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it's strange u were the first to post becuz i just returned from reading one of your other posts.  the signature @ the bottom caught my attention.
I am the great unconditional Lover of Storm.  I've been thinking the same thing about 2012, but then I had to ask myself if it wouldn't in effect add to the same mass mentality of "waiting around for a miracle/rescue/etc?"  
Which I why I decided to query the folk with this little poll.  See where everyone is coming from?!?

I'm not convinced myself that doctors and teachers are any more useful in the entire scheme of things, but they definitely have a better argument for themselves.

Sorry...no lollies.  I guess this works more like a POTLUCK, bringing your wonderful creation (yourself) to sample, and sampling the flavor of others.

But for a sister that appreciates the finer things in life...I'll send a massive storm your way (just for you).

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1)  Artist & Jill of All Trades: Self-Employed
    Despite feeling "special" in my range of skills/abilities.  I pretty much
    provide a useless service.  Art is vital, and I can't picture a world
    w/out it, but as for it guaranteeing my purpose...I can't say it comes
    anywhere close.  I am pulling away from the profession of providing  
    this luxury.  I can't compete with imported arts or crafts.  I do small  
    scale, original work that I'm happy to keep if no one wants to buy, and
    have taken more to using my hands & mind to increase my self-
    sufficient skills: plumbing, electrical, construction, automechanical,
    welding, gardening, irrigation, carpentry, etc.
    I can afford to do this, only because I own very little, and have no
    debt.  I could easily work in some artist industry, and reap the
    "benefits", but that would be straying further away from what I feel
    my calling is...Creative Visionary & Healer
    (No money in my specific calling).

2)  Depopulation: I don't believe that the world is overpopulated, just
    large pockets that are extremely lazy, dependent, and numb to their
    effects.  Something deep inside me just wants to pick a nice little piece
    of land, grow my own food, chop wood, carry water, and do without,
    and it bothers me to no end that I can't just go and do that without
    buying completely into the system.  If there were two-billion people in    
    the world instead...it might prove easier.  Do I care if I'm one of the
    remaining?  Not so much, except that I would like to be around to see
    the planet revert to a much more natural state.  I'd love to see people
    living freely with respect and independence.

3)  I'm definitely not waiting to be rescued!

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I've thinking a lot about the following: 2012/The End Times/Revelations/The Great Purification/The UN & Illuminati Agenda of Global Depopulation/and a selection of other prophecies & agendas along the same lines.  Ask me back when I was rebellious, truth-seeking teenager...and I would have "argued", "Less People...More Animals.  Less Cities...More Forests".  Somehow I lost focus on that passionate simplicity, when I crossed the thresh-hold into adult-dumb, and took the position of doing everything I could just to get by.  I adopted the idea that everyone was doing the best the could.

I'm approaching it from as many angles as possible, but once again I'm finding little issue with "Less People", save it isn't an agenda-driven culling by the 1% (elite), and doesn't involve some rampant flesh-eating virus.  I know that Ted Turner offered up over a million dollars to anyone that came up with a solution for "humanly" disposing of 2/3rds of the population.  What is that, like .002 cents/person???  
I believe most in the idea that there are a set number of people that have chosen to stick around and "do the work", and the rest that have chosen to move on/ascend.  I'm having a difficult time in processing any type of "rescue".  I know in my recent posts I have talked much about the supposed 2012 pole/galaxy shift, and a dawn of enlightenment...but I'm trying to grasp the mentality of the Rapture, and especially the beliefs of fundamentalist Christians (for example) who SIT in waiting...in the extreme believing that anything that might save the planet & it's inhabitants...is a blatant defiance against God's Will.  

So with all that said I am interested in this...

1)  What is your work/job/profession, and do you honestly believe that it makes a contribution?  Are you a warm-bodied laborer/a middle-man/do you work in the service of others...that are to busy to do for themselves?  Do you sell/push information? Is anyone out there a cobbler/baker...a candle-stick maker??? Does anyone have a job/business where they aren't disposable (couldn't be taken over by another) (or out-sourced)
And...do you believe what you do is your calling?!?

2)  Global Depopulation (Natural or Implied): Fore or against?

3)  Religious or other beliefs:  Are you waiting to be rescued from all this, or do you believe that a lot of work is needed to set things straight???


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Your posts are fine!  I do have to read them several times, walk away and read them again...to get a feel for what "exactly" it is you're saying, but I get it (eventually)  
I'm still sucking back the morning coffee, so my mind isn't grinding enough yet to reply to your whole post, but the word freedom jumped out at me.

I don't believe we know what freedom is! (any of us)...and even the idea of "free will" that was supposedly granted by GOD!?!  I don't think so.  I'm working on a book called "Interview with Eve", which is channeled type book about (of course) the "original woman".  I had to cover the idea of freewill, and when I got down to it...I couldn't find it.  Like the perimeters for our "function" have been set up from the get go.  Just the idea of The Garden of Eden with it's definitive barrier, being limited within...and then banished without.  I feel that it's possible to know freedom, but as yet...we are truly   ignorant of what it REALLY is.  I think that's why a lot of us are here @ AP, because we are drawn to the freedom that only the astral realm can supply.

more coffee
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I have a lot of dreams like this, in the role of guardian.  They aren't stupid at all...very wonderful feelings (as you noted).  I do a lot of hands on healing in situations like this (which you also mentioned).  I believe that by accompanying these folk...you are circumventing negative entities, when the people are traumatized or in pain, and open to attack.  You are not to interfere in the actual goings on...like you said...only guard.  

I hope you have many more dreams like this
They generate a wealth of good karma.

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Being able to create and control dreamscapes, and manifest within them came pretty much all at the same time for me, although I'm constantly adding to my repertoire of abilities, and what I can conjure up.  I spent a long time in my room doing nothing but fantasizing. Not regular day dreaming/mind play type stuff, but intense visualization down to every last detail.  It was something I had to have complete peace and quite for.  It wasn't intentional, but I'd go to bed early (around nine), and fantasize for at least three or four hours EVERY NIGHT.  I was honestly addicted to it, and it's still something I can easily get caught up in now.  I can sometimes spend days on end doing nothing else but.  Around twelve or one (or whenever I eventually fell off to sleep) I realized that my mind continued the fantasy into the dream world.  A drawback from this type of practice (I believe) is that I've lost out on actual sleep!  It's been about twenty years now and I haven't gotten a true nights sleep in that time, because I have become CONSCIOUS in that realm.  It's a trade off I've learned to live with.  It is amazing simple to do if you have a deep imagination, but that mostly covers "creating a dream".

As for manifesting and control, eventually that came into play more and more as the years went on.  I feel that ones ability in the astral is very closely tied with ones feelings of accomplishment, abilities, and resourcefulness in the physical world.  If you're the type of person that has allowed others to convince you your useless, or if you yourself "know" that you are not functioning at an optimum level...it'll prove extremely difficult to weave anything in a sub-conscious realm.  I don't walk around with the idea that I'm all that (ever/unfortunately), but I do KNOW that I can do anything I put my mind to! Therein lies the secret...KNOWING that you CAN create ANYTHING in the astral.  The subconscious has an incredible way of majorly magnifying the slightest doubts.  

So if you can spare the time......start fantasizing as much as possible, in deep trance/meditative states (eyes closed, relaxed, etc).  Bring into play all the senses...sounds, tastes, scents. and try new things in areas that interest you.  It's funny how plumbing in a sink, rebuilding an engine, baking a cake, knitting, re-potting plants, or changing the oil in your car can help put you in a mindset that makes it easier to manifest, but it does work.  I'm an artist, so I know that I comprehend things differently from someone that's not.  I'm in a constant state of STUDY. Understanding interactions, relying heavily on my senses (esp. tactile), digesting and regurgitating everything in my path (with the eyes of a child, and a terribly jaded mind), but I do believe with practice the dream world can be a blank canvas on which one can create whatever they desire.

GOODLUCK
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Taken to another complex last night.  This time with interaction.  

There has only been one other time I remember being in a complex where I spoke to other people...last summer:  I awoke (in my dream) to find myself lying in tall grass, it was dark, and there were lights shooting across my path of vision.  It took a while to figure out my surroundings (which is unusual).  I was lying a hill, on the side of a freeway; the lights speeding by where headlights, and tail lights from cars.  I realized I wasn't alone, but surrounded by Mexican men (by their features)(maybe ten to twelve).  They were all short, not one of them surpassing me in size (I'm 5'7")...coming up to my shoulders at best.  They were working on what I can only call a UFO, and when they saw I was awake (feeling doped up & out of shorts), they led me into the ship.  I have never before or since dreamed of UFOs or Mexicans.  There were no aliens to make mention.  The next thing I remember I woke up in military complex.  I stress military, because the place was buzzing with both men and women in uniform, and various ranks.  I remember this dream vividly because I was led (in handcuffs) to a massive kitchen area, and set beside some "regular" guy (not in uniform) and instructed to chop tomatoes?!?  
There must have been thirty crates of tomatoes.  I had the opportunity at that point to look around, and realized the number of "regular" people intermixed in the kitchen doing various pleb type jobs, as well as some dressed in what I thought was formal attire, realizing later they were "servers" for some type of banquet that was going on somewhere in the complex.  I asked the guy beside me what the hell was going on?  He was very reluctant to speak to me at first.  "Who is all this food for?" I asked.  "The President.  It's a big deal that he's hear. It's the biggest meeting of the year." He said.  Then he instructed me to keep chopping and not speak to him.  The rest of the dream has to do with escaping, and morphing through walls into an adjoining complex/dimension that was a world unto itself.  A place that is home to a new species of vampire, that was very strange and dangerous.  I can only describe it as something like "base housing".  There were stores, and schools, neighborhoods, hotels...it went from a twilight (where the streets were abandon when I first entered, to midnight (no moon) when the inhabitants began to stir. Yada, yada, yada.

This post will prove longer then my exhausting typical posts...and it's not worth explaining further.

Last Night:

A similar complex, although I saw no military.  This felt more "scientific" in nature.  When I got my bearings I was "inside" some lab, but not white like the others...this was all gray, with indescribable amounts of computer/electronic equipment.  The people around me were dressed normally, but "professionally", and had an energy that was much more compassionate than other times.  They talked amoungst themselves, and carried on work around me, as I watched.  

I was left alone with the woman that appeared to be in charge.  She was setting up infrared tripods around the room and adjusting them.  It was a large room (auditorium size), and I eventually got up to look around...she said nothing.  Suddenly the infrared lights began flashing and some alarm sounded.  I spun around to find a large Grey peeking out from behind some machinery.  The woman appeared afraid, but it felt implied...as if she were "acting".  I snapped into my mode of protection though, and went after the Grey, not knowing what to expect because I've never encountered one before.  There was no confrontation, he just fled, and the woman seemed pleased with my performance.  She went right back to taking notes...I assume on what had just happened.  We were alone (as I said), and I pressed for answers to many questions.  Mainly what the hell was going on?!?  Finally she sat me down (though she seemed hesitant to share), and this is the part that I found interesting....

I kept asking here what year it was, by the look of the equipment I was assuming it was somewhere in the not so distant future. She said she was not from the future, but that they were in direct contact with the future, and that there was a grave task at hand...one that they were testing my ability for, and many others that would help save people from something called "SCOTIA" or "SKO-SHI-KA FLU" (something like that) that would wipe out the human race altogether if certain steps weren't taken to protect our dimension. (?!?)  She said there would be another test at 11:00 pm, but I was free to explore the "compound" till then....which I did.

Outside, the entire place was set in a manner I can only compare to a theme park, maybe ten times the size of Disney World, but much more state-of-the-art in fantasy.  As I explored I seemed to go from one trail to another (situations & people needing my attention, needing to be rescued, things needing to be fixed...almost like small quests that led not to a reward, but another quest, and so on.  When I finally (drained) made my way back to where I had begun...and the "scientists" began going over what was to follow...they were explaining all the tasks I had already performed while I was out.  They seemed highly impressed that I had not only found/discovered these "situations" on my own, but that after some quick transmissions to the "outside"...had successfully completed them.  They stressed my rare ability to remain calm throughout the program...at which point I realized I had been wired up the entire time with these tiny bug type transmitter things they were now removing.  That I possessed complete awareness no matter how surreal the situation, and that was exactly what they were looking for, and that they would be in contact again soon...but were still trying to figure out how many "others" they had to work with.  

I have no idea what my astral experiences and skills have to do with circumventing a pandemic flu/what this flu is/where it comes from, and if they were being honest with me or not.  The feeling was most candid.

I know these post are long.  I'm terrible with accounting detail in detail, and have left out the quests on this account.  I'm posting this of course to see if anyone else has had similar experiences.

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in reply to both posts (backwards)...
(and I never to claim to have the answers.  I just focus on you and allow whatever comes to mind...to flow out here.  Take it as you will.)

Minds travel in dreams (not the body, obviously). The mind is not the gray substance bottled between your ears, but something that functions from the heart...they are fairly one in the same.  The Heart/Mind is a subconscious creature, where the brain is your "conscious" computing system, and more are we finding that although it may act as a circuit-board for the goings on in the body...every single cell has it's own conscious brain, and it's own heart/mind intelligence.  
Not that that pertains to your question...

It sounds to me like you have a difficult enough time having others interact with your conscious self (which is totally legitimate, because most people are conditionally un-sensitive (which it helps to understand why), and most people that congregate here are hyper-sensitive...but, if that "is" the case, which I am only guessing...then you really don't want to open yourself up (to just anyone) on a "subconscious" level....which is all the more sensitive, without the full understanding that you'll get exactly what you hoped for...and at this time, in this place, with what it going on...it's very difficult to know exactly what we are wishing for!  There are a million scenarios I could use, but two that come to mind is the movie "butterfly effect" and the timeless tale of the person granted three wishes by the uncorked Gennie...it's not easy to make wishes.
It seems like I keep bringing up the issue of CAUSE & EFFECT, but it's so key.  
Eg: Some wishes night and day that they would come into money (easy money...not the kind you have to toil away for)...they put all their energy into manifesting this money, and their intent being strong enough...their parents die in some terrible plane crash, and they get a check from the life insurance company for a million dollars.  It's a silly example, but it's basic.  It is extremely difficult to cover all the basis, and come out on top, especially when "desire" is at hand.  

The "someday" I was speaking of involves a shift in consciousness.  I've been looking into the idea of 2012 and the supposed pole shift that many (experts) in the field are concluding on.  Jay Weidner who I mentioned in a previous post claims (with others) that there are four seasons to our existence (golden age/silver age/bronze age/iron age) and that we are currently in the end of the iron age...on the dawn of the golden.  The point leading up to this will supposedly get darker and more drastic, where we will feel more and more lost...after the shift our function will be different.  It's too much to get into, and I'm not overly confident or optimystic that the "process" will be anywhere near pleasant (for those that survive).  
It seems logical that those that are already on the path will be "granted" superior powers (I guess)...so what you are saying about helping to bring about the change...I can't see where that would hurt.

So...you ever consider yourself to be a "defeatists"?  
I have no idea what your experiences are, or your spiritual/physic skills...but, I think you're aiming rather high.  Only because I think...let's say that you find another that is willing to do this work with you...you should be of EQUAL energy.  I understand the immediate gratification involved in jumping to the cool stuff, but you MUST pay your dues...I would say (for comfort)..."unfortunately", but I really believe it is the way.  You know that whole "wax on, wax off" system of climbing the great mountain.  REMEMBER: NOT FOR OTHERS...but to prepare YOURSELF.

No one else wants your helm.  You have a boat that is the exact same function, built exactly the same way as everyone elses.  It's yours to do with whatever you dream.  The bells and whistles are not important, they are meaningless frosting.  All the expensive instruments are only for those that don't trust they are part of the process.  You have your own inner compass and you CAN learn to use it by using it, and it will have you better prepared for what is to come.  Look after your ship, maintain it with respect and understanding for the way it works...why it works, and that it does actually work.  You're job is to keep it that way......nothing more.  Don't compare yourself to other passing vessels...just keep the mantra,
"I AM MY OWN SHIP.  I COMMAND MY HELM.  MY SHIP IS PERFECT."

And the Ocean is Open to all Explorers!
Blessings
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GypsyWander............What a Wonderful Name for a Ship!

[of results, [to produce, cause]. (2) [to get together, obtain, win over]. (3) [to use up, exhaust, consume]]

I know how "we" feel.......
tired/attacked/frustrated/fed up/limited/hurt/confused/etc/etc.
 
We live in a moment (maybe the last thousand years or so) that is a very self-centered time. The ME-ME Moment (DRAMA)........from within that space (which we LIVE) it is impossible to gain perspective of a larger picture.  It is "old" and "given" that "we" have a hard time finding compassion for the shark that is eating our leg.  My point was to invite others to step outside themselves and try to imagine what the shark feels?!?  

We "accomplish" many things throughout the day...in attempts to be *"productive"*...once in that day do we ever set ourselves aside to embody the earth, and FEEL OUR EFFECTS on it?  What energy does this planet we call our home...feel for us?
COMPASSION??? I doubt that very much.  

I don't mean to dance on anyone toes here...but my patients is so thin in this "moment"!!!  

It is to be expected in these very "rushed" times that we are not "granted" the time to witness more than the largest and most hyped-up of obstacles, but what DID we witness before the shark swallowed us whole???  What wondrous things did we miss??? As Silver Incubus so wisely noted...that the mass/herd mentality of the passive, herbivore-ish (compassionate) Sheeple are much easier to attend to, then the rogue and wild wolf...(also important here is the idea of psychically sticking to the forest vs. spiritually dwelling in the pasture...but that's another post).  

In another story...........YOU ARE THE SHARK EATING THE LEG OF SOMETHING ELSE....WHAT IS THAT SOMETHING ELSE & DO YOU CARE???

THIS IS MY POINT.

David Byrnes (Talking Heads) book "NEW SINS" lists Charity (as well as sense of humour, beauty, thrift, ambition, hope, knowledge, contentment, sweetness, honesty and cleanliness) as a fault, as another of my favorite wise men...J.Kirishnamurti expresses, "who am I to show pity, or feel sorry for another"?  I believe that "compassion" falls within these lines.  How can we so easily decide?  In one hand we have compassion for "certain" things, and in the other hand contempt for their opposites. It shouldn't be beyond us to clasp our hands, and feel nothing.  
There is a great secret in the state of being neutral.  
Where one can swim through shark infested waters without trailing the delicious scent of fear.

LINK TO "NEW SINS" http://www.davidbyrne.com/art/new_sins/index.php
also...
7 Satanic Sins
http://www.churchofsatan.com/Pages/Sins.html

There is philosophy here, and other things that only a fool would try to describe. D. Byrnes

No More Drama
No More Personification
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*Productive* Latin translation
conficio -ficere -feci -fectum (1) [to finish , make ready, bring about, accomplish]; of arrangements, [to conclude, settle]; of time or space, [to complete, pass through]; of results, [to produce, cause]. (2) [to get together, obtain, win over]. (3) [to use up, exhaust, consume]; of food, [to chew, eat] and also [to digest]; of property, [to waste]; of living creatures, [to destroy, kill]; in gen., [to weaken, wear out], esp. of persons. Hence partic. conficiens -entis, [productive, efficient].

I've had some deep thoughts on my mind lately that I've been too lazy to put together into a cohesive pattern, but no time like the present i suppose.

first part has to do with people defining themselves, and their situations.  we all do it, it's our language, but it amazes me that there is very little awareness of what people actually create/manifest in this world.  Thoughts about what was here "originally", how we deal with the original, that is "natural", and the rest..."artificial and implied"...something like that?!? How people have become so dependent and set on conveniences, that they have no passion to reconnect with the natural, or original.  Artificial is safer, faster, easier...but it's also more expensive, more complex, and definitely unhealthy, and has a set expiration date.  
It's very apparent that we are stuck, and IT WILL take a very drastic happening to get off our spiritual asses.

second part has to do with what "we" (majority) consider to be EVIL.  There are thoughts coming through in various forms that are suggesting a two-fold theory...1) we have lost practically all respect from those beings beyond us.  We as humans (the more conscious of us) have a certain amount of compassion for animals (some animals) (usually the infant, wide-eyed, fluffy ones)...far less compassion for insects, and no thought at all to the zillions of amoeba like creatures that live on everything (including ourselves).  Cosmically what can we compare ourselves to? ants?  Dust mites? Parasites?  2) and this keeps coming through louder and louder...that these evil, negative entities that seem to plaguing us humans in greater and greater number...are, in a manner of speaking "relatives/ancestors" (not opposite us, but the same as).  
the only thing i can equate it too, is a military, boot-camp like process of breaking us all down to whimpering, self-proclaimed idiots that understand NOTHING...so that we might be built up again...stronger, and closer to the original.  add to that a fair amount of disgust at our twisted, egotistical, self-absorbed, omnipotent, perverted behaviour and i think it's a fairly sound theory....that "they're" taking whatever steps are necessary to wake us up, and we have such an affinity and enthusiasm for the "darkside". (victim/martyr mentality)

i personally have suffered a few nervous breakdowns in regards mostly to lack of sleep and trying to be productive in an unproductive system, and it isn't something I'd wish on my worst enemy (if i had one)...but i know what it feels like to be on top of your game one moment, and tumbling through the barren void the next.  It is very, very enlightening, terrorizing and ABSOLUTELY humbling, and once (if) you return...it is a lesson one NEVER forgets...all the rules change. Unfortunately it is not up to me, and I see all the paths converging through this gauntlet...soon!  
Save for those that make serious changes back towards the original, natural & substantial.

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forgive me if this wasn't all that cohesive!

it is possible to do, but I'm curious about your interest.  be very leery of what you're asking, and more so of who you are asking it of.  I don't suggest you use an online forum to set up such things. what is it ur trying to accomplish? there are very few people you will find that possess this ability, and even fewer that are willing to perform it for non-important issues (life or death). I'm speaking of very "elder" aboriginals, and shamans in the deepest of jungles type people...anyone that is willing or say they are capable...i would be VERY reluctant to trust their intentions.  

If it's just for the fun of it, I'd say wait a little while longer.  I have a very strong feeling that within the next decade entering dreams and minds will become a fairly common practice amoungst spiritual healers, but we will also be in a very different head-space by then, and it'll become a less dangerous playground.

If you need help with something in the astral....please ask/define your situation, and I'm sure you will get more than enough feedback that may help.

you've come to the right place, ask the right questions, and note that on your travels...towards your destination...you are the only one at the helm.

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all the replies are useful, and should be pursued at some point...just as a challenge.  You should not allow the energy around you to drastically define who you are (eg: hyper), as it will/does over time without thought.

I'm having a really difficult time lately reading the posts (here & there), because of my understanding of manifestation and the intense power of words.  To me people get most "out of sorts", when their "belief system" is challenged in way, shape or form. Basically you are confirming the fact that 1) you have a problem and 2) that problem is "you can't relax". I urge you first to stop thinking/speaking in the negative, and second to look outside the box. Think of a cat sitting in front of an aquarium telling a group of fish..."I can't swim". I won't get into further becuz I think this paints a good enough picture. We all know cats "can" swim...it's just not in their nature. I agree with Data very much.  I actually opened this thread with the intentions of writing pretty much the exact same thing, and was surprised to find it already mentioned.

Focusing on your energy I will "assume" that you will be more drawn to embracing and exploring your nature as Data and myself have suggested.
however...is it your TRUE nature??? for this reason I also suggest that at some point in time you also explore and raise yourself to the challenge that the others here have mentioned...because it is important to "round yourself out/balance" always. You do not want to be one thing or another.

(something of interest)...
A technique gaining more & more popularity called "raising the kundalini" (which you can google further if desired), but it very much involves shifting and adjusting to a much higher frequency of energy, much like the static-butterflies you speak of, but not having it trapped in any particular area, allowing it to flow through your entire being. It's not a thing to play around with until you're "absolutely" ready...as many have slipped off the edge in the process and had a VERY difficult time getting back on track! I mention this only because...
not only is there another way of "getting THERE", but unlimited approaches to who, where, what, etc you desire to be. (some of the desires are implied/conditioned (not you), and some are natural to your spirit)...YOU can only walk one path at a time (for now).  The hardest thing for most to do is enjoy the path they are on.  
You will know when it's time to change direction.

I attract hyper persons into my life, and it's very interesting the effects they have on me & me on them (balancing relationships), but I am empathetic to your call, and the advice I offer is this...

1) avoid too much sugar.
2) avoid everything/anything artificial!!! (dyes, fabric, people, chemicals, perfumes, nail polish remover, make-up and the like....splenda esp.)
3) match yourself with an opposite if u haven't already (find a mellow friend that u can bond with)...but one that doesn't push, and don't push them....meld when needed.
4) try to avoid television (radio, internet better) your frequency will pull you in more than most...and hold you harder.
5) there are other forms of meditation (getting your mind to stop buzzing)
Running, swimming, DANCING, etc...falling into that zone for you will most likely involve exhausting your body first!

I have a friend (very hyper) that finds juggling an excellent method to balance, zone out, and find the flow at the same time, and it's FUN!
Find something like that, and you're well on your way!

Blessings All Over Ya
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true enough!

i understand ur resistance to dates. y2k was definitely hype, and i'm not one to ride the wagging dog, but all things that are sacred seem to be pointing to 2012. that's the only reason i mention it.  i don't listen to any news unless it's at least a few thousand years old, the older...the better. from peru, to egypt, to france, to iraq...from the bible, to the dead sea scrolls, to the cave paintings...from the prophets, to the poets, to the alchemists, and the crackpots...all lines appear to converge on 2012.
it's worth focusing on a little...i think.

blessings
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If nothing else it can't be ignored that we have just entered the age of aquarious, and the last time that happened was 26,000 yrs ago (2,160 per sign).

Well...we're a sad, pathetic groups aren't we?  
Just the three of us...we can make it if we try...
just the three of us...building big castles in the sky...

Probably both too young to remember that one...anyhow.  
In case no one is signed up to coast to coast (which i highly recommend for "cases" like us). Weidner talked aabout a definite shift on Dec. 25th 2012. He talked about the 26,000 yr cycles of earth (golden age/silver age/bronze age & iron age which we are currently seeing the end of) Good news is we're suppose to shift back into the golden age, and reconnect with spirit (function along the lines of Christ...healing, manifestation, etc). This is why I mention it...because I feel this is where all us weirdos come into play with our odd abilities.  George Noory asked what we should expect over the next seven years leading up to 2012.  All Weidner could say was, "it'll get very weird".  How is someone supposed to say..."take your scariest, most horrifying dream and imaging living in it full time"?  I believe this is what it'll build up to be, but I also have a very strong feeling that this "middle earth" and "lower earth" overlay will not meld completely.  I sense it'll be pretty much the same for "us", maybe knock it up a couple notches.  I think it'll be mostly visual, with some major energy feeding, some possessions, and mind controlling going on.  I don't sense that these things will go around killing everyone...but worse...driving them mad!!!  I'm sure their will be more discussion about the finer points as they reveal themselves, but I strongly suggest as much seasoning as possible...get in there with the mantra...
"NOTHING EFFECTS ME UNLESS I ALLOW IT"!!!

I feel that everyone is ready for a change, not to mention the Christians that are drawing on the Apocalypse, and with the death of Pope John Paul II...the End Days is growing in popularity (& don't forget to through in the t.v. series "Revelations")...a mass consciousness building for an end, but I see this point like the trough of a wave...in the last moments another shift of consciousness based on acknowledging our passion for life, and finally a willingness to take responsibility...that will churn up in a crest and come smashing down upon us...cleansing us, and enlightening at the same instance. Or...maybe we'll all just fry?!?

Dear Gypsy...welcome, and yes some of us do care!
The feelings of the OBE's you speak of...I get that too.  I think that will become common place.  You'll find more and more people saying that they're having deja vous, etc. (glitches in the matrix). The more aware you become of the signs...the more there are. Giants, UFOs, red eyed aliens, fairies, dragons, vampires, demons...you name it...I believe it'll be here.  I personally will find it very interesting to see how others deal, especially those that think I'm clinically insane.

I became obsessed with dreaming at a very young age (10) when I first learned to control my dreams, and be conscious within them.  I learned how to enter anyplace I wanted, look anyway I wanted, and control everything down to the last detail.  Unfortunately this entailed me sleeping as much as possible.  All day if I could get away with it.  I could have been a highly functional person...I think we all have that ability, but I know two things about myself for sure....1) I'm naturally reclusive in this system, and 2) In this system (between jobs/days off/etc.) I will sleep as much as possible.  That would (in this system) make me a "social anxiety stricken slacker"...or an over-bipolar-compulsive-dreamer...but in the new world post 2012 (if things take a turn for the better) (which I believe people like us will play a large role in carrying through/caring for those that think they're going mad)...we will be seen in a very different light!!! A golden one.  We will be appreciated for all the things we've kept silent about, withdrawn ourselves over, and battled in the dark for.

I work my butt off in the astral realm, and there's no respect in that profession.................yet!


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"These shoulders hold up so much...they won't budge.  I'll never fall or f**k-up...even if my collar bone crushes or crumbles...I will never slip or stumble"...

to all my soldiers.........be strong, carry on...
it "is" TRUE...u r highly valued, special & very much needed!!!

If we weren't why else would all this crazy s**t be after us???

Dear KnightLight...let us hope for the best.  

I feel (unfortunately) that there is much more horror to come, but it also feels necessary if there is to be some massive shift in consciousness. We will see.

2nd Dream:

I was standing in an open field, and the clouds suddenly swirled into motion and grew dark.  A voice (God's) broke through like thunder, and I heard the single command to "RUN", as the sky tore open and millions upon millions of black, bat-winged creatures streamed in from above.  They reminded me of those flying monkey's in The Wizard of Oz.  They were scooping up people and dropping them from above, raping women, and snapping necks like match sticks.  It was total chaos.  They tore through houses and vehicles like nothing, and I ran and ran until I reached the ocean (no use flying), and with a small percentage of people we descended into the water, as they dive-bombed overhead.  A long time passed (maybe days/weeks?).  Everyone was too afraid to return to land, until it seemed like all the creatures of the sea, turned on us and drove us out (as if to insist we return to land).  There were few people left...only those that had escaped underground, or undersea.  Everything was different.  The winged-ones were gone, and now there were these gentle golden beings that roamed the earth.  They took in those of us that were left, and taught us healing with rainbow colors and sound, and instant manifestation...and I felt that we were all like children. There was an incredible sense of optimism and renewal in the air...like the earth for the first time was our own, and our simple work was to respect it and work "with" it.

NOTE: This dream actually proceeds my first post.  I had it at the beginning of the year, but it wasn't until yesterday when I listened to the "Jay Weidner" Alchemy, Prophecy & 2012 C2C interview from April.5th that it resurfaced.  A caller used the word "locust", and Jay referred to them as "archons" (?)... it was an great show!
(coasttocoastam.com [requires membership]).  I would suggest listening to it, or visiting http://www.jayweidner.com/ for some intelligent, fresh insight into what is coming our way.

KnightLight: not sir...ms.  

projected into dungeon of sorts, dank stone walls, and a woman sitting on sofa in the center.  She didn't get up, as I walked around her in circles...she spoke about the near future, without saying anything in particular, but had an anxious, excited energy about it.  

"You will be the 'peritus pontus'.  (see notes below)
A man will come into your life, and he will be the familiar stranger. On the 25th day in the end of autumn your work will begin".

I saw in my minds eye the shadow of the man, but not his features.  I also saw myself placing a large silver coin in my back pocket (something that offered protection). A wolf-man appeared (very attractive/more man than wolf), style like that of a 'greaser'...blk. jeans rolled up high, with blk. boots, and a blk. leather jacket. He was slick and flirtatious, and sniffed around me as I listened to the woman speak. I was still in the process of digesting the information when the wolf-man leaned in close to me, and licked my face, and said..."you must be excited about what is coming".

It sounded more like a statement, than a question.  It triggered something deep in me that made the entire situation feel very unsafe. The feeling was overwhelming...that these creatures weren't to be trusted. The wolf-man was sitting on a table, handling the same silver coin I envisioned.  They knew, I knew that I was being 'played' in a manner of speaking.  I reached for the coin, but the wolf-man kept it from me very subtly, moving it from one hand to the other each time I reached for it.  Finally I said that the coin didn't matter, it wasn't the physical coin that was important, it was the ritual involved in carrying it, and that no matter what they tried to do they wouldn't win...they'd never win, and I walked out into what was the ruins of some castle.  It was pitch black...no trees, no moon, no stars... just a rolling landscape, and what was left of the stone walls.  

I moved earnestly...from my experience it's never that easy to leave these places.  I felt something tracking me, and increased my speed, but where I ended up was on the top most point of some alter in the center of the castle.  A (full) wolf, the size of bear...bounded up over the wall and stopped in my face. I felt nothing in particular of fear. I stared into the wolf's eyes...it's wet nose pressed against mine. What I did then seemed natural and practiced to me...I stared with 'absolute' concentration into the pupils of the wolf and drew on it's energy.  It morphed into a huge black cat (jaguar?), and I focused more intention on the pupils till I felt like was falling into them, or more exactly like I was pulling and stretching them out to cover me...like some type of 'melding'...finally the cat shifted into woman, and she grabbed me with enthusiasm, and hugged me tightly and didn't let go,  She laughed a slightly uneasy laugh.  "How do you know how to do that?" she asked, but didn't wait for an answer.  

"There is much planned for us. We're going to be very busy, you and I.  I can't even begin to explain where we start."

I'm extremely seasoned at waking myself up in an instant, but I wanted to hear what she had to say.  

"We have to start with the 'programmers' especially those the age of 25.  They are cursed, and all of them must be destroyed. This is all you need to know now...and she released her grasp on me, and I woke up.

NOTES:
i don't know Latin, but I checked a dictionary and this is what I found...per-a-toos : skilled/expert & pont-us : bridge.
(the skilled bridge)  Oddly enough I would say that this very much my function...."bridging extremes" of good and evil, believing that there is some peaceable balance between...at least making clear that the bridge is always open...that everyone/everything is free to walk back and forth (as will soon become clear) & that nothing is 'trapped' on either side, but the signs still read on either side...
"BEWARE...BEYOND THIS POINT THERE BE MONSTERS" !!!

I have no idea what the significance is of the number 25?!? Nor do I understand who the 'programmers' are, why they're cursed, and what they're significance is??? I didn't get the feeling that any of these 'people' were of high standing...I can sense this type (much experience w/)...
they're 'runners', pawns, front-men...the ones that do everything and anything to get a little drop of power from their bidders. They're numbers are multiplying like crazy, and although they are usually attractive, seductive types...they carry a crazy sudo-omnipotent ego, their behavior is irritating, and their ignorance is beyond words....all in all I sense they are semi-soulless humans playing in a dangerous world.
(the kind that would burn down the bridge just for fun)

that's it for now
feedback welcomed
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Dear PissedOffMystic...my understanding and support goes out to you.
Our lives sound similar and I can relate wholeheartedly with the pure frustration!!!

I'm interested in knowing if you have any "parasitic-like" dream experiences in regards to the dark, burrowing mass. I had an OBE last night that scared the crap out of me, and i don't scare easy where demons and neg's are concerned.  The experience isn't as important as the feeling I awoke with... violently ill and vomiting. I could sense a pure evilness surrounding me, and what darkness already lays within...was on the move. It was clear to me, as I was vomiting my guts out...that I was exorcising something that was attempting to move from my root chakra (dormant) into my heart-mind chakra (to activate). The vomiting happens to me on occasion when in states of high anxiety, but i could visualize it more than ever before. A black parasitic creature I was expelling. I live in an airstream camper, so I went outside to purge.  Yes, it was night, but I could feel the shadow of something ominous tearing around me in outrage...a sense of a maternal type anger in relation to the parasitic thing I was releasing/incubating.  Anyway...

I haven't found anything that really works as far as self-defense goes. I've been dealing with these things for 30 years...so it's old & tired, and more of a maintenance program, and learning to deal.  I too in the past have contemplated & made half-butt attempts at ending it all.  The feeling of insanity is "terrorizing" to say the least. It has been easier to accept and move on...as opposed to continuously straining to conquer (which I feel represents a more dire, drastic, panicked state) (which doesn't help)...
and when it doesn't work...adds to the feeling of weakness/hopelessness.

It's just something that I've had to learn to cope with, and keep at bay.  
I imagine some people would recoil at the idea of having a pet snake, or tarantula...it's kind of the same thing...."pet demons"!?!
It was never my choice, but they followed me home, and moved in. In my particular situation I believe it was being raised in a violent environment that kept me in a constant state of fear, and a lot of withdrawing into the astral realm for escape, and begging into the darkness to be rescued...
that opened me up to attack. Be very careful what u wish/pray for!!!
(for the negatives lurk closer (waiting to answer the calls) then those of higher/more enlightened standing do). All in all I chose to believe that I have learned a great deal from it...that i am more aware of "other things" more than most, and I have a great understanding of how these dark things function, behave and react (their mentality)...which I feel will become a most useful tool very soon in this world.  

keep on...keeping on.
strength and a higher understanding...always
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For some reason I clicked on this post absentmindedly, so I will comment.
Although I would say...u already know what this dream means.

Be patient, take time to lay in the cool grass (literally) as it will regenerate and heal from the friction. The process does seem like a struggle, but your eye lays in the direction of things unknown...and through the bushes ye shall wander, surrounded by the dark, and in the darkest moment of all you shall find a new strength, and your mind will be illuminate with a great understanding.

When most people stumble and fall in their darkest moment, for u the message is clear...you are only steps away from something divine.


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If i could bother explaining myself to the everyday person, the simplest way to put it would be, "for thirty years I've lived in a world of nightmares", but that would sound like I was trying to garner sympathy...and I'm not.  I've learned  that people don't really care about dreams (save this place), I've learned to keep my mouth shut from early on (save being diagnosed as insane), and I've learned to deal with things in my own way...that the experiences and lessons were for me and me alone.

I haven't checked through all the posts to see if this subject has already been opened up, so forgive me if this isn't "new", and redirected me where necessary.

I haven't been with this site long, but I have utilized it for my mission to draw people from the black and white extremes into the grey and murky middle...as i believe that a lot of time/energy is wasted trying to define the dark and light, without the knowledge of self. To make mention that the maps of the physical world (logic, conditioning, agendas, theories, and conclusions) are useless outside it's terror-tory. Basically my function up until this point was to have people do a quick one-eighty, but I am here to apologize, because something has shifted once again in the astral realms (both high and low), and with it my duties.  My message at this time is "trust nothing".  

I still urge people to PUSH their open-mindedness, and be as flexible and adaptable as possible...this will be of grave importance as the future unfolds, BUT...I see now that things are coming into play that will make it most difficult to decipher what is "divine" and what is "evil" (and those aren't words I like to toss around). We will soon come to embrace our "instinct" in a manner we have not known since the beginning, and what our eye's "see" will be meaningless.  It will be what we sense in our hearts that leads the way to salvation.

Anyone who has experienced a premonition or prophecy for the future, please consider listing it here.  I thank God that this place exists for support and exchange, but I also believe it to have a higher calling...
For those of us that have gathered here are in touch with the worlds at our crumbling borders.  Seekers and Guides, See'ers and Soothsayer's, Warrior's and Wisdom Weaver's, and Explorers...all of us placed in position to watch the horizon, and share it here...that we might be better prepared for what is to come.

Peace
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hhhhmmm?
well i don't think it's necessary to give any advice. just keep doing ur thing.  possibly the dogs are sent out as scouts? faster, more intimidating, and simple. who wouldn't be scared by a pack of dogs? saves on manpower, or whatever-power. just keep in mind that nothing can harm u. keep that in the forefront of all that comes ur way...and keep exploring.

dogs, wires, electricity, walls, demons and giant parasitic probers aren't going to stop us! slow us down maybe...but i really believe we are soldiers.

ten years ago, and even still today..."professionals" insist/ed that it's just "dreaming". that this world is "real", and that world "is not" (just subconscious grey water). a time is coming soon when experienced, open--minded, well-traveled/seasoned astral warriors will be looked upon with very different eyes, and you'll be calming down those being stalked by the wild dogs with a grin!

reach deep, project far..........................and do a lot of one-eighties.

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it's not scary...the way it would be if one were really under attack "physically", it's more of a massive adrenaline rush.  i find it difficult to stay in "trance" sorta speak...when my blood starts pumping.  In the beginning i'd do the same thing...just snap myself awake.  There didn't seem much point to being mauled over...and there still doesn't!  I think that there has to be some similar sensation type satisfaction/attraction...that people into s&m get, but different.  you're there with a bunch of wild beasts tearing and chomping and you're just thinking, "this is wild".  I've use to be a dog groomer, and i've been bitten more than a few times in the past (mostly little hyper high breeds)...It feels real, but in a desensitized way, which makes sense to me since you're at a distance from the physical, but still have those built in reactions and sensations.  I don't know.

I never encounter the dogs unless i am near one of the complexes i spoke of.  never. and they are definitely "attack" dogs. i believe they exist to work one in a "certain" direction....back towards the complex. in real life a guard dog will not show much interest until you encroach on a defined territory...these dogs don't show much interest until you try to leave. that's about all i can say.

DO YOU REMEMBER WHAT THE SURROUNDINGS WERE LIKE IN YOUR OBE? INDUSTRIAL? WOODED? MILITARY LOOKING? ANY BUILDINGS?
DID U JUST POP INTO THE AREA, OR DID U TRAVEL THERE? IF YOU FIND YOURSELF IN THE SAME SITUATION AGAIN...LOOK TO SEE IF THERE ARE OTHER OPTIONS TO WAKING UP...

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yeah i can do that...and of course i'll let u know.

for all extensive purposes (technically) i suppose all this weirdness would describe me as somewhere within the realm of "misery", but personally that's is not a dysfunction i can afford. i can could go on all day about my experiences (as i sometimes have), but if i could only make one point here (in this place)...if i had to make mention of my most important skill in getting me through all this in somewhat solid pieces...is having to look past good and bad & black and white.  i've mentioned this before, but feel it should be said again....and again.

i appreciate that you are coming from a compassionate place, relating to my position in the negative...that i am in someway a victim...and one hand i am, and on the other hand...i have no idea what's going on.  it's like some incredibly long, twisted movie...that i'm not sure ever ends.  i thought that at some point there would come understanding, a morally significant meaning to it all, but it's just one long winding road, where everything is so familiar, and so unknown at the same time.

all these aspects of what i write here...make up the majority of my life. it's the daily stuff that now feels like a dream, and usually makes less sense.  i still have a feeling that i'm supplying too much info, as i know very well that there lurks in the shadows...those with an alternative agenda...but it all comes as it must, and it goes just the same.

i'm glad this place exists for people to discuss what's truly going on.
still very eager to have some reply to the "seeding" question though.

back from brunch and a little worse for wear.

Question's regarding two other aspects of my life/travels that I'm just interested in knowing if there are any of you that share same.

1) ATLANTIS: These ventures always begin wonderfully enough, as I'm lead by angels (usually two, shining, brilliant, delicate beings on either side of me).  Always the same path, an expansive body of water/ocean (dark blue), to a point somewhere where I cannot take any barrings.  We descend to the bottom of the ocean...the entrances change, but there are always old stone walls...sizes vary, but large...roughly ten foot square blocks of stone. sometimes there is only a tunnel/cave entrance that repeals the water, and other times there is an odd elevator contraption that only takes one person at a time.  There are always a great number of guards at these entrances.  The behavior is very respectful, Atlantean (?) symbols/Greek looking paintings cover the walls, and the majority of "visitors" are children.  We are all taken to see a beautiful woman that calls herself the "Sea Witch", and after a lecture on stage, we are taken to other rooms that have games.  To study our response in various situations.  Frustrating problem with these ventures...is that i have an unusual problem staying tuned in.  The Sea Witch always seems very interested in the fact that I'm there...amongst the children, but when I sit down to talk with her...I begin to slip out of state.  I always leave slowly with a great amount of apologizing, and state that I would love to come back...however it always seems to end the same.

2) and I suppose this is for FEMALES ONLY.  Any gals out there know of being involved in any high-bred/seeding projects???  Any implants associated with that, and any that have had the opportunity to witness their children??? This can either be seeding by alien cultures, black op type programs, or neg related...as i have personal experience with all the above.

and while I'm at it....

3) Anyone have any experience with "Health Maintenance Programs??? On regular occasion I am taken to these places where human looking beings (but with a softer, higher intelligence type feeling to them) work on me.  It's not my actual physical body, but a similar higher body that they work on and tweak.  It's a very pleasant experience where I feel that I am in very good hands.  Anything like that?

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where to begin?

FIRST...yes, that's exactly what it's like with the wires...like a 'net', and there is some sort of magnetic 'attraction' that seems to make me stick.  the wires are new (as in 'less than a year' that they've turned up)(set into the structure of the walls). Thanks for the book title...i will look into that.

in reply to UPSTREAM: my memory in amazing/EXCELLENT!!!
it's been a good ten years at least that i've past from unconscious travel. i am as coherent/conscious as possible in all Astral/OBExperiences, and nothing is missed in absolute detail.  the complexes are definitely designed to TRAP. makes me think of putting a glass jar out with honey in it to attract flies/bees...it's not inescapable..just thoroughly draining. for a very long time (20yrs+) i have been able to go wherever i wished, do whatever i wanted in the astral realm, but these "complex' places are different.  i do a lot of RESCUE work, going where i am called to help 'release' others (human and non) from any number of situations. in the beginning the complexes were found during OBE's, down rural landscapes, long abandoned stretches of highway, to enclosed compounds with high wire fencing. note: that there were usually orbs of light that would fly along beside me near the power lines en route to these compounds.  {NOW...(b'cuz i've been 'tagged' (so to speak)(add it to my many other implants) i seem to be drawn in now without my okay}.
it's easy getting in, getting into rooms FULL of people (humans), but insane to get out of!
OH---i didn't mention the needles...there's so much more to these places/ the needles are incredibly painful, but i'm seasoned enough to get though it without having them distract me from my missions. the needles riddle my body (thin like straight pins, but longer)(millions of them) i can manifest a magnet that pulls out a good number, but while under attack it's useless.  the pins also seem magnetized, and work through unmanned, drone type hovering type weapons.

ANYWAY...to clear up the 'wall' thing. there are many type of walls...yes, but these ones in particular have only to do with these complexes. they're just regular walls. in the past i have been able to move through walls as a short cut for escape, or getting into places off limits eg: walls and locked doors no longer working to keep out the unwanted> from what i can understand there is this visual layout of "walls", but there's also a grid-work underneath that defines an entirely different maze. still i can't help feeling that these places exist ONLY to confuse and distract, and trap "US". i have found nothing of great importance hidden within.  as for the enemy: always human/military types.

HIGH TENSION POWER: is always an energy zapper, but nothing greatly disturbing. i spend a lot of time 'taking out' major transformers in these complexes. seems silly to me that access to these areas are always easy. i do get stuck in the field, and have to wake myself up just long enough to break loose, and then replace myself at a distance, but once the power is down it's easy to get out......save for the bonking dogs!

DOGS: are always a problem!!! lately only german shepherds (?), like i've mentioned i have an incredible, almost non-existent threshold for pain in the astral, but trying to fly around with a few 'hundred pound' mutts hanging from my limbs is just ridiculous.  and these dogs can jump!!!

PARASITES: i have had just about enough of!!! they mass produce to quickly to deal with. because they're flexible, they're almost impossible to destroy. i use the walls again in this case...i tear one from my body, and hold it against the wall and will it to become 'soft', then i shove the "sucker" in and slowly withdraw my hand as i will the wall to solidify again...but this is a terribly frustrating waste of time for me!!!

YES>>>i LIVE right beside this insane monstrosity that is suppose to be a grid-hub for the east-coast in (atlanta).  strangely enough at heart...i'm an off-grid girl, and it wasn't intentional that i wind up here (where i'm at), but for the time being it's all there is.  I live in an airstream trailer (aluminum shell) not sure if that's a help or a hindrance??? I have thought a lot about how that might effect my "work", but the complex things started before i moved here. i have lived on the beach, on a boat surrounded by water, in the woods, etc...my actual physical placement seems to make little difference, both with travel and neg attacks. discussions on neg's not being able to pass moving water...my neg's don't seem to know that!

KODEMASTER: i close my eyes when i move through walls. it's always made it easier (for me)...i do a 'quick check' first before moving sometimes, as (in the complexes) there are some rooms you don't want to wind up in...i put my fingertips into the wall and see through to the other side. i've had enough with merging through into huge fan blades, turbines, boiler tanks, etc.

I TRULY APPRECIATE THE FEEDBACK! SINCERELY
JUST NICE TO KNOW THAT I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE
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i'm being urged to ready myself for easter brunch...but have a few more things i would like to add upon my return.

Not sure exactly where to post this. Don't have the "books" that place me in the category of throwing around acronyms and established theories...only thirty some odd years of personal experience (in my own words).  I'm just curious to know if anyone else is having any problems morphing through walls, in regards to wire gridding?  I've spend the past twenty years compiling all the skills from flying  to self-defense, and some pretty nifty tricks to get in and out of situations...one of the regular practices is morphing through walls, which has always been easy till late.  Suddenly I find myself more often than not in these strange complexes that seem to be arranged specifically to trap and tire; rooms built within rooms, that require great amounts of energy to get through, and some lined with electrified wiring that proves "almost" impossible to get out of.  It's the outside of these complexes that are most disturbing, with layers upon layers of netting, and grid-work (something like fine barbed-wire).  Curious also about being "chased" with increasing intensity?  Morphing "into" walls (not through) always provided a place of refuge in the past, a place to rest and recharge, but no longer.  Once spotted, it takes every bit of energy I have to escape.  I don't like the current theme that has developed...always being on the run.  It keeps me from learning, discovering, and experimenting. What happens on the occasions that I have stood my ground, and not run?  A few times when I have kept an open enough mind, I have been capable of reducing myself to a whisper, a vapor that it not effected by the attacks, but most times it involves some taser type weapon that zaps my energy, and some odd nano-type robot that laces my entire body (through my skeletal system & teeth) (painful) with the same fine wiring that renders me near useless.  I have tried manifesting every tool imaginable from army knife to bolt cutters, but the only thing that works is de-focusing, and in that moment when I forget to believe that the wires are there...I can snap myself free (one at a time).  I have no hesitation in saying that I'm an expert when it comes to manifestation.  I can think anything into being (outside this physical realm unfortunately).  I can appear in any form I wish, do whatever I wish, yada, yada, yada...BUT lately something seems to be curtailing my abilities.  Not that I'm being disconnected from my skills, but that something is working very hard to cut me off at the pass, and keep me from exploring large astral areas.  Is anyone else experiencing this???  

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