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I understand about the empathy.  I can tell when others are sad or happy, which may be psychic or just by looking at their posture and stuff, or both.  But I can pick up on people's feelings, even specific ones like, "You've been here a while, I really think you should go home now" or "What you said an hour ago really made me mad."

I don't know how it speaks to you or me as a person to pick up on others' feelings so well, but I do know what you can do to help relieve the trouble you have with it.

First of all, your decision to eradicate or suppress these empathetic feelings is yours to make, though I don't know how to get rid of them.  However, I don't want to get rid of them and I advise you not to, either.  It's a great gift to understand other people and their feelings, and to learn more about them and how to help them by knowing how they feel.

For me, I was able to cope with this by taking control of my own actions and feelings, or presenting them to others in a straightforward manner.

For example:

My friend's girlfriend is coming and he wants me out.  I feel this, though he doesn't say it.  It feels to me like I am "unwanted" and even "worthless" because of the feelings I am getting, though neither is the case.  It's just opportune not to stay, and better to leave.

My response: Bid him good night and go home (Take control of my actions).  Both feelings disappeared, and my friend and I were happy.

My little sister was very angry and sad over something I said to her as a joke, because she thought I was serious.  I felt "ashamed" for what I did and "sad" as a result of her feelings, which caused me to feel like a real jerk.

My response: Apologize to my sister for my joke, help her understand I would never hurt her, and help counsel her on what self-esteem issues may prompt her to even believe for a second that I was being truthful (Take responsibility, understand her feelings and work to re-arrange them).  After this, we both felt better.

See the pattern?  When you feel unhappy with an unhappy person around, you're being told in no uncertain terms that this person wants your help, and your feelings are telling you what the case is.  By reacting to these feelings in a constructive manner, rather than letting them wash over you and sit there, your empathy serves a very real, very beneficial purpose.  Listen to those feelings... then act!

As for crowd situations?  I'm still working on that one.  I've been clubbing once or twice and hated it every time.  There are dozens of sweaty bodies grinding on each other, and I just can't find the interest necessary to join in.  In those cases, when empathetic feelings tell me I don't like the crowd, I just take off.  You don't need to be at an anti-Mac meeting if you're pro-PC, unless you want to understand their views or something.

And you don't need to feel ashamed for wanting to take off to the desert like you did.  I love people.  But sometimes, I just gotta get away from everybody and play video games for two weeks straight.  That's just me!  And after that time is up, I'm back out and talking to people like nothing happened.  We all need alone time.  It's just some people need it a lot more than others, while other people can constantly be "On" and around other people.  Go with what you know!

Finally, about you feeling "unemotional."  Could it be that you're just "calm" and "content?"  People get sad when they don't have something they want, mad when they're treated badly, etc...

Maybe you've just arrived at a place in life where everything is pretty much what you wanted?  If there's something you want more out of life, and you focus on it, feelings will creep back into your life.  Just make sure they aren't "sad" for what you don't have, and instead "determined" to go get it!

Hope I helped,
Chris

Hi,

Since I was in the sixth grade, I've noticed auras around people and objects... most often because I was bored to death (and still am) in a classroom setting.  I actually remember calling it "St. Elmo's Fire" or "Will o' the Wisp" simply because I had no idea what it was.

But now from David's letter on Mr. Bruce's site, I know it's an aura!  The question is, though, how do I upgrade my sight from creamy to color, so I can see something besides vanilla all day long?

Thanks for any input,
Chris

Thanks, Leo, I'm working to unblock energy pathways, improve my concentration and move on up to the next stage of conscious separation, and taking it easy on myself.

And awesome chart, paker, thanks for the link.  I got real close, it seems.

Chris

MISTER Gnomad.  Or maybe MISS Gnomad.

So you're the one I got the file from!  I knew it was Gnome or something like that...

Thanks a lot for Boxed Nirvana II.  I used it, not knowing what the heck to do with energy raising and all that, so I kinda just did a bunch of random things at random times (energy buildup, then NEW, then chakra swirling, then visualizing, I was all over the place).

Even then, I still had a unique experience of feeling myself falling into myself around minute 30 during a visualization.  Completely unexpected, yet utterly awesome!  I was so close to my first conscious projection, but my excitement ruined my chances.  Here's to a second encounter with the same file, dude/tte!

Thanks again,
Chris

All of my astral experiences up until a few days ago have been "waking up to vibrations" experiences that have seemed rather random.  But after listening to Dave Allen-Williams' "Boxed Nirvana II" (Gnome-something from this board!), I had a weird experience.  Could you guys let me know what stage this is?

I got really relaxed for a while, and my mind was drifting around, so I decided to take control of it and envision myself walking around a beautiful scene.  It flitted from this, to envisioning my apartment and so on, because my mind control and concentration is very limited right now.

But suddenly, I felt myself kind of fall into myself, like I got sucked into a hole that opened into my body.  I was surprised, so I lost the sensation after a few seconds, but I just wanted to know what stage of a conscious projection that is.  Is it before or after the trance?  Do the vibrations come soon?

Thanks for your help,
Chris

Hi there,

Yep, positive, straightforward feelings is what I'm going for.

I've only projected once or twice with the help of William Buhlman's "Aventures Beyond the Body," so my experience there is rather limited.  The one I remember best is my first one, which involved a quick teleport to my ceiling, flying out my window and seeing my city below, and drifting slowly towards the ground before waking up.

It was kind of cool seeing Mr. Bruce mention the "flying then slowly descending" thing in his projection treatise.  Apparently it all goes back to a problem I know I have, which is a lack of thought control.  I live my life in a daydreaming haze a lot of the time, especially during school hours!

Aside from that, I've felt the vibrations many dozens of times, but figured fear or lack of experience kept me from leaving the body those times.

Since I'm starting up practice again, though, I'm hoping for success very soon!

Chris

From the NEW guide:

"To start with I suggest tracing a pathway **from the base of your left thumb, along the sensitive inside of your arm and on up to your left shoulder.** Close your eyes and concentrate on the feel of the brush or fingers touching and moving along the surface of your skin. Ignore the hand doing the brushing and concentrate solely on its touch. Repeatedly stroke this pathway, from **thumb to shoulder** and back to your thumb again, following this with your body awareness until you have a good feel for the action."

"Using a large sponging action, move awareness through whole of left hand, **from fingertips to a few inches above wrist, back and forth,** feeling whole of hand."

The energy transfer is from fingers and hands, the energy receptors, to the belly, chest and forehead, energy containers.  However, at the beginning stages, back and forth helps to stimulate the area's energy pathways, so either direction is OK for training, but the direction for energy storage is hand to wrist and beyond.

Chris

Hey guys!

Having trouble with the NEW system?  Well, as a bad visualizer, I can't speak through your experience, but...

Tyciol has got it right.  You have to feel the area in your mind to move the energy around.

If it's hard, try physically rubbing from finger to wrist, finger to wrist, until you have the experience fresh in your mind.

Now, "feel" the same area in your mind.  Just keep switching, and you'll train yourself to "feel" with your mind in no time, all over the body.

Chris

Thanks Cacodude.  I downloaded the manual and am working my way through it.

This is actually the first time I typed two things into Google ("Initiation Into Hermetics" and "ebook") and have 9 of the 10 results come up with only one of the answers ("Initiation Into Hermetics").

Sorry Google... I found it and now I'm reading it.  Nyuk nyuk nyuk!

Chris

Awesome bio, Leo.  Thanks.  I'll keep your words in mind... and if I do become a rocking healer like Don, I'll make sure to share what I have with whoever needs it.

So, magic Cac?  Sounds good to me.  Usually when I want to fix a problem, I do it through 4 different methods at the same time.  Often it leads to a solved problem, but no idea which combination of skills got me to the solution!  Fine with me though!

So what do you think would be a good starter course on magic?  Online, book, a thread here, or just a personal set of instructions from you to me?

Thanks a lot,
Chris

Thanks Leo for the story and your concern (because I know that's why you wrote), and Cac, you big mouthed, red faced fireball spitter, for the vote of confidence.

I had a feeling the scars would not go away easily.  I have used NEW to make two lesions on my right tonsil disappear, along with the unbelievable pain it caused with every meal and drink, and every time I swallowed.  And this all happened in one night while I was still learning the system, too, after a week and a half of me suffering with it.

I thought if I could heal lesions, then I could heal scars as well, but it seems that the two are two different types of problems... one is medical, the other cosmetic.  One is caused by an energy blockage, the other by purely physical trauma.

But it's nice to know that disease doesn't stand a chance against me and my powers now!  (I've always wanted to say something like that)

No need to worry about me either.  I'm the most stubborn guy in the world when it comes to things like this.  If the whole board told me scar healing was impossible, I'd still try it.

However, I made the decision to wrap, cure and heal a single, tiny white scar instead of the whole chest.  Such a little nick should be no problem to NEW away, and it will build my confidence to strike the main ones next.

At the same time, the energy bonus NEW offers is very, very real.  Just 5 seconds of the leg => base chakra work makes my legs all tingly, and I sometimes... just sometimes, I actually ENJOY going to school after doing it.  Gasp of shock and horror!

Chris

I have a few things I want to heal/change with the NEW system, but I would like input on which to do first and how to do it.  I have...

Cut scars on my chest and stomach
Stretch marks on my underarms, stomach and hips
Nearsightedness

I tried healing all at once, every night, doing wraps and everything, but I'm not noticing a lot of results.  I would like instead to focus on one at a time, to better direct my energies towards a single goal.

What do you think?  Should I pick one of these three, or keep trying them all?

Thanks,
Chris

I was doing the wrong wrap for a little bit (no use of awareness hands earlier), so I am starting anew on the healing.

Though now, I am also including my hip stretch marks, my nearsightedness, and my scars in the same healing vein!  Why not try them all, huh?

Chris

Hi,

My name is Chris, and I've been using the NEW system for a week or so now.  The most amazing thing about my experiences, however, is how quickly I noticed results.

From the first exercise, I could feel the tingling that told me energy was moving around in the areas I was developing.  At first, it was only my left side that tingled greatly, with a small feeling on my right side, but lately, my right side has started to unblock a little and I can feel the tingling there, too.

But what I wanted to relate was how I was able to heal a sickness using NEW.

A week ago, I found two lesions on my right tonsil, not knowing where they came from.  They were so painful, I could not eat or drink anything, or even swallow, without feeling an intense, throbbing pain.

My girlfriend asked me over and over to see the doctor, but I'm with an HMO.  Their policy is, "Shuffle you around as long as possible so you lose interest in being healed."

Imagine my surprise when a Google search on "lesions tonsils" came up with more than half detailing cancer!  At 22, I could hardly believe that to be true, though.

Anyway, I used the NEW system and concentrated on that area, brushing and sponging ever so slightly, for just a few minutes before bed.

The next day, I didn't even notice while eating breakfast that the pain was gone, until I had finished and reached for the ice cold water that always caused the most pain.  I winced, drank... and felt refreshed.  No pain!

I looked into the mirror a little later and lo and behold, one of the lesions was gone, the other hardly big enough to see.

I'm continuing on the NEW system for sure after this experience!  Who knows what else it can do for people.

Next I'm going to try something a little more in-depth by using the NEW system on several SI scars on my chest.  There are several ranging from big, pink stripes, to small white ones, and I'll let everyone know what happens as I sponge away.

Chris

One more for you guys...

Is there a reason that my left side tingles more when I do the NEW exercises?  From the very first time I did the very first exercise, the alternating cold/warmth and pressure/tingle was strong on my left side, and way stronger than my right.

Mr. Bruce said this is common (I actually read that part in his training guide after I noticed the left side tingling more, so it wasn't unconsciously trying to follow what's "normal!"), but I don't remember him saying why.

Thanks a lot,
Chris

Hi,

I am halfway through the NEW system, and have noticed a definite increase in my energy level in terms of physical activity and feeling "up" with just doing foot and hand work!

But my question is... I know the NEW system grants tremendous physical strength, like healing and being more active, but does it work on the mind as well?  I am having a VERY difficult time concentrating and understanding a lot of things in school, especially the things that are strictly memorization, and I was hoping NEW might give me as big a boost in my studies as it is already doing for my body.

100% instant comprehension is a big goal to shoot for, but if I can even fall halfway or even a quarter to that goal, I will be utterly satisfied!

Thanks Mr. Bruce for the system and all who reply,
Chris

Thanks everyone.  I am now trying EVERYBODY'S suggestions to see what works best for me!

Everybody helped me with the self-confidence issue.

I visualized the exact everything of my desire, like Covelo said, down to the smallest detail.

I'm looking inward to see what my desire truly is, and am pondering my own innate abilities and that "hole" that is there like Chimerae said.

I have constructed a Chaos Sigil and written it on my hand and in my notebook that pertains to my desire, and contemplated it through a Gnostic state, like Naiad suggested.

Like Naiad also said, I'm also learning the NEW energy system.

I'm also being super-specific and careful what I ask for as Stone Venus says.

Take that, negative feelings!  I've got you surrounded at every turn.  Time to close the trap and receive what I envision.

Thanks all,
Chris

Another question!

I've read many stories of people who speak with the dead, astral project, lucid dream, remote view, mentally place new cars over their old one to bring a new one into their life, etc...

All amazing stories, but I have had little to add to the pot for quite some time.

Is there some common thread that joins metaphysical experiences together, such as increased chakra work, kindness, meditation, anything that a seemingly normal and non-stellar personality like myself can train with to experience these same things?  Or should I just chalk it up to DNA and being outta luck since my "Voice" left all those years back?

Or perhaps, do all of these things have different causes?

Chris

Can anybody recommend any good astral/magic/dreaming/meditation techniques for improving memory to crystal clarity?  Of course I'm not expecting 100% comprehension, but it's cool to shoot for it, right?

I've been in college 5 years now, and I've always had a terrible time remembering things.  I can squeak by with B's and C's (always have), but I want those A's.

So recently I've been looking for ways to improve my memory, that will cut down on my study time and lead me to better comprehension.  I felt bad about this at first, because I thought I was being lazy and looking for a quick way out, but I actually want to exit this whole school process so I can go *do* something important.  I'm sick of learning languages at an agonizingly slow pace, and want to get out there and interpret and translate as soon as possible.  So I guess you could call me lazy in the acquisition of my skills, but certainly not the application!

On a side note, I've never understood college, sitting around for six hours learning by theorizing and memorizing, when experience seems much the better teacher.  But since I'm stuck in here for another year or so, I want to make the best of my situation and improve my retention a hundred fold if possible!

So any suggestions, friends?

Thanks,
Chris

Hello everyone,

I'm pretty sure my family has "The Voice."  You know, that little voice that tells you what to do or not to do, or what will happen.  I'm also sure everyone has it, but not everybody can recognize or hear it.

I used to have it, too.  But since high school and life troubles rolled around, I have lost the ability to hear that voice that tells me what I should be doing, or what will happen.

Now that I've dealt with the problems, though, I want the voice back, to help me on a path I'm setting myself out on right now.  The voice of God, Heaven, spirits, guide, whoever it was, I want them back!

Nowadays, when I hear a voice telling me it would be a dangerous, or good, thing to do "X," I know I can only trust it when there is a feeling along with the thought.  "Maybe you should eat Mexican tonight" is usually just an internal dialogue, nothing important.  But (true story), driving my motorcycle at 80 mph on to an onramp and hearing a voice scream "SLOW DOWN" with a gut twisty feeling, seconds before I almost wipe out and hit the divider, is the voice I want more contact with.

Other instances of the voice in my youth (all true stories):

- At age 4, while watching my beloved Popeye cartoons, which always, always came in portions of 3 per half hour, a voice told me to enjoy the fourth one that would be coming up.  And lo and behold... there it was!

- A few weeks later, I had a happy feeling that I would be receiving some dinosaur stickers to stick around the house and on my things.  A Highlights for Children magazine showed up soon after... with dinosaur stickers tucked in the back as part of the issue.

- When I was 8 in school, I had a feeling that amounted to basically, "Prepare to laugh when this happens" and the image of a clock clicking its minute hand several times in a row (Kachunk, kachunk, kachunk, about 30 times).  A few days later, in the middle of class, the clocks reset themselves in this exact way and I busted up laughing at the funny sound.

- My brother was in an accident when he didn't listen to the voice telling him to get out of the lane he was in.

- My sister had a tugging feeling on her left arm and felt like something bad had happened to her boyfriend.  She called him to find out he had a near miss with a car on, you guessed it, his left side.

- The same sister drew a very black, dark picture of a crying child in her notebook the very same minute her friend killed himself.

- My aunt listened to her voice and stayed off a particular freeway when it said to, which helped her avoid a pileup she most likely would have been a part of.

- When my mom goes to Vegas, she plays the slot machines that "talk to her," and routinely wins a good couple hundred.

As it stands now, it has been rather quiet.  Any ideas on how I can usher that voice back into my life?

First of all, I would like to apologize for the length of the post I know this is going to be.  Also, if this is the wrong place to be posting this, I'm sorry, I'm new and really need an answer to this, so feel free to move the post if needed.

I've struggled with depression for the past 8 years, and have only recently had the great happiness of climbing out of it (and for the first time, had a full 4 months without a single self-destructive thought, November to a few days ago!).

But lately, a lot of weird things have been going on.

First off some background.  Some of the reasons for my depression may have been having to move a lot when I was younger, having four abusive (in their own ways) fathers, and a mother who had me as a teenager, of course making both our lives difficult.

I've attempted suicide once (knives in the bathtub two years ago, still have the scars) and have thought about it constantly the entire 8 years, from 13-21, I was depressed.

Near the end of those years, a good friend of mine whom I hadn't seen in a year just suddenly appeared out of nowhere at school one day.  We had lunch and suddenly everything changed, because she helped me to become the happy person I am today.  I feel our meeting was fated.

Before that, I "found" happiness a few times, where I would be very happy and bright, for 3 months, then suddenly, it would taper off and I would return to depression.  I think it was due to just trying to be happy and not trying to root out the problems for good.

In fact, it was through this "cultivation," as my Daoist friends say at our meetings (I'm Daoist / New Age, by the way!), that I was able to root out my past, come to terms with my unhappiness stemming from family issues, and turn my life around in that short period of time, just a month.

In that time, I 180'd from suicidal to content.  I finally got my motorcycle, and my license, and found the bravery and self-confidence to not only ride, split lanes and take the freeway, but do every one of those things with passengers, and in the rain.  And I met my first and only girlfriend, and she seemed like less of a savior, which is the girl I searched for before that, and more of a happy and perfect consequence, a love of a life gone right.

But this all changed this Thursday.  I took my girlfriend up to hang out with my family and friends for Spring Break, and I woke up Thursday, looked her in the eyes, and just cried for 3 straight hours.  She was as confused as I was to what was wrong.

What's more, after that, I told her last night that I thought things were moving too fast, and that I wasn't sure I loved her.  I felt her start to cry in the darkness as her tears hit my arm despite her happy sounding voice, so I turned on the light and we held each other while we cried.  The same thing happened this morning.

After all that, and I took her home and told her what I felt, that I did love her and I was sorry for scaring her (which was true, I know I was only acting the way I did because I had a problem and was confused about everything, not because I didn't love her).  But after that, I got to thinking about what happened, and why I felt that way.

I finally realized that my entire life has been an utter dream since I got to college.  Not a dream as in fluffy clouds and bunnies, but just a state of unrealized existence, like I'm wandering through life.

But the worst part is, for as long as I can remember, I have never been able to feel love.  I KNOW my family, friends and girlfriend love me.  They always have, though I didn't know until a few months ago when I changed my life around.

But I have never, ever been able to FEEL love.  When my sisters hug me when I come home, there are no butterflies, no warmth, nothing.  When I kiss my girlfriend, I feel nothing.  When my friends and I hang out and do all the fun stuff we usually do, it's very rare that I feel truly contented or happy.

I've also noticed something else.  I've had a huge longing for the past for as long as I can remember, for every single moment of my childhood prior to college.  The depression, the fun with friends, every moment I can no longer experience that is now behind me.

And when I see my best friend, who still lives in my hometown and has fun there like I used to, I can't help but feel that intense longing for the past.  I've also noticed a big increase in how much Deja Vu I get lately, at least twice a week but sometimes once or twice a day.

I feel that maybe there's something I've lost since I came to college, or since I've grown up, or something.  Even rooting out family problems can't solve that I've lost something from being a child.

This feeling of loss and missing something, and this inability to experience love, is tearing me apart.  I don't want to fall to pieces in front of my girlfriend ever again.  I want to BE my best friend, to know what it is like to be as laidback, funny and charismatic as he is.

Please, can you help?  Why can't I feel love?  And what did I lose?

I will give anybody willing to help me permission to access my Akashic Records to find the source of my problem, if necessary.  I would do it myself, but I've only eer projected twice in my life.  I don't want these problems destroying me or my relationships!!

If you can just provide me instructions on how to ask my higher self, guides, God, or anyone else, I'd also love to hear!  It seems in times of strife, I'm too clouded up to hear their messages when I call out in pain or terror.

Thank you very much,
Chris

Hi James,

Thank you for your quick reply.  I'll quiet the chatter when I can!  I'm also doing this thing called Photoreading, which uses the resources of the higher mind to help digest information.  I hope that when I clear the blockage between me and it, that this technique will get better as well.

Thanks,
Chris

Thanks everyone... I know there is love in me, and I have known it was there for the past few months.  I still have problems feeling it, though.

There is a place I want to be in my life, and my best friend back home embodies it.  Laidback, charismatic, fun, emotionally attractive, funny, etc...

And since I have yet to have these properties within me, at least to the level he exhibits them, I feel slightly useless or outdated.  I mean, what's the use in being version 1.2 when 2.0 is right around the corner?

It seems I remember important sayings and quotes though when I am more receptive to hearing them.  For example, after driving my girlfriend home (a day after the tearing up), I was riding back when another biker rode by and gave me the biker wave.  I knew that even though I didn't drive an awesome car like my friend, he doesn't ride a motorcycle, which makes me special.

My girlfriend's words came back to me, too.  I told her I wanted to be stronger, better, funnier (what I didn't say, like my friend), and she told me that weaknesses, strengths, and all, with all my many virtues and few faults (her words, not mine!), she loved me, and she didn't want me to change.

I just wish I was more in line spiritually to get messages like this more often.  Like attracting like and all that.

I think a lot of people's lives have themes of some specific type of pain, reflecting what they must learn in this life.  Some get it early, some it takes longer.  My life has been plagued with constant themes of rejection and a lack of love, or at least, that perception.  I've almost mastered compassion, sacrifice, courage, etc... what is left is love.  I know I am here to learn what love is, but it gets difficult when growth seems to be lacking, or going in the wrong direction.

I've returned to trying to astral project as well, because I've only done it a few times a few years back.  I want to learn more about our universe, other planets, love, God, myself, other people, everything I need and want to know.

I also want to see someone I knew who completed suicide a few weeks ago.  She didn't know me very well, but I want to know if she's doing ok (more like confirming that I know she's ok, and offering help if she isn't).

Thanks for your kind words, everyone.  I'm still trying to re-align to that part of me I want to be, which my friend already has done.

To Mirador, my journey to healing started with these key components:

1) Finding the roots of my unhappiness
2) Trusting a higher power to see me through the tough times (this saved my life a few times, just pray or ask for help every day and problems seem to right themselves.  At first I called it Heaven like my Dao buddies did, but then it became God, now I just appeal to all spirits and energies that can help)
3) Learning to love myself through this power
4) Finding the confidence to live how I wished

When you make the firm decision to be happy, events and people start coming about that will help you there, I've found, usually within the month, but often within a week or a few days.

Just remember not to give up!  Even in my darkest moments as a teenager, I never gave up.  Granted, back then, it was a punish-myself masochistic type thing, but still, I was a dogged little bastard.  Still am!

Thanks a lot everyone!
Chris