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[mood|frustrated[!]]

Hello all.

Today I discovered that everything bad that has ever happened to me is (wow!) my fault!!

I mean, either it's karma or it's just that I have a social problem with everybody around me. Or it's that I'm too defensive when I shouldn't be. Oh no, it's not that people won't leave me alone...hell no it's just all my fault.

Like, say somebody shot me in the back. I suppose it's my fault that I wasn't friends with him, or it was my fault that I swore at somebody for irrational reasons for weeks, and that's my karmic debt. Jee, it's fun being a total fuckup. w00t for me!

Bah,
~FT

Who here has a hobby or plays some kind of game (NOT videogame) outside of anything metaphysical?

Me personally, I collect and play Trading Card Games, or TCGs or CCGs for short.

The ones I play/collect are Magic: The Gathering, Pokemon TCG, and soon (if the prices drop), Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters.

Sure, go ahead, call me a kid. But it makes me happy[]!

I also play Warhammer 40,000 as a Dark Eldar player, and I'm thinking of playing Warhammer. Both games are done by Games Workshop, and you can check out their site at www.games-workshop.com.

So yeah, if you have any hobbies/games you play/collect, post it here! Even if it is embarrassing[].

I mean look at me, I play kiddish games like Pokemon TCG, even though I don't like the TV show[|)].

Later
~FT

He is an annoying and otherwise shitsterring member. So what better way to make him stop than to stop him BEING a member?

Who's with me?

If you want to ban Urgo then reply saying yes and you may choose to grump about his annoyance.

If you don't want him gone than reply with no and whine about how he still has his spirit to be "awakened" or some bullcrap like that. Sure everybody deserves a second chance, but look at what Xvirus did. He gave himself a second chance and changed his name sure, just to spread his bovine excrement some more.

Ban Urgo NOW, for the sanctity of the astral pulse![!]

~FT

[WISDOM]

Well..look at us!

Nobody cares about anything anymore. People are getting away with being total dipsh**s, when before they were disciplined into learning. Nowadays most people aged between 13-17 are going around being drug, doped up, and either making girls pregnant or being the girl who is pregnant. Nobody seems to give a damn about spirituality anymore, only pompous churches that only seem to be blocking the paths to spirituality and connection with whatever divine being Humanity has been seeking since the beginning!!

Nowadays, people only live to go to school, get a job, breed, then die. And the more we breed, the more resources we consume. If we ever become an interstellar race, we will go from planet to planet eating and eating, like some kind of swarm. As Agent Smith from The Matrix put it, we are no longer mammals, no, we are a virus - a disease.

Those of us who are philosophical, metaphysical, and actually believe that we have a higher purpose on this obviously doomed plane are labelled tree-hugging New-Age hippy idiots. Most of us are accused of being drug dealers. Some kids at school think I smoke pot just because they found out some of my earlier (and more idiotic) beliefs (such as the ki blast, yes, I was one of them). And that was a year ago, and they're still going at me.

Humanity is doomed to itself. Its killer will be not a god nor sentient being nor a virus nor a catastrophic meteor crash, but itself. Being the only species that would harm itself, to the extent of cold blooded murder, it makes you wonder why Humankind is such a great species. Perhaps less than a third of the human population gives a damn about spirituality and is willing to seek it out, or at least do some philosophy. I even had the notion of making a club at school for philosophy, but then I remembered that I go to a school which the majority of dumbf***s that go there are from the other 2/3 of the population - idiots, sheep, morons, materialists(ESPECIALLY, materialists), conceited bastards, just to name a few.

Where has the equality gone? Where have all the good things gone? The Black-Eyed Peas made a fantastic song about exactly what its name is, WHERE IS THE LOVE!? Well? Where is it? Where is the spirituality, the vital part of human essence that keeps some of us from being mechanical sheep, bent on following media portrayed illusions, buying materialist goods, destroying the world through their very existance. Where is the THOUGHT??.

I mean, people don't think for themselves anymore. They have retarded politians doing it for them! Look at freakin' George Bush. A dyslexic moron that got through school because of his family name and his family's big bucks. And when someone with real wisdom comes along, they shun them with retarded names like "freak," "dumbass" and even "gay."

Humanity = sheep. Humanity = idiots. Face it. People are stupid. There is probably only a MAXIMUM of 1/3 of the human population that is probably worth their existance here, who actually seek out higher purposes and actually contain some bit of WISDOM that so flourished centuries before. Why do you think communism fails? Because unwise greedy morons run the systems.

Shallow idiots running around proud of their Vodafones and pretty boots and skirts and BMWs, and when asked a philosophical question they take it literally and make it out as if YOU are the idiot.

So here's the big question? What on Earth is the cure? I mean, lately I've had bitter-sweet dreams of humankind being almost extinct, yet the aftermath was the greatest piece of existance you can imagine. And you know why? No more dipsh**s. No more sheep, and no more idiots. People were wise and people had respect and people actually strived for spirituality instead of money.

Thank you
*steps off soap box*
~FT

Hey guys.

Complain to me, rant as you wish, but bear in mind that I am pretty ticked off as I am typing this.

I frankly think we should rename the Energy Development forum into the Ki Dipshits forum. What was once a forum for help on the NEW system, help that some people still do need, has now turned into a forum for 12 year old DBZ fans to lie to eachother about their awesome powers. Like perverted men in a lesbian chatroom, these dipshits are just running around pretending to be Gokuh every single damned day, and to be frank, I'm sick of it.

Would somebody just ban these people or just teach them something for ONCE?

~FT

These are my current obstacles on my quest for OBE.

1) Fear. I am scared crapless of doing an OBE at night. I am so afraid of OBE symptoms that I don't even dare doing WILD attempts in fear something will attack me. Don't ask, I'm a bit of an insomniac.

2) Breath Awareness. The exercise is so extensively used throughout Astral Dynamics yet it is near impossible for me to do. Sure it may be that today was my first few good attempts at it, but it's just so hard!

Anybody can help with either or both of these problems would be much appreciated.

~FT

Hey everyone.

I just got back connected to the Internet after downloading that patch for protecting my computer from that new worm that's been going around, and then I decided to post something. It's been a while.

I just wanted to say that all this astral stuff is so hard, that I've actually given up nearly a thousand times. I mean, at one time I was determined that I would spend the three months on NEW Energy Ways, spending a bit of energy development to one single section or chapter of the instructions at a time. This proved to be tedious and laborious, and for someone of my lazy stature, the memory and willpower to do this gradually faded out. Then there's meditation and mind clearing techniques. There is absolutely NO guidance around to be sure you are doing these things right! I mean, I'm sure I can hit alpha state quite easily now, but that was only after experiencing it through a free demonstration of Holosync, which I'm sure a lot of you have heard of (if not, go to www.centerpointe.com).

Why does it have to be so hard? I mean, with everything else e.g. Martial Arts, school, university and work projects, learning to do something new like a language...if you fail and don't know if you're doing something right, there is guidance and help to get you back on track. That's where all of this astral stuff becomes pure fluke that the average everyday person can pull all of it off. It's like walking through a maze with a blindfold on - you don't know which turns are the true path to the goal.

On top of that, it's frustrating. I mean, every time I sit down and I do some NEW and I don't feel anything whatsoever, I begin to get convinced that I'm not doing it right. I mean, everybody else feels these overwhelming sensations that practically knock them off their feet! All I feel is...well..nothing half the time! I know this could be a sign of development, but then why is it so hard for me to do a full-body circuit? I can't feel a damned thing running through my body, and I have to really push it to get the slightest tingly half-second rush going.

Meditation is perhaps worse on the frustration scale. You keep saying to yourself "aahhh..you've stopped thinking" or "okay, just slow down...stop thinking...that's good...oh wait! YOU'RE THINKING YOU MORON!" It's just great! I was supposed to be able to go astral LAST YEAR using the plans on a day-to-day basis from Astral Dynamics. The exercises are just too hard. Everything just keeps getting in the way. It seems that I'll be going through training exercises for the next TEN YEARS before I get anywhere with this mystical stuff - I have absolutely no idea how you people can pull it off. It's just impossible for me - or at least it seems that way.

Help! Why does it have to be so annoyingly hard!? Why can't I DO any of this!?

-FT

Hi. There is a guy who is talking to me telling me all these things that he shouldn't know, and he won't tell me his name. He also tells me that I will die on dec 8, my birthday. I think he could be a stalker at worst case, or just some dumbass who is trying to freak me out.

Anyways, I spent all night last night trying to ward off negs, and I think it could possibly be related to him. Could anybody here add him at expendableyouth243@hotmail.com? Talk to him and see if he's just playing, I'm getting a little paranoid. And if you can, could you sense if he has any metaphysical abilities?

Thanks
-FT

Hi. I recently came apon a spiritual obstacle I guess. I was telling some moron at my school that he was unethical due to his extreme self-centeredness and his attitude that if he thinks it's right, then it is right. But how could that be possible? Then I thought "Hang on, reality is what you make it to be. So, in a way, he IS right, on some levels. But he's still unethical. Wait a minute, what the hell are ethics anyways? Who sets them? Who acknowledges which things are ethical? And why are we ethical?"

Further deeper thinking led me to believe that ethics and morals are those things that make us "good" people. Being self-centered would only cause other people pain because you have no compassion for them, you wouldn't pick them up when they are down because you only care for yourself. So ethics would be those things that make other people feel good? Is having morals those things that make us wise? And then I came back to the starting question - WHAT ARE ETHICS? Morals and ethics exist to respect other people, to put yourself aside for the community as a whole?

Feedback and ideas would be greatly appreciated.

Later
-FT

I don't know about you, but loads of people are now calling me a hippy because of what I believe in. So now I'm ticked and I'm gonna rant. Be sure for all your typical contradictions and holes in my ideas, as usual []

In my personal opinion, hippies are stupid pot-smoking dweebs who took beliefs they didn't understand, got into them, and practically made a mockery of them. I mean, I went to a so called clairvoyant who had obviously been stoned for several hours and looked at me and said "your aura is purple!! YOUR AURA IS PURPLE!!!" but what was really convincing was the fact that she was looking in like, two directions at once with bloodshod eyes and sitting on a feng shui mat with several asian religious paraphanalia(sp?) draped all over her. Yeah. REAAL believable, lady.
And freakin TV "psychics." Half of them are just plain hippies, and the rest are cheapskates who can't act, just looking for money. There are ways you can talk to people to make them think you are psychic. It's called cold fusion people. When you meet someone, you're in the cold state. And as they talk to these people in particular ways the other person practically gives them the answers(they get into the warm to hot states)!!! And those people on TV like Madame Cleo...jeez anybody who goes to phone those rejects are better off gettin high on some shrooms and asking the magical pink hippo that appears in their mirror. And I'll never forget this quote from an ad on TV: "Reaching for the stars is as easy as reaching for the phone." Yeah. Sure.

But yes, there are real psychics. But idiots like hippies and gypsies (Christ, their name suggest there's gotta be a scam - GYPsies???) make mockeries of things like ACTUALLY being psychic and ACTUALLY knowing about the paranormal.

I see stores with chakra charts and I get interested. Five seconds later I see oils and other random "potions" that are meant to "heal my aura." I dunno about you guys but I never knew your aura really needed healing at all. And if it did I'm not sure some home-made cooking oil is really gonna help.

Enough of that.

I'm out
Later
-FT

Ahh, Neon Genesis Evangelion : From a groundbreaking Sci-Fi that combined almost all the genres into one, to a spiritual/mental/religious masterpiece at the end.

I highly recommend this fantastic series to anybody on this forum. The story starts as what you would think as a typical Japanese science fiction, giant robots fighting some sort of alien until the end. But until you have seen it from first to last, picking up on several hidden details, and finally seeing the movie finales, will you appreciate this amazing work of art from Hideaki Anno.

I don't have any reviews or pictures like the post on Spirited Away, but you can do a google search if you're interested, or maybe I'll figure out how to post pictures soon.

N.B: For those who have seen Evangelion, did you ever notice that a lot of the "mind trip" scenes, like in The End of Evangelion were a lot like lucid dreams of some kind? I got reminded of OBE and lucid dreaming when I saw the movie again last weekend.

Later
-FT

Greetings all.

I had an exciting revelation today that could (possibly) save me from procrastination!!

You see, all day today I was getting a headache from all the thoughts I had been having about this and that. You know, the typical internal dialogue, only 10x worse[B)].

So then we had phys. ed where I did some weights. Amazingly the internal dialogue slowed down! And then I went on the punching bag, practicing my (half-butt) martial arts techniques on it. Until it fell lol.

Then straight after that I had a run for sport, then I went back to the school gym and did more weights. Now I still feel really good and my head is clearer than this morning[].

Just thought I'd share it.

Later
-FT

Hi everybody.

Today I was watching a video on faith healers in religious studies (random thought - I dreamt of this last night[B)]) and there was pretty amazing stuff in there. Until the end of the lesson, where I got incredibly peeved off.

The attention of the video turned to one priest. This guy started his healing session by having a religious rant. The rant discriminated against EVERYTHING here on the astral pulse, and more. He said "HOMOSEXUALS will NOT enter the kingdom of Heaven! That includes active homosexuals and inactive homosexuals! Using the back passage for sex is WRONG and is not favoured by God! The Holy Spirit disproves of homosexuality and you must repent against your evil ways!"

He then went on about how martial arts and Yoga were worshipping false Gods and thus people who practised such things were to be damned by God and sent to Hell forever unless they repent. Now say that again? Yes that's right. I practice Yoga to some extent and I know that it doesn't worship any god or gods whatsoever. It is a meditation and chakra development system.

Then he started ranting about witchcrafts such as New Age groups and crystal healers and healing that is not in the name of God such as Reiki. He also ranted about astrology and the horoscope, claiming they worshipped Satan, when in the story of the three wise men evidence points to the fact that the horoscope and astrology were how they found out Jesus was born. Correct me if I'm wrong. Astral projection and lucid dreaming fits nicely into the New Age group, don't you think?

So much for Christians being such great people. After I saw this I was sort of anti-Christian, but tried not to be. Now I'm just sick of fanatics of any religion. Christian fanatics, no offense, would possibly the worst. This guy was an example of one. They go on about how great they are and how humble it is to be Christian when they are constantly telling people how to do things and telling other religions that they are full of s@#* and only they are right. I know other religions do the same thing but honestly I haven't seen a more disgusting display of contradictory and boasting ever in any other religion.

I am not saying that Christians are bad. I am not saying that anybody here is a fanatic, and I'm not saying that fanatics are all lunatics that should be locked up. I'm talking about these bozos who run around trying to control people through religion. Al Qaida's(sp?) terrorist network is another example.

I believe there is a higher power, but I don't believe that the way that so many religions practice worship is wholly right. Sure, there are many MANY good priests etc., but honestly that kind of rant from this guy should NOT be tolerated.

I appologise if I am discriminating against anybody, I just really really hate idiots who run around doing that sort of thing. I mean, according to THOSE guys, I can't even take a dump without bowing down and crying my tears out begging for forgiveness for my horrible sin.

The point of this post? No idea. Thought I'd raise the topic[]. Hey, what can I say - it was on my mind.

Later
-FT

Hi. I just downloaded a few VNV Nation songs and I think they are really good and relaxing. Catchy too []

Does anybody know any of their very good songs or bad songs? Or are they all good?

And a bigger question - are there any other bands out there that make meditation-type music out there?

Thanks
-FT

Wow this was really cool!!

A couple nights ago I was meditating hard out (whooo I finally got that skill down!![]) And suddenly I felt a jolt!! To describe in detail - as you fall asleep (pre-sleep state I guess), if you 'snag' your consciousness back to being awake you feel a jolt as if you were falling and suddenly woke back up.

Well after a few of these jolts I decided to go with the flow, and let the falling feeling continue. Little did I know I was putting myself in a Light-Deep trance!!! Then it happened.

First my crown and brow chakras started to buzz a little, then the throat chakra started to throb. Suddenly I felt as though I had TWO faces, as if the second was pushing away from the first. Then I tried to expand on that and make the other chakras activate and expand the etheric body, but of course this focus on making it happen made it stop [].

Oh well it was an amazing experience and not long afterwards I had my first successful attempt at telekinesis!! This was one of the best days I'd had so far [|)].

The most amazing thing I can find is that I stopped reading Astral Dynamics because of the problems I had with getting into trance and clearing my mind (both of which have become easier now). And suddenly with no idea how to project at all I started to get into the first phases of it!!

Wow that was fun![|)]

Later
-FT

It seems we're having ANOTHER batch of absolute beginners out there with their silly little ki websites e.g. www.ki-teachings.com.

This is about the 50 billionth time I've been through this lecture and it's starting to make me mad!!!

There ARE legit ki websites I KNOW THAT including www.veritasonline.net, but MOST websites you find out there are simply 90% fluffy, made up, incorrectly instructed or just plain...wrong!!! There is no jing blast. Ki blasts don't hurt people. You can't have DBZ fights. There are no power levels. And now to make the point that started me writing this post in the first place - there is a FAT CHANCE you would EVER find ANY video or picture of energy on the ENTIRE FACE OF THE FREAKIN PLANET!!!!!


This is really starting to tinkle me off...when the hell will you idiots just BUZZ OFF or just GROW UP.

Later
-FT

Hey all. Back from a bit of a spell away from the forums hehe sorry[|)]

But now I'm back with a question that really tugs at my attention - What the hell are these FOCUS LEVELS people talk about??? I know there ain't no such thing as power levels and crap like that, but I do know that you can roughly classify certain things into the Focus Levels required for them(at least that's what I think).

Any help on what these focus levels are???

I know Focus 1 is the state you're normally in...any sites with a LIST of focus levels would be greatly appreciated.

Thanks
-FT

Hi.

I'm about to sign up for kyoukushin karate which in our town has a very traditional style of teaching that involves using energy and ki to attack with.

Now I'd like to know which martial arts develop life energy (chi, kai, ki, kiai, etc) the best. Tai Chi is apparantly very good but I don't know if I'm fit enough or whether I have the commitment just yet to take it up, and I don't even know if there is a dojo around here.

Any input would be greatly appreciated.

Later
-FT

Hi.

Could people please post their best website links and maybe even books here? Thanks.

-FT

Hi.

I just got a call from my girlfriend and she was absolutely freaked about a psychic attack she had today. I won't go into detail but she heard a deep man's voice tell her to bang her face on a desk but the more she wouldn't the more a pain under her ears increased. She nearly felt like screaming and crying the pain was so sharp.

I told her to cross running water the next time it happened but she had already tried that and the attack didn't go away. I have no idea how to help her because training for psychic self defense actually takes a long time to do - in my eyes - and you should be readied for a Neg attack well before it happens. This has caught me and her by surprise and I need to help her.

Any ideas?

Also any healing help would be EXTREMELY appreciated. I'd go crazy if this damned Neg ended up killing her.

Later
-FT

Hi. There's a documentary tonight on alien abductions and I'm pretty darn sceptical. I don't really think anything cataclysmic really involves aliens (www.zetatalk.com), and not really anything soon. But the idea of those little bastards scares me nonetheless.

Opinions of aliens here just to start off a discussion [|)]

Later
-FT

P.S.-sorry bout the swearing, but I HATE them! Even though they might not exist[]

Hi.

I was recently having horrible thoughts of people close to me being killed in horrible ways. The worst of all was the fact that a lot of these situations were incredibly possible, like my girlfriend crashing in a glider at her Air Training Course, which she's at right now.

I keep thinking that I mustn't expect bad things to happen because then they will. Is this true? I mean I keep seeing all my relationships with people going up with smoke mainly because someone says something bad about what I apparantly did but I didn't. Spreading lies basically. And whenever I try to fix those relationships it gets destroyed. But I thought, "is this what I really want???" Is it true that that sort of expectation of bad things to happen will just reinforce their chances of happening?

I don't know how to explain it. Maybe we passively program our subconcsious into making those bad things happen, maybe it's some big Karmic whatchamadoohicky (I don't know ANYTHING about Karma, by the way[]). But whatever it is I don't want any of this to happen!

Maybe it's just paranoia? Or is that statement just a way of suppressing my subconscious "wanting" of these bad things to happen?

Later
-FT

Hi.

I just got back into doing practical energy work and I figured out that the only reason I strayed off it to do NEW was because of my lack of FOCUS! I can't focus on ANYTHING! I have about 4 minds at once, 1 or 2 focusing and the rest blabbing on. I can silence textual thoughts EASY but then there's the music and the images. I focus on silencing those and the text comes back! I can't even tell if I'm doing things right anymore...I feel pathetic and useless when it comes to a time when I practice using energy.

Anything that could help on focus would greatly be appreciated!

Thanks
-FT

Can anybody point me in the right direction of how to WILD or just basically become lucid in a dream? Books or website links would be appreciated and maybe some general feedback would as well.

Thanks
-FT

Hi.

I was recently just thinking about things when I realised that a lot of websites and books regard Psi as a phenomena. It's like remote viewing - nobody can really explain it. I find this whole thing called Psionics quite strange. It seems to me like some kind of New Age practice of energy, but then again it's a bit different.

I think that the practice of Psionics also led to that whole web-wide "cult"(for lack of a better word) of people who started teaching ki balls and mana shields and the like.

The question I'm asking here is can anybody put a label on this energy called PSI? Can anybody know what exactly it is? I always thought it was just psychic energies but the people on psipog.net draw energy from other sources such as the sub-navel. I'm just a little confused at the moment.

Any feedback will be appreciated

Later
-FT