking me to see the "real" A...they were like suuuuuuure yeah we'll take you to see him and I get a weird simulation sliding doors vision or who knows what!?

I have to admit, this is something I think/worry about a lot. In fact, I've been thinking/worrying about it since the beginning! In part because I don't get clear answers, but also because of all the physical "pain" I've been caused. I'm not sure there's a way to know with 100% certainty if something is acting with my best interest at heart. I generally only ask to be taken to my spirit guides or my highest self - so if I *am* taken to them, presumably they're operating for my greater good. I don't know how I would be taken somewhere else, tho - some believe that it is in fact aspects of our highest self that does the "taking/transporting" of us! But I honestly don't know, I really don't. Sometimes I think maybe I've encountered something bad or at least meddling, other times I don't know. I just don't know there's a way to know this for sure. I don't know of any "fool proof" way to make sure we make contact with something that is only good/helpful.

Hi Nameless, thanks for stopping by! The best of any thoughts I had I already put in there (i.e., not much). I don't try to "turn over" these experiences too much after I have them, because it'll just drive me crazy. Whatever sense I make at the time, I write it down, and then generally don't go back to read them again. I just let the new experiences come, on the hope that eventually, one day, things will start to make sense! I'd love to hear your thoughts.

You're definitely not Bat$hit crazy!! Appreciate all you've said in this thread.

You're so right that creating a "port" for "astral mode" can be very important and helpful. You're describing making a ritual, so I'd like to share some things I've learned through my shamanism courses, picking a few that I think are relevant.

1) The Container - you start by creating a sacred space that will "contain" the practice, demarcate that here and now we are doing this special thing, i.e., it's "time", and keep you surrounded by good energy. You can do something to bless or clear the room/area if you want, you can incorporate special/sacred objects, you can do an invocation, calling in helping spirits - like Lumaza says, his container is the bath, his mantra, and the time of day. You may want to use crystals, a specific place (like a recliner) you may want to listen to certain music (even just before you start, to signal to you we're in "sacred" mode now!), "wake up" the space and its energies using a rattle, drumming, clapping, etc, create an altar with power objects, etc. Basically, how do you carve out/demarcate THIS special place and THIS special time? Imagine creating that space means surrounding your "area" with good energy on all sides, above and below you - bluish white, or gold, or whatever color works for you. What do you need to do to create that? Any of the above things could do that for you. Objects to represent the elements, the directions, a simple invocation and acknowledgement of your "workspace" -Whatever works for you.

2) Intention - clearly stating the goal or purpose of what you're doing. Can be very general/open-ended or specific.

Afterwards, 3) Grounding - after you come back, it can help to engage in a grounding practice - I remember that time that Lumaza said he got out of the bath too quickly and hadn't really "grounded" yet and got dizzy! This can also include acknowledgment of and commitment to what you've learned/received on your journey/projection, and writing out everything can be a good way to integrate/ground/acknowledge.

4) Dispersing - this is closing the ritual and the space. You dissolve the container you've created that you built at the beginning of the ritual. This may involve thanking your spirit guides, saying goodbye for now, bowing in the 4 directions to express gratitude, and in general dispersing the energies you've called in and created during your process.


The "after effects of images" suggestion is interesting - one way to create that for yourself without starting at a candle (not sure if that's good for the retinas!) is to take a white sheet of computer paper, and then cut a smaller square of black construction paper and glue/tape that in the center. So you have something of high contrast - black on white - or you can do the reverse, white on black! Stare at that for a while and you'll see the reverse image when you close your eyes. That is, if you do black on white, the image you see when you close your eyes will be the opposite: instead of dark on light, it will be light on dark. No bigs, that's just how our brains work, but the high contrast and strong shape are shoe-ins to make this happen. (I see after effects of things all the time without staring at them for long because I just have visual disturbances as part of my chronic illness, so I'm usually trying to *not* see those things! haha LOL)