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Cerrak:

Interesting that mine and your experience happened around the door area. ?

Jelal67:

Thank you for sharing that. Hopefully, you will overcome it one day? I wish you well.

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But I still have a fear of darkness, posted by Jelal67

If you can talk about why you fear the dark, I'd like to hear it. As when I was 2 years old and then again when I was in elementary school I had experiences that frightened me.

At 2, I was terrified of my room and feared looking into the dark behind the door. I had a nightlight beside my bed and would tell myself to keep looking at the light and I'd be okay. I feared that room and that dark corner.  (very wierd things happened to my parents in that house which eventually lead to an exorcism) I talked very early as a child (6 months and by a year in sentences) so perhaps that is why I can remember this early event or because it was so very frightening to me. I've tried ot have hypnotic regression but it didn't work.  I can never see into that corner now as an adult to see what it was I feared.

In elementary school, I had nightmares that went on for a long time. A black cat would come out from behind the door out from the dark. In the same spot that I feared looking at as a 2 year old. (different house though) It would walk over to me and then jump on me. Attacking me.  I hated to look behind the door in the dark.

So, this is why I'm asking - to see what your fear of the dark was created by.  I realize it may have been more concrete than my "imagined" fear of the dark; however, maybe there might be some similarities?

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I've heard a similar hypothesis - time is happening all at once the future, past, and present.

I've also read that some people believe pyschics are able to predict the "future" by tapping into the Akashic records.  Perhaps they don't realize they are doing this but maybe this might be?  Or perhaps if time is happening now, they are able to see it where others can't.

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[after the viewing of these photos]

Andrewthesinger:

Yes, I really only looked at the two I was supposed to look at. I know every other picture was of faces - in color. They were people - dead, I think. When I looked at the two I was to look at, (the details are faded and I kick myself for not drawing them when I woke up but I didn't have the forethought) they were dark complected. From India. The man's hair was black and parted on the side. The woman had long black hair that I can't recall whether it was up or down. They were not "old" looking but I think I remember that they looked to be in their 50's maybe. But I am not Indian. I'm German, English, Scot-Irish and a tiny bit Native American. So, when I saw these dark complected people I knew right away I didn't know them. And again I was expecting photos of my Grandparents. These did not resemble my Grandparents.

Apparently my "injection" was a tranquilizer as such, because it took me away from them - and I awoke in bed. But my injection came after the viewing of these photos. And the lady alien shut me out.  I knew she was going to send me away then. I never thought she'd hurt me, but I wanted to stay and I wanted the reward but knew then, that I wouldn't get it.  I also was deeply embarrassed as if I had failed.  Failed her, maybe?

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Very interesting - I can see the similarity with the tables and the neck. The lady touched my neck on the large bone of my spine at the point where my shoulder muscles meet in the back of my neck. I read recently that that location is where the 5th Chakra or Throat chakra is located. Which I understand the 5th Chakra to be about communication and spirituality. 

Selski:

My beliefs about my situation ... my family and friend are here to torture me? Visa-Versa?    Nah - I have found that since being in this family my beliefs are forming and becoming more solid. I'm not sure that I've done much for them although I certainly wish I could.    I also think - (having an Aha! moment) that if I had stayed with my immediate family and kept their beliefs they woud not be as true for me somehow. But by leaving the "nest" and flying into very different waters (a theist household that was quasi-religous landing into the center of atheists) it forced me to actually think about it all. I took a little from here and a bit from there. My beliefs are my own now. And with the experiences I've had become clearer...kind of.  I would never go the distance and say I now KNOW how I truly believe because new information comes to me and I have to digest that - I might incorporate it or leave it be.

Thanks for sharing and I appreciate your comments!  Where did Frank go?

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Jelal67:

It must have been frightening - so sorry it was not pleasant. 

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Sarah,

I just read Frank's response to your first OBE and my eyes are a bit teary. How absolutely WONDERUL!!! I so want ot go back! I want to have another so I can affirm what happened the first time.

I am not sure what to think. But I've not read about astral travel or astral projection before I had mine. And the thing is I knew about OBE's and Dr. Moody and all but I'd never heard about white rooms, and all that.  Maybe I did and I just don't remember.  It is a possibility.

But how is it - how is it that your experience, and others here that I've read all seem so darn similar to mine? It's like we're pieces of a puzzle - lying scattered around the globe.  And bit by bit we come together and fall into place forming this lovely picture that's the puzzle.

Was I a helper? Or was I the go between like you? The lady couldn't see me, so according to Frank's info that would make me a Helper? How can I be a Helper and not know? How does someone become a helper and not just a human retriever? Is it Karma related or just by chance?

Here's another thing I'd like to hear from those at AP about - Here I am, a person who has dreams of aliens and astral projects - I have dreams of dead relatives talking to me (not all the time but I've had them and others around me haven't).  And I'm married to an extreme skeptic and am surrounded by extreme skeptics in his family.  One of my friends is also a skeptic, atheist and biologist.  So, how does someone, like me, come to rest among these skeptics?

I'm beginning to have an idea but wonder if yours would coincide with mine?

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MisterJingo:

That sounds lovely. Is it easy for you to "roll out"? I'm going to be trying intentional AP's now that hubby is returned...and there's someone else to watch over the kids should I go on a mini adventure.   

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Destiny: the predetermined destination for your life.  It's an ending - where you arrive. You may take different routes to get there but the destination remains the same.


Fate: something put it into action - whether it be your thoughts, deeds etc...Fate occurs constantly. It's not only a destination - but rather one of circumstance. Fate may bring you the car you wanted or the job you wanted or the life you wanted. It isn't necessarily the end all. It's the steps along the way.

-Golden Light

[In the eyes of a creator]

Well, I have two things to say regarding the question about an 8th month abortion.

1. We can't make someone change their beliefs, especially if they don't want to. It's not our job - no matter how frustrating or senseless their belief system appears. It's theirs to own and to live with. It's their truth - not ours.

2.  What seems like a right and wrong choice is neither. In the eyes of a creator - something so omnipotent that they can create a universe - there are only opportunities. These aren't bad or good opportunities but simply opportunities - choices. If we all end up in the same basic place, and the choices we make here determine our growth "up" there, then nothing is in the framework of an evil or good dichotomy...in a creator's eyes.

Bottom line - let your friend believe what they believe...respect it, regardless of how silly or absurd it may seem. It's their truth, not yours.

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Purple:

Do you recall the shape of the flying object? The color of the light that brought you up?

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Thank you both. I exited from the back of my neck - the large bone on the spine. Is that a chakra that is gold?? I have read that blue was a spiritual and pyschic color, is that true?

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Andrewthesinger

that is just amazing!!! Thank you for sharing that...really.

The woman (I know she was female) I was with looked like the typical "grays" - but her skin was kind of brownish gray. This part sounds even crazier than the part that I "claim" to have seen her in the first place, but she wore a wig (I'm guessing it was a wig) and when I "thought" that's just wrong, you're not supposed to have hair- she thought back - it's to comfort you.

But I didn't "hear" the words, I kind of got chunks of emotion that made me feel how she felt. Like "comfort" when she wanted to indicate that it was for comfort. But the wig was blond and short. She was small and thin. She wore clothes but I can't remember them anymore. I never felt threatened - but I didn't want to disappoint her.

There had been another woman (human) with me as we waited for them. She went seperate from me. I don't know what happened to her and was told not to worry as she was on her own "tour".

She told me I wasn't dreaming when I asked. She also told me that I was being given a reward. They were pleased with me - she was pleased that I was so happy and I think not frightened. I got a "mini" tour of the place where she was.  I saw many many of them as they were in this area that was all white light and very open.  I kept getting the feeling that I was going to see my deceased grandparents - that it was my reward.

It was just an amazing adventure and it didn't end well, but I felt tested. For I was to recognize these photos but I didn't.  I can't believe that they thought the two photos were of my grandparents - so, I'm guessing now that I was to do something and didn't.  It was at that time that they "sent" me back via an injection.  Crazy - it astounds me every time I remember it. But a dream is a dream ... and this darn thing was so very sequential, vivid, and I could feel the warmth in the air and then a change in the temperature when in the hall. There was color and feeling and it was just amazing.

Have you ever seen those beings again?

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Sarah,

The lion dream was an amazing and clear, vivid wonderful dream. I remember it to this day. I had been debating about whether to ask for a raise at work (which was a nightmare place at the time) or to just quit. The dream came to me and when I woke - I was energized - and ready to take on the world. I asked for a $3,000 raise (double what I hoped for) and got $2,000, I believe. The place was still hell to work there but it showed me that I could get what I wanted regardless of the fear I felt inside.  I have always always hated and feared asking for money from ANYONE.  It was a lovely dream.

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Thank you Sarah -

I was curious because that is what I felt I was doing - "helping" but I'll look up the explanation posted to get a better idea if that coincides with what I did. It was so strange because I knew I had been there to the place I was BEFORE. Yet, I was surprised to see myself -?? I'm trying to hash this all out.  Thank you so much for responding!

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Hi CFTraveler! Thanks for commenting. I was wondering what: 'RTZ' is? 

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Selski  YOu said there were NO HELPERS about.  What do you mean, helpers? And why was it better that you didn't look at the signs?  I'm feeling elated here by your term "helpers"!

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Hi winddancer. I'm Golden Light!

I just adore Maine and so wanted to say Hi!  I'm in the states too!

Hi ya Alex, I'm Golden Light. New to the forum and new to AP. I'm from the states.

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Hi River! I'm new here too and just reading as much as I can.    

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  Hi freespirit! I'm new too but I'm also new to AP. I've never intentionally AP'd and so I'm really really really looknig for info. 

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  I'm Golden Light! Mom of two. Married. College grad. Yadda Yadda yadda...Been a vivd dreamer for a long time now. But only recently have my dreams become ... less dream-like and more real. 

I'm trying really hard to figure this out and find out just what happened to me. Posted my dream/Ap under Astral Experiences. But the main thing I'm wondering after reading Astral Voyages is if the color Gold means anything? I saw meanings for red, crimson, blue, indigo, brown, violett, yellow etc but no gold.

Anyways, just popping in to say hello and I'm trying to pick brains here to get the info I so desperately crave.  Also trying to find some like minds and be around those that won't try to "explain" it away. Seems that when I'm around my husband, the atheist and very scientific minded (that's great but not good when I want to explore something that's not "normal") my memories of what happened fade. So, I'm looking to you all to help me figure this stuff out - hear your experiences - hear your info suggestions etc. 

With love -

Golden Light

My first OBE's were related to events that I saw as alien abduction. I now begin to see that thoose events are what put me on the path to spiritual awakening. The true motives and means behind these entities and their capabilities are still beyond me, but I think it is going to take some trust on both species parts in order to co-exist peacefully.

Jelal67:

Can you explain the OBE as it relates to aliens? Because I had a "dream" (I don't know what term to put on it) dealing with an alien.

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That's beautiful. I'm reading Astral Voyages by Dr. Goldberg. Not tried it as my hubby is away and I know my mind is too centered on the children. But what a wonderful experience that must have been. I've had dreams where they have profound meaning (I walked among the lions - in a dream taking the scary path and came out victorious!), I spoke with my Dead Pap and he told me he was all right, I spoke with my dead Grandma and she told me to go back and get the saucer because what's a teacup without a saucer. ONly to find her set of dessert plates and cups gathering dust in her daughter's (my mother's) garage. I didn't go looking for them but that same weekend my Mother was "cleaning" out her garage and they caught my eye. I asked about them and why she would have such lovely dishes in the garage. Told me I could have them and she said they were my grandmother's. Now they sit on my grandma's hutch - probably just as when she lived. 

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