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Nope, can't consider it a possibility.

I guess anything is possible.  Mushrooms are definately fun to do, but one thing is for certain, you can't clear your mind.  I'm not exactly sure how someone would go about even trying to project while they are shrooming, everything is just too strange.  But who am I to say it can't happen?  Maybe I'll just have to give it a whirl.

Holy excrement you're right!  Last night morpheus called me and told me that I need to stop pretending it's just a movie and open my eyes.  How could I have been so blind?  The truth was right there in front of me in movie form and I thought it was just for entertainment value.  I didn't see that they were really trying to warn us of the bondage that we are all under by the machines.  Now I clearly see that the matrix has me!

Alright, I normally keep this a secret, but you seem quite distressed aobut women, so here's the secret to finding love.  First you need to find eye of newt (pick it up at your local grocery store).  Next you need to catch a male bat and cut off his testicles.  If it only has one, that should suffice.  The last two ingredients are 5 hairs from a 5 legged goat, and a toe nail clipping from your left big toe!  Mix them all together in a blender with some ice cream and chant "oh powers of love, my antennae is up and I am ready to recieve you" over and over again while drinking the concoction upside down.  If done properly a dimensional gateway will open up and your soul mate will fall right into your lap.  Hope that helps!!!

Tried a few audio techniques myself, many times.  To date, I have had zero success with them.

Maybe your magic can help you go up to a girl in a bar, or say hi to someone hot walking down the street.  That's a good start.  Don't think a spell will help you in that arena.  Personally I don't think it holds any real power at all... and I would certainly like to watch you try to get the world to spin the other way.

You say you dont have the energy anymore to read, but I do hope you continue to read all the help that everyone is trying to give you.  I know that everyone here are strangers and that you have no reason to believe that any of them naturally care about your well being, but many of us here genuinly want to help people as a whole.  So here it goes I guess.
  I also know what you are experiencing.  I have had entities in the dark (outlines of figures).  Once I saw a tall man standing in the dark.  He dropped to his hands and knees and crawled in such a creepy inhuman way right past me.  I actually felt him brush up against me, and watched as he quickly crawled up the stairs.  
  Other times I have had reletives here a man reading a newspaper at 2 in the morning while everyone was asleep.  Assuming it was someone in the house they payed no attention, untill finding out the next day that in fact no one was awake at that time.  Like you, this house has no dark past.  My point is, I have seen things that I would have never thought possible.  Once a skeptic, I now believe.  But nothing has ever hurt me directly.  It doesn't sound to me like anything you have seen or experienced has harmed you, but I could be wrong.  It does seem however that you are under the belief that whatever it is, it is there for a reason, and it is out to make things more difficult.  It seems that you think that as you pray it simply laughs and shows you how futile it all really is.  This is some kind of evilness at work, but evil can never prevail against the good.  However, as long as you continue to be skeptical about the help God can provide then you continue to close yourself off from his guidance.  Obviously if there is evil at work, then good does exist.  One cannot be without the other.
  Life is meant to be difficult.  There is no one on this planet that can say they've never gone through a discouraging time.  And I would even go so far as to say I doubt there are many that have never thought of suicide, even if just for a moment.  But one fact remains.  You are here... and I don't believe you were put here to kill yourself.  You were born to take your own life?  No, I just don't see that as the case.  You did say that you don't suffer from depression because you are happy IN THE SHORT PERIODS THAT LIFE IS GOOD.  If life is only good in minute incrimints... then can you really be sure you don't suffer from depression.  
  Consider this...  I myself have no job.  I am currently looking, but the bills are stacking up and I am unsure of how I will pay them.  I haven't spoken to anyone in my family aside from my brother and mother for so many years that I no longer know how to contact them.  My father is dating my aunt (moms side, not his) and that has completely torn me and my family apart.  Many times I wanted to die but simply couldn't commit to the act of actually doing it.  Many times I have prayed to die in some form or another.  But now, years later, I am grateful I did not.  Times are hard... but they are suppose to be.  Such is life, but that is not the case with eternity.  You must take the good with the bad, but they do come together.  It's a matter of perception.  
  You mentioned your daughter.  Does she bring joy to your life?  Are there places in this world you have always dreamt of seeing?  Maybe you don't have the money now... but you might some day.  Comedy's on television.  Nice glass of wine.  How bout getting a puppy?  You can't see the bad and ignore the good... they are both there.  But you are human, and because you are human you are not alone.  We all share pain, feel anguish and despair, and dwell on guilt and greif.  But we also share joy and laughter, crack a smile from time to time, bask in a warm summer sun.  Keep your strength, because though you may be physically weary, the spirit does not tire.  Rely on it, and you will find a way to desuade your evil entities and once again recognize the good ones as they help you.  Good luck!  And please remember... you were not given life to take it away.

Nomus you are absolutely not alone.  I started practicing for an AP when I was 17, and didn't have a weird sensation until I was 21 (my current age).  I got really frustrated because I saw so many posts of people saying "finally after a month of trying I got it".  "A month?" I would say to myself, I've been trying for years with no results.  I wondered if it was really meant for everyone or just gifted people that found a stroke of luck.  Then after a long meditation the answer came to me.  
  I was looking for answers everywhere!  I wanted someone to say "this is how you do it" and then it would work, but that was never the case.  It's always a personal experience, no matter who you are.  And often times, certain lessons in life need to be learned before the correct mentality can allow you to achieve an astral projection.  I'm not sure, but you've probably heard of Robert Monroe (the new age pioneer in the field of astral projection).  
  If it wasn't for him, astral projection might not even be so common as it is today.  My point it, though it happened naturally for him, he was in his 50's before it ever started.  I don't know how old you are, but if you are young, you have so much time to discover what is right for you.  The key is finding what works FOR YOU.  There are many suggestions by many different people, but you can't just listen to everyone and assume they know what they are talking about.  
  There are thousands of people on this forum, and you must be skeptical, because not everyone knows what they are doing.  The best advice I can give is this... you must let go.  Stop expecting something to happen, stop wondering what you are doing wrong, and simply bask in the moment.  When you practice, stop trying so hard to follow all the guide lines, and just relent.  Let go completely and accept everything that comes.  If after and hour you feel nothing, try for two hours.  If after two hours you get bored, ignore it and go for three.  It's a completely natural process, but the length of time it takes for everyone is different.  You need to let go of all your doubts, all your frustrations, and everything that you THINK you know, and just let go and let nature take it's course.  It's not a matter of how, but when.  
  The one thing that causes an AP is staying concious while you go to sleep.  There is really nothing more to it.  So try working on that.  When you drift into dream world, pull yourself out mentally while remaining in the same state physically.  Eventually, you will be able to continuously pull yourself out of sleep as your body drifts off deeper, untill finally you succeed.  But you must not put a time frame on it.  It will happen when it happens.  Your success and your failure is determined by your own diligence.  You have the rest of your life to succeed, and even if you are 80 before it happens... it will still be a million times more satisfying then never succeeding at all!

P.S.  Sorry for the long reply []

I've taken mushrooms and know the affects.  I wouldn't necissarily take your word on anything that happened in a shroom trip because the real world itself and everything in it is 'not really real' when you're tripping.  The mind plays incredible tricks on you.  If it's not a sober experience, I question it's validity.

You guys can't be serious.  You're actually considering the fact that the matrix MIGHT be real just because it's such a great movie?  Reality check... just special effects and actors written by a couple of guys.

Just a movie man, meant to entertain.  Don't go changing your life because of it.

Very interesting how there are so many mispellings and grammar problems in your own writings.  Not everyone in here is an english major, and for the most part no one gives a damn.  I suggest sucking it up and continue to pull your hair out, because it will never change!

Might be typical for some... but I've certainly never experiened that.  However I say that anything out of the ordinary while meditating is good.  I have heard that voices and loud sounds are quite common for many people, so I'd say don't focus on them but take the position of an uninterested bystander.

I have also used the radio snow technique.  It helps to keep the mind on one thing.  Keeping the mind clear is my goal in meditation, but it's much easier said then done.  I find breath awareness is also quite useful.

It doesn't matter what you believe or dont believe, it doesn't change the truth.  Believing that there is no God doesn't mean that there is no God.  When this life ends EVERYONE will know who we really were before this life and see that we are spiritual.  There is no death, not even for atheists... there is only truth.

It's spiritual.  Gaining an absolute knowledge about death and the afterlife brings us a peace in this world that is desired by anyone who has experienced it.  Imagine what you would live for in this life if you had absolute knowledge of life after death.

Thats easy...... MEN!!!!!!!!!

I'd say just drop em, find some new friends if you're so stressed over the ones you have.  Also, spells and foggy mind stuff?  Hm, sounds like you may be reading WAY too deep into them... maybe they're just dicks, not wizards.

In all reality there is nothing to fear.  Humans are the most powerful beings there are because we are part of God.  Because we are part of Him all his powers are in fact our powers, we have simply separated ourselves from His communication temporarily (this world).  There is nothing that can overpower our will in any dimension.  Further more, I think that the only reason we would be afraid is because of our natural instinct to stay alive.  Something threatening in any realm could make us think that we might die.  But we are eternal, and death is meaningless.... so truly, there is nothing to be afraid of.  Our potential is limitless.

It could have all been for you just to project.  It might not have anything to do with the girl in reality.  After you talked to the boy you began a projection, so it's possible that you just encountered a scenerio in your dream that your higher self made in order to help you get out of your body.