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i had a really cool hypnagogic experience after trying to go back to sleep... i'm in the room i'm in now.... laying on my back and my head resting to the right. i dont yet make the distinction i am already out of my body, as i am preoccupied with the in-between sensations. i know i'm out of body because my vantage point is not on the mattress i'm sleeping on but on the floor beside it. my eyes are half-opened and i see a silver and black spider as large as my face resting along my mattress. i try not to disturb it, it's gently moving. i notice a little brown around the black. i begin to feel the weight associated with sleep paralysis. i breathe deep and hear my breath...the weight from this sends me further.... each breath is like the most rewarding therapeutic sensations running along my spine. at this point i still don't realize i'm out of body. i begin to hear chatter like over a radio. i hear the name putin. i return my awareness to my breath, feeling as if i'm going even deeper. i again look through eyes half opened and realize i am in my bedroom but it is all white. there are translucent cobwebs- conceptual framing and bright white light all over and white sheets and mattress for my bed. there's a skeleton in my bed. i believe i am in the past, and for some reason i tell my self... "not yet" like i'm in the wrong time era. it's as if the breath is shifting planes and time. i then hear a woman try to say my name, except she says "erin" and she says it very clearly to me. "close" is what i say knowing my name is actually eric. i immediately wonder who is calling me. all of this is happening in an instant and i break the spell by trying to go out of body from here, again not realizing i am already out of body. by the initial "push" (trying to push my astral body out mistaking it for the physical body) the awareness returns back to my physical body, the weight slowly disappears and i open my eyes realizing i am now correctly on my mattress above the ground.

darn, i wonder... because i was starting to realizing some things while in this state... had i not tried to project- how much further could i have taken it?

My friend gifted me a large print of something like this, which was placed under the mattress.


A tool can also be, praying. I used the word tool intentionally. To Methen, I hope it helps.

As a tool, you can place some sacred geometry under your mattress. I did this in my early 20's when I slept on a mattress on a dining room floor for 2 years. Had really cool experiences.

Lumaza, thank you for your reply. I first learned of the terminology "nonordinary states of consciousness" through Casey on the GTC. This is the link she referenced, http://johnemackinstitute.org/1994/01/nonordinary-states-of-consciousness-and-the-accessing-of-feelings/

That's a nice video on the site you provided.

For my self, it is an unseen intelligence communicating within/without. It binds us all.

I found an old journal entry which reminded me of Abigail... I wonder if this was her, before I ever received any impression to her name??
Abigail is referenced here: http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_astral_projection_experiences/projection_journal_tides2dust_entries_past_experiences_notes_and_questions-t48007.0.html;msg375803#msg375803

And the old log...
Sometime late April of 2012

"2 weeks ago i had another sleep paralysis incident which involved some auditory hallucinations.
i heard a female voice, the noise zeroed in and rang through my ears, it was distorted- she said, 'can you hear me?' i said i can hear you.
it came back stronger, 'can you hear me?' this time it felt like something was entering my body. i started to hear a little girl laugh in the background like she'd been running and playing. i tried to respond but i was frightened. it felt like i was starting to levitate off my bed. i tried to wake up and when i did, realized i was still in my room dreaming- this happened twice. i woke up in a dream, still dreaming, to wake up into another dream, and finally to wake up in my real room.
the dreaming mind is an interesting thing is it not"

LightBeam

It is fascinating... And a real privilege. Thank you for sharing. I am blown away, and excited by your discovery. I have a feeling it will stick with you for years to come.

I've got to read these now and want to say- Nameless, the dessert night after night is wild... LightBeam, what a beautiful experience asking to observe God. I was right there with you both recalling your experiences. Thank you. 

Thank you for asking   I look forward to reading these on my down time.
I have quite a few too, some of which I may have shared already. There's the miracle orb experience, where what I thought was 30 minutes 2 hours had actually transpired. Abigail sharing my astral body and merging me with AUM. Raphael neutralizing the landscape. Then there are moments where the astral bled into my waking awareness. Like seeing a bird in my room that wasn't there, flying disc while meditating, translucent and misshapen orbs playing in my backyard(they were different colors too). Or like a feather appearing in my vision then disappearing before it hit the ground. Some miraculous moments too like a green peacock manifesting for me, or a white one on Easter. Or rose petals laying at my feet- all of this in relation to my spiritual journey. Oh yeah there was the floating black and gold shrouded entity who made a metal noise in my head which caused me to pass out.

The one I think I want to share are my initiation dreams- 3 days 2 nights. This is what started it all and sticks with me through out the years. It was in 2008 and I was just learning about sleep paralysis. I remember being terrified but wanting to explore more, and after learning how to snap out of sleep paralysis by wiggling my big toe I would try to face more and more. It was a process because I would routinely try to slam my head forward to bring me back to reality. Anyways... Thank you Al Khadir for the intitation, thank you God for bringing me ever closer... Please excuse any grammatical errors- the only journal entry I have recorded was 2 years after the fact and this is it in its raw format... Oh yes and one night it was two dreams and the next was 1 which was the most emotional of them all.

Experience was in 2008, journal was recorded in 2010:

the first dream(of the 2 dreams) takes place in africa, somewhere amongst a shoreline. i remember, "floating" from one set of eyes to another- watching through other people- having an awareness that i am not this person. it starts with someone who is trying to teach the group a tribal dance. we were told that the dance was very important and must do as he does. once i began to dance- i warp to another set of eyes.
i am now standing on the shoreline with a group of, "watchers." we were told to keep a look out for any intruders. i spotted someone- in the distance, slowly it came from out of the waters. i say it because i could not see who it was- there was no definite detail, only a person covered in seaweed. after this i warp yet again to a different location, this time i am alone. a women is in the distance walking towards me. she is cut and bleeding- she fell into my arms and began speaking. i do not speak any other language but i am sure we spoke french to one another. i began asking her questions in french- as soon as she started responding- something very hard to explain happened. this feeling of- being pulled out from the middle of what i was doing. i am no longer in africa. it was as if i was being stared down upon- i could hear faint chanting. after regaining full awareness from being, "pulled" i noticed what looked like natives circled around me. once i made eye contact the chanting stopped. they were masked- either with the skull of an animal- or shadow covering their face- but i could still feel their eyes on me. there was a long moment of silence- and then, they were gone. nothing was left but the silhouette of a dead tree(many branches and no leaf's) a few crows, and an orange sky. behind the tree was a rainbow with colors ranging from purple, blue, and green. the orange was glowing- giving an ambient feeling- after this i woke up.

in the next dream... i don't know where i was- or how i got there, but i was sitting down. there were people around me- making me feel as comfortable as possible- the thing is, i had no idea who anyone was. one of the men in the group came over and pulled me aside to talk. after wrapping his arm around me he says, "isn't it obvious eric? you're dead."
i didn't know what to think- but for a minute, i was shown my family- they were still alive and mourning. it was a very sad, heavy feeling- but the person with me helped me get through this- helped me understand. i do not remember how, but after some time had passed the scenery changed and the feeling of being sad was gone. now, the same man was teaching me things that might seem impossible while back on the material world. he was explaining to me, somehow- i wish i could remember the description- how physical objects have little meaning that i'd come to understand. for example, he had me turn something into a green towel. after this he tells me we can go anywhere as long as one focuses hard enough.
in an instant, i am in japan- i am in a building. i am in an elevator and hit 46- after going up all the way to my destination- i remember the elevator doors opening and walking out to a glass window. i took a glance out only to see everything covered in a massive, powerful green ocean. the building i was on was the only thing visible within the ocean- after this, i woke up.


the next day...

it starts with being on stage- but, with the snap of a finger- i am pulled out and am somewhere else. i am in a small wooden boat in the middle of an ocean. there is a person sitting across from me and an old man in the back with his arm wrapped around a cannon. the man tells us to look for it... to look in the sky and point it out. i remember looking up and pointing at a star- the old man smiled and fired the cannon- next thing i know, i am being shot out of the cannon- no longer do i see myself as a human being but a geometrical shape. i am a green arrow- the person whom sat across from me was also fired out of the cannon- i don't remember his/her shape... but i remember the color, red. it was almost like a race at first- we were racing higher and higher in the sky- shooting through clouds. who i was- mentally, was contained within the object- my thoughts, my being- i remember communicating with the other object despite not having lips to talk. we were talking about energy... i don't remember what we said- but something said accelerated the rate i was going. i started moving faster and faster- going past the clouds and into space. at this point i'm not talking to anyone- i can hardly contain myself due to the speed i'm going. things become overwhelming- the stars become a blur- i kept going deeper and deeper into space- i could not hold the speed- something was about to happen and soon- another rush of being overwhelmed and then- i explode. at this point, i'm no longer looking at stars but other geometrical shapes. there were tiny particles and objects swaying up and down in one motion- inhaling.. exhaling- they moved together this way. the color contained in the arrow reaches out and covers everything in sight. all the objects around me, the particles- are draped in green. after this- that same feeling of being pulled out from what i was doing, as mentioned in the first dream, happens again. a bit rough, it feels as if i am being slammed down onto a table- i remember watching images of who knows what flash before my eyes. its like someone trying to hide a subliminal message by sliding in a quick image over a steady image. it was that, "quick image" different things flashing before me(it's hard to explain... that's the best i could do) again, i feel overwhelmed. i feel my eyes twitch and i notice i am laying in my bed but can not move. i must be experiencing sleep paralysis(is what i think) but how am i still dreaming and able to recognize my body?(my body was laying in a very weird position in the bed- as if i might have been tossing and turning all night)... there i am, unable to move feeling overwhelmed- the dream i had begins to fade but something in my chest sends waves of uneasy impulses to the brain. i begin to think i'm having a heart-attack. i can't move- i felt trapped- as if all i could do was lay there and watch my body die. not to shortly after i am free and able to sit up. i began to cry and ended up skipping class that day feeling very impacted by this dream...

thank you lightbeam...
and perspective shift i saw your reply after posting. i thought about it tonight. i can only speak from my struggles and experience. i enjoy carnal desires. it's better you experience them in your dreams, your imagination or with a trusting partner than online in the digital landscape where pornography is ripe with manipulation. i was just reminding myself of the subtle suggestions pornography plants in the collective subconscious and how it has evolved over the years. on one hand it is true to say it is a reflection of the times we're in- and on the other, it is just as true to say there are seeds being planted as type of social engineering. one that is quite harmful to the psyche.

for me, it's okay to enjoy my carnal desires through a healthy medium as long as they don't become obsessions and enslave me. i learned i enjoy not what the internet provides for material but what my dreams, emotions and imagination spur within.

I seek God in All.
It's a practice sometimes, certainly... Other times it feels so natural. And to answer your question-

I've felt connected to ideas of "fallen angel"  and another memory or idea of either a future life or life from a different planet- leaving that planet(similar to earth) on a cold ship and feeling extremely lonely. Also memories of existing in the womb prior to birth. These are the strongest and still lingering traumas/unresolved linkage. I don't focus on them so much anymore. I just live life.   

Then I've had moments of insight/connection through out life... One being a black child in a choir from a much older time period- Victorian era. Another being a girl crying to a monk(A monk I met in this life).

About doors being left open... I think that's true, I've had people and places spur miraculous experiences and hard to explain phenomenon. One time a friend was talking to me, suddenly his voice was completely different and a visual of us as children barefoot in red sand leaned up against a clay hut flooded my mind. We were playing a game. I've felt connected to an asian life too... I also have a friend who swears we were native-americans together- we have completely different political views now but he thinks our time together in what might have been a type of golden age has kept us together despite our stark differences. This is his experience, not mine. I've had a woman trigger an ability that would allow me to dream of her meditation landscape. The dream ended without form, we were one with everything in the environment. She was surprised by the accuracy when I told her the scenery of my dream, especially because she never confided this place to me before.

Considering AUM as the all pervading sound of creation I think of it in a similar scope as God running through all of life with which we're constantly communicating... sometimes the limited self gets in the way of recognizing what I think is a divine inheritance. I really believe All is One. These are my beliefs and there is no expectation placed on others as I live life according to my view, which is an intimate relationship with God-

One of my favorites, 

Aint nothin to it but to do it.

Hi PerspectiveShift   Thank you for your comments and sharing your experience with me. There was someone with my Dad watching me when I felt like my soul was being weighed.

I am learning those similarities are very real, that there is a message for you(and others) within the similarities that grab our attention. It is not for me to say what that message is, only that I believe you are working closely with Spirit in this regard.

We are more connected than I'm aware. Personally, I would not want to take drugs that are detrimental. At times I am okay with going at a snails pace. After having somewhat mysterious health impairments, I am just trying to find comfort in this body again. I do think it's possible that we can serve others, even if we ourselves are going at a speed another might find intolerable. Love is understanding.

I place Faith in God, even when darkness enshrouds our vision. It has saved me from prolonged suffering.

Kind regards~ Thank you

I don't normally include my dreams before or after the actual projection experience. But this is the log in full... Only because before the projection I really feel like I was in a similar state of "roaming" and after projection- I was dreaming I was still in the astral body meeting a member here... In the spirit of keeping the journal alive,

dream log
2:45 AM, 10PM bedtime. 2nd time to wake up, used restroom each time. Almost forgot about dream. Sleeping on my side like I used to is no longer easy or comfortable. Too long on left side triggers heart irregularities and sleeping on my right side creates discomfort in my right arm. The burning in the back of the neck has returned.

What I remember...
A giant metal structure... Little details, it's like a metal wall with a hole in it and something like magnets preventing people or things from entering the hole. Not much recall here... Just the distinct impression of- large, rigid, cold steel. Very ominous. Something about a truck and an extremely large truck bed.

In the scene before waking I am watching a video of people being interviewed. We discover these people have been drugged, I can't tell but it seems like for some it's against their will. One guy looks like Brad Pit and is explaining something. I forget what he says, it was a type of drug PLUS DMT for the hallucination or "added visual effects." I'm quoting the Brad Pit look alike. I am watching different people interview themselves through a webcam to share their experiences. One filipino man is talking directly to the camera, he is able to blur out the background. His girlfriend or wife implores him not to capture her on video. She is laying in bed behind him. He says he was given an opportunity to discuss and had to share his story. The man has a close shaved haircut on the side of his head. Brown skin and black hair. He begins talking about his experience. It seems he was forced to take the drugs. As he opens up he starts talking with regret. It seems the experience has left him very upset and very empty. I start to feel what he is displaying. He is overcome with emotion and starts to cry pleading to Jesus Christ before having to stop his webcam. He feels like he was disconnected from Jesus Christ and is begging God to enter his life again. He cries out to his wife for comfort. She is heart broken, I am no longer watching on a screen but am there watching the couple. He is on his knees in the bedroom floor- his wife is wearing a shirt without a bra underneath and loose gym shorts. She has tattoos on the side of her arm and on her leg. She feels for her husband and gets out of bed as he calls to her and immediately pulls him into her stomach. He is crying out for God. She doesn't know what to do except to go to the kitchen and make him food. I follow her there and am intrigued by the organization of their fridge as well as the size of it. I remember some leafy green cabbage heads or something like bok choy resting on the shelf before waking up.

As I record the dream, even laying on my back there is subtle discomfort in heart movement. 3:01AM must go back to sleep. 3:08 before submitting my internet goes out...

I finally fall back asleep and have an out of body experience. I had the option not to go out of body. I could feel the weight of this in between state. It had been a while since I've projected. I lay there just feeling the weight for a little bit. I usually start with my arms, but it was too difficult. I was so tired. I have to make my intention clear, I want to astral project. So, I pull my "body" out(astral body away from physical body) starting with my chest, shoulders and head. I sit at the edge of my bed now in my astral shell for a while. Everything is so heavy- if I go too fast I will be dizzy. It's difficult to see my surroundings. Finally I stand up and glide towards my old bedroom- I tell my self I am going to go outside. I phase myself through the window and try to fly. I see the clear sky and the stars- but as soon as I phased through, additional weight started pulling me down to the street. I think I start to dream, I decide to meet Casey and talk to her about her recent dream. She is there with another man who is not as impressed by my being there. When I do see Casey my eyes are opened wide and my head starts to buzz. I feel a type of energetic download. I tell her I find it fascinating that even in her dreams she is able to help others- which I understood as ultimately assisting your *self*/assisting consciousness. After Casey leaves I tell her guy friend that we are having this conversation out of body. It surprises even me that I am holding on to this body for as long as I have... He doesn't say anything, only raises a brow.

Then I fall into another dream, our customer John is challenging me to Golf. It feels like there is another presence observing me and weighing my soul. I for unknown reasons accept Johns challenge despite my lack of skill in the game. We are in my backyard taking practice swings- Dad is off in the distance watching us. At one point we take a wiffle ball, half it and put popcorn in it. We then lob those balls over into the neighbors yard. I miss on the first swing. With my second swing I see a rock go into her(my neighbors) backyard. I was feeling a little concerned as my awareness went from my body to slow motion zoomed in on this rock flying into the neighbors yard- nearing the edge of her house. Dreams are kind of blending here... I am also remembering two giant dogs- I don't remember if they approached me while I was having the OBE or not... The dogs belonged to a man, he wanted them to be intimidating. They were still quite young and they were extremely friendly with me. I'm not sure if the man could see me, but the dogs were definitely aware of my presence.

Now I am remembering a dream in between these two experiences about a Woman and someone of authority... It was a mission to get to her.... Was there a rescue happening???

Wake up at 7AM.

"The total number of minds in the universe is one. In fact, consciousness is a singularity phasing within all beings." ~Dr. Erwin Schrodinger

Casey- mind blown.  You are spot on.

I projected out of my body early morning. It most likely happened because my thoughts were going in a direction I was not comfortable with, specifically humoring Satan which I thought was odd. I think it is my very child like ego, an impatient attitude lashing out when being put in its place. By demanding the direction of my mind I found my self out of body, likely because I was not allowing my self to slink into slumber. I knew I was in my room but I could not see anything. It was pitch black, I only knew I was standing on my bed. Once I realized I was out of body I decided to levitate and put my back against the ceiling.

I decided to project out the door and realized my Mom and Sister were up. Mom hadn't noticed me but April did. She tried to engage me, and I was a bit perplexed by the entire situation. I felt like I was actively witnessing my self go from astral projection to a lucid dream. The characters of the dream did not know what to do, neither did I. That's when everything reset and I once again found my self projecting from my bedroom. This time everything was visible- I could see my bedroom. I repeated the same levitation and proceeded out the door. The OBE was shifting to a dream, and all the meanwhile I was actively aware of the shift. I was so curios it felt like I was dreaming about recording this observation here on the forum. I was taking notes in real time- interacting with dream characters every so often. It seems at a certain point I went from a traditional OBE into a dream which became less and less lucid- eventually I became simply an observer and by the end of the everything I was dreaming of a totally different time era- late 1970's, Robin Williams and two quirky characters with surreal elements. I ended up waking to beautiful violin music which lingered a few seconds after the dream ended.

Being prepped for doomsday has me considering another perspective. Technology has evolved at a faster rate than mankind. Technology does not have to be a bad thing. Our integration with it is inevitable. This forum is one example of a digital community. In the near future we will be made more dependent on marvels birthed from biometrics and the internet of things. Research the internet of bodies. And perhaps we will have self-perpetuating technologies that can survive ungodly attacks. Our leaders are actively questioning not only what it means to be a member of society but what it means to be human. They have openly advocated for modifying human behavior. And they're doing it now.

Being prepped for doomsday to me means actively seeking out communities that value god given rights. I do think it's important to be prepared and learn to live with the land, to learn to live without technology. But this paradigm is one echoed by leaders who are interested in treating their brother and sister like cattle. While we ought to prepare for very simplistic living we should also be actively seeking like minded communities with strong values. Infiltrate the narrative and change its direction. It is entirely possible to have technology serve our planets and its life(that includes us) best interest. We can have clean water for all, we can have systems that maintain harmony and are more organic in nature. Todays warring ideals are civic nationalism vs corrupt globalism It's plausible an attack will be made by the powers that be to cripple nations in order to create compliance and further dependency as we shift from an old way of life and into a new one. These attacks include black outs, attack on the financial institutions(supply chain), they include bombs and biological warfare. They even include our response to said attacks. Our response to the handling of COVID has literally starved third world countries.

Knowing the marvels that await us, I see now the importance of heritage- tradition, culture. For example. I highly respect the monastic teachings of Kriya Yoga. They should be preserved, and they are born from a nation completely different than mine. I highly respect the values presented in our constitution- these basic "laws" to me should be honored no matter the age we find ourselves in. We are born with god given rights. Life, Liberty and the pursuit of Happiness- FOR ALL. I also highly respect when those laws protect privacy, not exploit them. Sadly these basic rights are not protected in todays digital landscape- which is really like the wild wild west for very mob like characters.

So how do we prepare for a doomsday scenario- not one of complete annihilation but one that aims to maim humanity and keep slavery alive? We have to seek like minded communities and support them. We have to contemplate the marvels of technology and not be afraid. Our world leaders are discussing now the digital currency of our future.
We desperately need a digital bill of rights. If a new world order is their aim, we as a people need it to include protection of sovereign rights. For example- a hand-written letter has more legal protection than any email you send to someone. Why? Why should it be any different? We need to take this small scale example and think about what it means in the new age- this fourth industrial revolution. How can we protect our freedoms- our biological privacy as it becomes more and more integrated within society? As of now, we've let the self appointed sheriffs birthed from digital lawlessness dictate the course of humanity.

We need to support blockchain because it'll soon be a normal way of life. We need to invest in companies like Volta, who challenge cell-phone manufactures and give users complete privacy. Or Gab, who challenges social media giants and allows users freedom of speech. This is how we prepare- we build a parallel society and take our power back as a people interested in their future and the planets future.

I am barely able to scratch the surface of what I'm trying to get into... I need more time to reflect on this... But I hope some of it makes sense... These companies I named above are literally disrupting the desired outcome of the new world order. Think about all the contracts and parent companies that dominate our society- like AT&T being partnered with CNN, who have no interest in preserving humanity or respecting our planet. I say this because they blatantly lie to their people and they rape the land with very harmful technology.

Kind regards...

That's wonderful.  Thank you for sharing that.

Rant away my friend Nameless.  It makes total sense. Thank you for your lovely feedback.

It really has my mind stretching with off-topic thoughts. I don't read the bible, but I'm just thinking about unified consciousness and concepts. You said people in the 60's and 70's could see this kind of writing on the wall. It has me thinking about 2,000+ year old prophesies. The biblical one being something well channeled into this song-
Seems creation, creativity there are bridges for concepts that are shared with us... Where does that information come from- and who is warning us?
https://youtu.be/J8jbs30SGcU

I admire what you said, take care of ourselves and our neighbors. It's that simple- in a world of fear and hard looks, it won't always be easy. But we can- and will DO what we ask ourselves... United in Love.

You're right, any people can overthrow these tiny few- they build systems of dependency and agitate harmony in order to paint the illusion of a hopeless situation. I really admired this guy calling out Trudeau for what he is,
https://gab.com/patcondell/posts/108010574812182902 and what he says there mirrors what you're saying.

Are we prepped for doomsday? Not entirely. Being born in the city, I've not much skills- I'd probably have to find a ranch and offer manual labor in return for shelter and food. My Aunt is prepared, she hears whispers about CIA's involvement in an upcoming 'crash.' They're just whispers but she's got a gameplan...

It's important to find some land out of the city and maintain a small community in relation to the amount of land. Do you have any friends that own a ranch? Or know a spot in the woods you and a small group can take to? It's also important to assign roles based on skill-level within the community. Understanding how to trade will prove beneficial for the doomsday scenario. Hmm.

Thanks shineling. I tried last night. I am brought back to the basics. I've been forced to try and control my thoughts as I sleep in order to dismiss physical ailments. What happens is I start the internal dialogue, then it takes a life of its own. Idea's and images start to flash and the mind will willingly travel with these impulses up to an extent- until I am brought back to my physical self or realize I am no longer controlling the direction of my thoughts. I don't care to control that process- but I do care to remain cognizant enough to catch that in between moment in order to keep a certain level of clarity and as you've said- try to slip out again. 

Casey, I can completely relate. It feels as if just being ourself, following our script, is enough to provide back to this system of One. "but because our energy is a match to the something the situation needs." This thought has been lingering with me for days... You can have two friends who reach a point of separation in the relationship due to a major disagreement- that separation may have been a necessary step for each individual in order to tend to facets of Life that continually dance around them. When this happens, I feel comforted knowing that no matter the direction- ultimately I will meet that friend at the Truth.

I'm not here to tell shineling or others what's real or not- I know you aren't saying that either. That was for shineling. You are saying it's all very real. You've imprinted my mind with a valuable lesson, "data."

I am sorry shineling I continually bring this revelation to your journal- I hope you don't mind. Last night I was meditating downstairs on the hard tile in the hallway. My parents were asleep upstairs- it was just me in the dark in an absurd spot. It felt as if I was living out an aspect of astral projection that I had experienced in the past. Casey you said, "we do not successfully bring all our experiences back with us... but a fraction of a fraction of a single percent." This makes me think about the projection and the real life meditative experience. Because what is time in the astral? Maybe it is not always the same, as the linear reality we experience while awareness is anchored in 3D.

The memory I am apologizing for is because I shared it with you already shineling but I really think there is something connecting these concepts we are discussing... If I am wrong then woopsie.   Also... Lol, Lumaza- you got me on that with shineling kissing all these astral women. Hehehe.
That memory is the OBE, floating down the stairs and witnessing my self meditate in the living room. Then being brought back to my bedroom and confronted by an extremely negative entity. That negative entity was formless- except for a massive shadow-hand that was able to wrap itself around my throat, choking me and holding me up into the corner of my bedroom. I became so scared I cried out for help. Immediately the scene was "neutralized" after my minds eye was flooded with gold and white light and the name Raphael popped into my head. I was rendered completely calm and when I opened my eyes I saw what looked like energetic residue in my room- and the imprint of this beings energy, a giant alien face tilting its head sideways looking at me. The colors of this energy were green, gold and purple.

When I looked up Raphael on the internet I cried a sweet release and realized the colors I saw matched those associated with that being. Though it looked nothing like the human face we put on it. Why am I mentioning it?

I was safe. I wasn't given more then I could handle. I realize this entity to be an aspect of self. But something more... Why would a future meditation make me feel like I'm living the OBE from the past? And why does it feel like there are so many concepts here coalescing into a tangible, harmonistic experience... ? Like casey says... a fraction of a fraction of a single percent... But I really hope there's something here not just for me but all of us...

And shineling I think that's so cool what you experience and how you experience- no I am not brave enough to venture with these negative entities- organic or inorganic on my own. I am still a baby, lol. I've been drowning in negativity but it almost feels like this too is a trial. I really believe God is guiding us and keeping us safe- no matter the dangers ahead.

All of this to say I am doubling up in Faith- the divine timing of things, and the belief of an ever guiding Spirit.

Well, this guys Brandon Smith looks to be making a valid prediction- CIA's mockingbird and political West is warning us of the very cyber attack spoken of in the article above.

Hi 🙂
Just chiming in to say I believe in cyclical forces and the next"big thing" for this mini era with which we are alive to experience will be sometime 2025-2026. It'll make covid look like a joke.

I'm tired a lot lately too, but for other health reasons. I would also suggest you speak to a doctor, or empower yourself to find one that is aligned with your beliefs surrounding health. Your health is of utmost importance, you may even try a psychologist over a new age shop. That doesn't mean you can't pray. Just that low energy and low sex drive could have something to do with your stress, there could be something physically ailing you too. I don't know. Do you have insurance to help with your consultations? You could also try making monthly installments. Don't create reasons why you can't do these things, find the resources out there to help you. A lot of this, my self included, is about overcoming dependency and victim mentality- something that is enforced by modernized western institutions and various regions/organizations around the world.

Do you live in the US? Can you try not wearing a mask? Can you try finding a job that is walking distance? Again, I implore you not to write to me saying why you can't do any of these things. Try hard to see what you can do to help your self. I suggest starting that off with earnest prayer.
As for the mask, there are fake ones out there that are incognito that help people breathe. I am a deep breather, fortunately my employer realize mask don't prevent the spread of COVID. That being said, it wasn't easy. It took a few of us as employees the courage to say no and empathy to discuss rationally. I've even had to drop my second job when my employer found out I would not take the experimental gene therapy injection due to personal health concerns. Serious concerns that have until recently barley seen the light of day. Anyways... Here are some resources that might help you...

A legal form to hand the bus driver next time you walk in there without a mask,
https://english.nojabforme.info/#masknotice
For the less confrontational- the double incognito mask...
https://fakemaskworldwide.com/the-adjustable-double-incognito-fake-mask/ this works in airports and hospitals
I'd also like to suggest bee propolis as a nasal and throat spray to help combat any bacteria build up from prolonged mask wearing.

One of my favorite websites for spiritual nourishment,
https://wahiduddin.net/

You can also search for affordable insurance, and free online psychologist consultations through user reviews... Let your intuition guide you. May you faith be strengthened and best of luck. This is temporary, and is not a punishment.

Kind regards
tides~