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PMSL!! I dont know what else to say.

Kate

Thanks Stephen!    

Kate xxx

You do have to register to access the forum. Much of the Forum content is set out into sub forums. I must state, this site is only 3-4 weeks old, so obviously, it isnt going to be as full yet as other sites. The classes are taken by a variety of the site's staff, experienced in things such as Reiki, mediumship and spiritualism and include psychic development, healing meditations, meet your guides and an open circle. These all take place in the chatroom.

Kate xxx

Just thought I would share another link, this one to a spiritual site that has its own chatroom and holds classes in all areas of spirituality and development. All free of course. If any from here do join, please mention when registering or in pm to linda there that I linked ya as there is a competition running! no matter if you dont wish to tho. Truly hope to see some of you there.  

http://www.spiritlightstheway.com/welcome

Kate xxx

Great To see you there Cedar, and on WWS. Hope you enjoy both sites    

Kate xxx

I have 2 middle names. Together with my first name they are pure/virginal, life and compassionate friend

Um...what has this got to do with my post? I am assuming you are otherwise known as birdmankalki ? I really do not understand why you have posted this lot beautiful though your poem is.And why have you changed your ID ?  

Kate

Just thought I would link anyone interested to a fairly new forum for topics of a paranormal nature. Lots of room for people to post..in fact, the more the merrier since as with all new sites, it has to start somewhere!! Hope to see some of you there with whatever knowledge you can bring.

http://spookology.co.uk/bbs/index.php

Pmsl, this is so funny I cant even think of anything to come up with myself that can compete!

Master number 33 here as my lifepath, but reduces to a 6 apparenly if I am not fulfilling what I am meant to! I dont know that much about it all really, but it interests me a great deal!

Kate x

I smoked for ten years and gave up 6 months ago, if giving up is the right word for it haha
I am still addicted to the nicotine inhalators lol.
I dont use them that much, but gee whiz, they gotta be better than taking in all the tar and other rubbish...if anything puts me off smoking now, it is the poster I see at my university of an artery being squeezed and all this revolting white gunk coming out!

Kate x

Hi Birdman, yes of course you may approach me in private message or msn or whichever, and no, you have not upset me at all. It is great to find there are others out there who can understand to some degree what it feels like and how deep it can hurt.

Kate xx

PS- he is a gemini and I am Taurus... and as far as chinese astrology goes, he is a goat, and I am a rabbit. He fits the Goat very well actually, lol

Hi and sorry I took so long to see this, I had not expected any further response... It is not so much romance I am interested in. I cannot describe it really, other than to say, it is a very powerful feeling that this man and I have work to do for some higher purpose...and that term came through in a piece of automatic writing prior to xmas.

Basically, things, for now, have gone disastrously wrong lol. In that, as a result of my loose tongue, he lost his place on an internet site and has blocked all contact with me. And of course, I have thought to myself over and over...this is stupid...why cling onto foolish, empty hopes, why bother looking at the signs, why bother ACTUALLY believing in anything beyond what I see happening?

There have been just too many signs for me to ignore, there really have. For one, his actions of late are exactly mirroring mine a few months ago. It is like watching myself making mistakes all over again.

I dont know what more I can say, other than that it isnt just about romance..it isnt about love alone...it is this tremendously deep feeling that he and I are meant to...just be! I have had many come in and out of my life, but none have struck such a note with me as this.

I sometimes sit here and it feels as though I can see and feel his soul...to me, his essence is like pure light...it doesnt matter if we are in conflict on this plane, at a soul level, there is a wonderful connection.

Would you easily let that go? Just forget it and cast it off as a delusion ?

Part of me believes in destiny, another part doesn't...way I work lol. I do believe there are one or two people in life for whom we are destined...ones whose souls closely resonate with ours...even if on the surface they are complete opposites to us.

For now, I am simply sitting back and letting things be, because in the end, if something is meant to be, I believe it will in time. I just don't think I am ready yet. I still have many issues to overcome and to learn to love myself before love will come into my life from other sources, I think.

Kate xxx

[Just once, I want to run in the sea,Knowing that someone's watching me,Ready to chase me into the waterAnd join me in dipping and diving under.Just once , I want to be lifted up highAnd swung round with my face held up to the sky,In arms that never want to let go;So here I am letting you knowJust once I want us to sit togetherNo matter the calm or the storm of the weather,And gaze at the stars with wide open eyesWith hearts soaring as one through the indigo skies.Just once, I want you to look to my faceUnderstanding every single line and trace,Knowing every deepest wish and dreamAs though we were attached by a beam.Just once, I want you to hold my handAs we dash across the sun speckled sand,Bare feet leaving footsteps behindFor the next free spirited couple to find;A sign that love will always leave a trace,No matter the time, no matter the placeFor a connection of souls will always remainThrough thick and thin, pleasure and pain.]

Just once, I want to run in the sea,
Knowing that someone's watching me,
Ready to chase me into the water
And join me in dipping and diving under.
Just once , I want to be lifted up high
And swung round with my face held up to the sky,
In arms that never want to let go;
So here I am letting you know
Just once I want us to sit together
No matter the calm or the storm of the weather,
And gaze at the stars with wide open eyes
With hearts soaring as one through the indigo skies.


Just once, I want you to look to my face
Understanding every single line and trace,
Knowing every deepest wish and dream
As though we were attached by a beam.
Just once, I want you to hold my hand
As we dash across the sun speckled sand,
Bare feet leaving footsteps behind
For the next free spirited couple to find;
A sign that love will always leave a trace,
No matter the time, no matter the place
For a connection of souls will always remain
Through thick and thin, pleasure and pain.


Kate xxx  

yep look forward to seeing you there> three of us in there at the moment but will be busy later cause there is an xmas prize quiz going> hehe>

kate xxx

Hi Frank, you find a link to chat on the main front page where there is a list down the left hand side...you simply register your name and password for chat then you are straight in. Here is the link to the main front page again. Alternatively click on the link for walk with spirit at the very top of the forum on left hand side.


http://www.walkwithspirit.co.uk/

Hi James,
Thanks for the lovely post...I am hoping to get some of the afore mentioned cards after xmas when my student loan comes in again lol. I love artwork like that, but alas, when I last went into the bookshop, I was strongly drawn to get rune cards, and so I did.

It can be confusing, all the conflicting messages about how you should be, how you shouldn't be, what love is...and I am always told you are incapable of loving another until you love yourself... I have yet to reach a point where I can say that I love myself, but I am working on it.


As said, a large part of me, (that my ex tried to drive out of me by telling me love is a fallacy)is a die hard romantic...I mean, I can look at life objectively and think, love does not happen like that...people dont fall in love, ride off into the sunset and live happily ever after...but well, part of me hopes that some day, I will be proved wrong!!


Thankyou for your good wishes and I wish the same in return!

Kate xxx

Yep, I added to the welcome thread for you G3MM4 and thought your ID looked familiar! Hope you will manage to get into chat sometime...always quite busy there after 9pm.

Kate xx

Thanks Tayesin, I need it... I cannot help but feel that with all these spiritually connected males coming into my life, I am going to have to change a large part of my personality and become detached to deal with all the partings!

Kate xxx

I have found that the times I manage to raise my vibration are the times when I have banished all the negative thoughts and opened myself up to all possibilities. there is nothing worse than being full of doubts and disbelief, as I have found. I also make sure I walk in woody areas...I find the energy in trees and plants incredibly powerful.

Kate xxx

Hi James, thanks for taking time to offer input. this is the difficulty. I have followed my intuition and my heart...(I mean, that is not to say I haven't denied everything about this connection just to escape the pain of this person's disinterest lol) and I know it shouldn't be, but it is painful. I am trying desperately to no longer text this man...to stand back and let what will be, be since he does not seem to wish to contact me himself, for whatever reason. The problem is, however hard I am trying to put him from my mind and heart, it isn't working! I will manage for a day at most, then I will find myself thinking of him and hurting. I mean, in earthly terms...why can't he just tell me to go away if that is what he wishes? I have asked him why he does not tell me to go away, and get no response. Anything involving emotions goes unanswered lol. It kind of leaves me in limbo, to be honest. I mean, in the end,I am human and I am not yet at a point where I can simply turn away and say to myself, 'Ah well, I am sure we both learnt lessons from one another.
Time to move on'. In many instances I can do that, but this time it is proving difficult. It is like I am attached to this man by a rubber band    every time I try to move away and put it behind me, I am pulled back stronger.


I am glad you like my avatar    I love the colour blue...love any strong colours actually. I...have yet to reach the stage where I fully love myself, I think. It is a thing that takes time with a past such as mine. They say that when you love yourself, the love of others isn't needed. Is that really true? I mean, does that mean I would have no desire to have someone else in my life?


Tayesin, Hi and thanks for responding. I wouldnt put anything as an impossibility. I know a lot of twin flames from what I have read online, but really, I thought when they came together, it was usually to do spiritual work and that both need to be at the same spiritual level for things to work out? I had considered this man might be my twin soul, or certainly something, but then I wondered if just thinking about him enough might have established a connection. I don't know anymore as whereas he acknowledged a strong connection to start with, he didn't mention it again after the first month. As to letting the man go, see my response above    It is proving more difficult than I thought and it does not help that he is the one who re established contact or that he seems to not be able to simply tell me to go away. How on earth did you deal with the circumstances with your own soul mate? I mean, the pain of separation is so excrutiating for me. I can literally feel it in my heart.  I have met soulmates before and they have come in and gone out of my life and I have managed. This feels different. I have never got unusual images come into my mind with anyone before, like the one of a little boy and myself running down the road.

PS- I feel so silly talking about these emotions! I feel I should be beyond this by now.

Kate xxx

Thankyou for an interesting and thought provoking response, Frank... I am also, unfortunately, an uncurable romantic, though this part of me tends to remain within rather than be shown without when it comes down to it!

I wouldn't say I or he are in love with the idea of falling in love...on the contrary, both of us are somewhat against marriage and are quite jaded. He is very much a realist. But, So often I have been told to follow my heart, not my mind... now, were I to listen to my objective mind, the pure and simple fact is, I would not have anyone in my life because my mind would find one excuse or another to not give things a shot.

In this situation, believe me, I have often sat back and thought, why am I bothering? Why delude myself that something might grow from the ashes? In fact, when I do hear my guides (or wishful thinking? ) telling me continuously to have patience and hope, I often tell them they are talking a pile of **** and ask them where the signs are now!


The point of the matter is, that these feelings are incredibly powerful, and I don't believe they are wishful thinking since no matter how much I fill my time, no matter how hard I try to sever the connection and push this man from my mind. it is always there. I only have to think of him and I know what he is doing!!

I have interracted with a lot of males and females on the internet (and we are talking at least 50 male friends), and only with three have I felt any kind of connection. Of course, it i possible that these are simply soulmates coming into my life to teach lessons. I dont know.

What you have to bear in mind is that the period from when we first met online to when he cut off contact for over a month, was only a month in duration. It was very swift. And he told me that with a relationship, you start at the beginning, not at the end. Admittedly, when he said he felt the same connection, and told me what his medium friends and guides had told him about meeting me, I was eager...thinking this might be the one! I mean, how often is someone told they will meet you 2 years before they actually do?

As to physical appearance,he had seen my photo about 2 weeks after we first met online. I had not seen his. I personally dont consider myself attractive, but almost everyone else I have ever met does, so it shouldnt have come into it really. I mean, physical appearance should mean nothing anyway since it is the person within we are meant to see, not the sacking.


Um, as to the passion, beyond his calling me sweetheart a few times, and saying he had never felt this way about anyone, there was no physical passion. I mean, it never got to that point because we were both very guarded in a sense. We have both lived with materialistic people who place utmost importance on money, and both been hurt, so neither of us used the word 'love' at any point.

Yes, maybe it was just a brief escape from the upheaval in our lives, but also, is it possible that he does not wish to get too close due to the fact he has a possible terminal illness? is it possible that considering he has only just started going through a divorce and is struggling to get things together, that the last thing on his mind is a relationship? Is it possible that because I got so close, so quick before, and reacted so badly when he wasnt there, that he is now keeping a distance to protect himself?

I could go round in circles here. But I know one thing, If I start listening only to my logical mind, and forget my heart/my spirit, I will no longer be myself and I will no longer have the open heartedness to believe that anything can happen and anything can exist in a world that isnt all it seems.


Kate xxx

I am now going with the flow...and giving this man as much support as possible instead of expecting support myself...It is hard to feel this strong connection still but not know if he is still aware of it, I have to say. I sometimes sit here and think, maybe it is delusion on my part, or wishful thinking... I just don't know. Our lives just seem to go in tandem which is very strange indeed. lol.

Kate xxx