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Yea I do, but it really doesnt matter. Knight and I had a lentghy discussion last night. He That armor is actually originally insired, despite my initial thoughts. did the ole pendulum trick to get some anwsers for me.

It was actually quite suprising for me to see it. I found out that alot of what I knew was indeed true, while some was completely false. Ill post the log of it if he wants me to.

It sounds alot like the guys you mentioned. Either way they are a very nasty bunch. I dont like thinking about that kinda stuff. I get really bad flashes of past memories... it isnt pleasnet. Sometimes they transpose themselves onto my own memories, twisting them harshly. Its not a sense of a psychotic way, its just really REALLY creepy, an omnious feeling.

It really bugs me that I, I OF ALL PEOPLE, could be the hands that caused that kind of suffereing.

But yea. My experiences have been tainted by this. I still know all that they told me, and have access to all I have learned. The only difference is that I follow a different set of ideals than I once did.

I would like to know more about these people.. this yawesh you speak of. That sounds about right.

As for the fallen angel bit that hits a hard note. I personally dont belive in alot of the bible crap, but I do belive there is some truth to that. Ive shown people what my astral armor looks like. From what I hear it is an interepration of what the fallen wore. [xx(]

I would agree that the lines arent nearly clear cut as you would imageine. The ones I was in contact with are pretty nasty folk to say the least.

I make references to "demons" only because that is the only widespread name I can think of. I personally refer to them as the "ancients".

Whomever they are they wholly evil in their approach. Completely sadistic and enjoy suffering.

They only other reference I can think of who would fall into this group would be Seth from egyptian mythology. Those were the foul things I once served under. As you can imagine I learned quite a bit about things.

As for the pact that I supposedly made, I belive it to be just that. It was an agreedment of mutual benefits... however that only incuded them and myself[xx(]

Since I was of great use to them, they were quit anyry that a (in their eyes), a rouge guide interfered and turned me away at an age where they could not yet bring me back into their service[xx(]

That guide is my current one named Xion. He displaced the former (apparentally) named Xios. My current one chose a similar name so that I would not be able to recognise him as different, thus he succedded in snatching me away from their claws.

If there are anything else you wanted to know, or something I could help with just hit me up on AIM. ( Sentential03 )

Ill try to the best of my ability to anwser any question you may have. But please fogive my hatred of "demons". I tend to use blanket statements to describe specific things.

I dont doubt your feelings. Spirits take on many names, however I know deep down YOU know who I am refering to. I may call them demons, you probably call them something else, but I am certian you know of the evil ones I speak of.....they are a nasty bunch

Im not sure why.. I understand the curosity. I kinda must insist they you dont hang around those kind.

"How did you make a pact with them?"
[xx(]From what I know about my past live(s) its the same way that you think it would work.

"how many years ago was this, I know this was in past life, but how long ago in terms of years and how many lifetimes ago?"
That I am not sure of. I know I was "under their control" in my most recent past life. How much longer ago than that I am not sure.

"What sort of attacks did you suffer?"
Just about anything that you can think of. My friends turning against me, being shunned by everyone. Acne lol the works. Anything to get me to scorn others.

Their main goal as I saw it was to make me feel inhuman, thus I wouldnt see a problem with hurting / using them. There is less guilt when you feel that one group is below you and dererves what it gets.

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Negs are nasty mofos, destroyers of life. As much as I am greatful to help others see this, I want to make perfectally clear that being like I was is totally unacceptable. I could never live with myself if I ever was that way again. Being that cruel is just plain wrong and self centered.

Forgive me for sounding like a broken record, but negs are very prevasive. If I were to plant the thought that even for a second it felt "cool" something would take advantage of that and use it against them


Are you refering to what training I might have recieved? Yes I have extensive neg training. I know how they operate and seek to use it against them. Why do you ask?

As always bro, you cease to amaze. Very professional[]

I still get cultish vibes. Alot of time people get overly wrapped up in dogma. I think its best to stay away from them

Partially why i avoid drugs is to keep my credibility. Otherswise they could discount me as a drug addict, or that it was simlpy drug induced.

By keeping myself from ever using drugs, they cant use that argument against me.

They might just call me crazy, but no one really knows this side of me. I dont freely give this info to people i meet on the street.

Besides they would never guess that *I* could be even remotly close to being psychic... I hide my intentions well[]

I would agree with you. Drugs are abolutly horribly for any psychic to take. Partly why my guide insists I never take them, simply because it would catastrophic.

Its gotta be a cult. Ill explain:

True avatars of the faith do not start organizations or have some sort of ritual to join. The fact that they seem overtly cloak-and-dagger seems odd to me. I dont understand why knowledge is needed to be kept under lock and key.

We all have our gifts and talents. But I do not abuse them, nor do I claim to belive that there is a crusade at hand.

To be perfectally honest, we are all in this together. I try to keep my knowledge as open as possible. However my more inner details I keep with my closest of friends. There are things I only want a few people knowning about me []

I'd trust your first insticnt and keep away with these guys. Especially since the "leader" seems to have a level of arrogence I dont care for. Our gifts are just that. They are not to be used as a tool for controlling people.

My guide turned sour the moment I read your text. His advice is to find the stregenth within yourself to find identity. These people only seek to use you for their <most likely> dilluded and psychopathic purposes.

OBEs and other psionic abilites are actually easy to learn if you have the patience. No fricking 6 month course (aka brainwashing) will tell you how to do it.

Your life is your choice, but as people will tell you, I speak the truth. But Im not gonna stop you. Just dont say I didnt warn you.[xx(]

As for "weakness" you have no idea. It takes a strong will to deal with the things ive seen and what ive been put through. You can choose to follow them, be my guest.

However to consider my compassion a weakness is just absurd. Im just giving you fair warning before you drown in the deep end. I was stupid enough to try the BS you are doing several lives ago, and Im still paying for it[}:)]

I have seen where hatred grows. If you would open your eyes for a minute you would see the maw you are about to enter. But yes, you can choose your path, however you should try to listen to the advice of others every now and then...... you have no idea what you are getting yourself into.

My experiences as a child were horrific at best. They werent dillusions or nightmares. Every psychic Ive met senses that on me. If you look at several threads you will see that many positive entities refused to anwser my questions. Both when I asked my friend's guide and when SD channeled Michael. My close ties from my previous lives are ridden with negs and pretty horrible things. From what my positive guide tells me, they refused to anwser in fear of what the knowledge would do to me, and partly becase they sensed too much of them within me. What you are doing will bring about sorrow and mallice for many lives to come.

Im not saying to turn to the church, becasue I disagree with them on a great number of levels. I myself am agnostic. Despite this I have seen your little friends, they are like foxes guarding the hen house.

I urge you to find the source of your issues before you try to smother them with blind hatred, or denial. Despite what you say, do not let your need for belonging or resolve allow you to travel this path or woe shall be you.

Bleh, its their stupid mermaid thingie they have this round. The other company has a better one. But its still pretty. Especially since my PC's games look like that pix you have lola

Oh no no no... lol. No thats just nVidia's banner that they have for the series.

example:

http://www.nvidia.com/page/geforce6.html

It was just the first one I could find lol

"Thx for the help... I think this neg has actually helped me long term... its my motivation to get my act together... raise energy, create a more positive environment etc."
^^ Hmmm, somehow Im not suprised. Ever hear the saying "The lord works in mysterious ways"? I think you know where it came from now[]

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Daem0n, its not a problem at'all bro. I completely understand. As much as I like removing negs, we really should balance our lives. Fighting gets old really fast. There is much more to life than that

But I must agree, the whole pacafist crowd makes me laugh. Reminds my why Im not a vegitarian lol!

Heh, its a long story. Ironically I am a computer enthusiast and overclocker.

Overclockers take pride in the parts we use. Think of it as street racing for nerds. Im actually quite good at it. If you google the things in my sig you will see that they are all computer parts or the companies that make what I use.[8D]

As for my avatar, that is Cessena. A small aircraft company that we have 2 new planes from. Cessena sells aircraft for the puprose of training, alot of flight schools use them. Like Embry-Riddle etc.

My father has 2 brand new cessena 172s. They cost alot....almost $175,000 a piece. We use it for legal tax evasion[8D]

My PC:

Just finished with cube on our daily chats. He tells me that he will have "something respectable ready" sometime this weekend he hopes. I look foreward to it, as do many of you.

I dont think you understood. When I said neg training, I meant just that. I myself am a re-deemed soul. The majority of my training in my past lives has been under high level negs and otherwise nasty entities. My guide is breaking my of my former neg ties.

But if the entity was indeed malicouls, it would be deader than a door nail, faster than you could say "Poof be gone!"

When it comes to protection and removing entities, I know what to do[}:)]...and from what I hear, Im quite good at it. Partly why my experiences with spirits has been so bad.

From what Ive been told, I hear Im pretty damn scary in the astral.

Despite how I may glorify things, I am not proud of the things I do. Its a burden I must carry with me, and a bad habit i must work on

I was gonna say that, but my guide is trying to break me of my former neg training.

But personally, I'd just open the damn door and kill it. Or rather and better yet, maim it badly, so that it can go tell its "friends" not to mess with you.

But thats just me[8D]

Negs for the most part feed on fear. Becoming indignant and demanding it leave is another option. However standing idly by is what it wants. Every time you get scared it litererly feeds. To it you are just lunch.

Most of us would need a better fix on you other than an ambigious post. Ive been there b4, knowledge comes in time. Patence has always been a problem for me, my guide insists I work on it.

Ive interacted with both negs and pos. Negs act like they are your freind and tend to be more flamboyant and boisterous than a pos. Positives tend to be very relaxed and subdued.

Now as for the angel / demon thing. I personally have never seen an "angel". The whole angel thing is actually quite new to me. My spitit has been under neg control for a number of life times apparentally, its not a pleasent story.

However, my current guide, and real guide, is a very positive entity. But as I have said, ive been thru both. Satanism is not the anwser.

I havent choosen that path, nor will I. The path to hate and suffering is very grim. Not only that but it bleeds over into the next life. Just keep that in mind.

Once again, your replies are ridden with statements like "you people" and so forth. The negs are trying to create a sort of disconnect within you, to make you feel seperated, or above the rest of us.

My guide tells me that "they" are very well aware of human histroy, and choose names to present themselves in a mannor in which the population as whole will have somthing to identify themselves as.

Ive heard of the sumarian history and several other, and am quite facinated by it. However I dont see a cooleration between satan and them.

Once again, if anything, Satan would be Seth, not Ptah. Mentions of evil goat like figures <and yes I know why a goat> do pre-date humanity.

However, it you truly feel happy and you are helping other progress themselves to find better and more fruitful lives, so be it. If this is the case, the one you call "Satan" is not him. You are reveraing somone else.

Now as for the archangles, most typically go by what the bible uses. However everone who is in contact with them, make very clear that the bible is only half true, and that there are quite a few more.

Once again I agree with LOB. As I had said before. I know what I saw, and I know what they represent. You are entitled to your opinion. Diversity is what keeps us from becoming fundamentalists.

Desipte what you say, there is a great deal of anger from you and your posts. I never acused you of being dillusion. I only warned, and asked to look within yourself for anwsers.

I have a friend who was a hard-line Satanist. He spoke of the things you have. After talking with him for several weeks he saw how it was destroying his life, and in turn abandoned it.

I myself am not Xtian, in fact I believe them to be the bane of our existence. Conventional religion in general is a horrible thing. Too often does greed and power dillute and destroy a once beautiful thing.

I think LOB will agree with what I say. The "archangles" as some like to call them, dispise how it was tainted. The reason why we have yet to see them is because we as a whole have become closed minded to the point in which they would rather not speak. In their eyes the ones that matter can freely speak with them whenever they choose to. However most of the thing that they would say can be found from our guides.

Much like my words <sadly> the "angel's" true word falls on deaf ears[] In time I hope, you will see that I speak the truth.

Now as for my "nightmares", I dont paint quite the picture I should. Ive had the "gift" all my life. I know perfectally well what I saw. I am not going to go into detail, but know that there are forces out there that scare even me to death.

You can call them by whatever means you want. A name is somthing that gives defination.

And belive me when I say, that I know "demons" / "negs" or whatever quite well. On a level that I wish I never got to. Trust me when I say this. Those "things" are not nice at all.

I really wish I could convey my thoughts in a mannor in which you would not discredit it.

As everyone will tell you. I have been put through qute alot. I finally am begining to get to the bottom of things. I know I cannot change your thoughts, but I do want to atleast give the suggestion of it.

"Demons" are not your friend. They are something to be both feared and loathed. The amout of emotional damage they can cause cannot be summed up in words.

I would implore you to see more constructive thoughts. Following for blind hatred will bring you and others inimaginable pain.

And yes, you do have such hatred in your heart. I understand. Im not sure where it lies, because I have not spoken with you other than these posts. Whether it lies with trying to be unique, rebellion or just hate in general.

Either way, you will find only suffering in a demon's arms. Trust me... I found out the hard way. Even tho my pact was from a great number of life times ago, I still am paying the price for it. Only after a number of horribly bitter years and constand struggle with negs, have they begun to let me go. My new and real guide is helping to finish off the process.

Hopefully my bonds will be broken very soon indeed

Right what I was explaing is the duality of nature. Without the black we cannot have light. So in that reguard, we will never really be free of it.

Most people dont like to think that way. But you really have to think of life as a game to undersand. If life were easy, would you feel any pride from saying "Oh that? Yea I got thru it even despite xxxxx"

LIke I said, its like game. Nothing feels more exihilerating than overcoming unbeatable odds. Whether we wish to admit it or not. It is a very impowering feeling.

I dont condone such acts. But what we should do is try to understand better. Too often do we join togeher to hate something else. That my friends is not peace.

I agree with LOTB. I am not myself Xtaian and choose not to be. But frankly what I would consider demons are scary people. I sense a great deal of hatred within you. Despite how oyu feel, negs only view you as lunch.

Keep that in mind.

Strife is what makes life interesting. Without it we would all be depressed. Hate and conflict is what makes us feel alive.

Some like it more than others. Its a matter of preference I guess. But like the old saying goes.

"Dont argue with a stupid person, they will bring you down to their level and beat you with experience"