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there is a lot of rest involved in healing. be patient...he is in place with no concept of time. i very strongly suggest that his children take turns being with him in "private", and talking with him about whatever comes to mind. children are naturally gifted at healing (esp. younger)...don't set it up like that's what they'd be doing...too much pressure!!! not healthy. also...i'm wondering if there was any dissension between his new family and your's, etc. did you all get along well? sometimes things like this will happen to bring everyone closer together...this could be what he's waiting for. the children have to volunteer to want to go see him. if the idea freaks them out...don't push it. after they have a chance to see him one-on-one...then i suggest the entire family get together to call him out of his coma. this doesn't always work immediately, but all of you together sending him love energy...will definitely draw him closer/back towards this world.

very likely he doesn't realize he's in a coma. he could think he's here, doing what he's always done. the mind is big and powerful place. i believe there are cycles where he's at like we have here...awake and asleep. you would want to catch him when he is "asleep" and traveling outside of what he thinks is real. of course you don't know when that is...so you just have to stay with it.

i feel very good about his condition. i will do what i can to help.
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yeah...woman's intuition...it sounds a little strange. first of all no one is too good for you, second i think you just have a crush, esp. if you can describe exactly what she was wearing. it's okay to be honest about your attraction... we don't care. i'd say leave it be, but obviously that's something you aren't heading towards.

wait till she's out front again...or wherever you know she's at. buy another small pizza (out of your pocket), write www.astralpulse.com on the lid with a marker, a smiley face...and your handle "Joe_Oh". who knows...she might already be a member!?!

i wouldn't turn down a free pizza! and you could have someone else deliver it if you didn't want to confront here.

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[There are too many sperm donors in Denmark]

LOL...it's really not that complicated. really. if you want to get intense try looking over the curezone's forum on hulda clarks parasitic cleansing! that is something that has to be very precisely done and followed strictly or you can really sick during detox. that's my next step...right now i'm drinking the psyllium & bentonite clay (P&B) shakes (not bad) and lots of water, but that's not important to you right now.

i don't follow any recipes. i just get an empty jar and squeeze fresh lemons into it and add maple syrup to taste, and as much cayenne as i can stand. then i either put a tad in with some boiling water and sip, or mix with bottled water to carry with me throughout the day. drinking a lot of water is important always (and hard as hell for me to do), but during a fast it's a must. keep flushing out the toxins and keep your stomach feeling full. i don't do anything special before a fast, nor during...some people will warn against driving or operating heavy machinery...but i've never gotten "loopie" from it where i couldn't function. your first fast i would suggest your goal be a week...go longer if you feel like it. and no, you don't want to sit down and eat a massive plate of food when you're done. just be logical...think of it like a baby who's just come of the breast.    broth, juice, porridge, a tiny bit of fruit mixed in if you want. the next day steam veggies. rice, a little fish...by the third day you can go back to regular eating...but wolfing down an entire pizza kind of defeats the benefits. i don't eat a lot normally...i'm really bored with food in general, but when i come off a fast it amazes me how little food i need. a half an apple and piece of cheese will fill me up nicely. and it feels like it's actually being utilized! transformed into energy. try your hardest to keep portions "fist" size. it doesn't last long of course...before your piling your plate again, or unconsciously shoving crap in your mouth.

you can still drink alcohol (most wouldn't agree), but just a lot less of it. if you want to drink beer during a fast i don't see a problem with that (it's a liquid right?!?). i haven't gained any weight afterwards...actually you'll shed some more weight during the fast, and then it's up to you if you want to change your dietary habits afterwards or go back to what your were doing before. steak by the way is good for you (save for the mad cow disease). i'm no expert on denmark, but don't you guys eat small anyway? like appetizer type stuff? little open faced sandwiches and marinated things or is that just "americanized "ikea" danish" seems like instead of massive quantities of empty-tasteless poison (like here), you guys create with more intense flavors and pretty presentations (artistic food)...it's more satisfying bcuz it appeals to all the senses. more intelligent.

you can also consume broths while you fast too...any kind you want. stay away from dairy though.

any more questions my little Æbleskiver?


HA...i googled denmark and this was the first thing that came up?!?

There are too many sperm donors in Denmark
Sperm donor boom is gathering steam in Denmark. Men are lined up to sperm banks. The reasons of such rush was the fact that the largest sperm bank of the country raised the price of one load.  

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on occasion when i have the money i go to harry's market in atlanta(glorified healthfood store). i've been living in small towns around the south east for the past ten years (and as i might have mentioned i hail from toronto)...so even though i haven't found any decent chinese food. it really excites me to see things like fiddle heads, wild mushrooms, bitter melon and ugly fruit, lentil & chickpea flour in a store. things you just can't get at the piggly wiggly!    anyway...as i was standing in the fresh herb section i thought how nice it would be to have a tiny little shop that sold a variety of wildcrafted plants indigenous to the area (for medicinal and spiritual use)...bcuz basically you could sell anything. every single plant you pass by, every tree, every shrub, weed. etc...has some effect on something.
they were selling lime leaves for 1.99/lb. and fiddle heads were 10.99/lb.

a beautiful little shop with small baskets of jasmine blossoms, blackberry leaves, and fresh mugwort, peyote buttons by the gram, bc bud, maui wowie, dandelion root, slippery elm bark, salvia, wild lettuces, amanitas, and coral mushrooms...and some really bang on experienced person behind the counter. someone that would listen, dowse a little and look into your soul and mix you up exactly what you needed, how much to take, etc. maybe a nice little room off to the side to trip. something like that would be a dream business for me. i'm sure some ultra groovy chick somewhere is doing exactly that in a round about way, but that's what pisses me off about the rules. the things i am/have always been passionate about...are so outside the box that it basically a no go at every turn. my purpose feels curtailed, and i wonder why (at times) that my interests are so few (here). i have no interest in libraries, gift shops, coffee houses, bars, clubs, target, parking lots, theme parks, tropical vacations, movie theaters, porn shops, hospitals, etc. (thought i do get off on hardware stores, antique shops, salvation armies & feed & seeds)  i could care less about gravity and matter. it pisses me off that were treated like a bunch of degenerate [edit] children. it's okay for everyone to spew fossil fuels into the air 24-7, dump tankers full of the [edit] into the sky before landing, guzzle down sugar-acid sodas ritualistically, snort riddlin, pop prozac, drink as much beer or wine as your liver can stand and inhale three packs of cigarettes a day...but you can't legally buy a joint?!?

if we had somehow remained independent through all this we wouldn't be so pathetic an animal. we would have elders that were wise, that would guide us in being wise, so we could guide our children, etc. instead were bitching about health care and social security, and STILL wondering when the next bomb will fall. it drives me nuts!

anyone out there read "the last american man" by eustis conway???

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i'm not the best person to ask. my metabolism is slow so trips for me last much longer than most. an hour and it creeps. smoking it of course is quicker/shorter, but i've never smoked it myself. i've made tea from the flowers which was the most subtle. the milk i heat a little in an enamel pot (or glass/not metal)...very low flame, and leave it to sit for a while (an hour or so) then heat it up gently again with chocolate and add milk. i've only tried a few times, but the effects were pleasant for the most part...which for me means "subtle". i never push when it comes to drugs. baby steps.

it can be dangerous if you're stupid.

here's a few links for research
http://www.wildlettuce.com/
http://www.erowid.org/experiences/subs/exp_Lactuca_spp..shtml

it's the opposite of shrums that i find seem to prolong time. i'll think it's 2 in the morning and it's only 8pm. where with this you think it's 8pm and it's 2 in the morning.

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i really don't feel that i have enough experience to give too much advice.
the erowid site is useful as usual.

and french fries with gravy, melted cheese & ketchup mmmmmmmmmmm.

that's the first i've laughed all day! thanx

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Not trying to be picky here, but if you read the article more carefully, they never say that they were mistaken, or that even 616 is the right number.

They simply found an early text that had 616 instead of 666 for a change apparently, raising ideas that 616 may be the 'real' one, despite being outnumbered and out-aged. Articles can be manipulative like that.

i have to admit i didn't read it carefully. i can't remember the last time i read anything carefully...it's more an intuition thing with me. and i don't mean to pick either (really i don't), but this kind of information about who said what/what it really meant/back and forth and back and forth stuff...is what make MY head hurt. i know...then what am i doing here?!? bcuz every now and then there is a spark of light... like the fireflies that are dancing outside my window right now and then it's nice!!!

good point about the time thing. (smarta*ss).

i didn't really want to split hairs over the number thing, but i'm glad you understand it as you did. i on the other hand...just see it as men regurgitating yesterdays lunch...nothing particularly attractive in it. and an earlier version...wouldn't that imply the "original"!?! Damn...see know you're gonna make me go and read it again!

"This is a very nice piece to find," Dr. Aitken said. "Scholars have argued for a long time over this, and it now seems that 616 was the original number of the beast."

The fragment was part of a hoard of previously illegible manuscripts discovered in an ancient garbage dump outside the Egyptian city of Oxyrhynchus. Although the papyrus was first excavated in 1895, it was badly discoloured and damaged. Classics scholars at Oxford University were only recently able to read it using new advanced imaging techniques.

man...i might as well post the rest...

The book is thought to have been written by the disciple John and according to the King James Bible, the traditional translation of the passage reads: "Let him that hath understanding count the number of the beast: for it is the number of a man; and his number is Six hundred threescore and six."

But Dr. Aitken said that translation was drawn from much later versions of the New Testament than the fragment found in Oxyrhynchus. "When we're talking about the early biblical texts, we're always talking about copies and they are copies made, at best, 150 to 200 years after [the original] was written," she said.

"They can have mistakes in the copying, changes for political or theological reasons ... it's like a detective story piecing it all together."

Dr. Aitken said, however, that scholars now believe the number in question has very little to do the devil. It was actually a complicated numerical riddle in Greek, meant to represent someone's name, she said.

"It's a number puzzle -- the majority opinion seems to be that it refers to [the Roman emperor] Nero."

Revelation was actually a thinly disguised political tract, with the names of those being criticized changed to numbers to protect the authors and early Christians from reprisals. "It's a very political document," Dr. Aitken said. "It's a critique of the politics and society of the Roman empire, but it's written in coded language and riddles."

does that mean that the bible is a 200 yr old copy of some political journal???

Bad gas in my stomach and my brain turned it into a hypothetical heart attack and there I had it folks, my first panic attack.

that is the best description i've ever heard. i know bcuz it happened to me...exactly!

that's the only reason i cautioned against it, but if you've been there...i know for a fact you're already cautious.
knightlight

Its intense and sometimes not all that pleasant.

TRUE.
halfphased

(and it works) Faster than you can think

VERY TRUE, and it would be better if you got fresh leaves and chewed them like he mentioned. if you've ever had a pot salad (or hash brownies as runlola suggested) you know how much more subtle the trip can be by way of mouth. though i remember some friends of mine with hash brownies on a train ride from toronto to montreal. i'm a lightweight so one is always enough, but they each ate two, got the munchies w/ no effect, ate another two before boarding, and split the last one on the way. you had to be there when it kicked in half way...it was funny, then it was scary, and we all spent the night in the emergency room.

I think the wild "bitter" lettuce would be a good way to go. the best would be from britian, but basically what it is is " dandelion"! though a little weaker than the european versions. just milk it like a poppy (don't smoke it ) good in hot chocolate. or a spoonful of honey.

here's a link to the tincture/extract
http://www.herbalcantera.net/extracts.html (1 oz. $10.50)
here's another valerian/wild lettuce mix (1 ox. $6.50)
http://www.healthyhealing.com/product.esiml?PID=762
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WHAT HAPPENED TO MY POST??? ARG! (*&(^^%$&^%^&)(#())@@*$_)(#!!!

did anyone listen to C2C "the immigration problem"
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most ex-pat's end up moving to some third world country. wait a bit, and you won't have to move anywhere!

anyone also hear anything about japan and china no longer buying our debt? bad situation is an understatement here. no longer a viable investment. use to buy it all up to keep the illusion that the us dollar was strong, and keep us consuming their goods, but now i guess there's little point, and asia thinking about switching to the euro. anyone read anything about the PANAMERICA project? they needed to get the new national i.d.'s okayed first, but they've done that. next the AMERO.
but since i think britain bought us out of bankruptcy in the past (which i don't think we paid off yet), and they're going at it again with a "helpful" hand... maybe we should all start practicing "god save the king", and start getting use to being called south canada! at least that way you'll get your socialized medicine and fewer wars

resistance is futile!!! everyone should be canadian (in their hearts)!

PS...anyone wants to buy a finca down in argentina...i'll be the housekeeper/masseuse/gardener/resident artist

yeah but you see that causes a whole bunch more problems for me, and some anxiety too. cuz if it's a game...i'm wasting just as much time in an alternate dimension as i am here?!? man...that would make me twice as fu*ked up as i think i am!
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BenK,

weren't you the same person only a few days ago that asked who would you rather ask for advice...siddhartha or a modern man (something like that...was that you? maybe i'm losing me mind)...but...I LIKE THIS NEW ENERGY!
very attractive! what happened to change your perspective immeasurably?

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anyone heard that the new evil number is 616?!? see i hate excrement like that. you take someones word for something, build it into your foundation, and then wham..."sorry, we got it wrong. there was little bit of dirt on that part of the scroll".    not that ever believe a number could be evil.

sometime i think that this is all some virtual training program. i guess everyone has played "the sims" at one point or another (a knows it's a ridiculous, mindless waste of time), but there is something to it where daily life is concerned and keeping everything balanced to continue in the game. the mundane stuff can be vital in a sense...get enough sleep so you can get along, use your free time wisely, don't forget to have fun, yada, yada. it's nowhere near the best programmed game, but something fairly brilliant came out of it by mistake (i think).
i can see us all as "apprentices" of life. I remember someone explaining communism to me when i was younger...they said that if you showed a proficiency in something like dancing...then you were a ballerina. if you were good with numbers you had to be a bookkeeper or banker. what if time as we know it is just a flash in the pan. you hook yourself into this world for experience: how well you problem solve, where your passions lie, what motivates you, etc...you get as many lifetimes as you want to make mistakes, bonk up, learn about yourself and interacting...and when you're ready you're introduced in the "real world" as a wiser member of society, but still as an apprentice (except now you have a purpose). isn't that what people want to know a lot of the time...what's my purpose?!?

could explain why the earth is just here, why we haven't been contacted by higher life forms, etc. it could even explain the astral...that we can't be interacting all the time, so we're put into some sort of stasis as we sleep (outside of the "main-frame-of-mind") but we're still in the program, but without the rules. (residue from our so called waking life mixed with the subconscious fragments from a completely different life we've been separated from for the time being).

omg...what am i talking about?!?

no one's read urantia?!?
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i agree (i think) i'm never sure of anything.

i apologize (in a way) for the part you quoted. i guess i've "just been writing" w/out much thought. feels like people are posting around me, and with all my posts disappearing on top of that...i guess i forget that people are actually going to try and "comprehend" what i'm saying...and i wasn't saying anything.  it's gonna take me a while to find my groove again. somehow the wind has been sucked out of my sails.

i usually try to avoid this quantum area, bcuz it's very specific and i'm very "not specific".  not sure how i even ended up in this thread?!? oh, yeah the "bleep" thing.
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anyone read the URANTIA book?

yes i've listened to his work. and i'm familiar with the ramtha teachings, but

there are certain aspects of it that I am weary of.

me too, that's all i was saying. yes it works, but only to a point, and then you're left with another belief system after that...maybe even a worse one, bcuz it make you more powerful...and you're less likely to give it up for an even higher understanding?!?

This is why people are miserable. BE YOU, not your neighbor.

i never said i was miserable...and i definitely don't want to be like anybody i know.

The only reason they (rules) apply to us is because the majority of people on earth subscribe to them.

...or people only exist bcuz the majority of the rules subscribe to them...or we subscribe to the existence, bcuz the people rule the majority? just being a smart butt...

all good points
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and i don't think anything when dogs bark...esp. those two responses. except of course when i'm inside and it's pitch black outside and the dog starts growling at something outside...that can complete change my reality in an instant!!!

oh man, if you can't handle a hit of pot...i'm not sure about salvia?!?
here's a link though http://www.sagewisdom.org/salviashop.html
also check out http://www.erowid.org/plants/salvia/salvia.shtml.

have you tried shrums bcuz that would be more gentle at first. maybe a tea of valerian, dream herb, chamomile, etc. you can't go around all day gulping down cokes or coffee, chocolate bars and the like, and then try to meditate (not saying that thats what you're doing).

all the power to ya.
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FEMMSTARR     
PostPosted: Fri May 20, 2005 5:18 am    Post subject:  
Frank wrote:
Femmstarr:

It's all very well saying be yourself, but a person's outward expression is a dynamic entity. Although people are free to think otherwise and fix themselves to a limited range of expressions if they wish. Doing such is entirely their prerogative, of course. But if I had taken that attitude all along, I'd still be that shy, spotty, 10-stone dyslexic wimp with no social life.

Yours,
Frank

awwww that is too bad but just forget about the be yourself and look at the other things I posted
a man with character....and compassion.....honest and hard working.... all of these things are very attractive in a person male or female.

REPOSTING FEMMSTARR'S AS WELL (which mysteriously disappeared as well)?!?

HEY HOW COME IT SEEMS LIKE ONLY MY POST ARE DISAPPEARING!?!

this is the craziest thread...it's BS!

and again TOM...I LOVE YOU!!!
(wish there was a suitable emoticon for that).

as long as y'all are looking for T&A (which I'm sure you are), you're screwed, or "not screwed" depending . let us not forget the 6th sense! women know when they're being played, they only go along with it if they themselves want something (even the most f*cked up/needy & victimized of us)...and what the hell is "normal"...who are you to categorize women into 3 types?!?
(victims/bitches & normal)...if you can't find a meaningful relationship with a woman...no wonder.  stop putting so much energy into us as separate, and work on yourself more...or maybe less, like femmstarr said just be yourself.

personally i prefer shy, spotty, 10-stone dyslexic wimps to arrogant, self-righteous, omnipotent, megalomaniacs (not that i'm saying that's what "you" are) .  as far as women walking away thinking they've played you (hans) doesn't matter does it...if that's what they believe.  

still waiting for an intelligent MALE reply to TOMS question...

why there is no matching topic about seducing men

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you ARE high in sense, but the most natural high i've ever experienced. everything is beautiful, nothing is black and white...which is a HUGE turn on for me. the last fast i did i packed up a lunch, beach umbrella & art supplies on a drizzly day and was planning on heading to hunting island (state park) for the afternoon. i never got out of the parking lot...i stopped under a big live oak and stared at an overflowing dumpster amidst flowering jasmine for hours. it was perfect in every sense. i can't explain it.

i would incredibly interested to know if just keeps getting better, as in the guy that hasn't eaten in 4 yrs. or if plateaus? some people can get addicted to it and in that case of course it can go bad. too much carrot juice can kill you too! humans have that weird gene that wants to take it to the mat?!? go figure (anyone heard anything on that human gene the japanese have modified into rice?!? that can't be a good thing). there are on the other hand a lot people that suggest fasting one day out the week to give you body a rest. i prefer the once a month method...though i've been lazy lately. it was 95 degrees here yesterday and i can feel an entire winters full of yuck in my system...so a good "spring cleaning" would be nice.

it absolutely becomes more energized (i would never lie to you). the first three days as i said are rough...and you can feel run down. if you keep yourself busy it's nothing. i wouldn't suggest starting on the weekend when you've got nothing to do. it would be great if you could start it a week before your exams! but if it's first time...i can see where you'd be hesitant. you would be amazed at how your system rewards you, esp. when things become less sluggish...you're burning your fat stores as i said and there really is no better nutrients than that. the maple syrup/lemon & pepper drink is suppose to have all the carbs/aminos/minerals that your body needs, but don't take my word for it...

...i find this site really useful it has a lot about cleansing/fasting and a host of related crap. this particular link is for the master cleanse forum.
http://curezone.com/forums/f.asp?f=478&t=49402.3

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Recent study forces scientists to rethink basic law of physics
http://sfgate.com/cgi-bin/article.cgi?f=/c/a/2005/05/09/MNG5LCLEU41.DTL

i posted a few times asking if anyone was familiar with jz knight & her ramtha (w/ freaky links to ramtha tv)...i don't think anyone ever replied. it worries me just a little that i see a lot "inner god" beliefs rising in pockets around the globe (which by the way we have YET to "prove" is spherical). omnipotence seems to be the new new age religion...and it's very much what ramtha is teaching. if anyone has ever touched on that feeling of power then you know how absolutely addictive it can be for the ego. there is no greater feeling then being in complete control/invincible, etc.

everyone is thinking so liner. going back to birth, or the original humans and saying, "if we couldn't fly then...then it doesn't make sense". i think that we are born into it...whatever "it" is. the rules are in place once we chose to be born, and we forget. there are some monks and nuns that have flown, documented i guess...but i don't claim to know everything about that. some people can tap back in to what they knew before they got here, before that section of hard drive was wiped. after all we're only using 10% correct?!? turtles can't fly and they're not stuck in what we know, but maybe they are. i hate to always make reference to the matrix, but it fits in here as well... neo couldn't break the "laws" within the matrix till he was pulled out, learned to see differently (the truth) and re-entered again knowing that those law could be bent or broken. though somewhere he still had a body that was restricted by those same laws again. he exchanged functions when he realized that what he thought was real wasn't...kind of like if we could switch gears with our physical world becoming like the astral, and vise versa. in the end neo also opens up his mind enough (or sets it aside) so that he can apply the same "limitless" function to his other "conscious" body in the machine world. I DON"T KNOW WHAT I"M TALKING ABOUT

it's funny i've been writing a lot of posts and never hitting the submit button. doesn't seem worth it sometimes. i'm sending this one just bcuz otherwise it seems more of a waste of time than usual (my opinion).

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i think that's sort of the basis for hindu/buddhist beliefs (but i'm no expert). that life is about suffering. they think of life kind of like a curse and wade through it slowly/patiently to get to the next point/a better place...and yeah, that does seem really weird. but i think a "fear of death" is a huge underlying current for most. you made a good point about that in relation to the fasting, but fasting is a wonderful thing! makes one feel ALIVE.
i do fourteen day fasts every once in a while, and when you get to that point you feel like you could just keep going forever. the first 3 days are rough. drink lots of watered down juice, broth is okay, or a lemon/maple syrup/cayenne pepper drink is usually what i do (called the "master cleanse"...you might be amazed at how "alert" it makes you feel. not only are you giving your body a break, but you detox a great deal. your body warms up because it's burning fat stores, and your metabolism rises. i hear better, see better, think clearer, etc. like all the senses are rejuvenated. the world becomes beautiful, like a grimy veil has been lifted. after the 5th or 6th day you don't even think about food...and when you start eating again you need so little. it's eye-opening for sure, and i think it's a nice thing to do for our bodies (we can be so thoughtlessly cruel to them). it's a show of respect and faith in our own ability.

there's that article on that scientist (of late) that hasn't eaten anything in four years, and claims to live off of sunlight. there was another article on a guru guy in india that lives in some cave, and claims to have not eaten or drank anything in something like ten years (but i can't find either of the links)

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man this SUCKS!

it seems like everything i wrote has been lost. i have no idea where to being. suddenly i'm confused (or more so than usual) oh well. change is good i guess...but not...really this sucks...really, really sucks!

thanks for letting me purge a little. this thread feels like a lone piece of wood floating round in the ocean after a massive storm. didn't think it was going to be this severe. thanks for something to grab onto

I feel completely obliterated

blessings
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your posts are like bad drugs! maybe good drugs??? definitely some kind of twisted s**t.    you could be talking about the worst situation, and it always makes me laughs a little. SORRY...i do think they're GREAT!!! i love the way they roll...like a strange, churning wave of flotsam and jetsam...and you the gypsy merman!

the really f**ked up part is...am i reading your mind, or was just reading another post earlier today of the exact same recount?!? i remember food lion, and your mom telling you that it never happened. are things like that happening to you (a lot lately)...everything clicking, but not necessarily making it any easier to understand? i'll wake up singing some strange 70's song, and it'll just keep looping in my head, and then i'll get in the car to go somewhere and it'll be on the radio. not that it'll come on at some point when i'm driving, but it "starts" as soon as i start the car (this is almost a daily thing), and 3:33 & 11:11 and 1:23 on the clock...and answering questions before they're even asked. and hearing answers to questions i haven't asked. etc...you???

i want to know more about the part with the devil as god. i have some thoughts about that from my own experience, but i'll wait till you reply.

SIS
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and???

anything worth commenting on?

reading more ayahuasca/mimosa trip accounts (really like erowid experience vault and the way it's set up)...
what i find interesting is the shaman/co-pilot direction, and how many people have been cured during these sessions...from demonic possession, to depression, to terminal cancer. how immediate/direct it is, the price you have to pay for that, etc.  it's obviously becoming a trend from the wealth of info on the web...five years ago the only people that were doing this were flying off to peru and hiking into the jungle.

a lot of people that frequent this site are looking for answers to weird dreams, looking for explanations outside the box that validate and ease their experiences...whether it be sleep paralysis, or an OBE. there are a handful that are well-established in the astral, and i have no hesitation stating i am one of these. the things that are most often discussed are difficult for me to grasp, because it involves me reaching back 30 years into the past. i was about nine when the floodgates opened in full force. it's like trying to recall what kind of shoes my third grade teacher wore, what the score was on my first math test, and the name of that kid that use to sit in back of class and eat his boogers...and then try to summarize how it's relevant...now.

but i'm way off point...with all the information and speculation and discussion...with all the books, the practice, the weighing out, the conclusions, the filing, filtering, etc...it is possible to walk right into that world that everyone here is interested in. after all this time i see that at the end of my path...because no matter how much energy, time, passion, intellect, or raw instinctive behavior i put into it (and i've put a lifetime worth believe me)...i see very clearly how securely we are all plugged in.
yes...it's possible to get "there" by dedicating ones life to it, but you've got folks in tibet who live in remote caves and spend all their time doing nothing but, and they still would never chance to tell you they're there. (and these guys do a LOT of drugs...if that's what you want to call them.)

it's a lot like the matrix movie...the red pill or the blue. that proverbial door that separates. the movie didn't get into neo's life before the knock, before the appearance of the white rabbit. obviously he was deeply into the "idea" of the "matrix"...but as we discover, nothing could have prepared him. the movie makes it clear that no one can get there on their own. it involved him making a choice, it involved him "asking", and making his intentions clear...never mind the pills. my point is he had to go through the door BACKWARDS. there was no other way to see what he was trapped by (the reality). and this were i do believe that some plants exist as "keys". we are allowed to hang out in the lobby, discuss what's on the other side, peek through the keyholes...but the sign clearly reads "VIP's ONLY"...you've got your invitation...it's your birthright. it's where you were created, it's where we all return...and it's possible to cash in at any time (for the golden key).

neo walked back into reality with the keys in his hand, but this time as a gamer. i guess that supports the power that comes with releasing the fear of death. that movie knocked me on my butt...of course i was high at the time (but... ). makes me laugh bcuz i went with my folks, and some of their friends (b.boomers). i walked into a totally different world when i left the theater, and then had to listen to them drag the entire thing through the mud on the way home (bummer). i think that was the big question that came with the film...red pill or blue???
i would assume most here would like to think they would choose the red.
(oh wait............you guys don't take drugs.)

i guess that's kind of my point (also)...the pills become irrelevant after the fact. i mean...the last thing neo was thinking of doing in the matrix was smoking a big fat spliff right?!? doesn't matter what side of the door your on...it's the most f**ked up trip you'll ever take. the drugs are more like new eyeballs...JUST A TOOL...and i'm not talking about drool-all-over-yourself coma type drugs, or lets-forget-were-alive happy pills, or even i'm-so-cool-with-my-antique/genius drugs. i'm talking about the ancient blue and red pill.

willing to give up EVERYTHING for the TRUTH?!?