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Being called ignorant isn't something to be offended, since all in means is a lack of knowledge or awareness on something particular. : ) We are all ignorant about something. I just wanted to point out the age thing, because I remember often times  hearing adults when I was a child saying things like "I'm suppose to be the one teaching them, but they surprise me every day and I end up learning from them instead" and yeah, they may be old on earth, but that doesn't make their soul age young. Anyway, what I said wasn't directed at you only, it was in general said to everyone watching this topic.

I don't want to sound like I'm trying to argue or anything, so this will be the last thing I say in regards to this topic.

Being that I haven't AP yet, there's not much that I can say, but I am getting a feeling which I will speak on. I feel there is a slight hint of ignorance and with that ignorance denial of it. Now that being said, it's not to insult or to discredit any experiences, but to open your mind up to the possibility you may have interpreted or received the wrong information through them. Yes you had the experience, but did you truly understand what it taught you? Even the oldest of us can learn something simple for the youngest and vise versa. It doesn't matter if you earth age is older, or your soul age is. You are you and not them, you don't know what they have to offer and they don't know what you have to offer, so don't discredit their knowledge and claim to have the right answer, instead take a look at what they say, think on, compare to what you believe. There doesn't always have to be one right answer.

So, I often see people on here say something about coincidences not be a coincidence, or something to that effect. Well I think I get the jest of that when I say "what a coincidence" I would dream about an Academy that has students being tested (for what I don't know) and little orbs following them around giving them tasks to do... Is this what you guys were talking about training and tests? I logged the dream in my dream journal. I mean whatever that dream was that I had, I want to go back and get started on my tests and outsmart that orb!

http://www.astralpulse.com/forums/welcome_to_dreams/ellurys_dream_journal-t44537.0.html

5/26/2014
Testing Orbs

Venturing down a long hallway of a school I came across someone running away from and orb. They were screaming "Get this thing away from me, I don't want to do this." Then there was another person with a orb stuck to them, it kept asking them a question and every time they answered wrong it would expand, until it was as large as the hallway and crushing them. I eventually came to a girl with long black hair, she was crying and also had an orb. I asked her "what does your orb want you to do?" she looked up in tears "I.. It wants.. m. me to be s.. social." I smiled. "Look you already doing it. Don't worry about what to say, just go up to people be like HI! and say random things. It doesn't matter right as long as you're talking?" She smiled back at me and said "Thanks"

I saw a person who didn't have an orb and decided to ask  him what they were for. he answered "The principle started using these to test everyone, some people, what the orbs test them is just too much for them to handle and they vanish from here, others are stuck with the orb harassing them , but if you keep completing the test, eventually you get a break." he paused at me and smiled. "where's your orb" He disappeared and a bag dropped down in front of me. "Oh great" I said and I opened it up and pulled out this inflatable ball. The orb? Along with a scrap of paper with something written on it.

Before I could read the paper, I appeared in a mansion. This man in his sixties came out to greet me. I stared at him and asked. "Where is the real you." He smirked. "Ah! so you can tell this is just a mere illusion? Truth is my real body is in no condition to move, it's hardly even alive. If it weren't for my caretaker nourishing it every day, I would have passed away a long time ago. But alas, Welcome to my home. You can stay here, while you complete your test at the academy.. You've been here before you know?"

I was launched into a replay of my previous visit. "where are you going?" I asked the old man, through beady eyes of a child. He patted me on the head, stay here and don't leave the gate, I have to go to the academy. The caretaker will watch you. I looked over to see a black woman in her 30's. I could tell she and the old man were really close. As, soon as the old man left, I decided I wanted to explore and what did I do I left the gate. A bus for of kids drove by, but stopped to ask me if I was getting on. I said "I'm not old enough yet." then it continued on. I went along the side of the fence to the river that separated the academy and mansion, but when I got there it started to rain. Quickly, I made my way back to the gate. To my surprised it was locked. The bars were too close for me to fit through and there was sharp razor wire placed to where it couldn't be climbed. Determined to get back in, I went around until I found a place where there was no wire. I got to the top and saw the caretaker looking up at me. she yelled panicked. "You can't come down that way, you'll get hurt!" I didn't understand how I could get hurt and kept climbing down on the other side. she scream. "You can't. You can't!" and then just disappeared when I had touched ground.

The old man looked at me, "You didn't listen very well when you were that age, caused a lot of trouble for the caretaker. I hope you enjoy what the academy teaches you." I appeared back where I was at the academy. The paper and bag that I had disappeared, but the orb was still following me around. I knew I had completed that task. While waiting for the orb to give me another task, I ran into two guys. They started talking to me, and soon after another bag appeared. I pulled out some brochure, but had trouble finding what I was suppose to do. One of the guys pointed it out to me and asked. "So what is it asking you to do." I read out loud. "Find David G. and kiss him!... Who's David G... wait Kiss? Hell no!, Give me a different task you stupid orb, I'm not doing that. I have a boyfriend." A giggle came from the orb, a clear sign it was teasing me.

The name began to change on the paper now it read "Find Courtney and kiss her." I thought out loud. "Kiss a girl... I guess that's not so bad." The two guys pointed me in the direction they last saw Courtney and when I found her she laughed at me. "You know that orb is completely messing with you. Every new student has a list of tests they have to complete first, before the orb can give them anything." She flipped my brochure over and pointed to 5 questions."You can do them in any order."


WOW! A dream that brought back the memory of another dream, : D how cool! I kind of want this dream to continue! That orb, I swear, It's going to be fun seeing what else it tries to trick me into doing. It was very playful and teasing. Maybe it's a reflection of a part of my own personality.  XD

Really? That is pretty exciting! : )

I should probably put more thought into why I had it.

I would definitely be willing, but I know I don't have the ability. I mean, I'm in no position to help anyone, but I have a desire to help people. There's just the part of me that .. really does care about people and hurts to see people fight and suffer. When someone is pouring out their feelings to me, I want so badly to be able to do the right thing for them to cheer them up. I don't know why I feel so emotional about this. Everything I've been reading in this thread has just been tugging at my heart... maybe it's because I know I've been the cause of messing up someones life because I couldn't get past my own feelings.

I tried to AP last night with the intention of basically asking for a chance to do something.. I guess what I meant by this was really anything honestly. A part of me like challenges and to be thrown out into the unknown, so I was hoping that I would get some sort of response. After  a while of laying there, I got the biggest urge to itch my face, I swear.. it was the most intense urge ever XD so I ignored it of course, and more itchy places surfaced on my different areas of my face, but I kept ignoring them. I was determined to stay still and keep focused on my intention, needless to say I got tired and went to sleep and had a few neat dreams, but only remembered one and logged it in my dream journal.

Edit: these past 3 or 4 nights I haven't been sleeping well. I keep waking up super early and tossing and turning a lot. Today I kept repeatedly waking up every hour to thirty mins.

As a kid, I used to wish all the time I could redo my life. I always thought that if I had done things differently or acted different that people would have treated me better, but now that I have got to this point, even  with all the problems I may have and how much I have to fight with myself, I know the things that I know because of what I went through, each event in my life has led me here. Of course given the opportunity to redo it all, no way am I going to do it the same, that was hell for me. My biggest fear staring me in the face everyday of my life. That was what was frustrating. Having to be put back in that situation, knowing that if I didn't act perfect, I could easily have be reliving my worse childhood experiences.... I'm still very much affected by what I went through as a kid and still fighting with it... My choices redoing everything could have easily opened up more scars.

I mean I had complete awareness, the only thing that I wasn't aware was the fact that I hadn't been sent back in time and was just asleep. Had I known I was actually sleeping, I'd probably just have done whatever I wanted and never went along with the whole redoing my life scenario.

Wow retrievals are so amazing! It really all seems pretty deep, how you could help someone in that way. Must be very difficult at times, figuring out what to do, I know when your trying to help someone in the physical sometimes it seems impossible to do anything for them. Having the desire to help them, but at the same time getting dragged down with them. I can't imagine how it is in the non-physical.

I was wondering, can people ask to have soul retrievals done on themselves? Or would a person who knows about soul retrievals and know enough to to ask to have one done even need one in the first place?

It was kind of like experiencing the physical. You go through days, weeks, months and each time you look back on your past, all you remember are key points or events that stuck out to you. I did a lot of things that I didn't do before. Like clean my room and do chores without being told, doing all my homework and paying attention in class. I just in general put an effort into all the things that I didn't see any point in doing. I made my life better... My relationship in that life with my step dad was completely different. Even though I was still hurt, because i could remember everything that really happened, I did things that would get the best results and keep things from repeating. I can't remember everything that happened during that dream, but XD I remember going to school, getting to hang out with my friends again. The first time meeting them in that life.. thinking, how did I get them to be friends with me again?...
Just the whole experience was pretty frustrating. I woke up and thought I had to redo my entire life, that was something I really didn't want, I'm finally happy with how nice my life has turned out. So I finally get used to the idea after going through those years again and seeing all the work and effort I put into getting along with my step dad, and work into my school grades. I had finally made it to high school... I had been waiting years to finally get to see my boyfriend again. I was contemplating how I was going to tell him I knew the future.. then I woke up.. I just woke up.. and I was like.. so frustrated... I ended up telling my boyfriend about this and he said. "Knowing me, I would have believed you if you told me you knew the future."

I once had a dream where I woke up 8 years into my past, and had to go through my whole life again. I only made it to about 4 years, before I finally woke up 12 hours later, annoyed as hell about the whole thing and slightly confused.

5/25/2014
Part 1: The Stag

We walked into a cave, two people that seemed like friends and myself. There was a ramp like structure made up of rock that went along the wall and led down to the floor. At the bottom there was a small fountain of what seemed to be lava and a stag standing beside it. The stag stared at me and I stared back, not paying attention to the two people with me. They had went all the way to the fountain, removing rocks beside it, and pulled out some smooth stone talisman with a drawing etched into it. Massive amounts of lava began to poor out of the fountain, quickly filling the cave, while they ran back up the ramp. I watched in horror as the stag just stood there and became engulfed in the lava.  The two people pulled me along as we ran out of the cave. One of them said. "Thanks for distracting it, we got what we needed"

Part 2: The Natives

We brought the talisman to a village of natives, where we were met by the chief. They handed over the talisman to him, and he motioned for another to come over. The natives handed over a box made of gold in the shape of a stalk of corn. I looked at it wondering what it was for, or if anything was inside of it. After we had received the box, a man came up to speak with the chief. I couldn't help but get the feeling something wasn't right, and after listening in on there conversation. I knew I had to stop them. They were asking the natives to help them massacre either some people or creatures.
Two rabbits came up to me, a white and brown one. I could understand them, and they wanted to aid me in stopping the men. The white one said "Please stop the natives from going down this path." I asked the two people who were with me earlier to help, to which they agreed since they had already got the object they wanted.
We followed the men and the natives to a bus that they were loading up on, but they saw us and confronted us. We tried to fight them off and in the process the white rabbit was severely injured. As we were dragged onto the bus I help the brown rabbit in my arms and watch as they slung the white rabbit around carelessly. The bus roared to life as we headed down the road. The brown rabbit spoke to me. "We have to stop them here or it'll be to late." I looked at my friends and nodded my head to let them know we should do something.
I made an attempt to get to the leader and held his collar of his shirt in my hands and stared into his eyes. The bus began to swerve and swerve until it flipped on its side and everyone was tossed about. I yelled out "You can't do this! This isn't who you are...Killing like this, You have always respected nature up until this point, and now the guardian of that talisman is dead.. and this white rabbit, don't let his death be in vain. They don't want you to loose yourselves!" The chief and his people got up and crawled out of the bus and left back to their village and the other men disappeared.


This was a very interesting dream, I feel so said for the stag and the rabbit, especially the stag though. I didn't realize in the dream I was holding his gaze and keeping him from protecting the talisman... it's my fault he died.

Wow, my dreams are getting longer just with the tiny bit of attention I've been giving to them. I actually dreamed more than this, but I'll have to see if it comes back to me.

I've been in a blackness similar to that. (I say similar, because I don't know anything really about it.) I was actually laying next to someone close to me in the physical when it happened. It was a really strange experience. It was like the only thing that existed was my awareness of the blackness. I did't think, feel or anything while I was there, I  was just aware I was there. Then waking back up in the physical was really weird. First thoughts that began to surface where "where was I, what was that?" Then I would settle back down and go back to what I had been doing before it ended up there and just go right back to that blackness. I've tried to repeat that experience, I'm not sure why I want to, but it was kind of nice having a some experience that I can't really understand.

I actually haven't been sleeping well these past couple of days. I've been waking up tossing and turning really bad, and really early in the morning for me, I usually get up and then go back to sleep after taking care of business (if you know what I mean). Well this time I had a really bad dream the first time I woke up.

5/23/2014
First Dream: Failure
The room was dark, and I was there with my mom. We were presumably at my aunts house or a house that reflects or need for help because of our financial issues. I turn and spoke to my mom. "I didn't get that job I applied for" and she looked at me and asked "Why not?!" I knew exactly why I didn't get the job... it was mine, all I had to do was call them a couple of days after I had finished the rest of the paperwork, but.... I was still afraid of a lot of things. I finally said "I didn't call back in time."
My mom deceased husband appeared in the room. I could tell he was angry and he started to yell at me. "You f**King screwed up this time. You think you're cute and can sit around on your a** while you have to depend on someone else to put a roof over your head. All your doing is using people, it's disgusting." He started to move towards me, and grabbed me by my hair, with a fist lifted in the hair. I screamed out "NO!" and started trembling. "Don't you f**king dare! You can't hurt me any more! Don't touch me!" He stared at me, shocked that I had spoken out so strongly for once in my life and back away. He was ranting and yelling, but still backing away, while I was crying and shaking really bad.

Second Dream: I Don't Care, I love you!
"I love you!" My boyfriend said as he picked me up from that house. It was as though he was rescuing me from a really bad situation. He hugged me tightly and I felt safe and secure. He started talking to me. "Were going to hang out with those people again... There's this pretty cool place were going to."  We got in his truck and sort of just appeared at the place he was talking about. After entering the building K, greeted us and asked us to follow him, "I already have a room." he said. When we entered the room M, T and some one else was already. A person that I hadn't met yet, but had seen. T started talking. "Come over here guys and sit in a circle." she point to the cards on the grounds. "These cards have numbers on them, were going to mix them up and each of us will grab." she looked in my direction and smiled. "If you grab the same card as another person, something cools going to happen."
We each drew a card from the middle of the pile and the next thing I know everything goes black. I opened my eye after a few seconds of blackness and see myself peering at me from across the circle. I look down at my arms, and saw my skin was a dark mocha color instead of its usual pale white. "Did we switch bodies, OMG this is sooo cool!" I shouted out. With a big smile on my face I asked. "How did this happen?" T answered. "It's a spell on the cards, its only temporary." We all laugh and goofed off, switching bodies before leaving the building.
As we left that building, we entered a cafeteria setting. My boyfriend was adsorbed in a conversation with, while I was talking to K. After the whole body switching ordeal, it seemed every was really connecting. K made a comment about me and him switching bodies and said. "How do you think, Micah feels about that." grinning in a joking way. To which I replied. "I hardly even like guys, he doesn't care." his eyebrows rose. "Oh really? Does he know?" I laughed and turned. "Micah" I called. He looked up from his conversation clearly not paying attention and kissed me and said "I don't care", before going back to talking. Looking back at K I smiled. "See?"

I wrote a Poem a while ago. It was partly inspired by a game and partly inspired by a story that I either heard or made up when I was a kid. It's about the moon and the sea falling in love, but never being able to reach each other.

Moon and Sea
Cosmic blankets descend upon Mother Earth.
Veiling her in indigo and deep blues.
Tiny souls speckle the velvet drapes
Giving rise to a luminous and glorious luster.

At the peak of the soil bellows out a howl.
An eerie chill of breath sweeps past.
Excitement stirs and ripples the still mirror
Swaying to the beck and call of devotion.

Falcate light draws and then pushes away.
Grainy shelves are pulled into the depths
Pleasure lines the two in a gravitational pull
Antagonizing each rhythm with lust.

Thus does inclination sway to draw near
Cursed the flames doomed to stay apart
Ever so bright and far into omission.
Contained by the limits of ones atmosphere.

5/22/2014
Walled City

There was a tower built out of stone and I kept staring at it, because it looked so familiar. Then it dawned on me, it looked exactly like the Effile tower. I realized that I was looking at a drawing of it, and not the actual tower, and beside the drawing of the tower was a building. It had a tall narrow roof and height indicators were marked beside it. This house stood at half the height of the tower. I lowered the paper and looked up to see the tower peaking up from giant stone walls. There were places for people to stand on the walls. Archers? Ever so often  a banner was placed, two different ones, alternating. Their length almost the same as the walls. One banner was red and yellow and the other was blue and yellow. The thought "Russia and England" crossed my mind.

This dream comes with an attempted drawing of it~

http://i838.photobucket.com/albums/zz308/Ellury/Art/001_zps9466a2f2.jpg

I have a hand written journal now that I'm putting different things in, poetry, memories, dreams, drawings from dreams, etc. : )

How might you describe the meaning of this dream, what was it telling you? Any symbolism involved?

After considering the possibilities, how might you describe this other than a dream? What other label might you give it?

Water and Moons are big themes in my dream. I have always loved the two since I was child. Water to me equals being calm and at peace. When I stare at the moon, I feel like it has a hypnotizing effect, like you want to keep watching and bask in its glow. Being outside at night has always given me an eerie feeling, but it's a feeling i enjoy. None of this is really symbolic to me, It's literally how I feel in those conditions.

If I were to describe as anything other than a dream, it be more like going on a vacation somewhere with friends, except for the fact I didn't recognize any of the people.

5/20/2014
Surfer Pilot

The sky is a deep midnight blue filled with clusters of stars, while the moon sits nestled among them large and luminous, but not full. I grabbed a surfboard  and started to swim out to catch  the waves with the others who were surfing. While sitting on the surfboard, someone floated up beside me and asked me if I would be a co-pilot to the plane they owned. Since I knew absolutely nothing about planes, I told them that I didn't know the first thing to flying one. They simply responded "I have a feeling you'll catch on quickly."


This was a pretty calm and relaxing dream with the feeling of friends having fun together.

I just remembered something from my childhood. A question I had asked my mom when I was a kid. I was very curious, always asking why something worked or what if such and such happened. Which I generally got the response "OH My GOD, stop asking sooo many questions!" or my family would whine in agony. Well one time I was feeling particularly confused and having a hard time grasping something so I asked "Momma, why do I see through the eyes and not someone else's?" it was the best way I could ask what I was feeling. You see at the time, for a brief moment, I felt like the body I was in wasn't my real body and that I was actually somewhere else....

: P Strange how this memory chose to resurface now.

Well, based on how most people on this forum describe it, they say it's more of a switch o consciousness. For me, it literally feels as if two bodies are separating.

I've seen lost of people describe it like that and other describe it as the lather. I tried going at it from both perspectives, but I don't know yet what it'll be for me.

I'm always physically aware of my body while APing. Doesn't affect me at all, except I feel the separation of my bodies differently than most people do.

How do you feel differently? I mean what's the differenece?


Ok, so last night experience, I was having a hard time keeping my eyes shut. They just kept opening by themselves except I couldn't really see anything, just a super blurred light from the fire alarm on one side and a super blurred light from the window on the other. I was trying to do that "Noticing" exercise. I kept closing my eyes back, the only reasons i knew they were open were because of the lights, but they would sneak back open. After like an 30 mins or so of laying there I stopped putting so much effort into it and started feeling cold chills through out my body... kind of like vibrations.. but super cold.  These lasted for 10 mins before I rolled over to try something else, which just ended up putting me to sleep and almost forgetting everything.

I know I tried to AP last night and I know that I decided to go to sleep, but I can't remember anything that actually happened while I was trying... I did end up dreaming about surfing during the night with the moon and star filled sky and being ask by one of the surf buddies to be a copilot to a plane. I remember telling the person, that I had no idea how to fly a plane and they just said. "I have a filling you'll catch on quickly"

I became consciously aware of the mild Sleep Paralysis state I was in. But this time I stopped it cold. I was terrified. I then sat at the corner of my bed for about 20 minutes and was too scared to go back to sleep.

I was shocked to return to this Forum and see this new thread here because my experience was still so fresh in my mind. Talk about coincidence, lol. Which by the way is something I don't believe in.

Wow, this is pretty awesome.. not the being terrified part, but having similar experiences. I wish I had some idea of what left me like that. It's weird... you can experience something in the NP but not remember anything? Do you ever recover those memories?