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Ok I've been doing quite a bit of research on salvia myself, and I have found some websites with articles on salvia.

Dr Bongs
Sage Wisdom
Erowid
SalviaSupply.Com

With some of these websites you need to scroll down a bit to see the links for articles. Also most of them sell good high quality salvia.

That's my ha'penny's worth! Good luck.

I think it's important to let the subject of your anger know that you are angry, and why you're angry. As long as you do this in a controlled fashion, then any insults or whatever coming from the subject of your anger is their problem, not yours. I find this works well for me. Many times I've expressed my anger in this way, and the issues have been solved.

On occasion you will get the odd person who can't or won't accept that they are the cause of your anger, and they will probably express that via violence or insults or whatever.

Hmmm, sure you're not a robot? :p

I think it's healthy to show your emotions, even anger, as long as you keep some sort of control over them.

I don't think dreams within dreams are that unusual, I had one myself last year. Possibly they are more common than people think. In any case, it's not impossible to have a dream within a dream.

No disrespect or offence intended here, but I'm just going on what my gut instincts are telling me. Sorry if I got anything about your life/views wrong, but what I have to say is based on what I got from your post.

If you think so then probably your life is better than mine was when I was still praying to God/Jesus.

This is a small hint that your life may have been hard (past or present, it doesn't matter to me).

I work hard, but my life is extremely enjoyable

Satan (Lucifer - doesn't matter what you call him, it's all the same to me) is extremely deceptive, and you've fallen right into his trap (at least that's what it sounds like to me). My point here is that if your life was always enjoyable, you would not advance spiritually, you won't grow.

I was serious about praying to Lucifer, but what's the difference between asking metaphysical entity for help and asking living person?

The difference would be that a living person is very limited in what they can or will do for you, a metaphysical entity can help if they wish. I thought that was obvious. But what does that have to do with this topic?

There are conceptions that suffering is a neccesary element of spiritual deveopment or some kind of a "test", but it's not always true. Recently I realized that most of suffering was totally meaningless.

That's where you are wrong. All suffering (doesn't matter in what degree) is necessary to make you advance spiritually. This might or might not be obvious to you, but life and suffering is like a set of hard lessons you need to learn, it's necessary for your personal growth. None of it is meaningless, no matter what it might seem like to you. How else will you advance spiritually? Personally, I say "bring it on".

In any case it doesn't really matter if it is hard or not, praying to Lucifer is not the answer. That's my last word.

are u joking? Every one has one. Every one goes through that time where they think that life cant get any worse. What do u expects them to wait hand and foot on you? You have to learn some how. God puts us on earth to learn. Not to be in complete glory. that's what heaven is. The harder the life you pick, the more advanced your spirit is. But preying to lucifer is not the answer.

If you think so then probably your life is better than mine was when I was still praying to God/Jesus. What you are reffering to as "lessons" was only useless suffering that caused extreme emotional damage, depression and many diseases. Of course praying to Lucifer/demons is only needed when I can't fix my problems by myself, only strong will is the true answer to most problems.
What if life has no sense at all, and "lessons" are only excuse for meaningless suffering? It seems so, because you can't learn anything from f**ked up childhood. And what you would say about children who where born only to die few days after - was this a lesson for them too? This is not a personal attack - only questions to think about.

"preying to Lucifer"

Ha! Was that intentional?

It's typical for Christians(of course not everyone) to insult people with different belief systems.

This isn't a personal attack but I feel pity for you because you feel the need to pray to Lucifer (if you was being serious about that) and for the fact that you just cannot see why your life is so hard. It seems to me that you've lost your faith in God, that's if you've ever had any faith to begin with.

Hi,

Astralspinner is correct.

I am profoundly deaf, and I'm missing half of my right leg. My right leg was amputated when I was a baby, so I have no memory of ever having two legs. When I dream, I still think I'm missing a leg sometimes, however, this isn't the case everytime I dream. sometimes i don't notice anything about my legs, or any difficulty in getting about, so I'm assuming that my energy/astral body has two legs.

I noticed that when I dream, I can hear perfectly well without hearing aids. But I do tend to misunderstand what is being said to me in dreams, I put this down to being used to misunderstanding what people are saying to me (a habit), rather than the fact that I'm deaf in physical life.

As for blind people, well I'm not blind, but I am severely short sighted, when I'm dreaming, I can see perfectly clearly and I'm not wearing specs. So I presume it's the same for a lot of blind people, but I can't speak for them.

I hope this clears things up for you.

Sounds interesting, not sure if I should watch it though, given my current neg problems.

This reminds me of a dream I had a while ago when I dreamt that I was on a train, it was going over a bridge. I looked out of the window to see what we were travelling over when I saw a lake filled with molten rock and fire. the rail tracks ahead of us were all melted and twisted, and the train didn't stop. I knew I was going to die. My Nana and Mum were with me when the train derailed and we started to fall into the firey lake. I woke up at that point. Ok, it's not the same as your dream but it was like being in Hell, and the heat was indescribable. The fear and panic was also indescribable. Even the landscape was hellish.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that I've only woken up for something to eat, and before I went to sleep this evening, I saw grey tentacles (loads of them) in front of me, with a black entity that looked like it was hanging upside down behind the tentacles. This scene took place behind closed eyelids, and it was sudden, I was not expecting to see this. I woke up with pain in my left hand, feels like my nerves are on fire. Also woke up with a headache.

Dropped by to see whats happening these days and this one caught my eye. Did you see this as a big critter or something fairly small? Have on occasion seen these but they seem to have become more observed of late. A number of people that I know have seen something similar. They also feature in the Matrix movies

They were just lots of tentacles lined up in front of me. Like a wall of tentacles. I don't know if it was one creature or just lots of them.

I don't watch the Matrix movies.

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have you tried asking the entity what it wants?  they'll usually reply.  

i know it's really hard to do even while awake, but changing your perception of the situation can be useful.  In bad situations most people run or freeze, fighting back is a good sign as long as it's logical, and not emotional.  don't waste your energy screaming.  you don't sound like someone that scares easy, so it might not be that hard to stop "reacting" to this thing, and simply ask it what it wants.  you might be pleasantly surprised.  although most neg's have a look that only a mother could love, or a twisted freak like me...not all are actually neg's.  some of the most hideous and gruesome entities can be the sweetest.  remember beauty and the beast?  kind of like that.  what if some being had some really special work it was trying to accomplish, and something else bound it in a terrible cloak of evil looking tentacles to keep anyone that might be able to help it from bothering? this is the way i would like you to start thinking.  i'm not saying it's not a neg, but the chances of it really doing any great harm to you are slim (in my 30 years of experience).  i think psychic defense is extremely important, because i sense without doubt that the two sides are merging.  the neg's currently vibrate on a level that can't do much harm to you physically.  Although i know from first hand experience that they can make you loony as a bat, but what if this thing with the tentacles was actually, physically (for real) hanging from the ceiling?  would you be able to draw on whatever you needed, to surround yourself with light?  could you fight it with the same understanding that "as above...so below", that just because it's massive and powerful looking doesn't mean squat...or would you try talking to it, before tinkling it off, or putting it on the defensive?

you said you knew the difference between reality and imagination, but you can't view the astral realm through physical eyes, as you can't work physical magic in the astral realm as well.  reality is what you've been taught is going on here in this place...be its real or not.  imagination is closer to where you want to look for answers, thus keeping your perception of things flexible.  i believe this site is extremely useful, this topic in particular, but in the end only you know for yourself, from yourself.  remember a camera lens.  focus on what you see, pan out as far as you can...always watching closely...and once you have refocused, zoom back in.  in and out, in and out.  you think this thing is evil and out to get you, then you think maybe it's not, maybe it has something important to tell you, then you go back to thinking it might harm you.  in between this movement you are vigil.  i think it has to be some "way of the warrior" thing.  never coming to any conclusions about your opponent...the stagnation of thought opens you up for a blow.  stand back, stay limber...let the thing makes it move.  watch it...don't see it, don't try to understand it, don't try to calculate it's moves, it intentions, etc...just WATCH it.  Is it really trying to do you in?  WATCH...what else is going on with YOU, with IT, with everything.  

all my best
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Hmmm, you do have a logical point there but somehow I just can't see how it's harmless. Don't ask me how I know but I just know that it's not harmless at all.

I did ask it several times, and I can hear it talking but I can't understand WHAT it's saying. And negs aren't to be trusted so I wouldn't trust it one bit even if I could understand what it is saying.

Moonburn, it's possible, but there's nothing near my bed on which I could scratch my left hand since I always sleep on my front.

I don't see how I could have done it by accident or how I could have done it in my sleep, as I said, I didn't have these scrathes on my hand earlier, then I noticed that they appeared on my hand the next time I happened to look at it. The scratches on my left hand broke the skin.

Maybe it's a coincidence but I also had a deep scratch on my left knee recently, which I have no memory of getting. It's a very deep scratch, I would have known if something scratched me. Put it this way, I more or less woke up one morning and found the scratch that wasn't there the night before. If it was my cats doing it, it would have woken me up, the scratch looks painful, and would have hurt like hell if one of my cats had done it.

I'm a bit worried because I've been under psychic attack for a few weeks (not so bad now because been trying different things as described in PPSD), and just now I looked at my left hand only to find little scratches on it. These scratches were not there earlier today, and it couldn't have been my cats, they've been out. The other strange thing is that for a few days, my left hand has been sore, feels like my nerves are on fire. Any ideas?

I feel a menancing atmosphere (I am extremely sensitive to vibrations and atmosheres). That's one of the first signs for me. That's the short explanation, lol. I could give more details but I won't unless someone asks me to.

The dream happened some time after all this started, I think it was a good couple of weeks or so after it started.

The night before all this started, someone was in a foul mood and picking on me. I don't know if this is relevant or not.

Over the last eight months, I've been discovering that I have certain qualities such as clairaudience, clairstentience etc. I know that certain psychic qualities attract entities, so that might be a possible cause, I don't know. The bed vibrating I've been experiencing that for the past couple of years, so that isn't really that important, it's all the other stuff that gets on my nerves. If you read my quote again, you'll find I tried praying (and I still do), getting angry etc (which I still do). I think fumigating is on my list of things to try.

If I knew exactly what attracted this thing to me, I would have won half of the battle. I want to know what it wants and why it's here.

I'll be sure to read the text you mention, might add other clues.

I will never allow this thing to defeat me. That's one thing for sure. After I went back to bed last night, the lights started flickering and dimming, strangely enough it was only my bedroom light that was doing that, and I've been deprived of sleep as well. But still, I won't allow it to beat me.

As for salt, I have salt around my bed at all times, daytime as well as night time. And yeah I do lay a line of salt across my doorway. I only have a small mirror in my room, no other mirrors in my house, and no I didn't buy any antiques or anything like that.


I suspected I had a neg before all this, I have had severe depression for the last six years, which I'm beginning to beat now. Obviously, negs aren't the cause of every bad thing in this world, but it helps to look into all possiblities. When I was 17-19, I used to change personalities so fast, even I found it difficult to comprehende why it was happening, at the time I put it down to the depression, but now I look back and I wonder... That is why I bought PPSD in the first place.

In summer of 2003, I was paralyzed with fear because I sensed an evil presence behind me, it was literally breathing down my neck, and that was in the daytime while I was watching TV. That only lasted a couple of minutes, but felt like enternity to me. I don't know if that is related to what I am going through now.

But looking on the bright side, I have got a list of things to try, as long as my arm. Lol. Eventually this thing will be defeated.

Well I have had psychic attacks frequently over the last few weeks. I'm trying out various methods, gradually introding them into routine, to see what works, and what doesn't.

This is an extract from an email I sent to someone, explaining what was happening to me, putting it on here saves me time from having to type it all out again.

On the Friday night I was in bed reading PPSD. First, I felt the bed start to shake very gently (like vibrating), but I took no notice because this happens regularly. I carried on reading, but then I felt uneasy because by that point I could feel a negative atmosphere. That's the best I can describe it really. I tried to ignore it, and carried on reading. Then I suddenly felt some tapping/knocking come from the bottom of the bed. I thought at first it was the cats, but I noticed they were on the bed sleeping, so it couldn't have been them. So I asked whatever it was to stop, in a nice manner. It stopped, then started up again. It went on like that until all I could feel was fear. So I thought I would stop reading and try to get some sleep. Of course, then it just carried on, and I could feel the bed vibrating. So I could not settle. So I asked again, in a more forceful manner for it to stop so I could get some sleep. It wouldn't comply so I jumped out of bed, at this point I felt very afraid for some reason. I turned on some loud music to try and ease the atmosphere.

I felt something bang and I jumped right out of my skin, and started shaking really badly. My heart was pounding, I was shaking for some time before I calmed down enough. It wasn't the music, the bang came from behind me. I had a quick look around the house to check nothing was out of order. Everything was in order. Because of my deafness, I can feel vibrations such as doors banging etc, and I'm quite good at telling which direction it came from. The bang I felt was loud and it came from behind me. But nothing appeared to be out of order.

I went online and chatted to some people, hoping that I would feel better and more able to settle. In a way it took my mind off things, but as soon as I finished chatting to friends, I still couldn't shake off the negative atmosphere, and even though I was so tired, I was too afraid to get back into bed, just in case it all started up again. At this point, I could hear something talking, although I had no understanding of what was being said. I ended up asking the big man upstairs for help in getting rid of what was bothering me, I asked my deceased family to help, even begged for it all to stop, but nothing worked. I don't scare easily but this got me so scared I was afraid to do anything. I started to get really angry and had a go at whatever it was that was causing the disturbance. It didn't let up.

I'll make it clear that nothing outwardly frightening was going on, like things moving and being thrown about - none of that happened, but it was the subtle things that were really frightening me - the tapping/knocking, the talking, the atmosphere etc. I'm a very sensitive person and can pick up on these things. I might add that the room was freezing cold, but I don't know if that is related. It is winter here after all. But I did notice that I could feel cold spots on my arm, moving up and down - very unsettling, I didn't like it at all. I only got four hours sleep that night, because eventually when I decided to brave it out and go to bed to try and get some sleep, I found that my breathing was restricted more than usual, maybe from the anxiety or something, I don't know. Then various muscles started twitching rapidly. We all have muscle twitches at some point, but this wasn't normal, it just kept rapidly twitching, was driving me mad. It was in my shoulder and arms, then my leg started twitching. Then it stopped. I managed to fall asleep after feeling internal jolts and mini "explosions" that kept waking me.

Saturday was dreadful. I could feel a menacing atmosphere all day and all night. Much of the same things occurred, but I was also getting frightening images in my mind. The images consisted of stuff like spiders, creatures and gruesome events that I have a fear of. I tried to block them out unsuccessfully. I also heard strange noises, just the usual stuff like creaking, growling etc.It was very unsettling. I decided to shower since that might help, it did help a bit. I could feel prickling and sharp jabbing sensations in my chest, on the skin. Yesterday, I checked the skin on my chest and found a new small skin blemish. Wasn't there before. The fear just got worse all on Saturday until I got to the point where I couldn't bear to be on my own, but at the same time I was too afraid to go out. By Saturday night, I decided not to sleep in my bed, but moved to the sofa. I went and put salt in the corners of the rooms, and sprinkled a line of salt across my bedroom doorway. I turned on running water and played loud music (not hard rock or anything, just a bit of upbeat dance music).

By Sunday things had calmed down a bit, and I wasn't feeling so afraid, and the stuff that had been happening wasn't happening so much. I still didn't sleep so well but it was a lot better than it had been on the Friday and Saturday. I could still hear it talking, but it sounded more faint.

Last night was better, still felt some negative energy and my calf muscles started twitching but it stopped quite quickly. I felt the sofa being tapped last night, but it stopped, and I just went to sleep.

Overall, over the few days I've described, the same things happened, but each day it just got less troublesome, especially after I did the thing with salt, loud music and light and running water (I sleep with a lamp or the light on anyway). At times the negative atmosphere got stronger then weaker. At various times over the past few days I also saw a shadow on the edge of my vision. I also saw some weird "sparkles" in mid-air, and things appeared to shift when I wasn't quite looking properly, but when I turn to look, everything looked normal.

I will remind you that I suspected I had at least one Neg before all this, it seems as though that when I read PPSD it just does not seem to like it, it's really weird. I know it's not my imagination as I do know the difference between imagination and reality.

Ever since that weekend, I've had it on and off, but not as severe as what I described above. I frequently wake up with headaches, which is strange since I don't normally do that, I frequently wake up feeling pain all over my body, I've seen the entity (astral spider), I've seen shadows where there aren't supposed to be any, I've had horrid images projected into my mind, I've had muscle cramps, especially in my legs, my foot jerks about on it's own, which never used to happen. Even my friend who stayed said he could feel cold spots on his body, moving around, and he felt my bed shaking. I've actually tried to find other explanations, but there aren't any.

I've been paralyzed in a dream once while this was happening, it was a lucid dream in where I saw tentacles burst out of my sister's face when I had the uncontrollable urge to strangle her. The entity burst out and ran off, I chased it, when everything went black and I was paralyzed. I was lucid at this point, and I was trying all I could to break free, eventually I moved my toe then I woke up. Not very pleasant.

I have tried sleeping with salt and garlic around my bed, all thelights on, TV on, music on, and left running water on (taps). It does seem to work to an extent, in that it makes it more difficult for them to attack me, but it's not entirely fool proof. Have just bought some rosemary, will be getting sage to burn in each room. I've been decorating my hallway, so I painted pentagrams on the walls, will be doing that as I decorate each room. I am in the process of learning mobile body awareness and other things too.

EDIT: I forgot to mention that I've only woken up for something to eat, and before I went to sleep this evening, I saw grey tentacles (loads of them) in front of me, with a black entity that looked like it was hanging upside down behind the tentacles. This scene took place behind closed eyelids, and it was sudden, I was not expecting to see this. I woke up with pain in my left hand, feels like my nerves are on fire. Also woke up with a headache.

LOL@Bush. If any of that is true, then at least someone has some idea of what I went through six years ago.

I've been spending hours reading an ebook that is about NDEs, and there were some predictions in it about world events that will happen. Here is an extract from page 156:

From 1992 to 2012, great natural distasters will happen such as earthquakes, floods, tidal waves, and weather changes. Earthquakes will strike the eastern coast of the U.S. Japan will slip into the ocean. There will be three days of darkness from the explosion of volcanoes. Ultimately, these natural distasters will stop. Humanity will always have the light. - Cassandra Musgrave

There are more predictions on pages 154 - 157. The ebook can be downloaded free here.

Many of these predictions are about the weather, natural disasters, and other things. Well worth reading if you're interested in that sort of thing.

By the way, I was reading a psychic column in a magazine last month (yes I know psychic columns are "uncool" lol) and the psychic (Ruth Urquhart) was saying more or less the same as what I've mentioned above, she was saying something about massive earthquakes in the US, and in Japan. Nothing new there. But what struck me as interesting was what she said about worldwide economy and the stock market. Apparently the stock market will end up similar to what happened in the Wall Street thing last century, and worldwide economy will suffer as a result. I don't know if that will happen or not, but we'll see.

On another note, I was reading one of Bruce Moen's books where he was shown that the number of humans on Earth will be drastically reduced.

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That's what I got when tried to download your mp3.

I get the same problem, I don't get excited or say "Hey I'm dreaming" etc. Usually I wake up in fear - this happened yesterday when an alien tried to do something to me when I went lucid. Next thing I know is: I start spinning and then I wake up.

I've noticed that whenver a face was shadowed, or I couldn't see a Beings eyes, I could not trust them. Either because they weren't who they were pretending to be (Spirit can assume any form), or because it was a hologram. That has been consistent in my experience. No eyes, no face, no trust. And if you do see the eyes, and they are very dark, black, like emptiness, I couldn't trust them either. These are souless Beings.

I always say that it's far better to trust what you feel coming from them rather than what you can or cannot see. Appearances can be deceptive. That's why I never trust what I see, especially when it comes to all kinds of spiritual matters.

I had a strange and disturbing dream, which people can read about here (scroll down until you see a picture of a red orb), but what I'm most interested in is the red orb I kept seeing. It kept attacking me.

Any ideas?

So will getting rid of core images help as well?

I don't know if this is in the right place or not, so feel free to move it if necessary.

I have been wondering if there are ways of raising your own rate of vibration? I wondered about this after getting the impression that negs find it easier to attach to people with lower rate of vibrations (please correct if I'm wrong).

Any ideas?

Also something else that seems to help to "Test your spirits" is to get them to say things that a neg might not want to.

That might work, but I find that my way of testing spirits is foolproof - at least for me. Try seeing what you can feel coming from the spirit. If it feels bad, or there's no feeling of PUL from them, you can be sure they are not what you want hanging around you.