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it is bad user interface programming but you can do nice things that can't be done with bwgen.com . from only few experiences i judge the aditional entrainmetn techniques to be more powerfull in noticeable amount. (actually my brain got messed up badly, but that doesnt say a thing about the software but about its power. it does say something about the inflexibility of my brain)

the downside is: you must pay. even if you crack it you won't have acces to the downloadabel presets. besides there are few cracks availabel.

i don't know nothing but i believe it is said that linear time itself, like we know it, does only exist from the perception of an incarnated beeing. it exists on other levels as well, but not as linear rule, rather like a toy that can be ruled by any entity or higher self. this makes words like 'previous' and maybe 'copy' rather meaningless.

okay, i am stupid to try to write about this in english so i am out ...  

i can't meditate, too
i only try to play with my vision (including third eye) and accept that my body will stay on tension

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do you know web resources about ways of 'shamanic' dancing?
i know one way of dancing in a group, doing complex moves and singing. they called it TA KE TI NA as this is one of the rhymes that represents the steps of movement and footsteps and clapping...

i am just not motivated to do it alone. we did it for one or two hours to get in trancending states. and we had a drumer and two vocal leaders.
i hope new techniques could motivate me to do something silly as jumping around, alone for two hours ....

(i will study the OSHO site)

i am at the verry beginning of learning to "open my third eye".

when i close my eyes "violently", i see blackness.
after a few seconds the blackness becomes deep, then colors come up (violet,gas-fire-blue,orange),
then centric spots or shapes. they grow larger. i dive through them.
sometimes geometric stuff spreads over my whole field of vision.

i call this "overlay" .

when i close my eyes "softly" my brain dissociates from vision so i see nothing.
from nothingness i can concentrate on the taktile sense of my eybrow center. this will lead my perception to the overlay.

when the room is dark it is more easy to switch to the overlay with my eyes open than closed.
i "convert" the unclear dark image of darkness to the overlay.


also, i can sometimes convert my face in the mirror to an overlay.
i sabotage the "program of face identification" which leads to the perception of strange patterns and as the patterns grow or melt together i will get an overlay.

this overlay is not based on black but whatever has been mixed together from the colors in the room. but it "works" just like the black oberlay which i perceive in darkness or with closed eyes.

oh, there is another trick to help to create the overlay. i am trying to feel the back of my head at the same time as i  try to feel my eyebrow centre.


while i enjoy the disco effects on this overlay it happens that images drop into my brain. these images are not part of my vision/overlay, they are similar to memories. i perceive them either on the left or the right low-foreside of my "head room"

the images stay there for only a millisecond and it is hard to become concious of their content. they are dreamlike. phantastic. visionary. but i forget them easily. i can not make up a meaning

if i concentrate to much on them the overlay will be destroyed.


when the disco effects become more intense i know there is something interesting comming up but i get distracted at this point. (i loose the overlay)

only once i was able to literally see a true image in the center of this overlay (not in my head). i saw a chair and stuff which exists behind the wall at which i was staring. a RTZ style perception.

when the overlay is "active" i can hardly tell wheter my eyelids are open or closed. it makes no difference.

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why did my third eye become active (partially)?

i did a lot of aura-seeing practices.
(especially looking at the mirror)

i usesd salvia divionrum a few times.
i uses h.b woodrose one time.
i practiced remembering dreams.

actually it is forbidden for psychotic persons to even meditate (in psychological hospitals). one problem of bordeliners schizoides and schizophrenes is, that we have troble growing into our physical bodies both with energy body and astral body. while meditating (calming down) leads to temporary dissociation for the first two groups (BL&schiz.) (wich is not bad as long as you don't do it while driving a car) it can also cause a (not so temporary!!) ego regression for personsons with a psychotic structure. that is the main danger. therapy tries to earthen one and to strengthen the ego.


another thing: antopology says that every organ in the body has a psychic counterpart wich can be visualised or felt. so when you have a hallucination or something similar caused by a psychodelic drug or a psychosis it ist likely, that what you see does not come from a higher plane but from the physical body (you are conected throug the energybody wich is probably represented by the silverchord)
that means you need to be suspicious about your visions no matter wheter you are psychotic or not.

i had a suspicious ego regression (on salvia divinorum drug not due to psychosis) where i was cought in an endles incarnative loop. horror!! it could well have been an simple identification with my hearbeat or with my breath. if this was "real" i'd have to say we all live in hell and god is just a plain sardistic vampire like the matrix machines. luckily i dont have to believe that due to the organ theorie.


excuse my bad english and correct me if i said someting wrong about the antroposophical soulmodel. i just read a few pages from rudolf steiner who ist verry popular at least in germany.

yes , see here http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/viewtopic.php?t=17574  (i am user koni)

however it's not bwgen alone. and recently i just had lucid obe emulations. but my first experiences were verry real. i never used a real techniqe besides bwgen. im just following my intuition, trying to expand consciousness and concentration during the whole day ...

hmmmm, sometimes when i meditate i hear music, it sounds like really deep vibrations and the only thing i could compare it too would be monk chanting so im thinking that would be the best music for me (still havent found anything good yet though at the library)

don't know monk chanting but 'deep vibratons' reminds me of didgeridoo. david hudson would be one keyword for that.

there is 'megadrums', a complex jazzy ethnomix drumming from german musicians. it's deisgned for rather extatic trance.

(if u downoad it , don't mix it up with the drum snippet samplers for DJs)

Harner - Shamanic Journey Drumming (just plain simple drumming at 240 bpm, no variations) (that's ok for close to sleep trance)

not for AP but for the average flow:

like to listen to native american stuff too (david&steve gordon,oliver shanti,sacret spirit)

and steve roach stuff (suspended memories)

and asian taiko drumming or buddah monk style chants (annoys me lately)

and i LOVE that punk-jazz of the stooges - selftitled and the stooges - funhouse

DADA cause she's not right  DA DA
and it's allways that way DADA

hello world!

(srry, just had to change my nick as i could not identify with koni any longer - wont happen again)